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btw if you use google scholar, itll show you mostly scientific papers (or case law if you select that instead)

Heyo, I'm looking for [credible] resources on types of amnesia with systems [and the differences between the amnesia that osdd-1a, osdd-1b, p-did, did, etc systems face], because we've been realizing that our initial suspected dissociative disorder [we are not diagnosed] may not be as accurate as we thought.

If anyone would be willing to share links to scientific studies or credible medical websites—whatever it is you can find—with us, we would really appreciate it. I've been having a hard time finding them myself and it could just be that I'm not using the right keywords.

Any help is appreciated. Thank you :)

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Decided to share an experience that we had as we've been dealing with D.I.D or at least acknowledging it.

We discovered our D.I.D around 2020. (I know it sounds like every fakers story but stay and listen)

As we started we thought logging alters was necessary, that keeping track of who's fronting and everything was how you fit in and keep everyone in line. Very quickly we learned that was wrong and practically impossible while still going through abuse.

And we learned thats okay.

Young systems, you don't need to have all these alters written down/logged in simply plural/ told to the whole world.

Instead us young systems should let alters do their job. Trauma is what caused this and trauma and stress is what is going to continue to happen to our small brain. It's okay.

Don't stress it. Let it. You can personally know everyone, and sometimes write about your brain mates. But lets take it slow.

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ADVICE FOR NEWLY DISCOVERED OR SUSPECTED SYSTEMS

if you suspect you may be a system or have recently discovered that youre a system, things can be confusing and hard. im making this post as someone who has been aware of being a system for about 5 years and has been diagnosed for 2. these are things i wish we knew and did. i hope it will be helpful to some of you and i wish you luck on discovering things about yourself and your system keep in mind everyone is different and systems are no exception, so what i list here might be incredibly beneficial for one person but do nothing for another. find what works for you. i will try to provide a variety of advice in order for you to see what fits you best DO YOUR RESEARCH research the disorder, try to find others experiences and things you think would help you. this is especially helpful if you are suspecting and not yet sure if you have it, researching symptoms and others experiences can be very helpful in determining START SYMPTOM LOGGING this can be as simple as "i blacked out today" or "i dont feel like myself right now", you dont have to be identifying switches or putting names to alters, theres no rush to be able to do that and some systems have no desire to do that symptom logging is useful because it can help you identify potential triggers and patterns in your symptoms. for example, if you can remember what happened before a period of amnesia and remember being exposed to a stressful event or something potentially triggering, this would be worth writing down to see if its a recurring pattern REACH OUT TO OTHER ALTERS this can be done in a variety of ways, but the easiest way would be to leave a note in a place itll be seen. for example, a sticky note on a mirror (if you live with other people and cant do this, try leaving a note on your phone in a frequently checked app) i would advise saying something along the lines of "hello, i am (name) and i would like to communicate with you. i suspect we have a disorder called (DID/OSDD) and we share the same body and mind. please write back to me in (location, can be a notebook or app etc) and tell me some about yourself if you feel comfortable" but you can say whatever works for you. i just think the main points to cover are having DID/OSDD and introducing yourself as well as asking for an introduction in return START WORKING ON COMMUNICATION this takes a lot of practice, so i always say its better to build up early rather than late. we have a whole post on it that can be found here REMINDERS AND THINGS TO REMEMBER if you do not remember your trauma, do not dig for it. it isnt safe to try to remember trauma without professionals help. if you happen to remember, thats one thing, but dont intentionally seek out triggers to try to remember denial is common and not a sign of faking, if you were faking you would know and would not be in denial. being wrong about having DID/OSDD (if you are suspecting but not sure) is not the same as faking no two systems are the same. you dont have to look exactly like some other system you know or online to be real its normal to not know everything right away. you wont know all your alters immediately, you may not be able to access (and you may not have) your innerworld, you probably wont remember all of your trauma without professionals help, etc. its all normal its totally ok to keep information about your system private. there is no need to share with anyone you do not feel completely safe and comfortable with switching at any frequency is normal, there is no "correct" amount to switch. any amount of alters is normal, there is no "correct" amount of alters. any level of amnesia is normal, there is no "correct" level of amnesia apps like simply plural and bots like pluralkit can be incredibly helpful for some systems, but there is absolutely no pressure to use them if you do not feel comfortable - grey

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my head is clearer... but the amnesia isnt gone. its just become a more clear wall, luckily images and songs are more able to be accessed, and songs sound clearer, but the memories of the past are still not here, its simply tucked away somewhere else. eventually ill get to a point where i can safely stay grounded & maybe even hold onto new memories & maybe even after that ill remember the past, but its not today. and its not tomorrow. and its not this week. i hold out hope & try to repair whats broken & create new ties, new dreams.

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Random simplyplural formatting things I found out recently. behold:

click for better quality.

TL;DR:

the html entity "& ensp ;" <- remove spaces, tumblr just tried to eat it. is a blank space that acts like a typed character. You can use it multiple times in a row to get the effect of an indent. It can also do in-line formatting to add space between words, since its basically the same as a letter entity as far as i know.

the markdown formatting for an image, if you negate the URL, gets you yellow text. I don't think it's possible to change the color but...yk...yellow is cool too i guess. formatting = "[alt text here](url)". You can change this to be "[text](no url, just empty parenthasies)" to get yellow text. Found this from a google search.

If you're unfamiliar with markdown, the humble hashtag can get you headings in three sizes. Big = 1 hashtag, medium = 2 hashtags, small = 3 hashtags.

fancytextgenerator and coolsymbol dot com's font changers work because all of the "fonts" are actually fully accounted for html entities. Hence why you can copy paste **those fonts**, but not **any random font** found on say, google docs. This means they'll work in simplyplural as well.

This isn't a comprehensive list of tips by any means, but I found these out recently and thought I'd share since most simplyplural / markdown type things on tumblr are pre-made formatting things, not general how-tos. (as far as I know)

sincerely, Chatters A and B, who had immense fun with this.

Update: go to settings and accessibility and preferences and change the highlight color to change it from yellow to another color!!

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had a bit of restructuring in here and im not sure how to feel about this. its keeping my sanity at least? i guess? maybe? idk? the headspace is all mes-different- and outside the front area is a blizzard. im not sure if anything went unscathed. people are different, our body feels different, memories are more lost, etc. its not necessarily bad, its a bandage to stop the metaphorical mental bleeding, it just feels odd.

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i think it would be fun to make stmboards for ourselves :)

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i want sort things so so badly :(

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dealing with significant timeblindness ughhhhh

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i want it to hurt, i want to be angry, i want to be happy, i want to be sad, i already feel fear, i want to feel the entire human condition. i dont want to be an unfeeling unthinking marionette anymore. im tired of it.

im so so so tired of it.

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ogg

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i’m proud of all of u out there who were raised in abusive and manipulative households who didn’t realize they were displaying the same red flags as the people who raised them because they don’t know anything beyond it and who are actively trying to be better. the people who don’t know how to love people properly because the “love” they got growing up came with passive aggressive, guilt-tripping strings attached. the ones who feel guilt deep in their heart for the things they never meant to do to others, but didn’t even realize they were doing. it’s an uphill battle to recover from being a victim of abuse, especially seeing those traits that you despise so much in yourself, and try to be the best person you can be. i’m proud of all of u who are trying and i know u are capable of being the person you want to be

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I know I posted a video on tiktok about this but more people need to hear this

Don't date someone unless you can't handle all their disorders, let me repeat Do not date someone unless you can handle ALL their disorders

Don't date someone with a personality disorder unless you can handle the episodes

Do not date someone with a trauma disorder can you can handle the flashblacks

Do not date someone with mood disorder unless you can handle the mood swings

Do not date someone with a disorder you cannot handle

Do not date someone if you're going to villainize them or their disorders

Do not date someone if you're going to romanticize their disorders

It shows you have little to no understanding of their disorders or who they are as a person, it shows you can't truly love them because you refuse to learn the basics of the disorder, and it shows just how much of a shitty person you are

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being friends w systems is nuts cuz youll have a guy in the friend group that goes away for a bit and comes back like "i got out of the nightmare loop" or "sorry i was gone i got put in the torment nexus" and its not even an exaggeration they really were in the nightmare loop or the torment nexus for a week and are forced to be normal about it

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Me talking out loud to my headmates

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I think abt the left 4 dead 2 graffiti so often. Like they really had the human condition nailed huh.

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can someone stop them from pouring water on cyn in headspace thank you