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growing up autistic / growing up gaslit

I.

this is the first lesson you learn: you are always wrong.

there is no electric hum buzzing through the air. there is no stinging bite to the sweetness of the mango. there is no bitter metallic tang to the water.

there is no cruelty in their laughter, no ambiguity in the instructions, no reason to be upset. there is no bitter aftertaste to your sweet tea, nothing scratchy about your blanket.

the lamps glow steadily. they do not falter.

II.

this is the second lesson you learn: you are never right.

you are childish, gullible, overly prone to tears. you are pedantic, combative, deliberately obtuse. you are lazy, unreliable, never on time.

you’re always making up excuses, rudely interrupting, stepping on people’s shoes. you’re always trying to get attention, never thinking about anyone else, selfish through and through.

it’s you that’s the problem. the lamps are fine.

III.

this is the third lesson you learn: you must always give in.

mother knows best. father knows best. doctor knows best. teacher knows best. this is the proper path. do not go astray.

listen to your elders, respect your betters, accept what’s given to you as your due. bow to the wisdom of experience, the education of the professional, the clarity of an external point of view.

what do you know about lamps, anyway?

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HAPPY 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY OF THE MOON CRASHING INTO HERMITLANDS EVERYBODY!!!!

We're all very old ✨👍✨

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next time you encounter something confusing, try using your fan fiction reading device to access websites like "wikipedia" or "miriam webster" to break down those pesky difficult topics. its sorta like a "enemies to lovers" situation, where the scary new knowledge can become your friend - and then you won't look so unflattering when you comment

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working on shinyduo,,

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what if the mending enchantment in minecraft looks like kintsugi

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valuable life lessons from minecraft:

eye contact is dangerous

don't eat rotten meat

you have to sleep sometimes or else the phantoms get you

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valuable life lessons from minecraft:

eye contact is dangerous

don't eat rotten meat

you have to sleep sometimes or else the phantoms get you

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cute people will read this

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my favorite characters are ones who have never met a problem they couldn't make worse. who are coming off the back of a string of atrocities that systematically eradicated every single good thing in their lives that they feel genuine bone-deep remorse for to the extent that they are almost totally destroyed as people, like they fully recognize the problems at hand and the reality of what it is they've done, no pretensions of letting themselves off the hook or anything, they desperately, feverishly want to change, and then they see the perfect opportunity in front of them to leave it all behind and be better and feel better, and, just before taking that decisive final step to start on that path, quickly add "hang on, one second--" and do the Exact same atrocity all over again <3

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Do not punish the behaviour you want to see

I mean, it seems pretty obvious when you put it like that, right?

But how many families, when an introvert sibling or child makes an effort to socialize,  snarkily say, “So, you’ve decided to join us”?

Or when someone does something they’ve had trouble doing, say, “Why can’t you do that all the time?” (Happened to me, too often.)

Or any sentence containing the word “finally”. 

If someone makes a step, a small step, in a direction you want to encourage, encourage it. Don’t complain about how it’s not enough. Don’t bring up previous stuff. Encourage it.

Because I swear to fucking god there is nothing more soul-killing, more motivation-crushing, than struggling to succeed and finding out that success and failure are both punished.

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went to use this outlet in a public space only to discover it’s a sticker. i’m like the looney tunes coyote slamming into a painted background.

but also. who did this? pure flabbergasted tbh

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stop fucking using the word psychotic to describe bad behaviour and violence already god fucking damn it

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tbh i like that more and more games are introducing a "narrative mode" instead of an "easy difficulty", cause a big thing about the easy mode discourse was centered around "are people capable of playing hard games", which showed a lot of elitism and sometimes ableism, but with the introduction of "narrative mode", it completely shifts the paradigm away from "hard mode is for real gamers, easy mode is for noobs" and towards "this is just the game mode for you to experience the story", which not only smooths over that problem, but also enables devs to really rethink how they want to approach designing their game and telling a story to their audience, which i think adds in a lot of possibilities beyond just "is the game easy or hard"

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Way, way too real (source)

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hi can i come over and immediately fall asleep