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is it weird that I sometimes cant recall emotions unless ive experienced them strongly recently (like within 3 days) i feel like im a fraud rn help

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SO I TOLD HER YOU GUYS WISH ME LUCK!!!

me when her rizz was just being a poetic human fairy who i looked for whenever I went into any room

me when her rizz was just making me feel like a normal person while simultaneously making me feel perfectly comfortable being a little strange

me when her rizz is just being rlly smart and infodumpy and excited about learning and books

me when her rizz was just me wanting to both study her in a lab and kiss her brain

I remember one time i was holding her hand and it just occurred to me that I wasn't nervous and on edge and was instead perfectly happy and peaceful and that I rlly liked her soft her hands felt. I also remember it being one of the few times my busy mind has ever actually blanked and UGH bro id post this on main but its so corny pls

I GET TO SEE HER WEDNESDAY THOUGH IM SO EXCITED

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I think beforehand, I had a tendency to get attached to the idea of being an exception that i overtrained myself out of that line of thinking. This was made apparent when I assumed so many of her comments and OBVIOUS ATTEMPTS TO FLIRT AND COMMUNICATE THAT I WAS SPECIAL were something she wouldve done with anyone else and even now im kinda tweaked when I realize that in a lot of ways I am a special case for her and shes willing to try sm and do sm bc i MATTER and i didnt have to earn it?? I mean i did technically by being a decent friend consistently but I didn't have to earn love in the same way I had to do with so many others and thats so peculiar to me

me when her rizz was just being a poetic human fairy who i looked for whenever I went into any room

me when her rizz was just making me feel like a normal person while simultaneously making me feel perfectly comfortable being a little strange

me when her rizz is just being rlly smart and infodumpy and excited about learning and books

me when her rizz was just me wanting to both study her in a lab and kiss her brain

I remember one time i was holding her hand and it just occurred to me that I wasn't nervous and on edge and was instead perfectly happy and peaceful and that I rlly liked her soft her hands felt. I also remember it being one of the few times my busy mind has ever actually blanked and UGH bro id post this on main but its so corny pls

I GET TO SEE HER WEDNESDAY THOUGH IM SO EXCITED

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all of this is so ironic to me bc I was convinced for the longest time that I wasn't and couldn't be special to her but loved her nonetheless bc shes just a rlly cool person. She is one of the few people who I actually opened up to abt my ocd or stuff I normally cry abt to myself. I think i still struggled going to her bc i didn't wish to overwhelm her or make her uncomfy bc she so often expressed how she hated that and how much she did to avoid that with people; only recently did it occur to me that she never saw me like that and genuinely wanted to help me and was signing up to me emotionally close to me despite everything and im not sure if i've fully processed that. Everyone whos every been committed to knowing me more was someone who ended up hurting me or using me for their own ego boost or to feel better about their own savior complex and so im afraid. Shes been NOTHING but supportive and understanding and yet I still fear showing too much and scaring her away :(

Even when laying out what she wanted out of this she expressed that she knew what she wanted but I ALWAYS fit in it and was part of the equation and that she would try her best to make me feel as comfortable and safe as possible and its so FOREIGN to me?? This is one of the few times in my life i've ever felt as if i don't deserve someone like genuinely and its freaking me out a smidgen. She has chose me and continues to and is so patient and im so scared of it being temporary. Im so used to dealing w avoidants and idk what to do with this. I rlly want this to work out and I wanna be a good partner like rlly bad and i think i will be but like jesus

me when her rizz was just being a poetic human fairy who i looked for whenever I went into any room

me when her rizz was just making me feel like a normal person while simultaneously making me feel perfectly comfortable being a little strange

me when her rizz is just being rlly smart and infodumpy and excited about learning and books

me when her rizz was just me wanting to both study her in a lab and kiss her brain

I remember one time i was holding her hand and it just occurred to me that I wasn't nervous and on edge and was instead perfectly happy and peaceful and that I rlly liked her soft her hands felt. I also remember it being one of the few times my busy mind has ever actually blanked and UGH bro id post this on main but its so corny pls

I GET TO SEE HER WEDNESDAY THOUGH IM SO EXCITED

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me when her rizz was just being a poetic human fairy who i looked for whenever I went into any room

me when her rizz was just making me feel like a normal person while simultaneously making me feel perfectly comfortable being a little strange

me when her rizz is just being rlly smart and infodumpy and excited about learning and books

me when her rizz was just me wanting to both study her in a lab and kiss her brain

I remember one time i was holding her hand and it just occurred to me that I wasn't nervous and on edge and was instead perfectly happy and peaceful and that I rlly liked her soft her hands felt. I also remember it being one of the few times my busy mind has ever actually blanked and UGH bro id post this on main but its so corny pls

I GET TO SEE HER WEDNESDAY THOUGH IM SO EXCITED

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if something doesn't go the way you wanted it to it's because you didn't do enough obsessive mind rituals about it

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so i came back to this and now i actually have a name for it so thats pretty cool!! i do rlly get this i rlly wanted a qpr w one of my friends so i hope this works out for you bc it sounds pretty nice.

Content Warning sex mentions

Being aromantic allosexual is wanting a friend with benefits but the benefits including cuddles and hand holding in the benefits not just sex.

I really hope I can find someone I can fuck, cuddle and be emotionally close to but not date them. I keep having day dreams and regular dreams about having a roommate I fuck and cuddle with but not date or say I love you two. Septate rooms septate hearts just care, cuddles and sex.

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this is genuinely so real. i get rlly bad panic and like ocd attacks and theyre just abhorred

I'm so sick of feeling like I'm going to die every night because I'm having a autistic shutdown or a panic attack.

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its been a while but i rlly like how real you are. thats kind of a basic answer but I think a lot of times we spend our lives trying to be something else, and youre just not that and dont discourage others and have found different things to make you happy and thats lovely :3

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real real real real and u cant eat or sleep and youre just there and nth is enjoyable

the worst kind of anxiety is when u don't know what u are anxious about, yet you feel like something is about to go horribly wrong

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so yal!! I somehow managed to bag being awkward and oblivious and anxious...uh YAY FOR ME :D

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i’ve said it before but no feeling is greater than looking into the eyes of someone you love and bursting into tears because you can feel the love filling you up to the brim & everything else fails to translate it. nothing is greater than to love the right person a little too much and then a little more. i love to love and i want to love in insane amounts because being able to do that is truly the greatest gift i have in this life

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i have GOT to get over my obsessive worry about being a burden on others oh my god. it is okay to inconvenience people! people in your life who really care about you won’t mind being inconvenienced!! it’s literally just the human experience!!! communicate your needs for the love of god it’ll be FINE!!!!!

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me and her :3

madohomu on a parfait date ~ for @/nyanisms on twitter

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how to not fear someone trying to kill you after u cut them off no borax no glue ☹️

i feel like im going insane bc i can sort of recognize when im just being paranoid but at the same time i cant and its like hidden in plain sight and whether i recognize that depends on the day

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