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shimmer family being silly

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i smell like her life is lovely

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Just the embodiment of “so this is why we make art” and every obscure quote about love ever known

giggles and twirls around and does a little dance and cries and throws up and oh my god this is gonna be the best best gift ever shes gonna love it

I should read more lowkey she gives me such a potent feeling of content that it makes me wanna sob. Shes like every time ive paused to go “oh so this is what life is for” because i see a child hug their mother or an old man give flowers to his wife or because all my friends are so happy and laughing in one person and i love her and help

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giggles and twirls around and does a little dance and cries and throws up and oh my god this is gonna be the best best gift ever shes gonna love it

I should read more lowkey she gives me such a potent feeling of content that it makes me wanna sob. Shes like every time ive paused to go “oh so this is what life is for” because i see a child hug their mother or an old man give flowers to his wife or because all my friends are so happy and laughing in one person and i love her and help

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lwk my exam grades came back and fhe fact this quarter has been so bas feels sm more justified thank god

my anxiety HAS to have its own form of neurodivergence this cannot be normal

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this reminded me of my cc :)

i told her i felt like a horrible person for having not fun thoughts and she reminded me thats not who i am

fucked up how people keep calling me nice, just because of the nice things i say and do the vast majority of the time,

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thats when i start clawing at myself and rubbing myself off on safe surfaces </3

As someone who compulsively washes their hands, the water being out is literal hell please end my suffering

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oh and btw not that its not exam week I can say I cried (for 30 minutes or more) 8 times just last week!!!

im SO tired bro I'm actually gonna crash out. i cant keep doing this I have not cried over school in so long and this MIGHT be it!!!

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when the exam score is so bad i might actually get accomodations and meds after YEARS

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im crying i was just scrolling and see THE tag and its crucifying me

They make me so fucking sick

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me when the anxiety and ocd actually give me anxious and obsessive thoughts

sometimes i forget i have personality disorders and then my personality is disordered and i think terrible thoughts and im like "What is wrong with me..." and then i realize

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life gets easier and mental health better when you decide you just won't do it rn and its an issue for 4am you

im SO tired bro I'm actually gonna crash out. i cant keep doing this I have not cried over school in so long and this MIGHT be it!!!

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im SO tired bro I'm actually gonna crash out. i cant keep doing this I have not cried over school in so long and this MIGHT be it!!!

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"Always a dance with you."

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im SO tired

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im in a constant state of trying to calm down

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i just finished madoka magica, and honestly, what drives me so insane about it is how it's just another example of what's been shown throughout the entire show; madoka just loves people. she's not a savior or a hero, she's not a morally pure being, she's a teen girl who loves people too much to let them suffer if she has a chance to stop it all, even if it means reducing her own existence into a rule of the universe.

madoka's love for humanity, despite the horrors she's been forced to witness, despite the evils she knows humans are capable of, she can't let go of that love for other people that she holds. it's her fatal flaw. her achilles heel. her most fundamentally defining quality.

and she's survived by someone who hates humanity, but loves her enough to keep fighting anyways, because it's what she wants. all the love that madoka puts out into the universe is returned right back to her in the form of homura.