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In a nutshell, for my [ Eden ] blog canon, Lute & Roo [ or the red Evil construct we see in the beginning ] are in a toxic yuri relationship 😌🌸 /jk

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Thinking about her first moments in the garden. The very first thing she saw was Adam’s sleeping form; she didn’t speak, didn’t move to wake him & instead, she knelt beside him & simply watched him breathe. That was her introduction to existence: stillness, devotion, & the instinct to fix her gaze on him...

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Regarding this blog's development, Lute didn't start to masturbate until only after she slept Archangel Michael... & this is a problem for many, many, many reasons...

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FOR MY DEFAULT VERSE, MY PORTRAYAL OF LUTE / EVE DRAWS INSPIRATION FROM SCRIPTURE & FOLKLORE, WITH INTENTIONAL DEVIATIONS. FIRST, LET ME LAY OUT THE FOUNDATION...

IN BIBLICAL CANON ,ㅤTHERE IS ONE EVE — CREATED FROM ADAM’S RIB, BROUGHT TO HIM AS A HELPER & WIFE. SHE IS THE MOTHER OF EVERYONE LIVING, THE ONE WHO ATE FROM THE TREE, & BORE CAIN, ABEL, & SETH. THERE IS NO MENTION OF A LILITH [ AS A PREVIOUS WIFE ]

IN JEWISH FOLKLORE & MIDRASHIC TRADITION ,ㅤTHERE’S A SECOND NARRATIVE: LILITH IS SOMETIMES DESCRIBED AS ADAM’S FIRST WIFE, CREATED FROM THE SAME EARTH AS HE WAS. SHE REFUSED TO SUBMIT, LEFT EDEN, & BECAME A FIGURE OF DEFIANCE & EXILE,

IN GENESIS RABBAH [ BERESHIT RABBAH ] ,ㅤTHERE IS AN UNNAMED WOMAN [ GENERALLY REFERRED TO AS THE 'FIRST EVE' THOUGH, SOME TEXTS CONFLATE THIS INDIVIDUAL WITH LILITH ] MADE FROM FILTH, CLAY, OR BLOOD — A WOMAN ADAM REJECTED BEFORE GOD CREATED THE ‘TRUE’ EVE FROM HIS RIB [ THE SAME ONE FROM THE BIBLE ]

IN MY BLOG'S LORE, I HONOR THE IDEA OF TWO EVES, WHO ARE COUNTED AMONG THE THREE COMPANIONS MADE FOR ADAM; HERE’S HOW IT ALL WORKS IN MY HEAD...

LILITH; THE FIRST COMPANION.ㅤCANON-COMPLIANT WITH BOTH FOLKLORE & HAZBIN; SHE WAS FORMED FROM THE SAME MATERIAL AS ADAM & DEFIED DIVINE ORDER, REFUSING TO SUBMIT,

EVE; THE SECOND COMPANION.ㅤLIKE LILITH, SHE WAS ALSO CREATED FROM DUST [ OR CLAY ], & BECOMES THE ‘TRADITIONAL’ EVE WHO EMBRACED SIN & ALTERED THE COURSE OF HUMANITY,

LUTE; THE THIRD COMPANION.ㅤUNLIKE THE FIRST TWO COMPANIONS, LUTE WAS FORMED FROM BONE & BLOOD, CARRYING THE RESIDUE OF ADAM’S WRATH & RUIN. THE PRIMORDIAL EXORCIST FOR THE EXTERMINATION PROJECT. SHE WAS GIVEN ONLY A SIMULATED EDEN; A TRIAL OF LOYALTY BEFORE HER FIRST BREATH & A TEST OF SIN BEFORE SHE EVER OPENED HER EYES...

THOUGH LUTE IS TECHNICALLY THE SECOND EVE IN MY STRUCTURE, SHE MORE BASED ON THE FIRST EVE OF MIDRASHIC LORE [ THE ONE FORMED FROM CLAY, BLOOD, OR FILTH ] — TO ME, IT MADE MORE SENSE TO MERGE THAT VISCERAL ORIGIN WITH THE BIBLICAL DETAIL OF EVE BEING TAKEN FROM ADAM’S RIB; BONE & BLOOD GO TOGETHER,

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To somewhat add to my previous post: Adam could not keep a secret to save his soul. The Exterminations were supposedly a classified operation, & yet he was ready to throw hands with Charlie in front of the public on Heaven’s promenade, then turned around & spilled the secret in Heaven's court. You're telling me that guy struck a secret deal with his ex-wife [ Lilith ] & not once let it slip, even a little? Not a word to her daughter? Not even a smug jab at Lucifer? He didn’t hint, gloat, or name-drop once?

No. Because that deal wasn’t with him,

I’m willing to bet Adam didn’t even know she was there. The deal wasn’t between Adam & Lilith — it was between Lilith & Heaven, specifically Sera or her superior [ my wishful thinking it was with Lute herself ] … & Lute? She knew of the deal; which is why she tells Lilith "I'm in charge now," I believe part of her function was to manage him; to keep him focused, compliant, faithful— whatever it took to keep the him pointed in the right direction [ & Sera knows this; what does she say to Adam when he's about to go off? "You should listen to your lieutenant, Adam..." ]

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No thoughts... just the image of Lute pinned against the wall by her wrists, someone looming over her, fingers gripping her jaw / the hollows of her cheeks forcing her to face them — her body taut with resistance she can’t quite maintain, golden eyes burning up at them, & that dangerous mix of defiance & surrender simmering in her chest 🥰🥰🙈

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It has been a long while since she has seen a man naked; in Eden, there was nothing shameful in nudity — until the fruit. After that, the body became tangled with guilt, with the memory of sin. For Lute, nakedness is no longer neutral; it is at once more intimate & more traumatic. To look upon another without clothes, or to allow herself to be seen that way, is not casual; it’s a gesture heavy with meaning, a trust few ever earn. If Lute ever shows you her nude form, that's the ultimate form of trust,

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dark starter sentences

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angst starters: jealousy (for more angsty prompts, click here!) change pronouns where necessary! 

❝ you’re not telling me something. ❞

❝ i wish you looked at me like you look at her. ❞

❝ i’ve never seen you smile like that before. ❞

❝ you deserve better. ❞

❝ i deserve better. ❞

❝ we both deserve better. ❞

❝ he makes you happier than i do. i know. i can feel it. ❞

❝ are you even listening to me? ❞

❝ why didn’t you pick me? ❞

❝ you get so jealous! ❞

❝ i’m not as jealous as i am insecure. ❞

❝ i try so hard. and i’m never the one. ❞

❝ i would’ve loved you forever. ❞

❝ i need you to need me back. ❞

❝ you don’t love me. admit it. ❞

❝ you have two options here: me. or him. ❞

❝ it’s not you. it’s me. ❞

❝ it’s not me. it’s you. ❞

❝ i don’t like the way you were talking to her. ❞

❝ i draw a line. and you just crossed it. ❞

❝ i’m done. i’m not gonna keep trying to prove myself worthy. i shouldn’t have to. ❞

❝ what about what i want? ❞

❝ what about what you want? ❞

❝ i feel like you don’t even see me when she’s around. ❞

❝ he doesn’t want you, he just wants your body! ❞

❝ i’m sure he’s great. but i’m the one who really loves you. ❞

❝ i’m the one who’s always there for you, and it’s like you don’t even care. ❞

❝ if you want to be with me, then just… be with me. ❞

❝ are we going to discuss the elephant in the room? ❞

❝ you said his name in bed last night. ❞

❝ you were talking about him in your sleep. ❞

❝ they’re just jealous of what we have. ❞

❝ you’ve gotta stop comparing yourself to her. ❞

❝ i’m happy for you. really. ❞

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After eating the fruit, Eve begged out apologies immediately, choking on them through her sobs when they were cast out, repeating them as they grew older. But those words weren’t earned, not yet in her mind; forgiveness was something she would have to deserve first, something that could only be won back through years of service & penance. She was working up to it, preparing for the one apology that might make things right...

Once or twice, as Lute, the word slipped out in casual contexts; over a misplaced report, or when she failed to deliver a briefing on time. The moment the syllables left her mouth, the truth pressed hot behind them; time slowed & her chest clenched like it remembered. The apology that wasn’t about the paperwork burned on her tongue, aching to follow, but she swallowed it down. She couldn’t risk it. To say sorry for that would mean confessing everything; it would mean giving herself away,

Then Adam died, & so did the chance to say it properly…

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Lute had always wanted to tell Adam she was sorry; it burned on her tongue, lodged in her throat, a fire she carried in her chest every time she stood near him. The apology lived in her like a second pulse; steady, constant, unspoken, but she could never say it aloud. To confess would be to give herself away, to reveal more than she was allowed to, to open the wound she was built to keep hidden. & now, with Adam dead, that chance is gone forever. The words she carried all her life, the ones she thought might one day redeem her, or at least lighten the burden, are sealed in her like a tomb. What remains is only the weight: the apology unspoken, the debt unpaid, the fire that burns with no outlet,

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From the very beginning, the show has been quietly planting seeds of tension between Charlie & Lute. It’s subtle, easy to miss if you’re not looking for it, but in my opinion, the real source of Lute’s ire [ especially in the aftermath of Adam’s death ] won’t be Vaggie or Niffty; it’s Charlie. Here’s why: Jessica hints at this dynamic in a brief TikTok clip alongside Erika Henningsen. No direct spoilers are given; they reenact from the exchange between Lute & Charlie from the first episode:

“But these are souls...Human souls just the same as the ones you have up in heaven,” / “They are not the same. They had their chance & they earned damnation.”

“You're wrong. Sinners made mistakes, sure, but everyone makes mistakes.” / “Angels don’t make mistakes.” / “You really think that?” / “I know that.”

“The only reason you're still here is because Daddy gave you & your hellborn kind a pardon from an Exorcist's blade. How does that feel? To know how little you matter?”

That isn’t mere cruelty; it’s personal. Lute’s worldview is beginning to unravel; the belief that Heaven is infallible, that damnation is earned & irreversible. Lute needs to believe that the line between Heaven & Hell is absolute; that the guilty are damned & the righteous are preserved. Charlie’s insistence that sinners can be redeemed, exposes the possibility that her entire purpose is flawed [ whether she’s Eve & messed up or whether she was made specifically for the Exterminations ]. That line [ “The only reason you're still here…” ] is about control; about reminding Charlie, & more importantly herself, that authority still exists, that punishment is just. She actually confirms this when she talks to Lilith: “Your brat is threatening the very foundation of Heaven,” She truly believes this is what defines Heaven; punishing the wicked, versus forgiveness & redemption. If redemption is possible — if sinners can change, grow, return, then Heaven itself may be wrong; that they misjudged sinners, misread souls, misunderstood Adam… misunderstood her,

This isn't about Vaggie [ who Lute has ill feelings towards for apparent reasons we have yet to see ], or Lucifer [ who gave Eve the apple & doomed humanity ] or even Niffty [ who was literally the one who killed Adam ] — it's about Charlie being the embodiment of everything Lute was taught to reject; hope, mercy, change; that damnation doesn’t have to be permanent,

Assuming, for just a moment, that Lute is Eve [ the same Eve who took the fruit & doomed humanity, as Jessica Vosk has hinted ] & she’s been trying to undo that mistake ever since, then it’s very possible she was told that redemption was never truly an option. If Heaven goes along with Charlie’s ideas, they’d be rewriting the rules after she already paid the price for breaking them; it’s a declaration that her loyalty was never valued, that her punishment was never necessary, that no matter how loyal or righteous she became, she would never be clean & neither would Adam, & that their failure was final. Charlie’s belief rewrites the terms of her punishment. It implies there was another path; one Lute was never offered, & if that’s true, then all the suffering, all the blood, all the obedience, Adam’s death

— it was all for nothing,

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I want to clarify something [ I’m sure I’ve spoken on it before, but I can’t be bothered to dig through my older posts right now, ] Yes; Lute was made from Adam, perhaps to be his charge, his partner-in-arms, or whatever Heaven intended; however, that connection alone isn’t the true core of what drives her. The single most consistent thread in every verse [ whether she is Adam’s rib, Michael’s bone, whether she lived through Eden or was only shown its simulation ] is guilt. Her entire existence is structured around the guilt of committing sin [ perhaps this could also be read as Adam's own guilt, given that Lute is literally all of his 'bad' made manifest, but that's a meta for another day, ]

That guilt eclipses every other motivator; her relentless devotion, her willingness to overextend herself until there is nothing left, her refusal to turn away from Adam no matter how much damage it causes; all of it is an attempt to make amends. The goal has always been to make up for what she did to Adam specifically, whether that’s eating the fruit, disobeying, failing, or simply being the part of him that carried his rot. She doesn’t just serve Heaven; she tries to pay back a debt she believes is hers alone to shoulder. Of course she’s overdoing it; she turns guilt into doctrine, treating self-sacrifice like liturgy, obedience like penance. It’s important to draw a line here: it isn’t that she thinks she deserves cruelty or that she reads Adam’s treatment as such; she doesn’t [ Lute doesn’t think so & to be honest, I don’t either ]

She doesn’t believe Adam owes her anything at all; in her eyes, he gave everything he could back in Eden, & the debt now is hers. That’s why she shoulders so much, why she insists on giving past the point of reason; her mission is to make up for what she did, to Adam specifically, by taking care of him where she once failed. Her loyalty is not blind [ not completely ] but indebted, her devotion not about subjugation, but recompense. It’s also why she bristles so much at Charlie’s plans, why the concept of redeeming sinners strikes her as foolishness; Lute caused all of this — the sin, the rot, the endless cycle. The idea that sinners could be redeemed feels to her like a mockery of the debt she has chosen [ & made ] to pay,

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Alex Brightman on who Adam loves: I think Adam has love for no one... except for himself & the man in the mirror... & maybe Lute ( I'll be answering every question like I'm running for office. Just no notes out of me, ) — Of course he loves himself! He's the first man, you know what I mean?

Adam’s love is [ what seems to be, in my opinion ] inward, circular, & self-contained. His first & greatest devotion is to himself; the one caveat he gives [ “maybe Lute” ] is interesting, however. His love to her is likely conditional, performative, or tied to how she reflects him back at himself, [ his authority, his narrative & his legacy. ] His capacity for love seems to be fundamentally broken, & if he does extend it at all, it’s only as an extension of his narcissism,

His constant philandering leads me to believe one of two things: he is either straight up lying about how many women he sleeps with [ if he even sleeps with anyone at all ] or his capacity to connect with others is broken due to the same narcissistic loop that governs the rest of him. To Adam, perhaps intimacy isn’t about connection; it’s about validation; bodies are proof of conquest, not communion. He can collect them, boast about them, even weaponize them, but none of it translates into a genuine bond,

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This clip from Alex Brightman (VA for Adam)’s live is actually killing me like WHAT does this mean… im scared like you can’t just pull this shit on me

I have such high hopes for guitarspear in s2 but now I am so damn confused mixed signals are actually everywhere. Like with Lute’s VA (Jessica Vosk) being so open abt shipping them too + Vivz liking a whole bunch of guitarspear stuff and even one of the storyboarders shipping it and then Alex Brightman just is so lost LMAO LIKE UH?