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queer-with-existential-fear · 3 years ago

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Tea With The Todorokis:

A Todokami/Dabihawks story

Suggested by @camys1984

‘I have a todokami hc that's like, shouto and touya have sibling bonding time talking bout the energetic blonds they like, while neither the league or 1A knows.’

A/N: Sorry for taking so long with this request! I’ve been pretty busy the past couple weeks. Feel free to make more requests on this post, or go back to the original one!

Warnings: Cursing

It was cold. Even with half of his body feeling like it was practically on fire (which it was), Shoto still somehow felt cold. It made sense why, it was the end of November and it had been raining for the past couple days. Not cold enough for snow, but not warm enough for sun. Well...it was nighttime at the moment, but you get the picture. Now, you might be wondering what the hell Shoto was doing walking down the streets of Musutafu at eight ‘o clock at night, by himself, in the cold. The flickering light that came from the few streetlights was the only thing illuminating Shotos path, the streets empty as most people were waiting out the cruddy weather in their own homes. Probably everybody except for Todoroki.

To get to the main point, Shoto didn’t even want to be out here in the first place. The only reason he was out here is mainly because it would help him clear his mind, he had a lot of thoughts streaming in and out of his head...some of them more intrusive then others. You see, a certain electric blonde had managed to be occupying all the space in his brain. Yup, that electric blonde being the one and only Denki Kaminari. Shoto hadn’t even realized how it happened, hadn’t even taken notice of the times when he was staring long-fully across the classroom or the dorms at Denki. Brushed off the times when he found his mind drifting to thoughts of the bubbly, loud giggle of the human pikachu look-a-like. He had pushed his actual feelings down so much, that when he finally realized they might be a little less platonic then he originally thought, his brain just froze. Along with his entire right side.

Once he was aware of how he really felt for his extroverted and outspoken classmate, he didn’t know how to act around Kaminari anymore. It’s not like he was super close with the boy, at least he didn’t think so..? Denki usually just teased him the same amount he teased everybody else. Except for his friends that were dubbed the ‘Bakusquad’. That got Shoto thinking even harder about the subject. Was Kaminari...romantically involved with anyone? Kirishima? Sero? Hell, even Bakugo would make more sense than him getting with Shoto of all people. A dark feeling started boiling up from deep inside of Todoroki. He didn’t realize what it was at first, but then recognized it as the feeling of jealousy. It wasn’t something Shoto felt a lot, and it definitely wasn’t something he wanted to feel all the time. It made him feel...bad. Not that he hasn’t ever felt bad before. He definitely has. But, this was a different kind of bad. Jealousy was a different kind of bad...

“Something on your mind, little brother?” A deep, gravelly voice grumbled out from behind one of the nearby Japanese Maple trees. Oh. Right. There was another reason he had ventured out of the dorms this late at night. And that reason had been because of his hot-headed older brother. Touya Todoroki. Or as most of the world knew him, Dabi. To make a long story short, Touya had faked his death, lied to the entire family and had the world believing he was deceased. Going by the alias Dabi, and ‘becoming a villain’, although he knew better. The whole world believed it except for a chosen few who knew the truth. Those being Shoto, obviously, and the number two hero, Hawks. The only reason Hawks knows is because him and Shoto’s brother had gotten rather...close recently. Touya hasn’t clarified if they were romantic with each other, but it was clear that they were involved. Todoroki didn’t really feel the needy to ask about it, and really didn’t want to hear his own flesh and blood talk about how...intimate him and Hawks got. Shoto had learned enough about Touya to know that he wouldn’t hesitate in going into extreme detail about those sorts of things...

“You’ve been quiet for a while, so I’m gonna take that as a yes.” He drawled sarcastically. Pushing himself off of the tree from his position where he had been leaning against it. He shuffled up next to the heterochromic-colored eyed boy, bumping Shoto’s arm with his. The younger brother knew he had flinched, it was still weird to think that the guy who had literally kidnapped one of his best friends only a few months ago, had secretly been his brother and wasn’t even a villain technically. More like a vigilante if anything. Todoroki wasn’t gonna sugarcoat it, he knew him and his brother needed to discuss a lot more than the shit they had briefly touched on before. Shoto definitely had mixed feelings about his brother right now, but he couldn’t touch on them at the moment. Since Touya has decided teasing Shoto was his new favorite past time.

“Or...perhaps a someone-?”

“Oh shut it.” Todoroki immediately shut down Touyas jab at him. Which made the black haired males eyes gleam curiously and mischievously. A grin spreading across his face, which caused his scar to stretch in a way that made my skin crawl. Although I couldn’t really say much either.

“Oh-ho-ho, you definitely are. So, who is it? Midoriya? Bakugo? Maybe Yaoyorozu-?”

“Shut. Up.” Shoto hissed. Elbowing his older brother in the ribs. He had to admit, this was...nice. Most of Shotos family didn’t really know how to take jokes, to be fair neither did Shoto, but Touya was different. Fuyumi always treated him as a fragile little boy who would break if she said the wrong thing to him. Natsuo was hardly ever home, and the conversations they had on the phone were more like, ‘so how has school been? How’s the weather there? Etc, etc.’ they couldn’t do any joking with each other. Dad was...well, dad. And mom and him still hadn’t really gotten to that level of familiarity quite yet. Touya was the only one who he could talk to like this...the only one who would understand. Even if he wasn’t a hero, hell, he could hardly even be considered good...Shoto understood Touya. And Touya could understand him without either of them having to exchange words. So maybe...maybe he would understand this feeling that Shoto has been feeling more recently. He has experience right? With Hawks?

...It was better than asking dad.

“Touya..?” Shoto started, shoving his hands in his pockets as the two started walking side by side once again. Their shoes scraping against the concrete roughly as the two of them were dragging their feet, probably both needing to talk about something. Todoroki could physically feel his brother bristle up a bit at the usage of his real name. Being called by his fake name this entire time, it made sense why.

“What.” He responded dully. Almost as if he was bored of this conversation already. Shoto briefly wondered again if this was a bad idea. If his brother was going to be a dick about this...was it really worth it? “Spit it out, Shoto.” Touya piped up again, snapping his younger brother out of his thoughts. Shoto hesitated for another moment or so before taking a deep breath, and beginning to spill his thoughts.

“Is it normal...to feel attracted to someone you hardly know..?” Shoto asked softly, his voice barely a whisper. He didn’t like how his brother was quiet for more than a minute, it definitely didn’t calm the growing pit in his stomach. If he really had feelings for Kaminari, and Touya didn’t have anything to offer him, he was gonna be completely lost on how to make a move.

“Yeah. Attraction is totally normal. If the person looks good especially. This doesn’t seem like that though...this seems more involved. You’re romantically interested in someone it seems like...you have feelings for em.” Touya explained with a small grin on his face, staring ahead at the road in front of them. Shoto was surprised his brother had actually given him a decent word of advice. As he thought about what he had said for a bit longer, Shoto realized Touya was right. His feelings for Denki hadn’t been just a little, ‘oh he looks good’, he was attracted to the electric blondes personality. Some saw it as annoying, Shoto found it endearing. Some found Denkis constant flirting a nuisance, while Shoto wished the other male would flirt with him instead of everybody else. Huh.

Oh fuck...he had feelings for Denki fucking Kaminari...

“...Ah, okay...” Shoto awkwardly mumbled in response to his brother giving him a questioning look. He had probably been silent for too long again...he should change the subject, quick, quick. “So, I’m assuming you’ve experienced this before..?” Shoto asked quietly. Yes, he had an idea of who it was that his brother was involved with, but he just wanted to make sure he had it right and wasn’t thinking about things too much. Flashbacks of when he accused Midoriya of being All Mights secret love child flashed through his brain...which in his defense kind of made sense, but still.

“Well yeah, no shit. You think I would tell the number two hero who I actually was if I wasn’t involved with them in some way?” Touya snapped back sarcastically. The older male crossing his arms, which let Shoto get a better view of the rest of the burns and scars that were occupying Touyas arms. Snapping his gaze back forward, he thought about what his brother had just revealed. He knew there was a pretty good chance Touya had been romantically connected with the hero, but hearing it come straight from the others mouth was a whole different thing. “...He’s honestly my lifeline, Sho. I don’t know what I would’ve done if I hadn’t met him when I did...the League isn’t exactly a friendly environment to sit down and talk about how you miss your family and don’t really wanna be doing that kind of shit anymore just for kicks...” Touya continued. And Shoto listened intently. Happy that him and his brother were finally discussing something. It seemed like that was all Touya had the guts to share though, since he stopped talking soon after that. Shoto was also silent for a few moments, before finally speaking up again.

“Well, Hawks is a good person to be around. He annoys the hell out of dad as well, that’s a plus.” The half and half male attempted to joke. Only earning a slight chuckle from his older brother, before the two fell back into their awkward silence. God, this felt so weird...at the same time though, it felt familiar. Like they were just normal siblings talking about their crushes to each other. Shoto knew that Touya only focused on most of the ‘stronger’ people in his class. Bakugo, Midoriya, Tokoyami, etc...so he may not know who Kaminari was...it was fine to drop at least a couple hints...right? “...The guy I like is really loud, can be considered annoying, but he’s really sweet. And determined. He thinks he’s weak and is always striving to get better, but he’s already gotten so strong. It’s amazing how much potential he has, he just needs to realize that.” Shoto ranted. Running his hand through his multicolored hair. He couldn’t read the look on Touyas face from this angle, but he could definitely make out the slight upturn in his lips and the slight huff of laughter that escaped from his brothers mouth.

“Sounds like this guy is pretty great. But, he doesn’t sound like any of the little bitches I’ve met before in your class.” “Don’t call them that. And, that’s because you haven’t met him. And, I swear to god Touya if you go seek him out purposely and do the whole ‘older brother interrogation’ thing I’m never visiting you again.” Shoto growled in a low, warning tone. Touya raised his hands up in a surrendering sort of gesture. Shaking his head in response as he snorted.

“Calm down, I wasn’t planning on it. I’m definitely not risking getting caught right now.” Touya said in response to Shoto getting defensive. To which the younger of the two seemed to relax a bit more, quieting down and focusing his gaze onto the ground. He could practically feel Touyas icy turquoise eyes staring a hole into him, almost as if he was studying him. To which Shoto merely raised his eyebrow in response, giving his older brother a questioning look. That caused Touya to chuckle a bit, and quickly gaze back upon the road instead of at Shoto. “All I’m saying is, you sound really sure about this guy. If you really do feel that way about it, then you should do something about it.” “But-“ “Don’t give me the ‘I don’t know how to talk to people excuse’. If I can get a boyfriend of all people, so can you.” Touya said, and for once in his life, Shoto heard absolutely no hesitation in his voice. He was serious about this. And, as Shoto looked over to see his brother, he was met with Touya staring right back at him, a small smile and a sincere look in his eyes. Only having to receive a small nod from Touya, Shoto felt the corners of his lips quirk upwards.

“Fine, maybe I will.”

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queer-with-existential-fear · 3 years ago

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So, todokami huh? Headcanons?

Now someone’s speaking my language!!

Let this be known I legit started shipping this because I couldn’t stop thinking about how they both canonically lose control of their quirk when they get flustered and it’s just such a funny concept. And now look at me, actually beginning to drown in this ship.

As I said, this started out because they both lose control of their quirks, so just, Kaminari short circuits whenever Todoroki smiles at him for the first time. Todoroki bursts into flames when Kaminari plants a quick kiss on his cheek before running away (because he totally predicted Todo would get flustered and lose control of his quirk)

When they walk to school together in the mornings, Todo holds two eggs in a glass of water and heats it up while Kami holds onto their phones and has their chargers in his mouth. They walk slowly because Kami is lathergic in the mornings so by the time they get to school they have two boiled eggs ready to eat and their phones are significantly more charged

Kaminari, though at the bottom of the class academically, is emotionally intellectual and helps Todoroki with breaking out of his habit of being emotionally reserved. He helps Todo get more in touch with his emotions but also helps Todo learn to read social cues, like when someone is exhibiting signs of being anxious and/or overwhelmed

Along the same lines, Kami teaches Todo how to best help him when his ADHD is making a situation too difficult for Kami to handle alone

Kaminari most definitely teaches Todo how to meme and he doesn’t know what’s funnier: when Todo memes in a completely monotone voice, or when the Dekusquad is so taken back but the fact that he now knows what memes are

They take turns switching between tables at lunch, so sometimes Kami will sit with the Dekusquad and sometimes Todo will sit with the Bakusquad. The first time Todo switched tables Bakugou was about to rip his head off not because he was encroaching on his table of idiots. No, it’s because “if you hurt my idiot I’ll fucking end you.” Todoroki was never intimidated by Bakugou to begin with, but now there’s no way he can be after knowing that Bakugou actually cares about his friends

On the outside, it may seem like they wouldn’t work together, but in reality the entire class knows they’re a cute couple that balance each other out perfectly. Kaminari is energetic and lively and helps Todoroki break out of his shell and learn to have fun, that school isn’t all about training to be the best but also the journey of making friends and connections along the way. Todoroki is more reserved and quiet and helps Kaminari reign in his enthusiasm when he begins losing himself in his excitement and losing focus on what they’ve been assigned for classwork or training exercises

Todoroki somehow manages to learn how to flirt back without Kaminari’s help, and the first time he reciprocates the flirting Kaminari short circuits and causes the entire school to have a power outage. Todoroki thinks it’s absolutely worth it

Can you tell I’ve thought about them a lot lately? They’re just *clenches fist* so cute

[Part 2]

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queer-with-existential-fear · 3 years ago

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My piece for the @todokamizine ❤️

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queer-with-existential-fear · 3 years ago

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snap crackle pop (?)

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queer-with-existential-fear · 4 years ago

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Shouto: *softly but with feeling* …fuck, im gay

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queer-with-existential-fear · 4 years ago

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OKAY I DID IT I FINISHED IT🎉 a little backstory: this is from the au @bucky-stars and I created that we lovingly call Xavier's (because it's kinda like X-Men) BUT this is the time skip after they stay UA. theyre in college and iida and todoroki have a scary run-in with some baddies that make it unsafe for them to stay at their apartments so they move in with midoriya and uraraka. That's this part. (Honestly it could be future canon too it's a pretty generic scene but I wanted to practice comics)

Umm this took me months of working on it off and on and I wasn't gonna color but I did anyway so please enjoy!

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queer-with-existential-fear · 4 years ago

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queer-with-existential-fear · 4 years ago

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Some of my Dekusquad Headcanon:

#requestboxisopen

-Iida is the mom.

-They study/watch the tv in Midoriya’s room

-Since Todoroki was never allowed to watch any program that had to do with All Might (taken away from some rare interview he had seen with his mom when he was a toddler) the dekusquad / todorokiprotectionsquad has repeatedly organized sleepovers to make him recover the most beautiful interviews and famous.

-When Todoroki watches the programs on All Might he usually seems enchanted and so happy and lost in thought that he has never realized that Uraraka spends most of the time taking an embarrassing number of photos.

-Since Uraraka is lower on the Midterms Ranking than the other three often, when they study together, she often feels uncomfortable, but all three adore tutoring her.

-Iida advises her the best books to study.

-Midoriya has more detailed notes than anyone else in the class and always lends her for a comparison.

-Todoroki is super supportive, sometimes they study together with flash cards, but he can’t do much for her because the method of study of Todoroki is absurd.

-Like, he never really study, he read 10 minutes the notes before the exams and in some way he's in the top 5 in the clsss Rank.

-All three, at different times and without warning, have managed at least once as Iida.

-Iida has perfect hair early in the morning, you’ll never see with bedhair

-When Uraraka is down because she misses her parents, all three do their best to cheer her up.

-One day Todoroki, after noticing that she was particularly sad, asked Momo if she could help him, and the next hour him, Iida and Midoriya entered the classroom with t-shirts written “Uraraka’s Boys”

-Midoriya is very jealous of all his action figures and his books on heroes but lets the others play and read it willingly, the important thing is not to ruin anything in his room, OR YOU WILL DIE.

-Todoroki never prepares tea. he can’t stand the whistle of the kettle.

-After the other three found him in the kitchen at night in the grip of a bad panic attack while the kettle continued to whistle no one commented on the incident, Iida and Uraraka never asked for anything, they just turned off the kettle while Midoriya reassured Todoroki and then drove him back to his room

-Now, every time that todoroki says “I prepare a cup of tea” Uraraka or Iida immediately exclaim “I want one too! Don’t worry, I’ll prepare the tea for you too” and run in the kitchen at the speed of light without leaving the time to Todoroki to understand what happened.

-In short, they are the best friends you could meet in your life, they are super supportive, always ready to help you, but they also challenge you to help you grow, if one of them has a problem the others will do everything to help you.

-They are too bright, remember to only look at them with sunglasses or they will blind you.

bonus:

Class A always give Todoroki funny t-shirts. Bakugou instead offers him only T-shirts with memes or teasing Endeavor

Repost ‘cause finally I’ve managed to do gifs, ah <3

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