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Spring Break!

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Spencer arched his head at the smirk. "What?" he asked, totally oblivious of why his sister may be looking that way.  He offered Sydney his hand. "Yeah, come on.  I got us a car.  A guard is waiting for us." he smiled. "This is a classic Halloween party.  Do you remember those? " he wondered. "My friends will be there.  Please don't beat them up when the oggle you." 

Halloween

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Halloween

Spencer dressed in his cheesy batman costume, before going to pick up his sister.  He was excited to go outside for a Halloween party.  It was just one year ago that someone left a dead animal on his door.  Spencer remembered going around to all of the doors and trying to remove them, and bury them.  Things like that were the reason he wanted so badly to get out of Dalton.  He had not heard from, or spoken with his sister for awhile, so he decided to regain touch. He came to Sydney's door, and knocked upon it. 

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Um...nevermind I suppose.  Yeah....I know...I get it.  There are people I worry about too.  Just don't let it keep you up.  Not trying rub it in.  Sorry :(

Blurg.

I not quite sure what you’re talking about Spence, of course I’m fine and I’m going to worry because you’re my friend, I’m supposed to worry. And don’t rub it in my face kid, we all know you’re going to get out of here soon, no need to remind us. 

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Um...okay?  Haha.  Are you okay Cam? I mean, really you don't have to worry about me.  I'll be fine.  I'll be out of here in no time, probably before even you. :P

Yeah...yeah...friends...right..right! They are great, I'm really lucky to have them. 

Blurg.

Just keep trying Spencer, I know it’s hard, I’ve been there, I know, but like I’ve always told you, you’ll push through. Everything is an uphill battle, we’re going to be constantly fighting against, well, everything. But you’re strong, you’re resilient and you’re going to push through this. 

I’m glad you’re making friends. It helps getting though the tough times a little easier. Friends are a good support system, you know? 

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Texts to Sydney

Spencer: They will probably oggle you. :P I wonder if I should do Batman if we are going for a Justice League theme?

Sydney: Sounds good. When do you want to leave?

Spencer: I guess 1800 or so?

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Head ready to explode. Back to bed I suppose.

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Texts to Sydney

Sydney: I hope Wonder Woman is fine with your friends.

Spencer: They will probably oggle you. :P I wonder if I should do Batman if we are going for a Justice League theme?

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Texts to Sydney

Sydney: Do I need to wear a costume?

Spencer: If you want :3

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There is something else there.  But.  No. Not going to get in middle of whatever is going on or not going on.  Maybe I'll just crash at your room instead.  Well...Isaac is cool.  Like he was my first friend at college, and he has his own issues too.  We're just bros though, you know.  Nothing going on there, really.  Yeah, I know what you mean, I had a few people..I thought maybe friends, but I guess not. 

Yeah, that's the idea.  Go to bed exhausted, and have no nightmares.  Sometimes it works, sometimes not. 

Blurg.

Well, I’ve been sleeping alone a lot lately so your odds of catching me by myself are probably higher than you’d think, but, suit yourself. And Issac? The last time we talking you wouldn’t shut up about him, if I didn’t know you as well as I do, I’d think that you had a crush on him; a bromance if ever I’ve seen one. I’m glad you’re making friends outside of here Spencer, heaven knows that some of the people here are questionable at best. 

And keeping yourself busy is always a good thing too. I know it’s not healthy, but I found that exhausting myself to a certain point meant that I could get a full night’s rest without having to worry about waking up from nightmares.   

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Texts to Sydney

Spencer: There is a Halloween thing at school. Want to go?

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Is that right?  Well then I would come and hang out in your room but you might have company.  Haha.  How did you know?  Yeah its been awhile.  Things are pretty normal with me, I suppose.  There is a little group of students at school I hang out with now.  I suppose that's new.

Yeah, I'm doing good, but I want to keep on doing good.  Yep. Last semester I just took one class and now I'm taking four.  It is a lot of fun though. Hard but fun :)

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Friends are here to be bothered, I’ll won’t push or anything, just know that I’m always here if you need me. This friend, is it Issac? We haven’t caught up in so long I have no idea what’s going on in your life anymore; I apologize for that, it seems to be a habit I’ve gotten into lately. 

I’m sure you’re doing great in school Spence, it’s your second semester yeah? It would make sense that it’s all getting easier. I’m glad that you’re still enjoying it Spence, college is supposed to be fun. 

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I don't want to bother you, or really anyone.  When it gets too bad, I'll bother Sydney.  I have a friend at school, and sometimes we talk at night on the phone or text.  If it gets too much, then Chaz will take my phone away or tell me to go get a room.  It isn't like that though.  We're just talking about projects and class and stuff.  It's been a little cold, but I love the fall :3. 

School is good.  Midterms are soon.  So I've been studying.  I want to get really good grades so they don't can me.  Sometimes I have my moments, but I think most people have gotten use to me. 

Blurg.

I can’t really sing, but you know where my room is of you need someone to talk to. Or, if you’d rather not leave you warm bed— and with our current weather, I can’t blame you— I’m always a phone call or text away. 

How’s school? 

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Exactly.  I know, I know.  I wish I had an off switch for all the stuff that goes around in my head.  I just don't.  So when I'm supposed to be sleeping, I normally wake up.  Once I'm awake, normally I need someone to either talk/sing me to sleep or snuggle me back to sleep.  Something like that. 

Blurg.

Ah or course, cats follow no one’s schedule but their own. I’m glad you’re keeping yourself busy Spencer, but you do need sleep every once and a while. I’ve tried living off coffee and Red Bull and trust me, it does not work very well. 

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Yes, he is.  He's awake all night though.  He does make a pretty good snuggle buddy during the day.  I use to take very long naps during the day but you know I have school and clubs and stuff like that now. 

Blurg.

What about Wilhelm? Is he still around? Cats, make great pillows of snuggle buddies as long as you’re careful. I’m sure he’d be more than willing to help you sleep at night.