proudpanhead - Tumblr blog

[proudpanhead]

2 DECADES

also alt version for no reason whatsoever

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

I'm not sure what I'm doing here anymore

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

“I don’t know how to do this anymore. I don’t know how to get better. My head is a dark place and it only gets worse, day by day. and I have no idea how to stop the darkness from coming in. I have no idea how to save myself anymore.”

—

[proudpanhead]

something i realized over the years is that despite wanting to kill myself, i don't actually wanna die. far from it actually. i want to live. i want to experience all the things i always wanted to do. i want to see the world. i want to look in the mirror one day and say "im happy i stayed". i want to get better. i want to live a life free from the shackles this mental illness has kept me in. but sometimes that darkness in my brain just overtakes that hope for a better future and all i'm left with is the thought that it will never get better.

— i want to live, but not like this.

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

'suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem'

I think it's past temporary when I've felt the same for 10 years now

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

I can relate to this

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]

[proudpanhead]