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On the contrary, that is pretty much exactly what I’ve been working on with my therapist. We went with “show me the body of evidence which indicates this is true.” But I feel like this is basically the same thing, just a bit less formal.

they won't tell you this in therapy but sometimes the best way to stop catastrophizing/anxiety is to interrupt your spiraling with "girl what the hell are you talking about"

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of all the nice press about dropout this ranks among the most meaningful

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Happy Holidays from the Holiday Boar

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"you know you are only supposed to have 1 apprentice maybe 2 not 15." said the wizard council member "well until people stop leaving surprisingly powerful orphans at my doorstep I'll be taking care of my 17 apprentices." The council member snapped their wand "WHERE DID YOU GET 3 MORE!"

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Northern Hemisphere people! Take heart! We have one more day! Just one more day and then the light starts returning.

In the mean time, Princess Leia will share her blankie nest with you but you have to bring the treats.

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you better watch out you better watch out YOU BETTER WATCH OUT

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my dnd party has run into an npc who may or may not be evil and may or may not decide to betray us and the dm was in chat today like “just so everyone knows…not addressing this comment at anyone in particular…his favorite colors are red and black…wink” so now i’m desperately trying to get a real physical friendship bracelet done before session tomorrow in the vain hope that i can somehow stop this npc from trying to do a murder on my party

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When I was a kid I always wanted to have holiday traditions like those I saw others participating in or even the idealized notion of traditions seen in holiday movies—really anything consistent. But my family was very dysfunctional. So it never really materialized.

As a young adult I started spending more time with chosen family and I would always end up a little jealous and sad because the people I would spend time with would have these amazing traditions and I would feel like I was on the outside looking in. It wasn’t that I was being excluded; my friends and their family made space for me to be included. The problem was that I wasn’t able to recognize/trust the space I was being offered because of the dysfunctional understanding I had of family.

In the last decade or so I’ve been working on repairing and replacing my dysfunctional understanding of family. It’s helped me to feel comfortable embracing and trusting the amazing traditions and spaces that my chosen family have and lead to things that I always wanted as a kid like holiday baking days.

It also, finally, occurred to me that I’m an adult. I’m the boss of me. I get to decide what kind of traditions I have and participate in. If I want to start a new tradition I can.

So anyway, literally anything can be a Christmas Tree topper with the application of string.

Find joy where you can.

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every year around christmas me and my grandma play this fun family game called “maybe you want to put jesus in your room instead, sweetie? :)”. now, it’s important to note that the jesus referred to in our game is not actually the real jesus christ, but instead a wooden figure i made in 2011 that has an uncanny resemblance to the lord and savior himself

so what happens is that i place jesus in our living room, and my grandma smiles and asks me if i don’t want to decorate my room with him instead. i ask her in return if she thinks my jesus figure is ugly (which he is), but she reassures me that this is not the case. however, a couple of days later jesus mysteriously disappears from our living room, and appear in my room instead

now, the real jesus christ might have been able to perform a miracle like this, but please remember that the jesus in our story is only a figure made out of wood. he can not move on his own, so i think we can safely say that my grandma is the prime suspect here

the first year i would often confront my grandma about this, but she would always make up an excuse and never straight up tell me she moved him because he’s so ugly it’s an embarrassment to the family

eventually i grew tired of her lies, so now we only move jesus around in silence. one second he’s in the living room, the next he’s back in my room. in a way i think this adds an extra element of excitement to the holiday season, because you never know for sure when jesus is going to be moved again

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cozy capybara

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still amazes me that by season 45 or whatever, Supernatural was being exclusively watched by delusionally hopeful women with flamingo-salinity tolerance for bad writing and the creators still couldn’t pander to them because maybe there was 1 straight guy out there still accidentally watching it

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It is December so lets get festive

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pick your battles. pick… pick fewer battles than that. put some battles back. that’s too many 

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Garfield

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My friend Lucanis is the funniest person I know.