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I am lost for words.

I don’t know what else to say.

Should I disappear for good?

Will that make it better?

xxx

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I am noticing slight changes after being on T for a month.

My speaking voice is huskier, and my belly fat is bigger haha!

Good thing I changed my diet to Low carb.

Let’s see what else will change after a year.

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It feels like I’m living as a ghost again.

Floating restlessly.

Life. Oh life.

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When I was young, I was rushing to grow up.

I came to realize that being a grown up is not an easy thing to do.

How I wish I could go back and be young again.

But, I can’t.

So, taking things as they are. And one day, it will be better.

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Thought of sharing this to everyone.

This pretty much sums up what I’m feeling at the moment.

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Yep. I am still alive.

I can’t believe it’s been that long since I last posted something. Maybe it’s high time to get back on writing again. Just typing random thoughts and emotions instead of bottling them all in.

I used to live in the land where the sun is always shining or you either get drenched in the rain. I now live in the land of the free.

I always find it hard to let all my feelings out. Afraid of getting rejected, misjudged and be called out for having typos and broken english. This is mainly the reason why I switched to posting pictures.

Then I got swept away. My time was occupied by a lot of things.

Work. Love. Life in general.

In 2016, I suffered from a mini stroke, or what they call an ischemic stroke. I thought back then, I wont recover from it. But hey, look, I am still alive!

So for those of you who have stumbled upon this blog and read through my sad, dreading post, thank you!

I hope, I don’t get too lazy to write another post. Thank you, Tumblr.

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Three Fifteen AM Ramblings

Fake faces. We keep wearing masks to shield away. Your inner voice, you keep it deep Shoved down. Smiling. Laughing. Do you see it?

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Finally, beach.

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We're almost here again.

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Life is indeed beautiful.

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There comes a time in our lives when we feel that we want to just end everything. Leave, walk away from everything, because the pain is too much.

Maybe, we just need to be healed. And maybe, asking for help is the answer.

We need a little help sometimes.

We shouldn't have to go through rough times alone.

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Should I leave it there? Should I give up? #ChasingPavements #Adele

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A moment. A love. A dream. A laugh. A kiss. A cry. Our rights. Our wrongs. (Taken with Instagram)

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#quoteoftheday (Taken with Instagram)

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Old enough to always feel this. I just want to be me. #Mayonaise #SmashingPumpkins (Taken with Instagram)

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Everything #Lifehouse #LyricArt (Taken with Instagram)

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Lego House #EdSheeran (Taken with Instagram)