poemsfromtheedge

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You laugh at people who listen to the Smiths until you feel the soil falling over your head

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little miss awful body temperature regulation is taking his hoodie off again

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How to speak with intelligence, but also humility, warmth, and care

Are you thinking too much

It should be easy

Let the words fall out onto the paper, the pavement, the keyboard

What obstructs this ease

Other people

Other problems

No one exists individually or in their individuality

being human means being a part of humanity and its festering history

Let it not weigh on your mind Or do you, should you

Your history is pain it does well to know not to repeat it

Avoidance is not acceptance

And Acceptance is not embracement

And Embracement is not easy

Nothing good is easy

Because what's life without death

That nicotine hit after a break

The burn of a breakdown lessening as your mood lifts with the sky

Balance is what is

No need to argue

What is will always be no matter what thought of feeling

Like a cement wall punching you in the face

You simply walked right into it

Whos fault can it be

For it was always there

And you are only here now

In this moment

Truly only in this moment

Your consciousness exists in the space we give it

It changes every moment

Everytime you think of it

Do we die every second? Birthing new thoughts, new brain pathways, and new bain

What dies must die

So that life may live

Even for a second longer

Rot is our only certainty

A self-prepared clean up

Oil, and grease, and fluid, and muck

Washed away in time

In its glorious uncertainty

Linearity is known not experienced

What do your memories mean to you here

Do they take you back? How far?

Are you transported

What does being in a space truly mean

And what does the being in that space gain or lose

Oh the woes of the mind

Back to back to back to back

The tired brain

The sad brain

The envious creature your heart bargains with

A mise en scene creation would have no meaning

What end can be without a beginning

All you can hope for is a epilogue that doesn’t mischaracterise, despise or incinerate

Derivative fiction is all we think

Blinking through gas and sound too loud for thoughts

How can you even speak

What motivation is found in this energy

Well what gives life must also take from something else

Do what we will, we take from ourselves

A substance paradigm

If im even using that correctly

Does it really matter

Youre reading despite the rambling

And i'm typing despite it too

That and the tiredness

Stifling and wailing away

An internal scream, the first kick inside

The movie never ends but the characters die in our minds

A gluttonous franchise bent back on expectation

All just premeditated disaster

That's all we are

But there is a joy in that

In knowing what you are

A disgusting fool

We are the ones who survive.

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i know most people have seen it but i cant emphasize how much this is literally my favorite breath of the wild clip of all time. also i can never fucking find this clip when i need it especially in high definition so here it is

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(driving home from work) i must not kill myself. killing myself is the myself killer. i will— (sees a guy jogging shirtless and he’s all sweaty) Woaw i wish I lived in his armpit (crashes car into telephone pole)

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the real reason the first interview went south is because daniel was not yet divorced and therefore could not relate to louis on a level of divorcee-to-divorcee. the second interview went so well because daniel, now divorced twice, could not only relate to louis on that level, but also could then sense a certain eau de divorce in the air and did not relent until he sniffed it out and ended another marriage.

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I'll protect you from the hooded claw. Keep the vampires from your door.

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removed from blue, nothing new

Photo: Pom Poko (Studio Ghibli), uhh twitter, uhhh twitter also, twitter..., Omar Apollo, Alexa Demie (leopard limo mv 2021)

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Lie

I don't like him because he doesn’t believe astrology

Try to make excuses

I make no apologies

Forgotten son, come undone

I’m the only one

I’ll bring Discord to fell your highest hope

Go watch the garden from below, sit and mope

The new Icarus, Narcissus

Lick your lips while u flee my kiss

Your wings so high

Everything you do is trite

I breathe as I shoot you down

Tumbling to the sea, you drown

I say I

I

Take your wings and fly

Leave you gutted and dry

Holy, the performance I try

But I can't lie

Seeing your skin makes me cry

Oh through the Years you sat above with the velvet rope

Now I tie it around your neck, watch you writhe and choke

From the place I once coveted

Blood and tears, I want you to suffer

How can you look through me

Don't you see

Your neck taunts me

My mind is stormy

Forlorn, I won't be

Fuck these feelings

They haunt me

But I hate you I do

Trust me you're through

Where does that leave me

Killing time till I flee

But I say I

I want you to die

So I don't have to lie

That I wouldn’t try

To see you smile

I wish I didn't mind

Seeing your hand around a lass

Makes me dread your magnificent carcass*

Happiness Is a place next to your heart

Now I’m sat behind in the dark

Hating the person I'd become

If I was The only one

The only one to you

Living in shades of blue

I say I

I will try

To forget the place you stand

You're just a man

Not the God I've created in my mind

Feed me another line

So I don't slip and fall

Freud can't make that call

I say I

I do lie

I lie

Lie

Lie

*This is what happens when you try to work an unrhymable line into a song just because you like it |:

Photo: Fallen Angel (1847)

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Desperation

Desperation

Medication

Bottling a feeling I don't have

I'm unkind to myself

I don't have time

But I do

To sit around and think of you

I put myself above you

But can't stop thinking of what could be

If you were with me

Your arms grazing mine

Running that fine line

Between want and have

Your face pops up on my screen

Like a rerun of my favourite fantasies

And deepest nightmares

But you don't know, you don't care

Always the instigator

You’re just 18

I guess you don't have the drive to be someone else

Like I do

Red Tunnels of love turn blue

Do I message again?

Setting up another disappointment

But maybe it'll change in person

Is It me

Am I the problem

Or maybe the solution

To every problem you have

I am in my head

Am I in yours

I've seen every part of you

Show me yours and I'll show you mine

The weaknesses you hide beneath your ribs

At the end of the day we're just kids

But we won't always be

Don't you want to feel

The love I can have for another

The love I don't have for myself

You could fill that slot

But maybe that's the problem

You’re just an option not a piece of my larger puzzle

That makes up a whole

Maybe I am just desperate

Is that a bad thing to be

Wanting more for myself

Wanting your lips on mine

Just laying by you

Feeling the warmth healing my bones

That’s laid cold for 20 years

And will lay for 20 more

I guess I can't deal with my own emotions

Laying lonely on the inside

A shallow kind of love

I crave more than breath itself

Desperation

At least I'm feeling something after all

Photo: Wings (1927)

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Never Alone With You

45mins before bed

Is enough to rest my head

But I'm still awake

Submerged in this lake of unhappiness

Writing a song

To finally feel like I belong

Have I ever questioned the nature of my reality?

But will I ever accept it?

Too close to harm

Too far from your arms

Your embrace Is the cure

For my blues

These feelings have depth

Like the path beneath my skin which flows to you

Blocked and charred

Used

Why do I need another

To fix my self made problems

I look up at the ceiling

To you, to you

Your cold stare

So blue, blue

Never alone with you

Never alone with you

This house Is too old

Too much work to be done

So I sit In It undone

The filth gives me more than your shadow ever could

The light from my broken window reflecting the inside of my brain

Wired wrong

Parts mixed and match to fit my malformed design

From original crime

Why did my mother suffer for this

This bliss

Your absent love feels like a light breeze on a deadly summer

Floating through the cracks in my wall

Missing your call

I look up at the ceiling

To you, you

Your blank stare

So blue, blue

Never alone with you

Never alone with you

I'm never alone with you

I just want someone to love me

To love me

Maybe then that will fix me

Is touch enough

Is it enough

Too much Is never enough

I'm always alone when I'm with you

Never alone with you

Now I'm finding out how to disappear

Fading into the mist unclear

Like a sick cat hiding It’s pain

A silent death

For no one Is there to hear It

No one ever Is

Winding down

Slowing down

Climbing down

Down

To be alone with you

Photo: Keanu Reeves (Wolf Boy 1984)

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don’t promise the world to girls who have seen the worst of it

Photo: Kylie Minogue

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changing you changed everything

Photo: Postlab, Heartstopper S1, Andy Warhol, Sufjan Stevens, James Dean

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Hi!!

Hi, this is my poetry/ramblings/song lyrics page!

I spend a significant amount of my time writing, and most of it is shit, but I will try and post the good ones regularly. 

I write to express myself and the emotions I repress, it is honestly the best therapy, being able to show people this expression is the next step so I hope you enjoy my writing :)

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Dandelion

i won't forget how it felt to have you there

it proves life isn't fair

a sacred fire burns within us all

so why did you choose to fall

i used to understand

now i can't coMprehend

the angel you called to send you to heaven

trying to escape the pain, you were driven

to a land beyond living

but why

i try

i do try

how come that you didn't

i can't let you go

it's all that i know

enshrined upon my body

forgiveness is folly

i still see you in crowds

your hAir bright red and eyes shadowed

the month of your fame

and the strangers who call your name

these ghosts that follow me at night

it's hard to live without your light

how could you do this to us

your mother should've never known this loss

and i try

i try

i try again

and again

and again

i can't replace the place you stood

now that you're gone for good

all that stands there is your shadow

so cold and oh so narrow

a dark reminder of your miserY

that's now become history

darkness deepens towards demise

all you can do is try

i

i can't lie

i do try

i try and try

and try

you never knew how much you affected my world

you never knew the clam hid a peArl

you never knew the people and faces you'd miss

you never knew the person who you'd kiss

you never knew how much you could've done

you were oh so young

what do i do with the love i had for you

i will try

oh i will try

seeing your sister cry

it's hard to try, try

but i try

i try

i do try

i try

try

try

i try to understand

i try to comprehend

was this all your plan

i picked a flower from the ground by your mother's house that morning

in that moment i knew your energy was transforming

into the earth, the sky, the soul

who could ever ask for a higher goal

and i wasn't sad, i was hopeful

for hope is a dandelion swaying in the wind

struggling to begin

Photo: Joni Mitchell