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Ottos Bio you will love book.

Writing has always been a passion of mine, and being able to turn it into a fulfilling career has been one of my greatest achievements. My writing techniques and developing a unique literary style so about me Throwing stones in the water In the 1990s I owned Tattoo shops in and around Toledo Ohio, Life was good, I was almost in control of my demons, almost. One day this kid came in with his mother, he was maybe 16, and he wants a full sleeve tattoo, Left arm, mom has money and is going to allow the kid to get inked out. Problem is he that tossed an H.R. Gieger book on the counter, so the kid wanted me to tattoo dicks all over his arm, easy enough to do, but you have to try to be responsible to your trade. Hey a 16 year old wants a little something on their arm cool, its best to do it for them to keep them away from the guys that tattoo at home, but an arm full of Dicks? that's going to be noting but trouble for the kid. Marilyn Manson had just been in town, and had that he had stopped by my shop and hung out for a couple hours late one night before his show. Im still not sure if the odd looking guy who stopped in and talked religion and life with me was Marilyn Manson, but it looked a lot like him and he was cool, music stars would become common in the shop, as my tattoo shop was the only cool space to hang out near the concert venue, but that's another story. I figured the kid was caught up in the Marilyn Manson shit. Gay? Not Gay? Rib removed story's. For a rock star story's like that make you money, for a 16 year old kid in Toledo Ohio an full arm tattoo of nothing but Dicks is a sure way to end up in a lot of fights. So I told him that the Tattoo would cost $2,500 dollars, his mom about shit, until then she had been damned near mean to me over my questioning her Darling baby boy about his choice of ink, really an arm full of Dicks, He's 16 years old lady. Well the price tag shut down the idea of that tattoo and I am sure that much of how I told him that other kids would play with him about his ink helped him to decided that what some see as art other see as Dicks. Problem solved, not really, with in 7 years the kid would murder a girl friend in such away as to earn him life without parole, and he has stabbed several guys now over his being gay and not wanting to come out, someone in his family must not accept his sexuality, so he sneaks around messing with guys and then turns violent when people find out. Crazy. Now here's the trick, had I said fuck it and tattooed the Dicks all over his arm would he have killed his girl when she threatened to expose his secret? That's what happened, had he told the judge this he could have gotten a sentence that would allow him a chance at freedom, but he played hard core and got treated hard core by the judge. You see rocks tossed in the water, our every interaction with another person is like tossing rocks into a pool of water, wave upon waves splashing out crashing over innocent people. I feel for the kid, I wish that I had of tattooed him, forced him to face himself, after all an arm tattoo of nothing but dicks sorta tells everyone how you feel. I say all of this because we never think about how our actions cause other actions, on and on. We go through life never realizing how or actions live on long after we have forgotten doing them, sure there is the Karma deal,but this is about Child Abuse not that. You see I had grown up in an abusive home, my clothing never fit right so I tryed to wear things that I thought were cool and often got picked on at school when I was going, this led to me jumping pon kids the way that my step father jumped on me, I found out that you can be the odd kid if you can fight. So I tryed to save the kid from his choice of tattoos never once considering that he was gay, or that this tattoo was his way of coming out to his father, and now what I thought was a kind act as it turns out, it was not. I have killed a lot of people, its not bragging, just a fact. I had a dream after meditation/ praying one night, I saw a lake of Blood, the waves of blood had washed over the rocks on the shore leaving blood to dry like the scabs on my soul, instead of eroding the shore away, smoothing it into a beach, my lake shore line was covered in bloody scabs, and there out in the middle of the lake was this one tear drop of blood falling from that sky, a blood tear would strike the water and as the lake would ripple sending more blood to dry in scab shaped rocks another blood tear would from, gorw fat and heavy only then to fall and splash into the lake. My child hood left me messed up in ways that Google could never explain, you see there are victims of my own hands, my own actions, and of the way that I see the world. My child hood led me to be kind to the kid and to over price his tattoo, I was thinking that I was saving him from having to fight a lot at school. Marilyn Manson's star would fade and the is he gay or just cool trend would die with it. Had I thought about my new business I would have tattooed Dicks anywhere the kid wanted and it would have changed that kids whole life, the girl he killed would be alive, the pains both families felt never known. This is the affect of my Child Abuse, or more to the point my not getting treatments for my Abuse. I try to write books about stuff, this blog will be about the way Child abuse victims grow up and interact with the normal world. If there is really six degrees of separation between people, then there is only two degrees separation between the actions of people, so your world is affected by child abuse too. The angre guy you saw at work,the easy girl you learned about sex with, on and on, to the care takers at the nursing home who abuse grandmother's and stroke victim's when no one is looking. My name is Otto, and had I sought mental help, understood that my views on life where odd, I would not have a Lake of Blood for my soul.

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My partner  Otto has written a book called against the current  it is based on growing up around familys that have drug and alcohol addiction and how it leads to child abuse, may i add my partner is not in prison for any of these type of offences, but was abused as a child, which alot of the factors in his book he believes led him to wear he is today, The book will be out in time for christmas 2019, it will be on Amazon to buy, he has created a blog with some chapters fro his book, the money will be donated to various charities involved with child abuse which he feels very strongly about, olease show your support by sharing or liking this post also feel free to have a look at Ottos website blog to find out more, thank you in advance for all your support x

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This is the funniest proposal, from a cell, but i love him to bits and of course i said yes!!  <3 <3 xxxx

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miss you at christmas and always xoxo

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Miss you everyday xx

Well baby since we met you have been the only one who has kept to your word bout everything, you said youd call me everyday, you call me at least 3 or 4 times everyday without hesitation, you email me every day without fail apart from if jpay are having technical issues, but thats not your fault, we shared all our past with each other, the good and bad parts, we have got closer and closer every day and the longer we know each other the more i have come to love you, ive had opportunities to end us and times ive had chances to be with others, but to be honest i cant do it to you and wont do it to you, i made you a promise at the jump i was gonna ride this with you life or not, im in it with you and for you. i dont need or want anybody else, you have become my best friend yes weve had so many problems people bitching about us, and especially about me because of my past, they have emailed you wrote to yo, and gone out of there way to spoil it for us, but we have fought through it all and we are still together, the only time im ever gonna give up on you/ us is if you give up on me, but il admit if you did i would not give up on you easy. apart from all the bad stuff me and you have been more than happy together, we lave have loads of fun, you been there for me as much as you can when im having my down days and i always do my best to keep you level headed, and il keep doing this always, as long as you are my man, we will always be together, im not going anywhere you made it clear your not, ive really enjoyed last few months of 2019 since meeting you. you are my all, i love and miss you so much Otto, my Fallen Eagle. I cant wait to start 2020 a new year knowing we are together, Merry Christmas baby Love You always, Love yout Mini xoxoxoxo <----------<<<<<

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Love my otto very much xoxox

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Always love my inmate.

Sometimes when you're all alone, feeling lonely and so blue, wondering if I'm even thinking of you. Thinking I might find somebody else in the places that I go, but my Otto , there's some things you really ought to know. Forever and a day is how long I want you. Forever and a day I'll always be true. Just keep on believing the words that I say – I will always love you forever and a day. Far across the country, without you all night long, wondering what you're thinking and wondering if I'm wrong. The pain and the sorrow is much more than I can bear, all I want to do is reach out and tell you how much I care. Forever and a day is how long I want you. Forever and a day I'll always be true. Just keep on believing the words that I say – I will always love you forever and a day. I'm feeling like a stranger without you all the time. You're wondering if I'll believe you or if I'll say goodbye. I don't know what's going on, don't know where you've been, but if my love can't trust you, it would be my biggest sin. Forever and a day is how long I want you. Forever and a day I'll always be true. Just keep on believing the words that I say – I will always love you forever and a day.