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lesbian soccer unblocked my artblock

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You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

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To know that Sae doesn't think he is having any kind of fight with Rin and he, in fact, watches BLTV too makes me think that this post of mine wasn't that far from the tracks.

Yes, of course, he might not be watching BLTV solely for Rin and the reasons might also be Isagi, Shidou, Kaiser, and maybe even Lorenzo, Charles, Loki, and Noa. However, I just like to believe that he never stopped looking out for his little brother, Rin. And in a very strange way, I think he was looking out for Rin in that Snowy Night too.

First thing first, something was wrong with Sae in that flashback.

As the saying goes, "Eyes are the window to one's soul," he looks so worn out—miserable, in fact. And I highly think that around the time of this flashback, it hadn't been that long since he lost his dream—or maybe got his dreams crushed. And I got two reasons to think this way:

To repeat my words, he looks miserable, which is a given when you lose a dream, compared to his later appearance like in the U-20 match. And judging by the timeline, the flashback and U-20 match have 1 year-ish gap which is an ample amount of time to cope up and get a hold of yourself.

Rin kept close tabs on Sae through news and all. The younger Itoshi would definitely be the one, if not the first, to know that Sae was now aiming to be the best midfielder instead of the best striker. But..

...Rin didn't know shit.

Now, you might be wondering why in the world I'm focusing so much on the timeline, right? Like, Sae got his dreams crushed, then he return to Japan and confronted Rin—what's the big deal about it even if these events happened in a short amount of time?

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And that's where you'd be wrong if you think this way.

We all keep forgetting that to be the world's greatest striker was Sae's dream first before he decided to share it with Rin. Sae has been playing this sport since he was one year old. Soccer, probably, came into his life before Rin did. Rin gave his teen years to this game, but Sae has nearly given his whole life to this dream.

Now imagine yourself in Sae's position. Imagine devoting your whole childhood and teen years to something only to not be able to achieve it in the end. Won't you be devastated? Won't you be a mess? Won't you need some time to collect yourself together? Now do you understand why the timeline matters so much? And why the timeline is such a big deal? Hm?

Secondly, Sae has never been a visibly sweet person, even to Rin.

Yes, Sae took care of Rin, but did we ever see him go, "Aww! My lil baby bro Rinnie! Cutie patootie! My baby bro <333333" Did we? He had always been rather.. emotion-less and blunt. After the above panel, too, his words were, "You can be the most amazing, after me."

He just has been like that.

Always.

That's why I have always believed that he never changed as a person, even after Spain. He has been like this from the start, which is also why I think that his harsh words in that Snowy Night was just another way of him looking out for Rin because guess who has known soccer longer? Who has gone out of Japan and seen the outside world's soccer with his own eyes?

Yeah.

In a way, Sae's dream had more weight than Rin's. The older Itoshi had soccer in front of his vision, meanwhile the younger one had his Nii-chan in front of his eyes. Despite being so focused in this sport, Sae just couldn't be it, so what makes you think Rin could've made it when his sole focus was his Nii-chan instead? Wouldn't have Rin struggled so much in the outside world with this kind of mentality?

And this is something, I think, Sae knew too—on that Snowy Night, he actually realised what Rin's real mindset was like and immediately knew that it just wasn't going to fly in the world stage. Sae was just saving Rin from the hardships he himself must've went through during his time in Spain—Sae was just looking out for Rin.

"What about those mean things he said to Rin?" you may ask, and that's exactly where the timeline comes into play—Sae was just a mess, and Rin's words were the breaking point for him.

"What words?" you may ask now, and these are the words:

Repeating myself, eyes are the window to one's soul:

Sae never broke his promise—Sae never stopped looking out for Rin.

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my baby my baby

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he's got a point

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imagine being hiori's online friend; you first met on league and bonded over trash talking your opponents. you found his calm, snarky insults hilarious, so you asked for his discord and steam. without fail, you game with him every night at eleven pm. at least, until he completely fell off the grid one day.

he didn't respond to your discord invite to call, nor did he even see your message asking to game. although you initially suspected he was ghosting you, you come to realise that he hasn't even been logging in to any of his games, which meant he hadn't been gaming at all. when a week passes and it's still radio silence from hiori, you get worried. you regret not asking him a little more about himself, because how useful can knowing he's from the kansai region be if something bad actually happened to him?

almost two months after his sudden disappearance, you get a message from hiori saying, "sorry, got locked in a facility without internet access. apex?", and what else can you say to that but "what the fuck?"

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hiori yo singlehandedly making the blue lock polycule a more complicated shape than it already was

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too many people forget that Bachira isn't just a sweet cheerful cinnamon roll.

he has an intense bloodlust.

he used to start fights in school all the time, his mom just confirmed he didn't just get into fights bc he got bullied. he got into fights because he insisted the sun was white not red.

that's not really normal, Bachira.

also, he tried to kick Kira in the head.

not eliminate him with a soccer ball.

he straight up assaulted him, just because it wasn't against the rules.

so.

he's more like Shidou than people realize, I think.

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sketch of my new fav duo

(They’re talking to Kaiser btw)

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I'm so happy that the animators finally drew Hiori the right way:

He looks so ethereal and beautiful—exactly like he was always meant to be. He's such a doll.

And how can we forget this:

Breathtaking. It's just so gorgeous that I want to cry. My eyes have been blessed. I'm so glad that I exist to see him.

World's most beautiful sadist🐑🩵

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Happy birthday Hiori , I hope one day you get the right to kill your parents

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chapter 284 be like

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Ness’s little signature im actually sick why is he the way that he is I need him to not be real for one second

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Honestly, if I were a police and you treat your kid like this in front of me:

Then I'm arresting you too.

I don't care if the kid is guilty or not because whatever they did, you are definitely somewhat, if not whole, the cause for it.

I still don't understand why this scumbag didn't get arrested straight away. Like, the police are allowed to arrest anyone even without a warrant if they witness a crime and what this waste of space did was a crime! And no, what he did can NOT be written off as an act of disciplining a child—breaking a glass bottle on a kid's head is just plain abuse.

It really makes my blood boil to know that they just cuffed him up and threw him in the cell when he should've been taken to the hospital first—I doubt whether he even received a first aid 'cause he still had dried blood on his forehead when Ray Dark came to meet him.

He was just 15 at this time. He deserved none of that.

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Everyone can headcanon whatever they want but whenever people say Hiori's a cozy game enjoyer, something inside of me dies

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As much as I'm happy for Blue Lock S2, I also want to gatekeep Hiori from the animation team.

There is some kind of emptiness in his eyes that I haven't quite seen in the few frames of anime he was featured. I'm afraid that they might, unintentionally, ruin his character design for me—I don't want him to just be a soft looking boy; his eyes told his story way before Manga did.

Even when he was visibly smiling or laughing, there was some kind of sadness that was always, unknowingly, lingering around.

Something about him felt melancholic, and everything made sense when his backstory was revealed.

You might think I've gone crazy, but he seems so free now after the Ubers match. It doesn't make sense, I know, but at the same time, it makes a lot of sense.

He was just a cheeky lil bastard all along after all.

Bless ya, ya ultrasadist.