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hardest pill i swallowed was realizing i didn’t mean shit to people that meant a lot to me.

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I don’t have the energy to pretend

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i hate eating in front of people, especially if theyre not eating

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idk why, but i really feel like i need a break from being alive.

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One thing about me is I am not doing so well

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Wake up look at body , uses restroom checks body, after a meal checks body , walks by any mirror and checks body

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idk if it’s just me but when i stop eating, my overthinking goes away (somewhat).

not about food, but about life. i haven’t been stressing about whether people like me, or whether i’m saying the right thing all the time because i don’t have the energy.

it’s actually so nice…

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tw

i enjoy the comfort being sick brings me.

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Do you ever go “ wow ok” and shut down entirely

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I'm literally toxic to everyone around me and sometimes I feel like it would be a kindness to take myself out of everybody's lives. All I do is spread negative energy and annoy everyone, I literally hate myself so much

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God someone needs to beat the shit out of me until I get it into my dumb little head that I NEED TO STOP EATING

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ew I just did a basic human function, eating so I live

gross

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reblog if ur a disgusting piece of shit

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researching things on eating disorders. to distract myself from eating. because of my eating disorder.