psykoticsoldier

[psykoticsoldier]

First off, still not in a really good mindset. At this point im so stressed and overwhelmed my veins in my wrists and hands have been showing for several hours, which isnt normal for me.

Secondly, i dont know what i did but i randomly gained a bunch of followers even though i havent posted anything entertaining for a while.

Lastly, i do appreciate all the random follwers, i just have no clue where y'all came from due to me not really drinking and posting drunk posts.

[psykoticsoldier]

At the point of being out of my normal mindset that I'm in a constant state of anger. So I'm trying my best to stay away from talking to people so much because i literally went off on a guy at work for the stupidest thing.

[psykoticsoldier]

Just a random update on life because of the first topic happened earlier today, enjoy!

Soo funny thing.. i bought a zippo lighter a long time ago and went to fill it today.. Caught my whole entire hand on fire, laughed for like 5 minutes afterwards because at this point my lack of sleep and just being completely out of my mind for the past few days. Basically: Life's great, losing my mind, and pretty sure im starting to have an internet crush but of course im awkward about it because i dont know what im doing with my life.

And of course im open to asks about certain things in my rants or just generic questions or comments!

-Psy

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The fact that I'm almost 25 and still know the whole roleplay texting where us use "*" to show actions is wild to me. Like i feel like i shouldn't know how to read it since i haven't texted someone like that in a long ass time but when i see it on here its like second nature to read it without a problem.

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You know that moment you get so angry due to other people you get feral enough to start chewing a nicotine pouch like it's a stick of gum?... Yeah me neither..

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Im so bored and tired. I really don't want to go to work because of the drama thats been happening. But if anyone wants to send some asks to keep me occupied I'm more than welcome to it.

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I'm starting to get slightly violent while drunk it seems.. i broke a controller which is something ive never done before in my many years of gaming soo thats fun.. but here i am getting the back up out and continue to drink.

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stay safe while drinking! also i totally volunteer :3

Literally stuck at home for 4 days andd this is days 2. So its only gonnna get worse.

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I'm so drunk and so hard that im sitting here playing games thinking about how a cutie, whimpering, and drooling girl could pretty much fix everything thats running through my head.

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The fact that ive been drinking all night and im still up at 8am is fucked.. like i drank so i could sleep or something. What do i gotta do to be able to sleep??

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Welp. I finally broke down and started to drink. If anyone Msgs me and its a jumbled mess i do apologize in advance!

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Literally been overthinking over the same shit ive been doing. Constantly asking myself if it was weird to say certain things, that maybe it was overlooked, or that it doesnt matter. Feel like im losing my mind because its been cycling in my head all day. But im too awkward to bring it up to the person.

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So bored all the sudden and i cant think of anything to do. Plus ive basically drank alcohol all day tothe pount i can barely walk. Like i accidentally ran into my desk trying to leave my room to get water earlier thpe of drunk.

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I'm slightly back, so if anyone has questions or wants to just message just use the ask/anonymous box. I'll get to them ask soon as they come in at this point.

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The idea of me gaming with my friends for a while and a cute girl to just sit on my lap then starts to grind against me just to get my attention is starting to go through my mind every day.

Edit: thanks for the 100!!

[psykoticsoldier]

In the mood for a cute girl to come sit on my lap while we watch a movie just for her to feel how hard i get under her while she's on my lap to the point she starts to whimper and grind on me.

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That moment when you scroll through your past posts cleaning up a few random posts and notice something very interesting, and wanna ask questions about it but you like the casual talk.