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i literally cannot wait to lay curled up against her while she sleeps and watch her chest rise and fall and listen to her heart's calming beat just to remind myself that the angel i've fallen in love with is alive and real and here beside me

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'Are you thinking too much, love? Oh, I knew you would be. Come here...'

Your f/o guides you into their arms, keeping you close as they lean in to kiss you. Their lips are slow and caring. This kiss isn't rushed. It isn't forceful or rough. They hold you close to them and their kiss tastes like love in a way that sends butterflies through your stomach. It's like your f/o is pouring all of their love, dedication, and affection into one long and tender kiss.

Because they are.

As they pull away and leave you breathless, they can't help the chuckle that leaves them. Nor the way they give you one last squeeze before pulling away.

"You don't have to think so hard with me around. Whenever those bad thoughts happen, I'll kiss them out of you always, alright?"

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calling your f/o pretty baby and seeing how flustered and cute they get over such a sweet compliment.

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i have to defend fictional women who aren't good people because if i don't who else will

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The Addams Family (1991) dir. Barry Sonnenfeld

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Still thinking about a dream I had the other night

I started out cuddling Laurel, clinging tightly to each other. Then, when for some reason she was forced to become an incorporeal neon-red cosmic entity, I chose to become a neon-blue one to be with her without a second thought

And instead of mourning the loss of my body and what I once was, I just smiled at her as I made my choice and said "we'll be like 3D glasses now!"

I daresay that's been the emotional core of this ship all along

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hii selfshippers!! if your f/o has trauma or even ptsd, imagine comforting them after they've had a nightmare

they wake up or even jolt awake looking really distressed and panicked. you realize what happened and take some time to tell them that they're safe, and that nothing here can hurt them

it might take a while for them to be ready to go back to sleep, so you could spend that time getting them something warm to drink or holding them in your arms. maybe they want to vent a bit and tell you about their nightmare. this could be their first time opening up or maybe you already know all about what happened. maybe they don't even need to vent at all and your silent comfort is more than enough to make them feel better. either way, your f/o appreciates what you did so much and feels safest when they're with you :)

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something i've been thinking about for the last few... forever.

shout out to the people who identify so strongly with, and/or find the most comfort in, the worst character(s) of any media that you're into. some of us find connection and similarities with the most terrible figures that canon has to offer. often, you're expected to identify most strongly with the good guy, or aspire to be like them (and not to say you don't, because i do sometimes). but that often doesn't happen for me, and i see more of myself in the evil impacting them.

not because i think i'm a bad person, and not because i aspire to be a flamboyant supervillain, but i often understand their feelings, their mindset, i understand how they got there, because i often went through a lot of the same things they did, even if only emotionally. it often goes beyond sheer appreciation for me (though i often find them more interesting from a narrative sense). and if i were in their world, i might become like them if things were even slightly different. if i didn't try to unlearn the fact that destruction is the only way to get what you want. catharsis is a powerful motivator.

i think it's important to embrace the "they're just like me" perspective when it comes to characters who aren't always "morally sound," and i do unequivocally include the "unsympathetic" ones. we're always going to find fictional characters we admire so long as art keeps being made, and sometimes admiration moves into "i identify with this character because of our background/personality/etc.", and sometimes these characters are the ones you're supposed to hate and root against... intentionally or not, many antagonists are very relatable (though often in unspoken ways).

none of this is to say that your taste in favorite characters means anything about you as a person, because it doesn't. how you treat others says all it needs to say about you as a person. i've seen this first-hand: people being surprised that i am friendly and compassionate (i try my best!) simply because i have a deep love for fictional guys who commit atrocities. yes, my worldly experiences, and the way i view them, as well as my fantastic taste draws me to fictional bad guys, but at the end of the day, i strive to be the best i can be every day. i aim to exude the kindness that i didn't always get when i practically begged for it. on the other hand, you could like the most sugary sweet, do-good fictional characters ever created (and good for you! no shame here!) and still be a nightmare to those around you.

i don't like the idea that you CANNOT like these characters, or identify with them, without condoning some sort of evil or being a bad person. they are people (or robots, or monsters, or whatever they are) who did bad things, whatever their reasons -- here's no inherence about it, and i think that belief has helped me in trying to understand them. i try to practice this with everyone i encounter. and along the way, i actually find that we aren't so different

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Margaret Atwood, from "Wilderness Tips," originally published in September 1991

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— Aure Vives, ‘An extraordinary amount of joules’

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f/o not being able to let you go after you come home to them or vice versa after a loong long day… just holding you close and mumbling they missed you over and over, seemingly desperate to just feel your warmth. they don’t let you go for a while

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your fem f/o loves your body! she loves how you look no matter what you’re wearing or how you choose to present. she can’t get enough of how good you look. she loves your body because it’s yours 🩷

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— Nikita Gill

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Unemployed selfshippers...

That can't work due to illnesses, anxiety, or that simply can't find a job -

You're SO valid. 💕

Your f/o would never judge you, btw.

You are NOT lazy and they're not ashamed of you.

They understand your struggle and would never make you feel bad about it.

Remember that. 💕

Pr0ships DNI please.

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when you turn over in bed, wrap your arms around me and give me forehead kisses while you’re half asleep- my heart feels a little more safe

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no no see, domesticity IS hot. how intimate it is to make food with someone, to share a bed, to brush your teeth at the same sink, to shower and use the same towels and the same laundry soap, to grocery shop and hold hands through the aisles, to be cornered in the kitchen to make out while a pot of pasta boils over on the stove. to fall asleep and hear them snoring softly and laugh at the little trail of drool out of the corner of their mouth. to spend money together and share chores and pick on each other for your weird habits. it's not always perfect and beautiful, but it's comfortable and familiar and I just think it's neat.

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Hey idk who needs to hear this but, if you’re a selfshipper that struggles with intrusive thoughts just know your f/o wouldn't judge you for it. They'd ask if there's any way they could help you feel better when it happens and they'd understand if you open up to them about it or if you don't feel comfortable just yet. Their love for you won't change regardless.

Prosh!ppers dni