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When you have the literal worst family session EVER then you go to Walmart and side swipe someone’s parked car (I’m on my final straw I don’t think I can live anymore lol)

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YAY I GOT PAID (like half my paycheck is missing but I’m just gonna ignore that 😍)

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I get paid tmrw and my friends and I are going thrifting and I’m gonna get a new phone (like one of the $20 ones strictly for twitter and snap usage)

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getting a track phone tmrw lets goooo I can finally have snap and twitter again

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My disorder my rules straight trad male 😡😡

um update I couldn’t even made a dent in my binge I got so full so fast :( bleh. At least it was all free food from work tho lol

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Boutta have my first planned binge since probably last year. I’m so excited and I hope the bloating I get triggers me to get it the fuck together

OMG WAIT WHAT IF I WEIGHED MYSELF PRE AND POST BINGE LMAO ok I’m gonna do that hopefully I trigger myself really hard

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Unrealistic

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Why does my mom get to be homophobic to me while literally being married to a bisexual (my dads such a twink too like- 😭) like ok mom favoritism much

LIKE I LITERALLY JUST DONT WANT TO WEAR A DRESS TO MY COUSINS WEDDING AND SHES GOING OFF ON HOW GAY I LOOK/ PEOPLE WILL ASK ME IF IM TRANS..

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My cousins getting married tonight and I REALLY don’t wanna wear my dress because I look so ugly in it but my only other fancy clothing options are white 🧍‍♂️ tough

maybe I’ll just raid my dads closet lmao

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I just wanna be loved like lowkey

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All the ppl hyping me up on my body check post 🥹.. I’ve been really struggling with disassociation lately which has effected my restrictive habits (I can barely comprehend that I’m alive, I can’t add starving on top of that), and I’ve felt really terrible about my body. I’ve only gained ≈ 1.8 pounds but it’s more about the fact that I feel like a total failure when I’m not restricting. My body dysmorphia has also been terrible. The reassurance is really helpful 💗🫶, today I feel a lot better than I have as of late, and so I’ve been really productive- which may or may not be mania but idrc- and seeing all the comments has made me feel even better. Thank you 🤭

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Cross country training starts in a week or two and I hurt my hip really bad at work yesterday :( I’m worried I won’t be able to train a little on my own before conditioning starts

my friend suggested I try swimming so that I can still get in cardio exercises while keeping weight off my hip so I got a swimsuit and plan to start going to my neighborhood pool early in the morning (before the life guards get there because I don’t like being watched)

I’m kind of bloated and have gained a bit of weight these past few days but here’s a body check. Ignore the back and shoulder acne I’ve been trying to get rid of it for months but it’s not budging

‼️I AM POSING IN THOSE LAST TWO PICTURES BTW. WAS TRYING TO MAKE MY LEGS LOOK SKINNIER‼️

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I got genetic testing done and my result’s basically showed my depression is unresponsive to treatment 😍 love that

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needing to shit for the first time in days

🤝

Needing to need with psychologist in a couple of minutes

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“I’m gonna get back on track, watch my cal intake, and lose weight!”

*days begin to merge together while I just watch as if my life has become a movie. I begin to do something then forget what I was intending to do and why. I don’t feel alive and can’t do anything to stop the feeling that my life is flashing before my eyes*

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My cousin said he’d get me edibles 🤭