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Time to hibernate FOREVER (forgot to do my biology lab but we ball)

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How could I compare that conniving fox to my deer

But I see how sharp your antlers are

And I see how soft her fur was

And maybe it was never as easy as predator and prey

And maybe I'd be top of the food chain

Every dog came from a wolf

How could I call her fangs sharp while my bite force exceeds hers

We eat from the same prey

"The dog that weeps after it kills is no better than the dog that doesn't. My guilt will not purify me"

I stalk my prey until it weakens and I feast on my meal with no remorse

Kisses from a dog quickly turn to bites

I'll consume you and you'll expect it

The deer knows to be afraid of the wolf

The dog is no exception.

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The loyalty of a dog

She stays curled up beside you even when you're mad

Why were you mad?

The dog doesn't know.

But she knows the warmth of your hand scratching her head

So she'll stay.

Chaska gets so excited to see them

I let her love without jealously

I'd be a hypocrite otherwise.

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The fox and the deer

I see them in my neighborhood

The fox not as often

She's gone now

They think you're a coyote because your fur is stained with the blood I made you spill

No one knows the truth now

Not even you

Not even me

I see deer often, of course

They're everywhere

Skittish and paranoid

The buck is less common but he comes and goes

Do I blind you with these headlights?

Dear

they run because they're afraid

but I always stop to stare

i don't know how to show them I mean no harm

maybe I do

I'll drive off before you learn what I mean

But I'll always stop and stare

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The blood on my hands can be mistaken for yours if I hold you tight enough.

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How long can I run on empty before I sputter and crash?

Not long enough apparently.

I used to be better at this

The naps helped, I suppose.

I need to sleep forever and I will never get enough

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WHY CAN I FEEL MY HIP BONES MORE THAN NORMAL???? am I just crazy how have I never noticed it

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I need to clone myself so I can finally love someone who hates me the right way

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Weekly yap sesh with a trained mental health professional would fix me

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we've rotted

I still smile

but the light in your eyes has gone

ALL of your eyes actually

this is about pumpkins

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"stop being late 🙄 stop being late!! Ooo you're always late you should stop >_<"

I'M NOT TRYING TO BE!?!!!!

I was ready 30 minutes ago

I got up at 7:40

GOD LITERALLY DOESN'T WANT ME EARLY IDK

curse my insides

It's always one thing or another

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Y'all ain't ready for the absolute bangers I just wrote hunched over my toilet waiting to throw up while also having no wifi and 12% battery

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Eres tan fácil de amar

Tú sabes cómo es

Amarte es como respirar

Pensé que te perdería una vez

Aprecio el tiempo que he pasado contigo desde entonces

No estaría vivo sin ti

Cuando tú amas lo siento

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"It was so easy to be clean."

No it wasn't. You just gave it another name.

It never stops.

Who I am?

The brain fogged puppy? Never wavering? Happy reliable and stupid. I'm not her. I try so damn hard.

I've made mistakes they can never know

I think things and do things and feel no guilt

Is that me? I think so hard. I know so much. It's horrible.

There's a date set in my notebook

Part of me wishes I'd not give up this time

I'm so tired

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Once we were at my house, and I needed to look something up.

You let me borrow your phone and I caught a glimpse of your search history.

"Eres tan fácil de amar"

It made me smile

It was about you, you know?

You bring me so much comfort.

Just knowing you exist.

It's something selfish, egotistical, narcissistic

But you remind me of myself

The things I hate in me are beautiful in you

They're my favorite things

My hate isn't justifiable this way

You keep me here

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sex but in a "if you initiate it I will get the ick and if i initiate it I'll be bored so let's never have it but also if you don't show any interest in me I'll think you hate me" way

I ACCIDENTALLY HIT THE POST BUTTON AND TUMBLR DOESN'T LET YOU ARCHIVE THINGS BUT I DON'T WANNA DELETE IT BUT

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she's so happy and so obedient

a delight to be around

soft ears and belly and tail

she always rolls over for you

she wags and jumps up to greet you

if she bites put her in the cage

ignore her

shame her

Bad dog

Stupid dog

but she knows so many tricks

and she frolics in the woods

content in herself

she knows she's a good dog

even though she bites

even though she barks

good dog.