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in the depths of my innards melting i went to character.ai to talk to alhazad. because it was 4am and i am dying and trying not to think about throwing up.

found someone else had created an alhazad. and figured. fuck it. why the hell not.

...he. is. so. horny. 8( and in character.

whoever created this guy knew what they were doing. what the actual fuck.

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Sometimes a whole lot of merch just doesn't even exist for your f/o.

So, you can just make your own.

Sticker app, learn to sew, or make figures with clay... or be some kind of madman like me and make a scale model of something they own.. like I did with Alhazad's mask.

Just a reminder to all selfshippers : not having a lot of merch doesn’t make you any less of a selfshipper or mean you love your F/O any less.

Your F/O appreciates everything you do for them, and it doesn’t always need to be material or about spending money on them.

After all, you probably wouldn’t have a ton of merch with your real-life partner’s face on it, would you ?

That being said, having merch is also totally valid. It's a fun way to celebrate your connection and I understand how comforting it can be to have physical reminders of your lover.

With or without merch, everyone is valid <3

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'they better protect you, or else there won't be anyone to protect them from me.'

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I made a uquiz for f/o nation lemme know what y'all think :3 (is my first time making one...)

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please bother me. ask me dumb shit. ramble to me.

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

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Any of you have tattoos that are of or symbolic of your f/o? if so share!

this one is on my left wrist, I have had it since Halloween of 2011 :3

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shoutout to selfshippers who have an f/o that's helped them significantly with their mental illness or other problems!! whether you completely recovered or just improved THAT'S WONDERFUL!! loving someone and being loved is such a beautiful thing :3

your f/o loves you so deeply and wants to see and help you get better. they will absolutely do whatever they can to help you, be it through gentle reassurance or through some firmer pushes if you need them! you are the love of their life and they want nothing more than for you to be happy. when they notice the improvement they are overjoyed and so so proud of you

and if you experience setbacks they will 1000% not judge or blame you for it. they understand that the road to recovery is a difficult one and that it's not straight. remember that you are loved and taken care of even when you feel like your f/o could never love you. because the reality is that they do love you, forever and always

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My brains firing off at 10000MPH right now. And I just need a DISTRACTION.

If any of ya guys (gender neutral) have any questions about spirit relationships or whatever or just wanna ask dumb shit, have at it.

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OP same hat. No desire to be with real people (I tried, I thought that's what it was but it wasn't The Same and eeeeeeh.)

But Alhazad. Heart Eyes. Blarbos, fan fics, art, things all that good stuff.

Is there a word for only being attracted to fictional characters? Am I still aromantic if I get romantic attraction to fictional characters?

Like I'm repulsed at romantic attraction towards me but then fictional characters exist and I am heart eyes at em

Fictoromantic or aegoromantic depending on personal preference and level of attraction etc

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sometimes I wonder if some of this 'activism' stems from abuse someone had happened to them because of fiction or a fan fic about their fav chars. so they just.... idk flip the fuck out. but like, that's not healthy. you can't keep putting yourself in that situation.

i had some one, a girl. get ideas from stories online. and pretend to be the characters i loved, and abuse the shit out of me. sick twisted vile shit. was done to me. on purpose. because this vile disgusting human being loved that sense of power. she thrived on it. she did shit to me and my best friend that would make your toes curl. she convinced us she was channeling our favs, and did some heinous shit.

i was only 16 years old.

but like, it isn't the writer's fault my abuser decided to do that. "but they got the idea from X." yeah and the fact she chose to act it out in real life on me- is something *she* did. she couldn't separate fiction from reality and had to reenact that shit because she's fucked up.

i have had some god awful fucked up shit where there's an actual police report/file sitting somewhere in a my county. begging me to press charges. this person is being watched, they know what she did. and there was an investigation. on the fucking monster that hurt me over 25 years ago. worse for my best friend, by comparison, i got off easy.

because even if she wasn't influenced by something she saw or read or watched. she would have made it up in her fucked up little head. regardless.

yes, there is shit now that triggers me, because of what happened. but i block and make it so i don't see the shit show up on my dash with out being marked. and i don't stress myself out wondering what other people are doing in their fan fics.

"xyz DNI" blocking people is YOUR job, sorry. You cannot ask the world to simply move around you, you have to take control of your online experience or you will be fucking miserable forever. Most people don't read your bio/pinned/carrd before touching the posts that cross their dash anyways.

Also maybe worry less about if someone who likes something you hate clicks on your tumblr post. I promise it is not that fucking serious.

Also-also if you have this DNI because your friends/moots said or implied you have to otherwise you're somehow Bad and/or will be punished by them if you don't, that's kind of fucked and maybe you need less controlling friends.

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This is what the conversations with unhinged f/os look like after they do something crazy again 😭

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tag your f/o

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Every Kiss: #56 | 1.24 The Twizzle  

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we if we're already cryptids?

☆ *transforms you and your f/o into cryptids*

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Your f/o is proud of you for fighting to survive through the darkest times ❤️‍🩹 They’re gonna be with you every step of the way! Carrying you, caring for you, rooting for you! Even if you can’t feel them due to mental block they’re always holding you tight ✨💫

You got this! 🥹