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Something I wish I could experience.... i hate myself so much because i can't have this.... I'm just not worth it to anyone.

Reasons Why I’m A Puppy

Either bursting with energy or napping–no in between

Something smells like you? *rubs all over it*

Whatever you’re eating, I want some. Yes, I know I have my own food

*strange noise* !!!!!!!! WHaT wAs tHAt??!?!?!??! 

Happiest when in a lap or having hair pet

Really likes learning new things and doing them well

Tilts head in response to anything confusing

Complains by whining incoherently

SPOILED

Social, hates being left alone 

Loves collars, harnesses and leashes! That means walk/play time!

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Lonely pup

The pup sees all...

This pup is all alone

Friends are far.

Love is even farther

All alone on the couch with no cuddles...

No treats for behaving

No comfort when I'm in pain or sick...

Just a lonely pup wishing to cuddle and be with someone.

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Would you still want me?

As short as my experience has been as a pup a lot has happened. I've been abused as a Boi. And yet I still try to fit in with the group.

"You're too fat to be a Boi!"

"You're too fat to be a pup!"

Constant rejection. Has scarred me more ways then I can count. Part of my reason why 8 dont look for a boyfriend is a good option of this. I'm at an event an and there's a thing that is is part of it. Where if you dont have a handler they can adopt a pup for the event. And now I cant escape my swirling thoughts of past rejection. And I want to go but at the same time I cant help but feel as though I'll he like that one pup that is always sees others getting chosen and I'm alone in the box. UNWANTED and not cute enough for adoption. I really want to go but the fear of rejection is strong. But at the same time if I dont I feel like I'm defeating myself.

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How does one....

How does one have a Master. To completely submit body, heart, and soul into this one person. When someone has been on their own for years. And hurt as much as one can imagine...

To know that one is willing to release everything into this. That is what I dream of. Finding that one person who will he there for me. I'm not happy with my life. Where I'm at in my life. My heart is solid stone. I've almost given up in my life in both love and kink.... I guess some people aren't meant to find that one person..

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The nerves and anticipation...

So it is that time of year again where I go to events. I work the events. This event coming up is CLAW (Cleveland Leather Annual Weekend) I am excited, nervous, and also a little depressed about it.

NERVOUS:

This is an event that I had a blast with last year. To be honest I dont remember how I found it but I did. This time last year I was living in Rockford, IL. and I was excited to get out of town and start a mini adventure of exploring the Pup side of me. I learned a lot. Didn't really get to play as much as I had hoped but all in all i had fun. I'm nervous because again i will be going alone with very few people i know. Some people I know and a lot I dont.

EXCITED:

I'm excited because I am not rushing into things haphazardly. I have a schedule I know where I'll be at the entire time. I will get to see the Puppy Coffee Service crew. Those that I miss a lot and wish I was closer to.

Now the dark one...

A LITTLE DEPRESSED:

This is a little bit of a mix. Some really good friends I met there last year won't be making it this year due to a family circumstance. And all the while they were there for me. And they cant this year. It brings a small tear to my eye. Then there's the fact that again I will be a collar-less Pup and alone.

So many things run through your mind outside of the essentials and it is starting to get to me

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#InterviewReady

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Coloring

Nothing like lightening your hair to get your worries to fade

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Facts about boys you may not know

-Chubby boys are so cute, it’s like hugging a teddy bear!

-Skinny boys are also cute!! Hug them too!! Don’t miss a chance

-Muscular boys are great, big spoon them every once in a while!! Make them feel protected

-Mentally ill boys, please take care of them! Be understanding, love them very much!

-Trans boys, they go througth a lot! Get a cup of tea with them and talk!

-Short boys! Kiss their noses before they grow taller (If they don’t grow anymore, more nose kisses!)

-Tall boys! Play with their hair as you hug them! Maybe it’ll be your last chance

-Boys have all the feelings girls have, don’t forget!

-Bisexual boys deserve having a girlfriend and his identity not being errased!

-POC boys are magical

-Cishet white boys are algo magical

-The only not magical boys are assholes. Don’t be a an asshole, be magical.

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First vid

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My first harness

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My first time with a plug tail

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Amateur night at McCunes in Toledo. I want to do more of this....

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My first night dancing at McCunes in Toledo. Wish I could stay but im moving to Iowa...

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First night

I'm stripping for the first time

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First night

I'm stripping for the first time