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Ayer hablé con un amigo y le dije a mi amigo "lo extraño, quiero volver hablar con el" y ell

pregunto que extrañaba, y ahi comence a recordar todas las cosas malas que me hizo, todo el dolor por el que pase durante 1años con 6 meses y hasta el ultimo dia y no supe que responderle, ahora mismo, solo tengo en la cabeza tanto daño que me hizo, mi amigo dice que el es un perverso narcicista, pero es dificil creer eso de alguien que creias torpemente que era bueno, ahora tengo que atravesar por el estres postraumatico que me dejo y es agobiante. Recuerdo todos sus insultos sus "abrase pa la puta mierda" "dejeme la hp vida en paz" "usted es una persona horrible y se va a quedar sola", y luego de preguntarle por que me trataba asi, decia que era mi culpa por sacarle la rabia, recuerdo las 3 infidelidades de las que me di cuenta, recuerdo todas las mentiras, recuerdo cuando le dijo a una de sus amantes que no se veia en un futuro conmigo, recuerdo que me hacia sentir usada en el sexo porque solo importaba el, recuerdo todas las mentiras, todas las humillaciones y desprecios, me hacia sentir tan sola, nunca me prestaba atencion ni se preocupaba por mi, si mandaba un audio o texto largo contando algo me decia que no iba a escuchar o leer eso tan largo, no escuchaba las canciones que le mandaba ni veia los videos que le compartia, todo el tiempo yo estaba rogando por que me diera unas migajas de atencion, un maldito cumplido o mendigando por una llamada, nunca le importaron mis lagrimas, que me sintiera mal o mi bienestar y me estoy preguntando que extraño??? Me ghosteo al final aun sabiendo que padezco de ansiedad y depresion me nego el hablar y solo me dejo en crisis, siento que todo al final lo hizo con la intension de hacerme daño, pero por que?? Yo nunca hice nada mas que amarlo y el es una persona horrible conmigo, sin embargo yo queria creer que iba a cambiar, trate de ser la mejor novia durante 1 años con 6 meses, nunca le menti o lo engañe, solo tenia ojos y corazon para el, espere sin verlo tanto tiempo por que tenia ilusion de un futuro juntos, pero mientras yo era buena el me apuñalaba y nunca entendi por que para el no fui suficiente si lo di todo de mi, por que no me amo nunca, por que me lastimaba cada que podia, por que me abandono, no entiendo por que y es una respues que estoy tratando de resolver en terapia, pero me jode pensar que en el mundo hay gente asi de mala y mas que hay posibilidad de volver a encontrar a un monstruo de estos, se me quitan todas las ganas de interactuar, de amar de conocer a alguien mas, me hace querer desaparecer.

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Yesterday I talked to a friend and I told my friend "I miss him, I want to talk to him again" and he

I ask what I missed, and there I began to remember all the bad things he did to me, all the pain I went through for 1 years and 6 months and until the last day and I didn't know what to answer him, right now, I only have so much damage in my head what he did to me, my friend says that he is a perverse narcissist, but it's hard to believe that from someone you foolishly believed was good, now I have to go through the post-traumatic stress that he left me and it's overwhelming. I remember all his insults, his "hug up to the fucking shit", "leave my life alone", "you are a horrible person and you are going to be alone", and after asking him why he treated me like that, he said that it was my fault for get the rage out of him, I remember the 3 infidelities that I realized, I remember all the lies, I remember when he told one of his lovers that he didn't see himself in the future with me, I remember that he made me feel used in sex because it only mattered He, I remember all the lies, all the humiliations and contempt, he made me feel so alone, he never paid attention to me or cared about me, if I sent a long audio or text telling something, he told me that I was not going to listen or read that long , I did not listen to the songs that I sent him or see the videos that I shared with him, all the time I was begging for him to give me a few crumbs of attention, a damn compliment or begging for a call, he never cared about my tears, that I felt bad or my well-being and I am asking what I miss??? In the end, he ghosted me, even knowing that I suffer from anxiety and depression, I refused to speak and only left me in crisis, I feel that in the end everything was done with the intention of hurting me, but why? I never did anything but love him and he is a horrible person with me, however I wanted to believe that he was going to change, I tried to be the best girlfriend for 1 year and 6 months, I never lied to him or cheated on him, I only had eyes and heart For him, I waited without seeing him for so long because he had dreams of a future together, but while I was good he stabbed me and I never understood why I wasn't enough for him if I gave my all, because he never loved me, because that he hurt me every chance he could, why did he abandon me, I don't understand why and it's an answer that I'm trying to solve in therapy, but it bothers me to think that there are people like that in the world and more than that there is a chance to meet again To one of these monsters, I lose all desire to interact, to love, to meet someone else, it makes me want to disappear.

[pr066tyy]

El era un ex pretendiente y como yo no quería andar con el, el tomo la decisión de manipularme, insultarme, amenazarme, infravalorarme, controlarme y humillarme, el sentía que tenía poder hacia ami por ser mujer piensa que por ser mujer soy débil y que no dire nada por pena el no tiene control hacia a mi y también tomo la decisión de abusarme y tocarme sin mi consentimiento, se aprovechó de mi, 3 años callada no lo permitiré más, es momento de que salga a la luz.

El miedo de la mujer a la violencia del hombre, es el espejo del miedo del hombre a la mujer sin miedo.

He was a former suitor and since I didn't want to hang out with him, he made the decision to manipulate me, insult me, threaten me, underestimate me, control me and humiliate me, he felt that he had power over me because I was a woman, he thought that because I was a woman I was weak and that I will not say anything out of pity, he has no control over me and he also made the decision to abuse me and touch me without my consent, he took advantage of me, 3 silent years I will not allow it anymore, it is time for it to come to light.

The fear of the woman to the violence of the man, is the mirror of the fear of the man to the woman without fear.