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“It’s amazing what you can hide just by putting on a smile” - Demi Lovato

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Watch: Kristen Bell opens up about the mental health double standard and how she manages her own struggle.

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“It’s hard to trust someone, especially when the ones you trusted the most were the ones that betrayed you.”

— (via love-diaries)

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first snow at the cabin.

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When you've been wounded one too many times and grow to make magic out of you wounds, only you can decide who gets to experience you. Healing is ugly and scary. The fruits of your healing are not for everybody to bite into. You don't owe anybody a thing. You can pick and choose who has access to your weird little world ❤

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I’m at the point in my life where I need you to be straight up honest and back up every word you say with actions. If you miss me, tell me. If you wanna see me, show up or ask me to come over. If you’re upset with me or something in general, tell me. I’ve done the whole playing games, chasing hearts around that never belonged to me. I’m done doing it. If you want me, I’m here, where I’ve been. Say what you mean and mean what you say.

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“You’ll never know how damaged a person is until you try to love them.”

— Unknown

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“The more I hear about you

The more I wonder why.

Why was I in love with you?

You never liked a single thing

That made me who I am.

I tried to be what you were looking for

But in that quest I lost myself.

I hated myself for months

Trying to get you to see something in me.

Problem was you saw me

And hated everything,

Yet you still continued to use me.

Looking back now,

I knew from the beginning.

I just wanted to feel wanted

And you were good at lying.”

-K.N.B.

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A great Bible verse to get this day started!

REJOICE AND THANK GOD FOR THIS BLESSED DAY.

Psalm 118:24 https://www.instagram.com/p/BzvGDcyno4y/?igshid=lzjqu173hhgx

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Sometimes it hurts but it’s true

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i miss us

Us, but what actually was us,

Other than a broken heart,

And a heartless soul.

A sense of jubilation, yet only for an instant,

A lasting feeling of remorse amongst us,

Without even a hope of being whole.

Faraway dreams of a world non-existent,

Stuck in the time zones that didn’t help,

For we didn’t know what even was the goal.

- DG

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And here I am still trying to forget the syllables of your name but it seems I am doomed for failure though it seems such a simple thing. The plethora of days that fade into nights where the memories of us are all that is on my mind. I try to shove you into the farthest places where my mind can’t reach but from obscurity, thoughts of you, seem detemined to flee. Every day is a struggle. Every day I say to myself I won’t miss you anymore, you dont deserve all this pain, all this love. Futile for a person like me is a word that drives me crazy. I feel betrayed by my own heart and backstabbed by my mind. I try to keep busy. Not a moment free. Drive myself into the ground ,exhausted, until your ghost flees but I had never understood that phrase….how an instant can last an eternity….now I can see.

e.v.e. (Forgetting you)