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My goal in life

My main goal in life is to succeed. Ever since I was a kid I was frequently ask about what do I want when I grew up? Well, I don’t know what am I supposed to answer, but I keep on thinking about being a teacher. As time goes by, my dream about being a teacher vanished, I don’t know why but I feel like it’s not suitable for me. Before this pandemic happens, I keep on thinking about being a successful Pilot someday, and I guess this career really suits myself. My family believe me and keep on supporting me about my dream, they always tells me to do my best so that I will be successful someday. When I become a successful pilot, I will give my family the life they deserve, we will travel, eat everywhere, buy whatever they want, and live their best life. I also want to give them their dream house, buy a luxurious car and buy myself a condominium. That’s why I’m doing my best so that I will be successful in life.

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Letter for Parents

Dear Nanay and Tatay,

I'd like to say thank you for always supporting me, accepting me as I am, and loving me every part of me. Thank you for being there through my ups and downs. The way you care about me and my siblings, the way you show your love, I do really appreciate each of those. I'd like you to know how thankful I am to have both of you. I don't know what did I do to deserve this kind of living, i can't really express it thru words but I'm doing my best to show my love to the both of you. Thankyou for giving me the life every child wants, and being such loveable and wonderful parents. Without both of you, I don't know where I would be for real. My life would be such a disaster without the two of you. Thankyou for respecting my side, space and my privacy. Thankyou for being there when I'm in pain and sharing my tears with me, thankyou for making me happy as always. I'm doing my best so that I can give you the life you deserve, I promise you after I graduated I will look for a job so that I can give the both of you everything you want.

Love,

Pauline

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Orange and Lemons

Sino ba namang makakalimot sa bandang Orange and Lemons at ang mga sikat nilang mga kanta? Simula noon, hanggang ngayon ay gustong gusto ko parin talaga ang nga tugtugin nila, maganda ang topic nang bawat kantang ginagawa nila. "Umuwi kana baby", "Pinoy ikaw ay pinoy, Ipakita sa mundo", ilan lamang iyan sa mga linya mula sa sikat nilang mga tugtugin. Kailan man ay hinding hindi ko iyan makakalimutan. Kaya naman hanggang ngayon ay nasisita pa rin ako ng mga tao rito sa amin kung bakit daw paulit ulit nalamang ang mga tugtuging aking pinakikinggan, mayroon naman daw mga bago at mas maganda. Hindi ko alam sa kanila, lalo na sa mga gaya kong kabataan ngayon, lahat nalamang ay sinisita nila pati music taste ay ginagawa na din nilang standands. Pero isa lamang ang masisiguro ko at yan ay masaya ako kapag nakikinig ako ng mga classical songs mula sa mga tanyag na banda. Kuhang kuha nila ang aking puso lalo na sa mga kantang ginagawa nila. Hindi nakakasawang ulit ulitin ang musika nila, kahit siguro makadalawampung ulit na ay hindi ko pa rin mamamalayan dahil sadyang nakakaaliw at nakakarelax ang mga kanta nila. Minsan pa nga ay kahit saan ako pumunta ay dala dala ko ang aking headphones para lamang makinig sa kanila.

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Apo Hiking Society

Isa sila sa pinakaunang OPM bands dito sa atin kaya't hindi natin maitatanggi na napakaganda ng kanilang mga kanta. Hanggang ngayon ay pinapatunog pa rin ito sa iba't ibang lugar sa pilipinas. Nagdadala rin ito ng saya sa akin, dahil sa tuwing naririnig ko ito ay naaalala ko ang aking lolo na yumao na, paborito n'ya ang mga kanta nila noon, kaya't hanggang sa mawala siya ay dala dala ko pa rin ang ala-ala na kami'y magkasama. Lagi niyang kinakanta sa akin ang kanta nilang "batang-bata ka pa" kaya hanggang ngayon ay naaaliw pa rin ako sa mga tugtugin nila. Sa tuwing pinakikinggan ko ang mga awitin nila ay parang bumabalik ako sa pagkabata, yung tipong wala pang problema at wala pang mga bagay na kailangan isipin yung tipong tatakas kalang sa tanghali para makapaglaro sa labas. Ganon ang pakiramdam ko kapag pinakikinggan ko ang kanta nila. Ang Apolinario Mabini Hiking Society, kalaunan ay kilala bilang APO Hiking Society, o simpleng APO, ay isang grupong musikal na Pilipino.[2] Nagsimula ang grupo noong 1969 sa mataas na paaralan ng Ateneo de Manila, na may 15 miyembro:[2] John Paul Micayabas, Lito de Joya, Sonny Santiago, Gus Cosio, Renato Garcia, Chito Kintanar, Kenny Barton, Bruce Brown, Butch Dans, Kinjo Sawada, Ric Segreto Macaraeg, Goff Macaraeg, Doden Besa, Jim Paredes, at Boboy Garovillo. Ang pangalan ng grupo ay nilikha mula sa acronym na AMHS na kumakatawan sa kanilang paaralan na may nakakatawang twist na mayroong walang paggalang na pagtukoy sa rebolusyonaryong intelektwal at bayani ng Pilipinas, si Apolinario Mabini, at kalaunan ay pinaikli sa "Apo", isang Ilokano na termino para sa isang matalinong tao o isang terminong Tagalog ng mga apo, at kalaunan ay muling binansagan ng "APO" (all caps). Taliwas sa popular na paniniwala, ang pangalang "Apo" ay hindi tumutukoy sa pinakamataas na tuktok ng Pilipinas, ang potensyal na aktibong stratovolcano na Mount Apo. Reference: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/APO_Hiking_Society

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Parokya ni Edgar

Lahat tayo ay may kanya kanyang iniidolo at sinusuportahang mga banda. Pero para sa akin Parokya ni Edgar pa rin ang tumatak sa aking puso at isipan. Sila ang pinaka paborito kong OPM bands, hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa saya na naiibibigay nila sa akin o dahil sa mga taong napapasaya ng kanilang musika. Hinding hindi ako magsasawang pakinggan ang musika nila lalo na ang kantang "buloy" ito ay tungkol sa kaibigan nilang nagpakamatay, akala ko nung bata pa ako ay normal lamang ito dahil masayang pakinggan ngunit habang ako ay tumatanda ay na rerealize ko na mali ang aking naging pagintindi rito dahil ito ay tungkol sa kalungkutang dala ng kanilang namayapang kaibigan. Kahit siguro ako ay tumanda ay mas gugustuhin ko pa ring pakinggan ang mga kanta nila. Pangarap ko noon na makita sila sa personal kaso ay mukhang hanggang pangarap nalamang nga talaga ako. Sana ay patuloy pa rin ang paglikha nila ng magagandang awitin dahil sadyang nakakatuwa at nakakagaan ng loob ang bawat awiting ginagawa nila. Halos kanta lamang nila ang laman ng aking playlist. Hindi ko alam kung paano nabuo ang kanilang banda at kung paano nila nagawa ang kanilang pangalan, hindi ko alam kung sino ba talag sa si edgar at bakit Parokya ni Edgar ang pangalan nila. Noon pa lamang ay sikat na sikat na sila dahil nga hindi lamang musika ang dala nila kundi na ang pagpapasaya na rin sa mga tao. Kaya nga siguro gustong gusto ko ang mga awitin nila.

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Silent Sanctuary

Gustong gusto ko rin ang mga kantang ginagawa nila. Nakakarelax ito at nakakapagbigay saya sa akin. Kapag feeling ko ay broken ako, kahit hindi naman ay kanta nila ang madalas kong pinakikinggan. Hindi ko alam kung bakit mas gusto kong pinakikinggan ang mga lumang kanta. Mas nakagawian ko na rin sigurong ito lamang nang ito ang aking napaparinig kahit saan ako mapunta. Nabuo ang Silent Sanctuary noong 2001 kasama ang tatlong founding member na sina Norman Dellosa (vocals, guitars), Paolo Legaspi (bass guitar, backing vocals), at Allen Calixto (drums).[kailangan ng banggit] Bilang lumalaking banda, nag-eksperimento sila sa kanilang musika sa paghahalo ng mga klasikal na instrumento para makagawa ng kakaibang tunog, idinagdag ang ikaapat na miyembro, ang kaklase ni Norman sa high school na si Anjo Inacay (cellist) sa line-up. Noong 2002, hiniling silang mag-guest sa In the Raw ng UnTV kung saan hiniling ni Anjo kay Jett Ramirez na gumawa ng string arrangement para sa kanilang pagganap. Mas maraming string instrumentalist ang sumali sa kanila sa nag-iisang episode na iyon. Nang maglaon, parehong tinanong sina Jett Ramirez (violist) at Chino David (violinist) bilang mga pormal na miyembro ng banda. Ang pangalang Silent Sanctuary ay likha ni Dellosa. Noong Pebrero 2004, naglabas sila ng independiyenteng ginawang full-length na album sa Millennia Bar and Cafe sa Kamuning na pinamagatang Ellipsis of the Mind.[1] Sa parehong taon, umalis si Dellosa sa banda. Reference: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Silent_Sanctuary

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Eraserheads

Sila ang isa sa pinaka paborito kong OPM bands hindi lang dahil sa sikat sila kundi dahil mayroong puso ang mga kantang ginagawa nila. Hindi ako nagkamaling suportahan ang banda nila dahil sadya namang napakahusay ng mga sinusulat nilang kanta. Sadyang makakarelate ka sa bawat kanta nilang iyong mapapakinggan. Kadalasan ay kanta nila at kanta ng iba pang OPM bands ang aking pinapatunog sa tuwing ako ay may ginagawa. Musika nila ang nakakapagpagaan ng aking loob sa tuwing ako'y nalulungkot. Para bang bumabalik ako sa nakaraan kapag pinapatunog ko ang kanilang mga kanta. Ang Huling El Bimbo ang pinaka paborito kong kanta nila. isa sa mga tanyag na Pinoy alternative rock na banda sa Pilipinas noong kasikatan ng alternative rock noong unang bahagi ng dekada 1990. Tinuturing ang Eraserheads bilang ang banda na nagbukas ng pintuan upang magtagumpay ang ibang bandang Pilipino katulad ng Rivermaya, Parokya ni Edgar, at Yano. Tinatawag sila kadalasan ng kanilang mga tagahanga bilang "E-heads." Hinggil sa malaking impluwensiya at ambag nila sa musikang Pilipino ngayon, kadalasang tinatawag silang "The Beatles ng Pilipinas." Nakuha ng banda ang pangalan na ito mula sa "Eraserhead" na gawa ng suriyalistang direktor na si David Lynch habang nagbabasa ng magasin. Tumutugtog sila ng mga awitin ng ibang banda at sumasama sa mga gig sa paaralan na napapasukan nila. Kalaunan, tumugtog din sila sa mga rock club sa Maynila. Hindi sila nakakuha ng ganoong kalaking tagumpay mula rito. Reference: https://tl.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eraserheads

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December 2021

The 12th month of the year is December. It's the season of giving, as well as joy and love. It is always the month to which the majority of people look forward. It's that time of year when everything seems to be so wonderful and alive. Everything in it is always apparent and evident, including the pleasant atmosphere, the jolly music played on the radio, the shimmering Christmas lights, the jingling bells, and the presents beneath the Christmas tree. It's one of my favorite months, if not the most, favorite months of the year for me. It's not just because of December 25, but the entire month. The holiday season is one of my favorites. I enjoy seeing everyone's holiday decorations and seeing how creative they can be. I adore the joyous giving that so many people partake in. It's the one month of the year when I feel like the entire community comes together to help one other.

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November 2021

November 18, 2021, This is the day where we celebrate my nanay’s birthday. She’s already 56 and still the most gorgeous and stunning person I’ve ever met. I can’t really imagine how she handle me and my siblings. She’s second of the most strongest person I’ve ever known, the first one is my tatay. So, as usual we throw up a simple birthday celebration, we cook some food, and invited all of our close friends. After a while my nanay came home na, and inayos na ni kuya yung sound system or karaoke. That night was full of joy, I can see it in my nanay’s eyes. There is an unexpexted thing to happen… my nanay’s friends come to the celebration, they are complete, they also brought some foods and fruits. After a while, they started to party and drink some alcoholic beverages, they sing, dance and anything. That’s how we celebrate my nanay’s birthday.

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October 2021

October 2021, such a great month. The weather turns cooler, feels a lil bit breezy. Didn't really feel any special about this month, but this is such a great month. When you open your eyes and instantly close it because the weather is really really good and makes you feel sleepy, yeah that happens a lot not just bu the month of october. So basically this is the time where we visited the grave of our love ones who passed away, they give us a schedule on when we can visit the cementery. It is such a hassle because you can't be there exactly November. They won't let you enter the cementery unless your baranggay is on sched. Guess i'd spend my october really well, i can't say anything about this month

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September 2021

The long wait is finally over. The month of September, this is where our online class starts. I'm super duper happy for this new world. I do feel like I'm an independent person because i don't know anyone in the class, i don't have such a friend, everything is new to me. I know that i can do it, my mom always tells me to give my best and not to give up. She even said that being alone in the first place is really hard but i will get used to it. I should know how to be alone because everyone won't stay for long. I'm happy to share everything with my nanay and tatay what happen in my first day of class. It's kinda weird but as time goes by i'm getting used to it.

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August 2021

Still waiting for the class. Another month of kaboringan sa life. Have you ever feel bored even though you are doing something? I do feel that always, i keep waiting and waiting until someone message me about our class, i immediately respond and after that, someone added me to our clases group chat. My classmate are really really joyful, i know that they will be such a good friend. I'm really excited as in, i can't express it thru words but i'm really excited for the class to start. That is my first time to go to private school and take online class. It is such a pleasure for me to start another friendship and to grow with a different circle of friends.

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July 2021

The month of July. I guess the last week of July, we go to Taal to enroll myself. i know it's almost late but yes umabot pa po ako. I know na this month will be really really good for me. Just take a look at this picture i'm kinda glowing for a little bit, but that glow didn't last for long, as if it is just a free trial. So, back to the topic, i didn't really know why i enrolled myself here, but it is the greatest choice that i have made. I am completely enrolled and ready for the class. It's kinda boring to wait that ling but i know na it i would be really worth it. I'm excited for the class and keep waiting and waiting. That's all, i guess

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June 2021

I don't know what happen this month, but as far as i remembered I do only stayed and do nothing in our house. I just keep entertaining myself by doing some chores or editing something or what. I have no idea for real, i can say that this month is the most boring among all of the months that i ever encounter i can't even remember such a thing that i do this month. Maybe i forgot something? or i forgot some special event, i really can't imagine what happen that month. I think i'm just waiting for my card to release, oh i we did take our grad pic that month because we're graduating. But nothing really happen much that month except for the grad pic and graduation. My nanay just cook bilo-bilo para daw swerte or what. Then that's it, that is what happen in the month of june, really boring.

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May 2021

Nothing special in this month, but this is my favorite month. I wake up with a smile on my face, and try to get up early in the morning. Drink some milk and sit outside just to watch those loud noises from the vehicles. The sun hasn't yet risen, and there's a bit coldness in the air. Still sitting at our terrace and trying to observe the silence. And soon after, the sun appears and bringing beautiful colors in it. I should cherish this moment because it won't last that long. This month is a really really hot 'cause it is summer, so what do we do when summer comes? Yes, we do swimming, but we can't go outside because of this pandemic. For me to escape the hot weather i do take a bath atleast twice a day so that i will feel fresh and stay fresh. And yeah that's how i spend the month of May.

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April 2021

April is my birth month, this might be the saddest birthday na naexperienced ko, wanna know why? It's not actually about the gifts or foods that they offered you, but it's all about how they showed love and happiness. Guess what? The moment I saw my mom, she immediately greeted me, as well as everyone i saw that day, but i don't see any sincerity in their words, they just greet me? is that it? what am i looking pa ba? they already greeted me na and i don't know why am i expecting for more. I do always think why this world is so unfair for me, I always showered them with sincerity, respect, and anything else, but how about me? I'm always at their back, but who got my back? Well, those are my birthday thoughts, it's kinda sad for me but i do accept it naman. I know na I'm getting old na and I'm really supposed to feel this. I just don't know but I'm still gratefull to have them, i do love them the more i love myself.

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March 2021

The month of March brings hope in mine, as you can see i look much better here, but i look too tired pa din. I'm still on my process of healing but I'm happy because I'm making a progress. This month makes me feel like i can do whatever i wanted to do, i feel free, i feel hopeful. Though this pandemic gives me stress, i do feel like i can, yes I can, and I will. I trust this process even though it barely makes a move, but atleast i know that I'm moving, I'm having a progress and that is the most important thing. Knowing that I'm in the process of healing i do remembered that the purpose of our lives is to be happy.