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There’s a bunch of right-wing people posting memes about “”DOGE”” making the government more efficient by removing funding from “”dumb bug researchers”” and I am now realizing how little the average person knows about entomology and its importance

Excuse me while I get sad .

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24 years ago(I was 17 at the time) I scrambled up a hill, one of the tallest hills in town. it was an old landfill that had been capped off. and some how that's just fucking fitting. we got wed on a pile of literal trash.)and did a little ritual where I handfasted this hot mess. i guess i read mound or hill or whatever in one of the pagan books and took it very literally. but yeah- wouldn't have had it any other way.

on the 19th, anyway. Hahaha.

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Hey Al! I've come to pester you >:3 with....questions!

🎨: What are some activities you and S/I enjoy doing together? Do you two write together? Maybe play games together?

🏆: What are things about S/I that they feel self conscious about, but that you personally LOVE hyping up about them? Things that make you go "DAMN RIGHT. THEY'RE MINE." To others about?

🌹: If you were to pluck a gift from anywhere, any time, any location, what would you nab from the cosmos for S/I?

>:3 mwahahahahaha! Questions three I throw upon thee! Answer truly, you will do your duty, YES

(Hi hi! Happy F/ovember!)

Oh uh- okay! Hello there! Let me see here.

🎨: What are some activities you and S/I enjoy doing together? Do you two write together? Maybe play games together?

Yes! We actively write together, often times I write my own parts for the various projects we have going. (there's a version of me in Shimmer and Somewhere In Maryland where I write my own parts!) Sometimes I'll play games, usually Bootleg Pokemon (Palworld) which involves a lot of swearing on both sides. " Don't blow me up don't blow me up fuckfuckfuckfuckFUCK." Which is hilarious when we're both on call with friends who have zero context of what's going on. Hiking is a major one, and we often go for very long walks at night. My favorite is under the moonlight when everyone else is asleep. Others would say 'that isn't safe'.. but with Tala passing as a 30 or 40 something year old dude I'm not terribly worried. Plus you know I'm There and no one wants to fuck around and find out.

🏆: What are things about S/I that they feel self conscious about, but that you personally LOVE hyping up about them? Things that make you go "DAMN RIGHT. THEY'RE MINE." To others about?

Hmm... they habit of rambling on about things they enjoy, their art, their writing. They do this cute thing when they're nervous or sleepy or whatever where their left eye wanders inward (Strabismus) and it's so fucking cute. They mispronounces words due to another disease or stumble over them sometimes, and while they have been bullied and nagged at for it in the past for not trying hard enough, when ever they do it my heart melts because it's such a cute thing that they do. I know what word they're trying to say, and its become a inside-joke now where we both will call things the 'wrong' name.

🌹: If you were to pluck a gift from anywhere, any time, any location, what would you nab from the cosmos for S/I?

Ahh, hmm. See I'm thinking big, here. But... I had to say land. Because you shouldn't be able to 'own' land. But with that said; somewhere on the coast - somewhere in Northern California where he could build a homestead and have a large enough piece of land where no one would bother them, and life off the grid with solar power and all the other necessities they would need. A more tangible thing and less 'land'-- a 1991 38 ft Baja (it's a boat) We had a lot of good memories on one of those, well, healing times. When things weren't great and there were terribly abusive individuals in his life (16-22), and he wasn't in a position where he could establish boundaries and get away.. but, we at least had that boat. When the world was smaller, and he felt safe out there on the water where no one could really reach him, besides me. And I would love to bring him that security again.

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on the 19th, anyway. Hahaha.

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For everyone scared or worried or just well, things looked kinda terrifying. Trust me, I know.

But we're gonna survive this. For better or worse. If you're marginalized in any way- and want some extra protection the next coming four years, I'm gonna give you a little chaos magick egregor spell, okay?

Get a little sachet, or baggy:

collect things that remind you of your f/o and put them inside it, herbs, charms, stones, keepsakes, anything at all. Keep it on your person, and with the idea that because it's on you; it will help your f/o protect you.

It's silly and there's *eye roll* "no scientific evidence that even works." (Alhazad I MEAN COME ON- quit being secular for .2 seconds) but- it's something and at the very least when you're scared and alone when you slip your hand into your pocket and feel it in between your finger tips it will be a tangible reminder that you are loved, that you will be okay, and that your f/o will do anything with in their power to protect you.

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Almost 7 minutes long but worth watching if you're planning on having top surgery

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Halloween in Hanbok. These illustrations are featured in my 2025 Wall Calendar available in my shop now! 🎃🎃🎃💀💀💀

SHOP

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I love soulmates but also this-

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your moles are places where your f/o has kissed you btw idk if anyone knew that

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This was the driving force that got me through high school, through the horrible situations I ended up in my 20s, and then by my side- unyielding in my 30s as I dumpster dive for food, then there when I nervously signed the loan papers for my house- terrified as I was given the key and walked around the old house that needed work- that would be my home- no, Our Home. It's been 4 years since I finally did the level up adult hood and bought a home which is (our home) we share- things of him there, art here and there. Stuff that just makes it what it should be, and I wish I could go back in time to 2000 and tell little 16 year old me; it's gonna be okay, and Al loves you and will never ever leave your side. Because a lot of terrible shit happened in between when we 'met' and now, how he was always there- this loving supportive spirit that had my back, and kept me floating when shit got very difficult. And there is many anxieties with the future, but no matter what happens, No one can take what I have with him away from me. And that's all that matters.

Thinking about the future makes me feel quite anxious and uncertain at times. But something that reassures and comforts me a surprising amount is the knowledge that my f/os will always be here with me in spirit. No matter how things change, no matter what challenges I face in life, I have no doubt these characters will remain a consistent source of strength, inspiration and self-love.

Just as your f/o(s) will, for you ♥️

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ohmhghhghhhh

you ever see a drawing of your f/o that's so FGUUCKING delectable you just

HWGEHDHGHEJDHDH

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Id love to do trades too, honestly.

i wanna do selfship art trades but like barely any of my moots are selfshippers😮‍💨need more selfshipping moots....

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today im thinking about the huge buff bread guy from kikis delivery service. highly underrated guy

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"For the Wolf, we originally considered a stylised CGI model, but that would've cost millions. That's something an American studio can afford, but not a Czech fairytale movie. So we had to resort to puppetry."

*whips out a puppet Jim Henson would be proud of*

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Every therapist that I have had seen Aubrey/Alhazred/Alhazad as a healthy spiritual thing. They didn't fully understand it- but they respected it. One drilled me questions about Aubrey and just was all "...yeah that isn't something I'm familiar with but whatever he is, he keeps you grounded in reality."

One had a theory that it was a form of self love, of my higher self looking out for me, and taking care of me. Setting up Standards for the friends and people that I should keep in my life. Not to settle for being abused and taken advantage of.

I've got *checks* 25 years experience with this- and I wish I had known about this as a *thing* when I was in my teens. Because..it would have saved me a lot of added trauma, heart ache, time, and fuck - money.

I think it’s funny when outsiders say “that can’t be healthy” when they learn about self shipping. I have yet to find a single member of this community that has had negative impact on their mental health because of participating. I’ve only seen people who have finally found a supportive place to share their creative works. People who have finally learned how to give themselves, in the form of letting their f/o love them. People who say the hobby and community saved their lives or gave them something to live for. It is the furthest thing from unhealthy.