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Mark's sleep schedule is honestly super chaotic. he spends his nights awake, afraid someone or something will break into his house; and he spends his days in class or at work trying not to fall asleep. One noise && he's up for the rest of the night, which is a pain for him when he has to get up so early. His early high school years especially were just hell for him, not at all helped by the fact he was commonly picked on for being so jumpy. He tries not to act tired, but it shows. He also tends to fall asleep in class very often, which makes that harder. He spends a lot of his nights awake either journaling or praying to find peace; that, or talking to Cesar on the phone if they're awake at that hour.

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@altertone left a message ; she's running up to mark, immediately pulling him into a warm, squeezing hug for seemingly no reason. // aka cesar bullied me until i logged in and let her give mark a hug.

Normally, Mark hated surprises. He preferred to be told what was going on before it happened; a quick heads up would usually be enough to qualm his worries. But -- now was one of the times he wouldn't complain -- he could never complain about anything Cesar gave him.

Mark wrapped his arms tight around Cesar, hugging her back as he smiled. " Hey, I was wondering where you were--!" He rests his head against her, immediately feeling comforted just by her being there. He would gently squeeze them after a moment, clearly very happy. " So .. uh, what's the occasion? " After all -- she had surprised him with this.

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every day is suffering.

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This fandom is, with no exaggeration, a literal actual cesspit. I’m so disappointed in how this fandom treats its artists and fans, and how it’s creator basically enables this horrible behavior. What a fucking shitshow. Imagine harassing multiple creators off platforms all because they don’t agree with you and immediately buckle when you antagonize them. All in all,

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" There's someone outside. " Mark tries to keep his voice to a whisper, but he's all but yelling into the phone as he tries to make his case. Mark knew he was paranoid, knew he was easily frightened. But this time he was being deathly serious. Only when he hears a noise outside does he go deathly quiet, phone clutched tightly in his hands. " -- Of course I'm sure! I can see them! " Suddenly, the phone goes dead in Mark's hands, and that opens the floodgates to full on panic.

From inside of the house, @re--verie can hear Mark beginning to spiral into a full-blown panic attack. He runs up && into his bedroom, scrambling to find the revolver && ammo he has in the drawer. He leaves whatever god-awful entity that's outside to hopefully leave him alone as the bedroom door slams shut.

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Mark preferred to stay away from the woods. It was far too easy to end up lost in the trees, and that was if he was even out && about in the first place. The stories of people going missing; of people dying in the woods; it was more than enough to scare Mark away. He wasn't stupid, nor was he determined enough to go charging into the woods for any given reason.

However, it was inevitable that he would end up near the woodland eventually. He walked down the path to his house from the Torres' household; taking chances to look around him every few minutes to make sure no one was following him. Mark was already coming to regret his nightly visit to see the family; internally cursing himself as his nerves were all but shot.

He looks up, and his body suddenly tenses. In front of him, stands a wolf -- blocking the path home. Mark takes a step back, trying to remember what to do when you encounter a wild animal like this. @wolfvirago would hear his panicked mumblings as he went deathly still, trying to think. " Shit .. Shit ... Shit .. "

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Although it wasn't entirely out of place for Mark to miss school; he still felt a bit bad about it. He'd already called out; but he was already expecting a certain someone to come over and make sure he was okay. Not that mark minded. He could be feeling at his absolute lowest and @altertone would still be welcome to come over. He still felt bad for it, though. Why did they have to waste their time coming over here? Just to hear Mark give the same excuses?

There's a knock on the door; just as he expected. and Mark pushes himself off of the couch, his current hiding space of the day, to go && answer it. He takes a moment to steel himself, before opening up.

"Oh-- Cesar--- Hey." Mark tries to act like he wasn't expecting them. In truth, he had already prepared an apology for them since they'd come over here to presumably ask why he'd missed class -- again. " .. Do you wanna come in?"

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here, have a starter call.

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✞ PRAYERANOIA ✞ ; god loves me unconditionally. always remember that no matter what the circumstance, god loves all of us simply because he has chosen to do so. he loves me, when no one else loves me. i am at peace. today is a day that i need god's love more than anything. i am alone and need to feel the warmth of his love && reassurance. my lord i am afraid. i beg for your love && protection against evil. || ©

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✞ PRAYERANOIA ✞ / an extremely headcanon based mark heathcliff from the mandela catalogue. / read the carrd prior to interaction. / established 10/9/22.