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@ofwittyardor

{I knew what Ross meant by his comment... He wanted me to feel guilty, so his claim that he didn't want me there out of guilt was the Ross way of secretly wanting me to be there out of guilt. Oh, trust me. I had known Ross since we were kids. Sure, we might not have been close when we were kids, but in the ten years I lived in the city, I had come to know him very well. At this point, I could basically read him like a book. Case and point how I knew this was the "Geller guilt" at its finest that I was witnessing here and now. Truth was, I did feel guilty. Not so much for Ross ending up with a potentially broken nose from Aiden's fist, since after all, it was Ross who chose to kiss me right there in view of Aiden. He kinda deserved to be punched when you look at it from Aiden's perspective. Then again, I did feel a little guilty about that because Aiden was only there because he insisted on following me from Paris. Yes, I should have made it clear to him in Paris that we were over, but little did I know Aiden was making plans to relocate to New York City for me. Talk about not seeing that plot twist, but it is what it is. Aside from that though, I did feel guilty about not getting Ross's voicemail until recently... Opting not to call him to hash out the message because I was embarrassed by how much time had passed. Besides, Ross never showed up in Paris to fight for me, either, so for all I knew, I figured his message was a spontaneous thing, and he regretted doing it which is why he never acted beyond that} Guilty for which part exactly? Me bringing Aiden here? Trust me, that wasn't planned. He just came along. Claiming he had business in New York. {I shrugged unapologetically before I continued} Sure, I'm sorry you got punched tonight and that you're injured, but Ross, what did you expect when you kissed me in front of him? {I flashed Ross a playful grin before gently lowered the ice pack across his nose; gingerly holding it in place for him, so it didn't put too much weight on his sore nose} I do, however, feel bad about the voicemail... Months passed before I even heard it, and by then, it felt like so much time had passed that I didn't know if I should mention it. Especially given that you never followed up with another call, text, visit to Paris... anything. I honestly thought, given our history, that maybe you regretted the message, which was why that's as far as it went. That maybe the voicemail was only because of how you felt about me leaving for Paris, and then after you sent it you reconsidered your position on all of that. Either way, I am sorry, Ross. For all of it. Even though I am sorry, truly, that's not why I'm here with you tonight. I'm not here out of guilt. I'm here because I want to be here.

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Yes, I'm well aware of where you're going with your question and accusation, but to be clear, I'm not here out of guilt, Ross. We both know I'm far too selfish and caught up in myself to be here out of guilt... I don't do anything I don't want to do. {A fact that Ross knew more than most. It's also faults of mine that Ross has brought up more than once through the years too, so Ross should know I wouldn't do anything I didn't want to do; guilt or otherwise. Sure, I did feel bad that Ross got hurt tonight, but honestly, that whole fight was a result over him kissing me and Aiden seeing it. My point is, I don't feel guilty for bringing Aiden here to New York with me. No, we might be a Paris type of fling only... Meaning, I saw no future between Aiden and I, nor were we serious in our phase of dating either, for that matter, but still, me agreeing to let Aiden come here in order to see New York before him and I parted ways with one another wasn't something I did or should have to feel guilty over. In my defense, I didn't know Ross was going to show up at the airport when I arrived. Monica and my mom aside, I didn't know anyone even knew when I was scheduled to arrive in New York, much less expect to come face to face with Ross moments after I got off the plane. Yes, I did feel bad that Ross got hurt by it, as a result, but honestly, given all of the time apart while he was here in New York and I was in Paris, I thought he'd be way over me. Judging by his reaction and our conversation now though, I knew that wasn't the case... No, I wasn't ready to walk down the aisle with Ross, or anything extreme like that, but given all of this time apart, and yet we still always found our way back to each other, maybe that was a sign that him and I really were meant to be together when all was said and done. Again, nothing extreme or rash that I was ready to jump into impulsively, but I'd still be open to the idea of Ross and I trying again and see where this relationship may or may not go with each other} Okay, I'll get you a beer... Probably an ice pack for your nose too since it's growing in size as we speak. {I made a face as I walked to Ross's kitchen. More than familiar with my surroundings as I grabbed everything that I needed. Even managing to pop a bag of popcorn for us and then poured the contents into a bowl before I carried everything back into the living room with me. I first handed Ross his beer to take before I placed the bowl of popcorn on the coffee table in front of us. Once I took a seat, I held the ice pack out toward Ross to take, so he could put it on his nose} Come on, Rocky... Just humor me and put the ice pack on your nose for a few minutes. If you don't, I'll just nag you repeatedly to go to the hospital to get an x-ray and we both know you'd rather not do that. Especially since, knowing our luck, Dora, or whatever that mean receptionist's name was, is more than likely working. {I aired out with a playful smirk as I leaned back in the sofa to get a bit more comfortable}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Ross, you know we well enough to know that I'm too selfish and caught up in what I want to stay here with you out of guilt. {I aired out in a playful manner; all the while flashing you an amused smile. The truth was, growing up I was a bit of a spoiled brat. For a good part of my life I really did only act out of selfish conceit and decision. Over the years I'd like to think I had matured a bit though. Don't get me wrong, I still had my selfish moments, but I wasn't as conceited and stuck on myself as I once was. Growth. A level of maturity that I could be proud of} All joking aside, I'm staying with you tonight because I want to, Ross. {Besides, I wasn't quite ready to go back to my place anyway since I wanted to give Aiden time to get his stuff and get out of there. Providing he even went back to my apartment, I should say. I mean, even if he did, I don't know how he'd get into my apartment, but I'd figure out all of that at a later time, should the need arise. Even so, once we made our way inside Ross's place, I turned on a few lights then made my way to the kitchen. Calling back to Ross} Aside from ice for your face, do you want something to drink? A water? Or wine, maybe? {I offered. For all I knew Ross was exhausted after what had happened, so he wanted to call it a night, but on the off chance that he wasn't ready for bed, I hoped we could spend a bit of time talking since it was long overdue for us} And as far as Emma goes, I completely understand. I have plans to grab lunch with Monica anyway. I made them because I remembered you and I had previously agreed that you would be spending the day with Emma. {I called back from the kitchen as I worked on making up an ice pack for Ross} Besides, I'm sure Emma will be thrilled to spend the day alone with her daddy. She's missed you. {I added as I finished making up the ice pack and shut the freezer door before heading into the living room area with it} What did you decide on drinks? Is it a wine kind of night or are you playing it safe with water? {I asked with a soft chuckle; all the while a smile resting across my lips. It's funny how easy all of this felt. Sure, I knew months had passed since I had been here last, yet everything just felt right into step. Oddly, it felt so easy and natural here with Ross, like no time had passed at all between us. Grant it, Ross might not agree with that sentiment, but that's where I stood currently}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Of course I feel guilty for what happened. If I hadn't brought Aiden with me to New York City, the fight between you two never would have happened. {I said honestly before adding} But that's not why I'm wanting to stay with you, Ross. I mean, you know me, so if it was just about guilt, I'd make sure you got home safe and sound, got you an ice pack for your face, and then I'd probably be on my way. {There was no surprise or secret that I couldn't be a bit selfish at times. I tended to put my own needs and desires ahead of others. Sure, I had grown up a bit over the years, but in lieu of what happened tonight at Monica and Chandler's place, I realize I still had some growing up to do in that department} My point is, my offer to stay with you is because I care about you, Ross. {I added reassuringly and genuinely as we reached Ross's apartment; prompting me to open the cab door and get out so Ross could do the same} You know, it's funny, I've been to your apartment so many times, yet apparently I never paid attention to the address. Why would I though? It's not like we did the whole snail mail form of correspondence when I lived here since we saw each other every day for ten years. {I added jokingly as I waited to ensure Ross got out of the cab okay, before I closed the door and we started toward the entrance of his apartment building} Oh yeah, that's no problem. I figured you'd want to spend time alone with Emma. Besides, I made plans to grab lunch with Pheebs and Monica once you pick Emma up, so you don't have to worry about me being alone or anything. {I assured Ross with a smile as we made our way inside the apartment building and then started up the familiar and infamous "pivot" staircase toward Ross's floor} But yeah, dinner together sounds great. Did you want it you, Emma, and I or just you and me? {I asked before adding} If you were planning it just being the two of us, I can ask Monica if she and Chandler could watch Emma tonight. {I further explained as we reached Ross's apartment door and I waited for him to unlock it so we could go inside}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{Once we left Monica and Chandler's place, I listened as Ross assured me that he was fine. He reiterated that he wasn't dizzy or anything, but that didn't mean I still wouldn't keep a close eye on him tonight} Good... I'm glad you're not busy. If you think that's going to convince me not to stay the night at your place though, you're wrong. {I said playfully in response and flashed him a grin as we made our way outside to catch a cab or Uber. Before long one approached, so once we waved it down, we got into the back of the vehicle. I couldn't actually remember the address to Ross's apartment... Call it a brain fart or jetlag brain or whatever, but I remained silent as I waited for Ross to give the address of our destination. Before long the driver started toward Ross's apartment building, while I got comfy in the back of the vehicle} Well, tonight was eventful. {I stated the obvious as a light chuckle followed. By now my head tilted to the side and I rested in harmlessly against Ross's shoulder during the ride through the streets of New York toward his apartment} Oh, and my mom will be bringing Emma to my place around ten or eleven tomorrow... Maybe we can grab some coffee at Central Perk beforehand, and then we can head back to my place for Emma's arrival. {Knowing I had previously promised Ross that he could spend the day alone tomorrow with Emma. A plan that I still intended to keep, since I'm sure he was looking forward to having some time along with Emma after so much time apart. Still, given the chance in circumstances, if he wanted me to join them, I could do so... Especially since Monica had already taken care of getting my apartment ready and decorated for me, and I didn't start my new job until Monday, so I had nothing but free time these next few days}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{Purely on instinct, when Ross shifted up into a standing position from the sofa, I maneuvered up onto my feet too; automatically offering Ross my arm in case he got a hint of dizziness or something. I mean, I was no doctor or nurse, but he did get socked in the face and nose pretty hard, so I figured there could be a chance of dizziness, and if so, I wanted to make sure to keep Ross from getting hurt worse than he already was. In seeing he was steady on his feet though, I gave his back a gentle rub; all the while flashing him a soft smile} I'm going to let Monica know we're leaving, and then we can go. {I said with a smile as I briefly stepped away from him; finding Monica and Chandler hiding out in another room, as if to give Ross and I some time alone to talk. Not at all subtle, but I appreciated it nonetheless} I'm going to take Ross home to rest. Thank you for dinner... And, sorry for all the drama... {I said sheepishly as I gave Monica a hug and then Chandler afterwards before pulling back with a smile} I'll call you tomorrow. {I assured Monica as the three of us returned to the living room together, so Monica and Chandler could say goodbye to Ross before Ross and I took our leave from their place. Once everyone said their goodbyes, I snaked my arm through Ross's arm as we took our leave from Monica and Chandler's place} You feeling okay? Not dizzy or anything, right? {I figured Ross was okay, other than some pain, maybe, but still, better to be safe than sorry, right? I silently considered as I remained at Ross's side while we made our way toward the outside, so we could get ourselves a cab}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{I was so torn on what to do now. I had just broken off things with Aiden. Grant it, I had intended to do that when I left Paris, but Aiden apparently didn't take the hint, and not only followed me here to New York, but secretly arranged for an interview for himself here too with hopes to move here full time. All that to say, I saw Aiden as a Parisian fling and nothing more, but apparently Aiden was more attached to me. Wow, this is the second man in my life now who thought more like a woman than a man when it came to relationships and commitments. What happened to the guys who were only interested in flings because all of that relationship stuff freaked them out? Why were guys so clingy nowadays? Either way, I felt bad for how I left things with Aiden, so I knew it would be best to give him time to get a head start out of New York and back to Paris before I attempted to send him an apologetic text. Then there was Ross... I loved Ross, and there was a part of me who knew I'd always love Ross, but was getting involved with him again the right course of action for us? I mean, we had tried multiple times before and it never panned out between us. Fortunately we always managed to keep our friendship between each break up, but still, did we want to run that risk again? I silently considered as I shared those fears with Ross. Then there was Emma to consider. She was our daughter and the most important person in both of our lives... Would it be smart to start up another relationship and run the risk of confusing Emma if it didn't work out. All that to say, we had so much to consider, which is why I was relieved when Ross agreed that we should take things slowly. Hey, I was here full time again, so we had no reason to rush into anything. We had time to test the waters, and figure out what was best for us} I agree... There's no rush. Let's just take it one day at a time, and see how things go. {I smiled softly as I gave Ross's hand a gentle squeeze} In the meantime, what do you say we get you home to rest a bit there, Rocky? {I gently teased with the nickname; all the while a playful grin pulled across the corners of my lips} My mom has Emma for the night, so if you want, I could hang out with you at your place for a bit to watch a movie or something? {If we're going to test the waters, us hanging out together just the two of us would be a good place to start. I silently justified as I awaited your response to my suggestion}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

Yes... Aiden was just a fling in Paris. I didn't plan anything long-term with him. Hell, I didn't even know he was coming to New York to interview for a position here until he told me earlier today. As far as I was concerned, when I left Paris, I intended for that to end things between Aiden and I. I mean, of course we were casual. I wouldn't even let him meet Emma. {My shoulders rolled into a slight shrug. Apparently Ross wasn't the only man out there who overthought things, and managed to create unrealistic scenarios in his mind. Aiden and him were more alike than I ever realized} As far as we go, Ross... {I paused briefly as I gathered my thoughts before continuing} Of course I love you. Me loving you was never the question. It just always seems like timing gets in the way of us. {That was the truth. Ross's love for me and mine for him was never really the question. It just always seemed like, when he loved me, I had moved on, and when I loved him, it was him who had moved on. The timing always drove a wedge between us. I couldn't help but to wonder if there was something to that. Maybe Ross and I just weren't meant to have that "happily ever after" type of romance} I guess now that I'm back here in New York permanently, we can figure all of that out. If "us" really is the right course of action... {I said before pausing briefly to add} Because Ross, if we try again, I don't want us to screw it up. We've done that too many times in the past, and it nearly ruined our friendship countless times. I don't want to risk losing your friendship. Not now... Not ever. Especially when this time around, we have Emma to consider too. For Emma's sake, you and I need to know if we're both serious and all in before we act on our mutual feelings. {I said with a smile as I leaned in to gently press a kiss to your forehead} In the meantime, Rocky, maybe we should get you home to rest. {I gently teased; all the while a soft grin rested across my lips}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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{I felt a hint of relief fill me when Ross cracked a joke about the scuffle between him and Aiden on the balcony; knowing if he was cracking jokes, then there was no serious damage. Amusement creased the corners of my lips as I lowered myself down to the edge of the sofa beside Ross; fully facing him with a soft smile as I gently lifted the ice pack to see the damage to his cheek since the bloody nose told me everything necessary already about the state of his nose. Gingerly tracing my thumb across his bruised cheek while the smile lingered on my lips as I gently rested the ice pack against his cheek once more. Knowing it would help with the swelling and bruising Aiden's punch did to Ross's cheek} Mhmm. Whatever you say, Rocky. {I said playfully before teasingly adding} Aiden practically had to crawl out of here due to the damage you did. {I aired out through a soft chuckle. Obviously that was a case of sarcasm and joking now, but no harm in trying to add a little lightness to the uncomfortable situation. Of course Chandler was the one for the jokes and sarcasm, but every now and then I gave it my best shot too} You'll be pleased to know that Aiden is staying at a hotel tonight and then catching a flight back to Paris tomorrow morning. {I shared with Ross. The thing was, Aiden and I were never that serious. Maybe on his end, but definitely not on mine. To me, Aiden was just a Paris fling. One that I intended to leave behind when I relocated back to New York City. Apparently Aiden and I differed in our thoughts on that though, given that he was trying to get a job and relocate here too behind my back. Sure, I liked Aiden, so naturally I'm sorry that it ended this way, but at least now he knows where I stand on the level of our relationship} For what it's worth, I'm sorry for my part in all of this, Ross. I didn't bring Aiden here to make you jealous or to hurt you. Honestly, I never saw Aiden and I as that serious. He was just a fling in Paris. {I admitted with a casual shrug. Grant it, that didn't mean Ross and I were going to immediately rekindle what we once had, but Ross should at least know that Aiden and I were never what I considered as serious or long-term}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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{I watched Aiden storm out; prompting a loud sigh from me} I'll be right back. {I assured Ross and Monica as I rushed out after Aiden. I was angry, to say the least... Sure, maybe Aiden punching Ross was justified, given that Ross kissed me, but regardless, I didn't condone the violence in this case simply because the thought of anyone hurting Ross infuriated me} Hey! {I called out after Aiden. Watching him stop in his tracks before turning to shoot me an annoyed look} What the hell was that? {I said but I didn't let Aiden reply before I continued speaking} Look, I get it... You caught Ross kissing me, but that was no excuse for you to hit him. All of this could have been handled with a conversation. There was no reason to bring violence into it. {I aired out. Aiden clearly wasn't happy with my outlook on it, but instead of saying anything in response, he threw his hands up and turned to leave} "I need some air." {Aiden said before walking away. Maybe I should have stopped him, but at the moment, I needed the space too. All of this was confusing to me now. I didn't expect Aiden to come here to New York with me. Yes, for a brief vacation type of trip, but not to stay... A bomb he had dropped on me just a little bit before this dinner. My point being, I dated Aiden in Paris, but I had no plans of keeping that relationship going once I got back to New York. I just wanted to start fresh in New York. Yes, I knew that was selfish, but it was the truth nonetheless. With that thought in mind, I had hoped that me not going after Aiden tonight when he walked away would make him realize I wasn't right for him. I briefly considered as I returned to the apartment to check on Ross. Noticing Monica had him resting on the sofa currently} Hey... Are you okay? {I asked as I took a seat on the coffee table directly across from Ross}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{I was so confused in this moment.... A bit angry and emotional too after the argument that Ross and I just had. I mean, how dare him accuse me of not caring about him. Had he not been paying attention all these years? Grant it, this isn't the first time Ross made accusations about me that were well off from reality. The night before I was leaving for Paris he accused me of not caring about him because I didn't have it in me to say good bye to him. Of course we worked that one out later that night, and actually found the perfect closure for us. Given the circumstances tonight though, it was like we were right back at that night, and I could feel my blood boiling as a result of Ross's ridiculous assumptions. I aired out a loud breath as I felt Ross grip a hold of my wrist; prompting me to stop before slowly turning to hear what he felt the need to add now. I swear if he was about to say he cared more about me than I did him again, I might just push him off this balcony. I wouldn't, of course, That was more a Monica reaction and not me, but still, I was mad at this moment. Mad and hurt, for that matter. Coming off as a complete shock to me though, not only did Ross not spew out anymore ridiculous assumptions or play the, "I care more card," but after declaring that he still loved me, he kissed me. What the hell? How was I going to react to this? I briefly wondered before finding myself leaning into the kiss. Mind you it didn't last long before I heard Aiden's voice yelling out from behind me} "Whoa, whoa whoa! What is this?! Get off of her!" {Aiden said before pushing Ross away from me and then in one swift motion, Aiden punched Ross in the face} Aiden! Enough! {I called after him as I grabbed his arm to pull him away from Ross, but given how mad Aiden was, I wasn't strong enough to do so. In the meantime Joey and Chandler rushed out to intervene. Given that Chandler was... Well, he was kinda a weak wimp, I knew he wouldn't be much help in this, but Joey grabbed Aiden's other arm and put separation between Ross and Aiden. In the meantime Monica and Phoebe joined all of us out on the balcony. Phoebe shot Aiden and Ross each a look of what seemed like amusement before she and Monica maneuvered over to Ross to see that he was okay} Aiden, get back inside. Now. {I said curtly. Sure, I knew Aiden had a reason to punch Ross, but I hated stuff like this, so I wasn't going to deal with unnecessary violence. Aiden nodded as Joey and Ross pushed him toward the window and back inside Monica and Chandler's place while I looked back at Ross} Are you okay, Ross? {I asked. Knowing I needed to address the declaration of love and the kiss, but I wanted to wait until that until Ross and I were alone again}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

See? He’s her lobster. Ross Geller & Rachel Greene in F•R•I•E•N•D•S (1994-2004)

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SOME THINGS I LOVE: [4/10] Ships Ross Geller and Rachel Greene, FRIENDS (1994-2004)

“Hey, I like Ross just as much as the next guy. Clearly, I have feelings for him but feelings don’t mean love. I mean, do I still have loving feelings for Ross? Yeah! I have continuing feelings of love. But that doesn’t mean I’m in love with him! You know, I have sexual feelings for him but I do love him.”

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@ofwittyardor

ɢᴏᴏᴅ,ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ!

ᴏʜ ʏᴇᴀʜ?ᴡᴇʟʟ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏᴏ!

ᴡᴇʟʟ,ɪ’ᴍ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ᴋɪꜱꜱ ʏᴏᴜ!

ᴡᴇʟʟ,ʏᴏᴜ ʙᴇᴛᴛᴇʀ!

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{I was upset. The tears had since pooled in my eyes and were now falling down my cheeks. I could see the others were looking in our direction now; Aiden included. I'm sure they could hear Ross and I raising our voices at each other out here on the balcony. Our passion and lingering love for the other prevailing as I stormed away from him out of hurt from his words, and he gripped my wrist to stop me as he shot his own questions back in my direction} Because months went by before I heard your message, Ross... {I confessed through a loud sigh before I continued} Somehow I didn't get your voicemail until months after you left it, and I didn't know how to handle it. {I aired out through another deep sigh. Disregarding the fact that tears rolled down my cheeks and I my volume was probably loud enough for everyone inside Monica and Chandler's place to hear our whole conversation now. I didn't care though because this conversation was a year overdue} After I got your voicemail, I wanted to call you to discuss it. It was my first thought, but then I second guessed it. I mean, months had passed and I didn't want to reopen a wound, so I decided it was best not to call. I knew I had unintentionally hurt you when I heard the message and you probably thought I didn't love you back, which was why I didn't call. I guessed that you had been recovering from that heartbreak for months since you had left that message, so I was afraid if I called you to bring it up, it would just end up hurting you all over again. Especially when I didn't know what to say in response... I mean, of course I love you. I always loved you, but you were here in New York and I was in Paris. {I trailed off... Not knowing what more to say in this moment. This wasn't at all how I expected this night to go. Sooner or later I knew this conversation needed to happen though, so maybe it was best that we were hashing it out between us now} I'm sorry, Ross.... I know sorry doesn't cut it, but I am. The last thing I'd ever want to do is to hurt you. {I eventually said in a hushed volume before another sigh fell from my lips. I felt terrible and I knew there was no way I could fix this one. Still, in my defense, I did what I thought was right at the time because I couldn't bear the thought of hurting Ross all over again}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

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@ofwittyardor

{I couldn't help but to smile when I heard Ross's words. Knowing what he was saying now was the truth. No matter what, Ross had always put me first ever since I walked out on my wedding to Barry, and relocated to the city to live with Monica, in hopes of finding a fresh start. Of course it had been a rocky start for me, but overtime I found my footing... Ultimately finding my one great love in Ross, and I also found my passion in my career too. Of course life got in the way each time Ross and I tried to make "us" work, so as much as it broke my heart, I knew I would eventually need to let go of the hope that Ross and I would finally find our happy ending. Maybe that just wasn't meant to be for us. Maybe he and I were meant to be each other's great love at that particular season in our lives, but it was never meant to last beyond a season. I silently wondered as I stood beside Ross here on the balcony. In hearing his follow up comment though, my brows furrowed slightly. I could hear the hurt and resentment in his voice as he spoke... As he accused me of getting by fine without him this last year. Was that really what he thought? That he missed me and I didn't miss him at all? In all these years, clearly Ross hadn't learned anything about me. I thought in defense as I slowly turned my head to face him} Is that really what you think? {I asked as my body turned in my stance, so I was now fully facing him} That I didn't miss you at all, and that my life in Paris was easy without you? You really don't know me at all if that's what you believe. {I started to say in defense before I continued} This year was the hardest of my life. Not seeing you every day broke me in ways that you could never know. I practically lived at my desk at work, because if I didn't put my whole mind and focus on my work, I would have crumbled in how much it ripped me apart from being away from you. Every day I was there, I regretted ever taking that position. Every time I looked at Emma I was reminded of how wrong it felt being there without you there with us. Moving to Paris was a mistake. Not because it wasn't the chance of a lifetime for my career, but because you weren't there. That said, the moment my boss called me in and informed me of a position that had opened up back home here, I didn't think twice before agreeing to take that position and relocate back here. Yes, Paris is beautiful, and it was amazing to be in the fashion capital of the world for work, but it wasn't home to me because of how much I missed you, Ross. {I could feel tears brimming in my eyes as my own angered boiled. The fact that Ross could even accuse me of that told me he didn't know me at all} So if you think you not being here tonight wouldn't have mattered to me, then it's clear you don't know me as well as I thought you did. {By now I had shifted out of his coat and handed it to him before I started to the window, so I could head back inside. I couldn't believe Ross had said that... That this is what he thought about me and where the two of us stood with each other. As if our relationship and love had only ever been one-sided and on his end while I apparently just dangled him along} Goodnight, Ross. {I quietly muttered out as I prepared to climb back in through the window, so I could leave for the evening before I said something I might regret}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.

[promqueengreen]

@ofwittyardor

{I wasn't sure how long I was outside on the balcony before I heard the sliding door open slightly and I realized I wasn't alone. As wrong as this may sound, I had silently hoped it wasn't Aiden out here to join me. I mean, things were already awkward with Ross and I because of Aiden being here, so I didn't want anything to make matters worse. Besides, I had intended to cut Aiden loose once I relocated here anyway, so I didn't want anything to drive a wedge between me and that plan. To my relief, it wasn't Aiden who had joined me. In fact a soft smile creased my lips when I realized it was Ross out here with me. My lingering smile growing when I felt him place his jacket over my shoulders to ensure I was warm enough} Always looking out for me. {I said with a doting smile as I turned my head slightly so I could better see him} It feels so good to be back here. I missed New York... {I started to say before quickly adding} And more than that, I missed all of you. Don't get me wrong, I loved my job and life in Paris, but I just couldn't feel completely at home because you all weren't there. {I said with a smile as I turned a bit more so I was fully facing Ross now} I know tonight wasn't ideal but it means a lot to me that you decided to come, Ross. It just wouldn't have been the same tonight without you here. {I aired out genuinely. I knew things might be up in the air and a little tense between Ross and I currently, but regardless, I wanted Ross to know how important he was to me}

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Traffic; which wasn’t as lame as Rachel obviously thought. He did drive up here during rush hour; the airport got busy. But I knew I was drowning. Ross was very smart. But with Rachel she had the tenacity to make him squirm because she had a hold over him. She knew him like the back of her hand, just like he knew her. Did he think any of the excuses he told tonight would fly with her? No of course not but given our history deep down the brunette knew the why I was here. 

She’d gloss over the why because she didn’t want to talk about it. Obviously given her silence since I left that voicemail months ago. And if Adien wasn’t here dragging his feet behind us; I’d definitely have a lot to say to her. Even if it ended with the pending rejection. Ross normally walked away in fear, he didn’t want to be rejected but with Rachel he’d do anything for her. 

The way Rachel spoke she was making me out to be an idiot, a weak one too. It was a reminder of how far our history went. Years of knowing the other; her lack of gym activity, but I also wasn’t the one embarrassing the other right now. I felt unsure how to respond, I could hear Ariden chuckling behind us, I felt like such a fool to believe for one second that I could compare with this guy. Glancing to the pavement as we walked closer to my car, I found my voice. 

“ Yeah yeah, we get it, but you’d be surprised how much I’ve changed since you’ve been gone, I’m not the same Ross you knew,” Well I was still quirky, I was still an idiot sometimes, but I decided to keep those inner thoughts to myself. I wanted to make an impression. Upon settling myself into the drivers seat, I heard the retorts regarding my sister, she was a organized freak which means the female’s apartment was already fitted with her belongings, boxes undone, her clothes were inside the closet, her place would have the furniture before we arrive, it was kinda impressive about Monica. I had to release a laugh from lips as I aired out my reply. “ In other words we let Monica do the hard work, I’m sure she had Chandler there just to help with the boxes unpacking I mean, yet again it was probably her bossing him around.” What a poor fool I thought to myself; yet again I was the fool that was sitting in my car ready for the ride with Rachel and her new boyfriend. I was dreading this car ride; but for a second I managed to forget, upon hearing her confirmation that she was happy to see me, plus her hand on my knee. Eyes glanced to the contact as I responded to the dinner comment. 

“ I’ll see what I can do.” I never lied harder; I had no intention of going to this dinner, one I did want to pretend I had plans, and two to witness Rachel with her arms around Aiden all night now that made my stomach knot up. No thank you. But I kept that bit to myself as I nodded before I had placed my hand on the gear to put us into drive. 

Other hand moved to the radio letting some lame pop tune play; it would be a long ride for me, as I tried to focus on the road once we reached the parkway; let’s just make this painless right? It had already painted crap in my face; let’s just escape and prepared Aiden wasn’t in the backseat.