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Hello, before this day ends, I want to write an honest thought about my birthday. Today’s my birthday, and maybe I’m just overreacting or experiencing birthday blues, but I’m really sad. Nobody bothers to surprise me, not even with a piece of cake or a note, maybe. My high school best friend didn’t greet me despite the fact that she saw our two other friends in group chat do so.

My boyfriend didn’t bother to give me something. I’m not expecting anything fancy or what, but maybe something that reminds me that I’m loved today. Is this really what adulthood feels like? It’s so lonely. I wondered myself, Am I not that caring? or am I not so important for them to behave that way? Am I still a people-pleaser, or is it just their character? I hate this day. I feel like no one cares about me. No one really made an effort to make this day memorable . And now I’m going back to our apartment without anyone knowing that today’s my birthday.

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2:23 am

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9 hours before the examination

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Thank you, Universe

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you let someone into your own little world and they become so precious, oh so precious

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musings on may

Franz Kafka Diaries, 1914-1923 | Felix Vallotton, The Dordogne with Carrenac (1925) | Vera Brittain, “Because You Died: Poetry and Prose of the First World War and After” | Jin Xingye | Haruki Murakami, "Norwegian Wood" | Jin Xingye

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We aint ever getting older 🎶

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The good thing about Samar is that there are many surfing sites, so after Siargao and Catarman, Cons and I intend to go to our next surfing destination, and we're browsing for surfboards online lol. It was good to meet wonderful folks who are truly participating in surfing competitions. We're into surfing now 🏄‍♀️🌊🏄‍♂️

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Why do I feel as if nothing really matters? I'm doing certain things just to show myself that I've accomplished something, but I'm not satisfied with it.

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I stumbled upon a golf ball while walking around Intramuros, which was a funny experience hahaha!