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Never think of Calling the Crisis Line

I hate when I always feel I need to talk. I don’t know I can’t help myself When I see people I just want to talk get information. Because a lot times I feel Like I’m missing out. If I’m Not working with a group of people. And not having a group of people to surround me to give me support and love its kind of depressing. I’m here cause I’m trying to regain custody of my children since I lost my privileges when I called the “crisis” hotline. My respect went through the window. You always find the big girls holding a job and its like why is that? cause they’re light skinned cause damn well if i applied would they have offered me a job? 

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there’s something about books

in my heart that screams  “YEAAAAAAH”! Yep-pee!

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People smoke after sex

Cause they feel they put in a lot of energy to a certain person that they really don’t deserve. But they need a nut so now they need to smoke.

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I come from working an overnight

As I arrive to my mother’s home to see my children. I sit in car as a mental run down of how the day will begin and end.  I call this time. MYSPACE lol

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Now you can find me on SoSpoilt!

https://sospoilt.com/sexyblaqueen

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Working 3 jobs

honestly it feels like you’re slowing dying

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Be Brave

Easy to say, not easy to do. Fear creeps up on us like a snake. Every time, I feel fearless,  something always comes around and i feel extra tired and overwhelmed with what I really want to do in my life. Questions of how i can get started and stick with it. 

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You know what I can’t stand!

W People who never lived a day of struggle in their lives. They don’t know what it’s like to go hungry. Don’t know what its like to sleep in your car cause you’re scared to be abused. Don’t know what its like to not have money to cover the rent cause you have car problems. Its not like people are giving away new cars that work.

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What options do you really have?

As a mom, you can’t trust anyone with your babies, but you need time to grow and develop maturely. But with two wanting your attention and father not around. What do you do? Looking for an online gig, YES! but what really works, and fast! 

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Why haven’t they built a better system for single mothers

If you want assistance, you must show proof. what?!  my words ain’t good enough? I have two kids and  i’m with in mind manipulative freak, that ain’t good enough. I want to go to school to be a nurse, but what about my kids. They need a clean place to live and eat. While i study.

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why is it so hard for women to leave

Because he pays the bills and you take care of the children, and so there’s no way out. How come its so hard to find a safe place, a clean and quiet place to bring your children and yourself without going through the DTA system. Of showing BS proof that you’re struggling. Words should be enough

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I prefer to work 3 jobs

then coming home to my inconsiderate husband. Loud, annoying man

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I prefer to watch children

then having sex with my husband

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Life Lesson

Never believe or trust in man who isn’t the father of your children. Seriously, he does not care enough like you would as a mom. You put your kids in danger leaving your kids with someone else. They care, I’m sure, but they are thinking, “what am i getting out of this? Me, when i watch other people’s children, I think about peace, a hot shower and a bed. As long as I’m not being abused,  I can watch children all day! Seriously.

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If i could do it again.

Sorry but its the truth. If I could do it again, I wish I never loaded up a dating app and started talking to desperate men. Worst decision I ever made was broke my own promise. I promised myself, I would only use this app to flirt, not actually meet someone then actually hook up. Bad decision, now I’m suffering the consequences. If you know in your heart its bad to be there, leave!

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I like Tumblr, to me its just a good starting point for me to vent. I vent in my notebooks all day. its not getting me no where. Except a room full of journal entries about my painful life. lol

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Why do so many naïve women only think about how much he’s bringing in. At the end of the day, he’s not going to give you, what HE makes. Some, like 10%, but that’s all youll be getting. #dontbefooled 

If you ain’t working or aint trying to better yourself. GOOD LUCK