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Some sskk doodles

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will i get tackled if i say i dont really care about caitvi

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appreciation

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This isn't talked about enough.

Akutagawa here is adamant that evil must pay the price for its deeds. Kenji agrees with him, even recognizing the way he downplayed the harm done, because to Akutagawa, he was basically disregarding all of their hard work as something so easy to let go of. That it was as replaceable as a broken cup.

To Kenji, he may be used to it, so it really doesn't matter much, in the sense where they could just replant it, and just be glad that it wasn't all ruined. But to Akutagawa, it isn't everyday that he works so hard on something only to have it destroyed by a selfish someone you can exact revenge on. Someone who deserves the wrath and pain of ruining the genuine hard work and heart put into the rice paddies. Kenji recognizes and apologizes because he understands. And that's just so mature of him.

Not to mention that he agrees with Akutagawa's perspective and resentment to an extent, the 'may' showing that there are some things he doesn't agree with. He knows what it's like–and is completely fine with having to–to fight foes when talking things out doesn't work, because that's the only way they're going to listen and respect what he's trying to say to them. He's instilled fear and guilt into the hearts of those who have wronged him, and those who didn't alike, using it to his advantage. It's how he protects his loved ones from harm, so he sees no harm in embracing it.

The key difference here is that despite it all, he continues to bear no ill will towards any of his foes, with the circumstances taken into consideration. He'll probably never go as far as murder unless he was paying them back in like to what they did to someone he cared for. ‘Killing people is bad’, he did say, yes, but not everyone abides by their ideals under the heavy influence of grief and anger.

Especially not Kenji.

He would resort to murder in a fit of rage, and I really don't know how he'd feel about his actions after it passes. He's as kind as a saint in his own way, but he keeps a thick red line painted at hurting his friends.

So yes, he does believe retribution is important for those who wrong others, just how it's done depends on the severity to him; it's not all worth murder.

It'd take a long period of time, months upon months, before Akutagawa eventually widens his tunnel view vision. It'd be stupid to try to rush him instead of taking things at a slower pace, teaching him life lessons here and there when it called for it until things came full circle to form a slightly broader outlook, increasing his problem solving steps and not jumping to murder and threats at the slightest inconvenience.

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what if this scene was worse

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happy new year!! i hope everyone has a great 2025!

heres part 4 of some more old bsd pixel art roblox drawings I did!

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Gay people again! Eek!!

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macaron

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hourly akutagawa update he looks beautiful as usual

he gets even more beautiful by the hour even.....augh... time bends to worship him instead of wearing him down

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I have finally obtained hatred. I am no dog, no beast. I am a human with emotions. Thus, there is nothing I can do but retaliate

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i went through a decent amount of biographical information on higuchi ichiyo before i touched the translations of her writing and: i think i've seen people commenting on her unrequited love for her literary mentor as adjacent to her love for akutagawa, which is understandable + probably a part of it, but the aspect of it that had eluded me before was that... akutagawa doesn't have many similarities with that mentor beyond higuchi's senpainoticeme-isms (/affectionate).

the mentor in question was insincere and charismatic and untrustworthy, and ichiyo was bitterly disappointed in + eventually disillusioned by him. which this is just to say that it took going through her prose writing to see: what ichiyo did love that i think asagiri pulled from was unfortunate characters who were raw/unpolished/sincere/angry and just needed a chance to be saved.