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sona...ruru. doodle in an hour waw. i want to do nothing at all. lately ive felt like throwing away all of my electronics and running into the forest never to be seen again.

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twirling my hair

so i bought the sims 2 legacy collection on steam and promptly made my oc's to watch them like a creep

some highlights so far in addition to the screencaps:

kaisei got a job as a golf caddy and was fired on his 2nd day for not knowing which golf club to tell a snobby rich guy to use

he then asked yoai to hang out and she very rudely rejected him

THEN he tried to grill hot dogs and almost set the apartment on fire

ciro almost died trying to fix a computer

more riveting adventures in stalking my oc's in a computer game to come

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“Fyp” we don’t do that here. I mean, Tumblr the app and website tries, but we don't do that here.

“But then how will anyone see it?” peer review.

“How do you get engagement?” by talking and engaging with other people. Or making a devastating typo. Either way.

“But—” Listen, you’re not doing solo stand up anymore. This is a group improv class being held in a SAW dungeon. Good luck.

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yoai is the type of woman that will show up with a totally different outfit most days, different make up style and hair style. she definitely rocks extensions once in a while too.

however, she always gravitates back to a girly, mcbling-y hot girl from a 2000's dramedy movie

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i never wrote this down, i thought i hadfdesgdfhfthgj

there's two particular guys (besides yakumo) that i thought of from kaisei's past relationships

im always so wishy washy on names unless it feels like some holy divination that comes to me or someone suggests a name and i'm like "yeah i'll take it"

one of them is named d'avon and the other is god i cant remember what i settled on but i think it was kim woo jeok? is that even a possible name, idk

its not but kim woo seok is (also a famous person but idk him)

d'avon was a very sweet guy, he and kaisei got along really well and he was probably the closest to a long-lasting relationship that kaisei had before ciro. the reason they broke up was that kaisei was starting to get a lot more popular and by extension busier, but also more bothered by people in general. d'avon was a very "keep to himself" kind of guy, and while he loved kaisei, he didn't like all the extra attention (there were probably people who claimed to be fans of kaisei ragging on him having a boyfriend)

which side tangent, there's definitely still people who are like "what do you mean kaisei has a bf??? who is ciro, we hate him, kaisei is for US"

but they usually get drowned out by people who are fans of ciro's and are just Normal about them. kaisei has also learned to ignore a lot of the negative comments like that, it used to be difficult for him when he was with d'avon.

like i don't think about this often, but like, kaisei really used to just be Some Guy before he was picked up silve's modeling agency. he didn't have aspirations to become a model or famous, he is just a personable guy with a pretty face, and people liked that. he got started with little streams online, but that probably wouldn't have taken off the way it did if he didn't also get the modeling deal with silve. he had some people who watched him play video games or chat with friends, but it was a pretty lowkey thing (like 25-50 viewers average).

after he started modeling and his face began to pop up in other places, people got curious about who he was. after finding out he was just a pretty normal guy with a fun personality, people just gravitated towards him and decided to be fans.

(I cant believe it deleted all my stuff about d'avon dsgfthfgj)

Anyways, kaisei probably met d'avon at a bar or something, and they got along bonding over video games, and they do play together often after getting each other's handles. After some time, they probably decide to date because why not, they both are into guys and get along really well. They are a really cute couple, it's kind of a shame they didn't work out...

I think the dealbreaker for d'avon is that one of kaisei's "fans" finds out about him and takes things too far - showing up at his job and harrassing him. The fan gets in trouble, but d'avon is pretty upset about it and even though they really like each other, kaisei doesn't want d'avon to feel unsafe being with him. He wants him to be happy, and not worry about things like that happening again.

D'avon's appearance is a darker complexion (not as dark as wren's, but in that same realm), and he has medium length braids that he sometimes ties back with a hairtie. I can see him wearing glasses, but idk. He's a little taller than kaisei, and dresses pretty casual. As far as his 'thing' (like oni, animal spirit, yuurei, kappa, etc), i haven't quite figured that out yet. I know he works at some kind of hardware or mechanic store. He has calloused hands and is a hard worker, and i think that makes him attactive to kaisei too. He likes the rough hands-

Damn now i feel worse that things didn't work out, but also i love ciro so much, sorry d'avon. You are a good guy, and I hope you find happiness.

Okay so now the other guy, kim woo seok.

This guy fucking sucks lmao. He is a fellow model that kaisei meets through one of his gigs. I think this might actually be Kaisei's last relationship before meeting ciro and having that whole thing going on, which as it goes, kind of sets up why kaisei is so sensitive to the misconception that ciro is dating a girl 💀

So this guy, I also don't know what his deal is, but appearance wise, he is a lot taller than kaisei (for context, kaisei is 5'6, d'avon is 5'8, and woo seok is like, 6'0 ir 6'1. Much taller than him). Unfortunately, this guy uses that as a power thing over kaisei. He is very attractive, shaggy black hair with bleached ends, dark gray eyes, and a killer smile. He is also a lot more popular than kaisei when they meet, so he is a bit star struck by this hot guy that shows interest in him. He also ends up using this as a power thing over kaisei, like he knows the poor thing is into him and wants to be recognized by a (seemingly) nice and pretty man, and he uses that to his advantage.

At first, woo seok is pretty forward with the whole "you're cute, i'm into you, we should date" thing, and kaisei gets swept up by it. He seems pretty normal, they go on dates and such, but kaisei often feels like its on woo seok's terms (we can only go out these days, don't contact me at these times, i'm very busy etc etc), but kaisei tries not to think about it too hard. He must be really busy after all, he's more sought after for modeling gigs, and hell, maybe he has other stuff going on - maybe he's an artist, or a singer, or something else and kaisei is just grateful to be able to spend any time with such an impressive person.

The other thing when I say woo seok uses his status and physical prowess over kaisei is like, he kinda. Forces kaisei into some of his kinks. Like he enjoys seeing others beneath him in a way, and persuades kaisei to dress up very femininely when they hang out and do things he probably...doesn't actually want to do (like bondage and stuff like that - kaisei is not into that stuff, and had some bad experiences previously with yakumo about it, but....he wants woo seok to like him, so he agrees to do things even though he's uncomfortable with it. Kaisei's people pleaser coming out in full force for this piece of shit smh).

Like tbh, he's pretty gross. And this isn't even the worst of what he's done. He dates kaisei for a while, like 2-3 months, but then on woo seok's birthday kaisei decides to surprise him with a visit (and birthday presents), even though he told him not to that day. Kaisei visits him pretty late, figuring whatever woo seok was busy with, he must be done by now, right? And why wouldn't he want to see his boyfriend on his birthday?

He shows up at woo seok's apartment, he has the presents, a little sweet treat that he knows is his favorite, and knowing kaisei and his desire to please, probably some kind of cute lingerie underneath because of course he would. He is all excited when he rings the doorbell, thinking he's going to be a nice surprise for his boyfriend, and then.

Just. Some girl opens the door. The same girl he's seen in a photo frame on woo seok's nightstand. The girl kaisei had asked about and was told not to worry, it's just his sister. Or did he say cousin?

Either way, this girl was standing in the doorway, probably naked underneath the blanket. And in that moment, all the pieces that kaisei had been trying so hard to ignore fell into place right in front of his eyes, and when he saw woo seok come around from behind, it was one of the rare moments kaisei just falls apart. It takes everything in him not to throw the things in his hands to the ground, and he can't even come up with something to say. He is almost in tears, but he manages out a "i fucking trusted you", before turning around and leaving.

Honestly, he fights the urge to throw out the gifts, but he spent a good amount of money on the stuff, and even in anger he refuses to waste things.

He might actually end up donating the gifts later and sharing the food with his roommate after she comes to pick him up somewhere because he was too upset and just like, sat by the side of the road crying somewhere.

He obviously cuts woo seok off, and if it had just been the cheating, kaisei would have been pissed, but have let it go as one hell of a failed relationship. For example, look at yakumo (who his situation is different, but still).

It was the cheating, it was the sneaking and lying and degrading veiled as playful flirting, and it was the gross overstepping of boundaries that makes kaisei talk to silve about him. Woo seok doesn't work for silve, but im sure he knows who his angency or even manager is, and kaisei fucking lays it all out because he does not want anyone else to be used and fucked over in the way he was. There was no prior friendship, there was no sympathy for a shitty upbringing, woo seok received every bit of kaisei's rage for what he'd done, and he was going to make sure it ruined him from ever being able to manipulate another poor guy or girl or anyone in between ever again.

Kaisei very rarely gets that vicious, but woo seok found the right combination to really set him off.

Spits on him

Fuck woo seok.

Anyways yeah that's some of kaisei's exes because im nosey and love thinking about kaisei's past love life <3

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"One day, nothing will remain of us but our names etched into stone, but let it be known that we shared our lives and our love."

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wanted to go for a classic look, inspired by, you guessed it, several songs because that's where i get 90% of my inspiration.

also man, i need to find more ciro songs 😔

Credits under the cut

Credits: Ciro . Kaisei - puff Stage - Hazi City - CabbagePot Curtains - 一護牛乳

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kaisei makes stupid tiktok-esque videos and lip syncs to music for fun

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valentines outfits for ciro and kaisei that i plan on getting commissioned for their mmd models >:3

kaisei's outfit was inspired by lovecore themes as well as conversation hearts, fundip, the kitschy little valentines you'd get at the elementary school valentine's day party with your friends, you know the ones

ciro's outfit is inspired by romeo-esque outfits, romantic and loose; a lace and bow wrapped box of rich dark chocolates paired with a sweet but lowkey rosé and your lover in front of the fireplace

bases by Shiro ZedShima on deviantart

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cant sleep, rose meeting ciro and kaisei story

(rose belongs to a friend and she is not mine)

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ok so the premise is ciro is coming home from work, and as he passes by the neighboring apartment doors, one of them opens and from inside pops out kaisei. he's surprised a little to see him, knowing that that particular unit had been empty for a while but someone had moved in recently - he just had "not had the time to greet them yet" (its unlikely he would go out if his way to do it, really)

So as he walks up kaisei is thanking the person again for letting him have some tomatoes, he didn't want to have to go all the way to the store after coming back from work himself, and he turns to see ciro coming down the hall. His face lights up because, of course, this the perfect time to introduce the new neighbor to the boyfriend and soon-to-be husband that he had just been gushing about.

He gently takes ciro's arm and pulls him towards the open doorway, and just inside, the fist thing ciro notices is the dim but soft lights and cozy furniture, as well as shelves lined with trinkets, tchotchkes and books. Then he looks down and sees the cutest little deer lady he has ever seen in his life (she is probably still a deity, but given kaisei's world where inhabitants can be animal spirits, they likely assume that's what she is)

Kaisei introduces her as their new-ish neighbor Rose, who he's been talking to occasionally when they run into each other. She has a garden on her balcony where she goes many fruits and vegetables, of which she brings into the apartment to keep them alive in the winter months. When ciro asks why he was visiting her, he explains that he traded some sugar for her cookies so he could get tomatoes for dinner. A 'you scratch my back i'll scratch yours" kind of situation.

Rose then invites them in to try the cookies (she had been baking while listening to kaisei get off-track and yap about ciro and other things going on), and they both agree - a cookie or two wouldn't be nearly enough to ruin the appetite of two hungry oni's.

They come in and ciro right away notices again how cozy and warm the unit is, even though its a similar layout to theirs, she has completely made it her own space. A fee peculiar things do stand out to him, but make sense when he looks at rose and is reminded of her petite stature. The single small, tall chair at the table, the step-stool by the counter, the low hanging pull chains on the fan amongst other things. He finds it fascinating how she has managed to make the apartment fit her so well.

She brings out a plate of cookies along with three cups of tea (she does ask them to help her with carrying the drinks), and they all sot together and chat over snacks.

Rose does ask to see their engagement rings, and insists on hearing about the proposal, to which ciro becomes bashful, as he is the one who proposed.

Kaisei also comments that her apartment reminds him of his childhood - he grew up in a much smaller, but similarly decorated apartment with his mother, and it makes him feel very comfortable being there.

Rose implies that he and ciro are welcome any reasonable time for a cup of tea and a chat~

And with that, they do part ways before it gets too late, but it will not be the last time they stop in and visit with Rose 😊

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kaisei = chappell roan

ciro = sabrina carpenter

yakumo = death by romy

yoai - gwen stefani

based on the song renders i've made for them, idk what to do with this information

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ciro having "please please please" on his phone ready to be played whenever kaisei is about to walk out in public dressed like a clown

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i went out to eat by myself and my favorite sad kaisei song came on out of nowhere

the way i stopped mid bite because i've been listening to it a lot recently too, what are the odds

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"I want it all, I've changed my mind - I wanna rock that Vivienne Westwood, Gucci, Prada and Dior"

an ode to ciro becoming more confident not in his abilities, but in his self-worth beyond being a creator

Credits: Ciro - puff Stage - サンフラワーふじ Sofa - Zeze Pillows - Natsuka Flowers - Itumonohon Handcuffs - Cyalon Knife - TillyGoesMeow

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listened to this again after god knows how long and it oddly fits the vampire au i came up with for ciro and kaisei

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so the new oc

note this is very heavily inspired by kiki rockwell and paris paloma

dahlia is a former slave who was brought up in status after she married a fairly high-standing man in society (he's also heavily involved in the church). i think at first, he wasn't all that bad. he took a pretty big risk at the time, being an influential white man and marrying a black slave. his reasoning is unknown to me rn (this is all really new), but he may very well have had good intentions.

however, just because he has done this, doesn't mean he treats dahlia any different than if he had taken a white woman as a wife.

she quickly realizes this, and one quote i had from her already was about their marriage:

"you fancy yourself my savior, but in the end, i only traded the shackles around my ankles for one around my finger."

they ended up having a daughter, i don't know her name yet either though. dahlia is fiercely protective of her daughter, and loves her to bits. this is especially spurred on by how her husband treats their daughter as she grows up.

she is watching her own life repeat in front of her eyes, and she becomes determined to put a stop to it in any way she can.

speaking of, so remember how i mentioned her husband was a religious affiliated man? she also becomes part of the congregation, and is a devout follower. some of her fellow churchgoers affectionately nickname her "deer", because of her beautiful brown eyes and kind nature.

however, a part of her comes to regret her faith, as she feels it has roots in her husband and their sinking marriage. seeing how they promote treatment of women, especially young women, she is increasingly worried fer her daughter on that front as well. her wavering faith and doubtful commitment to her husband become the topic of hushed whispers in the small town, which she chooses to ignore as best she can. if she gives them any bit of evidence that their rumors are true, she knows she's done for.

somehow, things go wrong and someone begins accusing her of being a witch.

she doesn't know how this has come about, she thinks surely, this is the work of the loose lipped gossipers deciding to take their druthers to the next level.

but you know what's messed up?

i think it was her husband that started that witch hunt.

he was unsatisfied with his (in his eyes) investment of a wife, and was wary of how close she and their daughter were becoming.

the way she sat without him at services.

the way she was up late into the evenings doing lord knows what.

he's decided she is no longer worth it to him, and so spreads the rumors that she is a witch.

one thing leads to another, and she is captured and tried as a witch. betrayed by her husband and fellow villagers, she is put to the stake to be burned alive.

her determination to stay as silent as possible, not letting the crowd of traitors relish her screams, holds steadfast until she sees beyond the flames in that crowd...

her daughter, ripping at arms trying to hold her back, and reaching out to her as rivers flowed down her cheeks and her voice growing hoarse as she cried out for her burning mother.

sorry hold on that image is fucking me up a bit.

in that moment, dahlia lets out the most blood-curdling scream that her own pride and joy has to watch her mother be burned to the ground in front of her.

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that really took the wind out of my sails to talk about her, actually 😭

basically from her, once he's died, dahlia encounters the Goddess, an entity that appears as a bright, warm light and sweet voice.

she asks dahlia if she would like a second chance to protect her daughter, and without hesitation, dahlia agrees - no matter what she has to do, she will take any opportunity to prevent her daughter from suffering the same fate as her altogether.

other things happen, and i think at some point dahlia herself might kill her husband.

the main thing i know about this part is dahlia's daughter seeing her in the forest near the church, and running to her to be embraced. while dahlia is no longer human, she retains some of her human features, and she is visible to humans. i feel like her daughter would beg to join her away from the awful village that took her away, and dahlia hesitates.

she knows that joining her means giving up her life, and she doesn't want her to do that.

i'm not sure yet if her daughter decides to go against her mothers wishes and joins her, or if she complies and tries to live out her life as best as she can.

i'm kind of leaning towards she goes out to live her own life, but returns to the village much later, and once again seeing her mother in that forest, they both feel like it's time.

i just like the idea of dahlia reuniting her with daughter eventually 😔🙏

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"Begone, I say!"

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i think i have a new oc

Credits:

Deer - puff [Vroid . Nerudrum . LilMissLillie . 3DCG . Amiamy11 . BLUEROSE113 . JUSTaDOGG] Trees - 折鶴P . Charlie_Aoyama Stage - Nekoma Skydome - Azyazya Plant - Itumonohon

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