plumheadraven

[plumheadraven]

I first knew I liked you when I was writing your letter for Christmas. I wanted so badly to say "I love you" and I spent 40 minutes writing the letter because it was so hard for me. I realized I really LOVE you, though, when I started to get so interested in your life and every day when I went home, I just wanted to know what you were doing and thinking about that very minute. I'd start to constantly talk about you and even my my mom said I talked about you a lot, but I just said it's because we spend most of our day together. I also would look at you in the middle of class and just want to kiss you, but I've never wanted to kiss anyone. I felt so stupid for being attracted to you at first because I thought like how in the hell could HE ever like ME? When I told you that big secret, I was scared you'd hate me for putting that pressure on you and I wasn't once thinking about you actually liking me. And then you gave me my lucky owl and I knew immediately. The love for you grows even more every day and now I don't go a single second not thinking about or not wanting you.

[plumheadraven]

He's the kind of boy who's a romantic. He's the kind of boy who will hold your hand as you're reading. He's the kind of boy who will listen to your playlist with you whenever. He's the kind of boy who will laugh over the stupidest things. He's the kind of boy who can just smile and it makes your whole day. He's the kind of boy who tells you how much he loves you. He's the kind of boy who hugs you before leaving school every day. He's the kind of boy who would make a whole BOOK for you. He's the kind of boy who makes you wooden knives with your preferred name on the blade. He's the kind of boy to write you love letters. He's the kind of boy who wants you to kidnap him so he can be with you. He's the kind of boy who reminds you of too many songs to count. He's the kind of boy to tell you you look pretty when he truly thinks that. He's the kind of boy to say you look like a Celtic wood elf in your favorite dress. He's the kind of boy who draws on your hands when you want him to. He's the kind of boy who lights up whenever he sees you and that alone can make your entire day. He's the kind of boy you can share your darkest secrets with. He's the kind of boy who truly loves you and you truly love as well.

[plumheadraven]

the life that i want is the life where i can be with you

[plumheadraven]

Sorry if this is too kinky but can you hold my hand and tell me i mean a lot to you.

[plumheadraven]

They're actually one of the most beautiful things to exist and I hate the fact they're considered "cringey" now.

But why, why, why did people stop writing love letters?

[plumheadraven]

Who says love happens only once, Every time he hugs me I feel my heart beating fast.

Kon kehta hai pyar Sirf ek baar hota h, Usne jab bhi mujhe apne seene se  lagaya hai maine har baar apna dil hara hai

[plumheadraven]

Making cookies tonight. I'll give you some to show my love, my boy :)

Not to flirt but I would make you food in the middle of the night if you ask me to.

[plumheadraven]

I love this boy so much and it's so bad. It's gotten to the point where he is what I depend on for my happiness. He is all I want at all times of the day, and I'll spend one minute without him and my genuine happiness is just gone. I don't even want him anymore. I fucking NEED this boy. Do you ever feel physically sick and your body actually aches because you miss someone so much and you just want to hold them? I feel that way all the time when I'm without him. And when we're no longer able to see each other, I will be still commenting on his page every week updating him on my life, because I will not be able to go the rest of my life without talking to him. I can't just stop talking to him. He is an essential need for me at this point and I just can't imagine my life without him. I may not be all okay, but with him, everything is okay.

[plumheadraven]

I genuinely doubt I will ever be able to let go of you. I will wait for you if I have to. I mean, hell, I won't even wait if you don't want me to and you move on. I just won't find anyone else. I don't think I could even if I wanted to. My love for you is so deep that I feel I couldn't ever get rid of it. Nothing you could do would either. I just know it will always be there. And if you do ever see me with someone else, it's not because I truly love them. It's because I'm scared of hurting them. No one else will ever feel the same and I don't want to leave you. I want to hold on to you and never let you go. I never would.

[plumheadraven]

My boy, you can not tell me you have a strong urge to kiss me and then NOT kiss me. I get that we're in school, but just kiss me? I am so persuaded by physical touch, but it's just with you. I swear to God it's literally the best feeling ever when you touch my thigh and hold my hands. I'm trembling when holding your hand because all I want to do is kiss it. I'll sit down in a class you're not in and someone's legs will touch mine and I just wish they were your legs. I so badly want to kidnap you for the sole purpose of cuddling. My cat will join, too, don't worry.

[plumheadraven]

I'm not very good at explaining my honest, true feelings at all. I'll really try, and you make me want to. But if you give me a note in class and sit there staring at me while I'm trying to think of the right thing to say as my mind is in a hundred different places, I'm sorry I won't be able to help you very much because if you put me on the spot right then and there, I will not be able to process things completely. I need time to know what I'm going to say and how to comfort people or explain my own emotions to them. Especially when that person is you, who means the entire world to me and whose problems I wish would just disappear forever. Including myself as a problem. I love you so much, and I do my best to try to help. I'm just not good at expressing things fully. The most I will tell you about how I feel about you is that I love you. It'll take me a while to explain why if you ask me and I certainly won't be able to get it all out for you, but I'll try. There's so many things I want to say to you that I can't find the words for or I feel like you won't care. I know you won't. It doesn't matter what I say, and I get that. I just want to try for you.

[plumheadraven]

I really thought you knew me. But then you go and tell me that you're not worth living for and I'll get over you. I won't. You're the best person I have ever known, even if you don't think the same. I love you more than I ever have anything. My heart hurts from the love and pain. I can never predict what kind of day it will be with you. I'll either be so happy by the end of it or I'll be sobbing in tears because I just don't know how to help and I feel like I'm making everything worse for you instead. I feel as though if I never would have come in your life, you'd be way happier. I know I'd still be in the stage I was before, but you, oh, you'd be so much happier if I was never in the picture to begin with.

[plumheadraven]

You see, more than anything I want to say that I know you're the one. I want to say I can see myself going all throughout all of high school with you. I know that's not the case, though. And you do, too. I know you say you won't forget me, but I truly believe I can not be as important to you as you are to me. You have a loving family that cares about you and you spend most of your time with. You'll have a baby sister in the house in less than a month. You have so many talents and gifts that you can become THE most successful person. By then, you won't remember me. I'll just be that girl you loved. I wish I could be that girl you marry, though. I really do. It sucks knowing we will be coming to an inevitable end very shortly, but I'm still going to make the most out of the time I have with you. Because I love you.

[plumheadraven]

You can't tell me it isn't love just because we're young. I have been 18+ since I was 6 and my maturity level has been higher than many adults' I know. My heart physically hurts because I love him so much. He's constantly on my mind, and I can't go thirty minutes talking to someone without bringing him up at least once. My heart goes "!" when I first see him in the morning because I get so excited. Other relationships our age are in a relationship because they think it's cool or cute. Half of them don't actually care about each other. They just want to be able to say they have a partner. I don't care whether I'm dating him or not; I still love him and I won't give up on him no matter how far away he is from me. I never much cared for romance, but when he gave me that love letter, I felt like I just hopped in a romance novel and it was the start of something that could possibly be amazing. And it was. But the pain that comes with love is just as heavy.

[plumheadraven]

I wish I could hold your hand while walking home from school. I wish I could kiss your hands while holding them. I wish I could kiss you. I wish we could sit in a field of flowers, while I'm wearing my favorite dress, and we're talking and laughing together as you lay in my lap. I wish you could come over and we could play Mario Kart together. I wish I could spend an entire day with you just like you said. I wish I could actually fall asleep on your shoulder. I wish you could hold me until I fall asleep just like in your dream. I wish you could miss my bed. I wish we didn't absolutely know that it will end in less than 3 months and after that, we probably won't ever see each other again.

[plumheadraven]

Him.