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∞ RED DEAD REDEMPTION 2

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Nudity Roleplay Scenarios

Send one of the symbols for a scenario involving your muse and my muse and I will write my muse’s reaction!

♨ For your muse to come across my muse naked in a hot spring ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

🌊 For your muse to come across my muse skinny dipping in a lake ( “+reverse” to reverse muses) 

🧺 For your muse to come across my muse changing clothes ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

🛁 For your muse to come across my muse in the bath ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

🚿 For your muse to come across my muse in the shower ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

🏃🏻‍♂️ For your muse to come across my muse streaking ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

😆 For your muse to come across my muse after they lost all their clothes due to a prank ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

💲 For your muse to come across my muse after losing their clothes in a betting game ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

😏 For your muse to come across my muse naked because they are a nudist ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

🛌🏻 For your muse to come across my muse naked because they sleep naked ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

👙 For your muse to come across my muse naked after a bathing suit mishap ( “+reverse” to reverse muses)

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“You need to speak up more often.”

"About what exactly? The madness that seems to have Dutch?" Arthur shook his head and threw his hands up in frustration, "You're talkin' to the wrong fella. Stopped listenin' to me years ago. Jus' an old workhorse now. Micah is his new favorite."

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“Aren’t you happy?” / breakin the rules tee hee

The question mad Arthur pause. No one has really asked him that. At least not in a good long while. Hosea checked in on him sure, but...

"No. Haven' been for a while, in truth."

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“I only have two kinds of dreams: the bad and the terrible.”

"Heh," Arthur nodded his head, "Don' I know it. I do not think I have had a good dream in a very long time."

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Questions/Comments to be sent anonymously!

“Is there someone you hold dear?”

“Don’t you feel any guilt?”

“You’re actually afraid to be alone, aren’t you?”

“There must be something you fear.”

“Do you have a home?”

“Is there someone you like?”

“Are you really expecting a positive outcome out of this?”

“Aren’t you ashamed?”

“Aren’t you happy?”

“Who do you despise?” 

“How do you sleep at night?”

“What do you think of kindness?”

“What do you think of hatred?”

“Why do you fight?”

“Why do you live?”

“How much blood have you spilled?”

“How much death have you seen?”

“Don’t you think your actions are reckless?”

“Don’t you know how much good you’ve done for others?”

“Can’t you tell they love you?”

“Can’t you see he/she would die for you?”

“Can’t you tell the truth for once?”

“You’re not tainted.”

“You’re not alone.”

“You’re awful.”

“You don’t think of anyone but yourself.”

“You’re an emotionless robot.”

“You’re just a lap dog.”

“It’s not over.”

“He/she needs you.”

“Stop lying.”

“Stop fighting.”

“Stop pushing others away.”

“You’re cruel.”

“You’re far too kind. Too kind for your own good.”

“You depend on him/her too often.”

“You’re overprotective, it’s stifling.”

“He/she is bringing you down.”

“You’re too timid, it’s easy to see you as a target.”

“You need to listen.”

“You need to speak up more often.”

“You’re weak.”

“You’re too proud.”

“You won’t always be around to save him/her.”

“One day, he/she won’t need you anymore.”

“You can’t cheat death.”

“You can’t hide forever.”

“They’ll find out the truth eventually.”

“That person is only holding you back.”

“They’re too good for you.”

“You’ll be rewarded for your efforts if you keep trying.”

“It will get better.”

“You look lonely.”

“You look bitter.”

“You look tired.”

“You’re hiding a painful burden.”

“You’re perfect.”

“You’re beautiful.”

“You will always be worthless.”

“Your hands are too dirty, too tainted to be clean.”

“You’re lost in this world. Wandering without a purpose.”

“You’ll rise above them all.” 

“You’ll find your place in this world.”

“Eventually, someone will knock you off your pedestal.”

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taken from the comic book series written by neil gaiman

“the price of wisdom is above rubies.”

“when do the nightmares slip out into the daylight?”

“it was a dark and stormy nightmare.”

“I left a monarch. yet I return alone…hungry.”

“never trust a [insert word here]. he has a hundred motives for anything he does - 99 of them, at least, malevolent.”

“I would have dreamed of you…if I could dream.”

“the real problem with stories: if you keep them going long enough, they always end in death.”

“little ghost, get out of my way.”

“I’ve learned from my mistakes, but I’ve had more time to commit more mistakes.”

“I suppose there are worse endings.”

“it is a fool’s prerogative to utter truths no one else will speak.”

“I only have two kinds of dreams: the bad and the terrible.”

“the price of getting what you want is getting what you once wanted.”

“it’s part of growing up, I suppose. you always have to leave something behind you.”

“nobody looks up in the sky anymore.”

“everybody has a secret world inside of them.”

“it is sometimes a mistake to climb, it is always a mistake never even to make the attempt.”

“sometimes you wake up. sometimes the fall kills you. and sometimes, when you fall, you fly.”

“without dreams, there could be no despair.”

“it is unwise to summon what you cannot dismiss.”

“never trust the storyteller. only trust the story.”

“destiny is blind.”

“remember how hard it was for me to leave, and that it was not your fault.”

“life, like time, is a journey through darkness.”

“I like the stars. It’s the illusion of permanence, I think. I can pretend that lives last longer than moments.”

“when something ends, there’s always something left over. a story, or a vision, or a hope.”

“I don’t recommend revenge. it tends to have repercussions.”

“honesty is a somewhat overrated virtue.”

“I suppose the point you grow up is the point you let the dreams go.”

“the things we do make echoes.”

“all journeys leave marks on us.”

“have you ever been in love? horrible, isn’t it? it makes you so vulnerable.”

“when there’s no hope, you might as well be dead.”

“they will haunt your sleep until you die.”

“everything changes, and nothing is truly lost.”

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Update for my blogs. I'm still here, they are not abandoned. I know I put low activity but, once again I like to stress while this is a hobby, it's a hobby one doesn't enjoy alone, so I am just letting you all know what's going on with me being gone.

As many of you know my health since the start of the year has been in constant limbo and it's been a fight, and my clinical depression hit a new low. I don't talk about it much, as I never want to trigger someone battling their own demons, but I didn't even know how bad it was until recently when I was finally able to start seeing a doctor I could afford.

My ADHD has also spiraled into a nasty burnout and I'm just kind of on autopilot. I still love you all, and I promise I'm not ignoring you who have me on Discord. I just have such low spoons I don't think I have more.

But! I am starting new meds, I am back on Zoloft, which in the past worked really well with me. I am also on a non-stim med for my ADHD and once my BP (My bp is still sitting at like 180/110 and that's it going down) meds are figured out and working, I will be on a stim med for my ADHD as well.

I will continue to be a little active here and there, or more active when my body allows. But I am hopeful once all my meds are working and figured out things will be much better.

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// The increasing urge for BG 3 verse, because I have brain rot and just love BG 3 and RDR 2 so much!

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Me starting to feel better after my heart and the meningitis, however, my body cannot let this stand.

So naturally I've spent the last two days coughing my ass off, and feeling like I'm going to choke of gunk stuck in my throat and I think I might as well move a sleeping bag into the bathroom.

My body with transitions into new seasons is brutal.

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I've been waffling over if this is really a headcanon because it's honestly more me explaining why I have a verse that I do, which is silly, after all, my blog my verses, but nonetheless, here we are!

So I was watching this video on Bonnie and Clyde, and it was a good watch as it didn't romanticize them or their gang, and it really showcased something I try to explain to people when it comes to Red Dead and where it ventures off into Hollywood: A lot of criminals, like now, often avoided death penalties by plea deals, a lot of their gang avoided life in prison or the chair because they entered in plea deals. Now most never got to enjoy this because they went right back to fucking around and finding out, but they had a legit chance.

And these people killed cops, much like Arthur had been accused of, and yes realistically killed a few (not as many as the game implies, but that's a whole other post, lol), so it isn't outside of the realm if Arthur did make an offer, not even promising Dutch, but other bigger issue gangs for the government as a whole and not one rich dude, they would listen.

Also, it wasn't overly rare to have a wanted man turn bounty hunter or even lawman. Wyatt Earp was technically a wanted man when he became a lawman. It was a shit job, with shit pay and you had to be it all, the investigative team, the clean-up crew, all of it. And always on call. So finding someone who knew how to fire a gun, could get shit done? Fuck it, give him a chance, better than nothing.

Because I have the timeline veering off in chapter 3. I for sure see Arthur going to the actual law, not the Pinkertons, who were starting to lose favor then as well (don't quote me not sure on that), and offers Colm's head and his gun to pay his debt. A US marshal is going to jump on that.

So, Arthur isn't happy, but the idea is doing this will give him more leverage to help more get out safely. Because he's loyal to what matters: his family and their safety.

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❝ ain’t you a sorry sight? ❞

Arthur laughed, he was always ugly, but life had been rough since the gang fell apart and he found himself being a government lapdog. He hated it, made him feel sick most days, but these guys weren't the Pinkertons so it was a small blessing...very small.

And since he was basically not a person to them, with the bounty he had and the amount of blood on his hands, they had him running ragged with work.

"Ain' I always? Glad you doin' better. Least you look it. I hope you are." he voice softened at the end.

The former outlaw always felt bad for how they met her. Terrible business and at the time he was too worried about the gang starving and freezing to death, but now? He can't help but wonder all the lives he ruined in a similar way.

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arthur singing

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LORD HURON & sentence starters

❝  they say love is like ghosts.  ❞   ❝  i know that i’m damned.  ❞   ❝  all the dead seem to know where i am.  ❞ ❝  i’m going away for a long time.  ❞  ❝  die if i must, let my bones turn to dust.  ❞     ❝  they come rising up into the night.  ❞   ❝  all your temples will lie in ruin once i ravage through them.  ❞   ❝  you were mighty.  ❞   ❝  all your rivals would not go near you, but i do not fear you.  ❞   ❝  but i bow no longer.  ❞   ❝  i sleep with one eye open.  ❞   ❝  but i’m not afraid to fight.  ❞   ❝  i can’t trust anyone or anything these days.  ❞   ❝  i’ve decided, even if it kills me i’ll find out what you’re about.  ❞   ❝  you are not the one you say you are. ❞   ❝  show your face.  ❞   ❝  i can’t escape the feel that you’ll meet me in the night.  ❞   ❝  i know what you want, and why.  ❞   ❝  few have seen it, but everybody talks.  ❞   ❝  spirits follow everywhere i go.  ❞   ❝  they sing all day and they haunt me in the night.  ❞ ❝  what ain’t living can never really die.  ❞     ❝  you don’t want me, please don’t lie.  ❞   ❝  if you’re leaving, i gotta know why.  ❞   ❝  do you see no ghosts in me at all?  ❞   ❝  there ain’t language for the things i feel.  ❞   ❝  i don’t feel it ‘til it hurts sometimes.  ❞   ❝  i want ours to be an endless song.  ❞       ❝  darkness brings evil things.  ❞   ❝  you can run, but you cannot escape.  ❞   ❝  i don’t know how to right the wrongs i’ve done.  ❞   ❝  i don’t know how to fight what i can’t see.  ❞   ❝  i’ve got to clear my name.  ❞   ❝  i look into those eyes and see the endless night staring back.  ❞   ❝  i’ve done things that have no name.  ❞    ❝  i’m a goner i guess.  ❞    ❝  now the darkness has a hold on me.  ❞   ❝  the truth is stranger than my own worst dreams.  ❞   ❝  i have seen what the darkness does.  ❞   ❝  say goodbye to who i was.  ❞   ❝  follow me into the endless night.  ❞   ❝  don’t look back; those days are gone.  ❞   ❝  i can bring your fears to light.  ❞   ❝  i am ready to follow you, even though i don’t know where.  ❞   ❝  it feels like i have been away for an era, but nothing has changed.  ❞   ❝  i don’t want to be the only one living when all of my friends are gone.  ❞   ❝  'good for nothing’ is the name they’ll remember me by.  ❞   ❝  i turned my back on the world.  ❞   ❝  i’m just living to die.  ❞ ❝  i’d given up on living until i met you.  ❞ ❝  i feel alive when i’m with you.  ❞      ❝  i wasn’t always like this.  ❞    ❝  years have gone by, but the pain is the same.  ❞   ❝  you’re the purest soul i’ve ever known.  ❞   ❝  death is a wall, but it can’t be the end.  ❞   ❝  i did it all for you.  ❞  

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