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My weary ass, navigating mild delusions and genuine needs: I should probably take Dave's advice before the reminder on my leg fades.
The genius hunk of my brain that learns like an AI that figured out the best way to avoid losing a digital game is to pause it: I can see that you really don't want to do that, Dirk. Just re-cut the word, and it won't fade. Let me know if you have any other concerns <3
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On a lighter note, I realized my only experiences with the Wii were havin' a blast on the included games with Soup and Tom for four hours before Mother came in and shrieked at us until we never touched it and its many additionally purchased games again. The last time was when she got him arrested, and we got to play Animal Crossing at our neighbor's house.
One of these days I am buying myself an aged, yellowed Wii, and fosterin' my inner child into a bowling league legend on Wii Sports.
#17#It was probably because we were about eight. But I didn't remember havin' that much fun on a console before.#Let a dude flail his way through a tank battle.
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Workin' on obligatory better self-treatment, I suppose, so I've been taking this as hilarious instead of pathetic, but imagine bein' so down bad for the idea of anyone fighting for you that you up and die when your brain clues in that most people will never get that privilege, and that some things are out of your control. I am more genuinely embarrassed about that point of critical failure than I am about being the creepy, lazy piece of shit I am every day, because at least I just don't... Give a fuck.
I refuse to go out because I waited to death. Dude.
#17#I take back what I said about finding it funny. My head is back in my hands on review.#I know I keep yappin' about how I'll do this and that differently from him.#But his presence has been hauntin' us for two extremely painful years now and we are getting old. Lol.#I think that's part of why Dave's been so important to me and Sunder was so important to Tues.#Even locked up we've been able to reach out to new people more than he was ever able to.#That rules.#And I'm proud of me.#And the rest.#But mostly me.#We have a future outside of sittin' around and prayin' for any and all forgiveness and he couldn't see that.#We can move on.
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Having an event planned in the distant horizon reminded me that I've been living with the reservation of knowin' the other guy might return and I'll have to hand everything over. He hasn't, and there's a decent chance he never will. I may be the one who celebrates our 30th birthday, our 40th, our 60th. Fuck the shame of living a borrowed life, this life is fucking mine now, and I'm seeing MCR in August.
#17#Changes nothing but my internal pride of course.#I refuse to give in to the delusional guilt of being alive.#His mistakes won't be mine.
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Duke: change za discord profile back 2 me so i can make the status "i paint her face know im an artist"
Me: A bar of gold would not sway me, I don't know why you think that argument would.
#hey check out DRESS 2 IMPRESS by lucien gray lawl#show my girl mr hands on the first date ✋️🐎#14#17
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real shit iv been tryin 2 post for dayssss fuck man no reason for zis treatment is discrimination
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wtf lol now i get to post? ik which mods r on my shitlist. pmo fr. smh. etccccc
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yuh yuh big man in town got wings for dayzzzz small shits for small fry its all about zem big thingz
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Fuck, I haven't woken up so suicidal it feels dangerous in a while.
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#Peace in making plans. Peace in envisioning them.#Glory fulfilled.#Just imagining it is nice. So close.#Whatever. Small pains are a win anyway. I'll take what I can get.
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My favorite thing about Severence so far is actually just Helly's joy after she finally settles on her plan. She did a great job capturing that sort of gleeful peace of knowing you're about to do something right for once.
#17#Great show. It was immediately clear what she settled for when she started expressing the most lightness we see from her in the series.
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Shooting through the meaty part of my left calf would snap me back into place. I just know it.
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On the one hoof, I will choose to be good. On the other, who really gives a shit. If it calms everything down, that's already more help than anything else this last year has been.
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Why do I get the burgeoning feeling that it doesn't matter, and probably never will.
#I am begging and beseeching my entire brain to get over it before we backslide even more than we have been.#The urge to excise the feeling through little drops of blood is back.#17
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