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Good Yule everyone!

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Sir, I'm going to need you to simmer down over there, this is buck-wild.

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"The number of hours we have together is actually not so large. Please linger near the door uncomfortably instead of just leaving. Please forget your scarf in my life and come back later for it."

poem by Mikko Harvey

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::buries in dirt nearby. will need later::

As I get older I keep getting hit with realizations that are obvious and juvenile and trite—things I’ve repeated a thousand times and rolled my eyes at for being human 101—and am horrified by the fact that I never really believed them before.

If you’d asked me 20 years ago if it was okay to say no to things because you don’t want to do them, I would have fixed you with a child’s withering stare and said “DUH!” in the most derisive voice imaginable. But it was literally yesterday that I sat down and realized, truly, for the first time, that I can say no to things even if I don’t have a good excuse for doing so. I get to make choices like that based on what I want, not on what the internal logic algorithm suggests is reasonable. I get to want things! I am capable of desire! I am allowed to listen to the voice that says “I like this” or “I don’t like this” and that’s not a horrible trespass upon the universe!

Did you guys know about this?! Have you guys heard about wanting things?! It’s fucking crazy.

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Artist: Etsy - AlaynaPaquette

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I have two knights... One of dark and one of light. Kalok and Daemeon are my protectors.

can’t focus on work. can only think of that one lesbian poem about chivalry

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@friendcrow

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Hey you.

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sometimes you just want to look at the qing dynasty jadeite cabbage again

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A Tenday

I have ten days off between the end of my old job and the start of my new one.

Ten days to lay around my house, not participate in christmas activities and clean.

Ten days to figure out how to re-build my spiritual body.

Ten days to figure out how to frame what I just learned about my family of spirits and their Kin.

Ten days to split all this open and climb inside to maybe start feeling again, instead of hyperventilating and shaking all the time.

Ten days to choose a therapist.

Ten days to do the healing processes, burn some branches and talk to my friends.

Ten days to scream into the void and cry and let go of what I cannot control, or protect or help.

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And Growth spells... To cultivate a willingness to be uncomfortable. If your normal is to choose these folks, it may be unpleasant to choose otherwise.

Are there any daily spells or rituals you would recommend to help me stop attracting the wrong people? Over the past five years, I’ve noticed a pattern where I believe I’ve formed a genuine connection with someone, only to discover they are competitive, underhanded, or prone to self-sabotage—often pulling me into their destructive tendencies. Unfortunately, these traits aren’t immediately obvious when I first meet someone. I’m looking for guidance on how to attract individuals who genuinely have my best interests at heart, as I do theirs, and to break free from this recurring cycle.

Thank you! 💖💖💖

Protections!

Protections against hidden intentions or possible futures.

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I smiled really big when I read this, and the answer from before. I've met several of these guys now, and one of them took me to meet the .... The folk devil... and sorry, I just bluescreened for a minute here because as I was mixing my fucking Metamucil I remembered where I met ALL of them. All at the same fucking time... Except I didn't know that's what was happening... O my.

horned one anon - thank you. i know you’re right, and i do know who he is to me: the Devil, and that’s the only name that’s ever fit, but the Devil only exists as an amalgamation of cultures and circumstances. and these have complex mythologies and their own folk magic and histories and politics. the Devil in folkloric witchcraft only exists as an amalgamation of pre-existing combined lore that just masks other existing gods. and that’s my hiccup - ig i don’t want a cultureless egregore.

I think there is a delicious agony in trying to find one's own Devil.

Does he only exist as an amalgamation?

He does hide, you know.

But he's worth finding. The reunion is such a delight.

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At the school of cunning...

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This painting is brought to you by my current obsession with ochre and dark purple 💜

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:: runs away crying ::

why would you do this to me

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