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I'm loving how Y2K style is coming back cause I can revive my peak 10th grade IDGAF cool AND get replacements of all the hot clothes that just-so-happened to have disappeared from the laundry room at my parents house. 👀 💞 ✨

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british currency is so gay. who exactly are you pounding, fella?

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My family experience it's been more like we passed down the same middle name. My middle name is same as my mom's which was my great grandmother's first name.... But you only hear Junior/III from males it's true... I always saw it as an ego trip thing.

do women follow the “jr” “3rd” naming convention

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Episode 101: Marie Antoinette (2006)

You are invited to our Quarantine Party! We will be coming at you every week with a period-drama-must-watch mini-episode during our quarantine. On this weeks podcast we discussed the 2006 biopic of Marie Antoinette by Sofia Coppola. Big hair, bold fashion looks and lots and lots of Champaign!

itunes | direct download | RSS

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Brigadier here & I'm reporting!! Happy to join✨😊

Alphabet Mafia (LGBTQ+) Ranks

apparently we need new codes so here we go

Lieutenant : Lesbian

General : Gay

Brigadier : Bisexual

Technical Sergeant : Transgender

Quartermaster : Queer

Admiral : Asexual

Air Marshal : Aromantic

Air Admiral : AroAce

Private : Pansexual

Non-Commissioned Officer : Non-Binary

Division Officer : Demisexual

Officer : Omnisexual

Intiating Officer : Intersex

Group Captain : Genderqueer

Gunner Cadet : Demigirl

Bombardier Cadet : Demiboy

Field Marshal : Genderfluid

Air Commodore : Agender

edit: added more

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United States of Tara reaction fic!

Guys this was in my drafts from line 2014-15 and I never posted it. Here we go!!

Okay, so this episode aired allll the was back in 2009, but my husband and I found it on Netflix last week and we like it. I saw "Possibilities" and I thought Marshall and Jason were freaking adorable! Then we watched "Betrayal" and I really liked where it ended, prefect for a fan to pick up where it left off. I wrote this between that episode and the closer for season one. 

 Title: Revived

Author: Pixiebells

Fandom: United States of Tara, Season 1

Genre: Reaction fic to “Betrayal”

Pairing Marshall/Jason

“Did you do this?!”

Marshall looked up from his novel, as he read placidly on the lawn. The fire was out, and Kate had gone inside. The shed was now a burnt-out stub in the ground, with ash and papers soaked in water, little memories floating around, soon turning to garbage. “Oh, yeah, sorry about that. Something just came over me.” He glared at his mother.

“Oh, don’t you dare do that!” Tara growled at him. “Don’t you fucking condescend me like that!”

“So you’re mad about this?” He shot back, annoyed.

“Of course I am! You burned our fucking shed down, Marshall!”

“Oh, so you get to make irrational, stupid decisions with little to not consequence but the second I act out, it’s wrong.”

“We’re wrong either way!” she shouted. “But in my defense, I wasn’t fully aware of what I was doing. You, however, are.”

She sighed and sat down on the edge of his chair.

“Look, we both screwed up, okay? Do you really think I’m happy about all this? Do you think I like making a mess of everything I touch? Barely able to keep a job, or get through a weekend of in-laws? Or have a normal afternoon at the spa with my sister?”

“Back to self-pity, again. You’re shameless.”

She grabbed his book and threw it on the lawn, aggravated. “I’m sorry, I didn’t order extra snark with this conversation. What is your problem?”

“Right now? You. You are my problem. I really liked him, and maybe, maybe he likes me back. Do you think I was happy putting myself through that disturbing production, just to spend time with him? What kind of origin story would that be for our adopted children? ‘Your father and I met because I thought he was cute, and he thought pretending to burn in hell for perfectly valid feelings was a fun way to spend a Sunday afternoon.'”

“Oh my God, you’ve already imagined adopting kids with him?” she chucked good-naturedly, despite herself. She didn’t want to insult her son’s feelings, but that was one hell of a crush.

“Well, yeah. I’m like a wolf, or a clown fish, or whatever animals mate for life. Point is, I like one guy at a time. And when I like him, I really like him. And Jason’s not shallow like a lot of people my age. He’s rare. He’s kind of special. And he’s grown up in this totally controlling, unhealthy environment and maybe now he’ll let his guard down a little.”

“Aww, sweetie. I’m sorry.”

Tara’s anger melted away like the magazine clippings T had plastered on the walls of the shed last summer. She’d found every image of Justin Beiber she could get her hands on, and wrote “PUSSY BITCH” and “FUCK BELIEBERS” and the semi-political “DON’T TALK ABOUT ANNE FRANK LIKE THAT!” In red Sharpie all over his stupid face.

She hugged Marshall, and his anger melted just like his bike had. “I promise I’ll never make out with boys you like again.”

“You better not.” He replied in her ear, finally relaxed. They parted and he spoke again: “I’m sorry too. I know that was kinda your…place.” His guilt finally caught up to him.

“It’s fine. You know, maybe it needed to go. Maybe that was just cosmic timing. You know, my therapist basically dumped me today.”

“Really? Aww, I was trying to think of some puns or a catch phrase for you guys, like a reference to Ocean’s Eleven or something.”.

Tara smiled in appreciation. “I love how creative you are. I’ve always loved that about you. But hey, maybe it’s a chance for a new start, you know? Maybe I should get this new therapist, or  go back on the meds.”

“No, no, don’t do that just for my sake. That should be your choice, my melodrama notwithstanding.”

“Thank you. And I’d do it for us. All of us. It’s just something I’m tossing around anyway. Come on, why don’t we go inside?” she mended fences, picking up his book and handed it back to him as he got up.

“Just one more thing?”

“Yeah?”

“Was he at least a good kisser?”

“Oohh, details!” she squeaked. “Why? You wanna kiss him?”

“Already did, actually.” he beamed, content with his conquest..

“Oh, well done, playa.”

“And then he kissed back.”

“Ooooh!”

“But it was so quick I wasn’t sure. So…”

“He was all right. Not terrible, not great. Not much experience. Well,” she teasingly looked to him, “not yet.”

“Mom.” he blushed, looking away.

They had reached the kitchen by then. Kate was back up in her room and Max was washing his hands.

“OK,” Tara  breathed a sigh, “I’m gonna go change, get cleaned up. Start helping out with dinner.”

As she went upstairs, Marshall sat at the counter and struck up a conversation with Max. “Dad?”

“You and mom work things out?” he asked, pulling a roast pan out of the cupboard.

“Yeah, and I’m sorry.”

“It’s all right. Just, don’t do it again, okay?”

“Okay. I am sorry.”

“You’re fine, it’s cool. Not the first fire I’ve put out today,” he remarked with a smile.

“I have kind of an important question. About Mom and her alters.”

“What’s that?” he asked, while rummaging through the freezer.

“When she’s T, and she’s hitting on some other guy, or, making out with someone half her age. How do you get over it? You guys have been together for almost 20 years. Doesn’t at least a little part of you get insanely jealous?”

“On some level, yeah.” Max agreed, sticking a bowl of water in the microwave.  “But I remind myself of a couple things. It’s temporary, it’s meaningless, and it’s not really her. To be honest, when she’s…not herself, I actually don’t really, uh…”

“Oh,” Marshall was taken aback. “So when she’s not herself, you guys don’t…”

“We agreed it was weird. So it makes it easy to disconnect.”

“That makes sense. Sorry if that was a weird question.”

“Aw, come on. We both know that’s the tip of the weird iceberg around here.” Max winked at his son.

Marshall chuckled, relived. Just then, there was a knock at the door.

“I’ll get that, you’re starting dinner,” he said, rising from his seat. Max thanked him and turned back to the microwave, hot water now ready for thawing.

He opened the door and Jason was there, looking a bit anxious.

“Oh,” Marshall’s mood immediately cooled off. He was square with his mom, but Jason didn’t exactly fight her off, and he was still hurt. 

“Sorry, my mom’s not available right now.” He contemplated closing the door, but settled on giving him an icy glare instead.

“Look, I’m really sorry. And believe me when I say I’m not interested in any…version of your mom. I didn’t mean to hurt your feelings. If it makes you feel any better, it was weird. And I’m not into labels or whatever, but I really do like you. And your family’s kinda cool. Hell of a lot better than mine.”

“OK, OK,” God damn, he was so cute...he couldn’t throw him away after one weird afternoon, “you’re off the hook. I might have gone a little overboard…”

“Holy shit, that was you?” Jason’s eyes widened. “Whoa…I hope I never piss you off.”

“I…got…jealous.” he stammered. “Sorry if that’s weird for you.”

“I’ll take as a…compliment.” Jason said with a shrug.

They shared a smile, relieved at last.

“So…maybe we can hang out later on?” Jason suggested. “I mean, if you still want to.”

“I do want to.” Marshall quickly replied. He still had a shot! “We’re gonna have dinner in a little while, but maybe...” he reached over and tucked back a lock of hair that has fallen over his eyes, “we could go for a walk first?”

“Sounds good to me.” Jason agreed, grinning.

“Okay.” Marshall said quickly, voice teeming with excitement.

He bounded inside and let his dad know they’d be out.

“I’ll be back for dinner,” he promised.

“No rush.” Max smiled back, reassuringly.

Marshall waltzed out the door, and they walked off, together.

THE END.

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My birth mother choose to smoke and had me at 15 & the chain reaction effect it had on me has been a major impact on my life. Partly because of the smoking, I was born 4 months early, weighed 1 1/2 lbs and needed to be put in an incubator. I had stage 5 of retinopathy of prematurity in both eyes, meaning I was born blind, as my retinas were both completely detached and had to be reattached. 

I’ve been totally blind in my left eye my entire life. My vision in my right eye as a child was so bad it was 20/200. That’s not a typo; what a normal human being could see at TWO HUNDRED FEET I had to be twenty feet away to see it. Most people don’t even realize vision that bad exists, although my vision has improved to 20/60 since then. Yet bc I have almost no depth perception, I’m unable to drive. It’s never been a reality for me and I’m 36 now. I also have ADHD from the nicotine exposure and they came with its own set of challenges.

All those things they warn you about on the side of a pack of cigarettes about what effect it has on unborn babies has happened to me.

I understand smoking is a physical, chemical and psychological addiction.

I acknowledge that addiction is a disease.

I know diseases need to be treated and not shamed, stigmatized or guilt-tripped.

But for God’s sake, don’t smoke if you’re around kids, pregnant or near anyone who’s pregnant. Please. 

nah I think we should really stop glorifying cigarettes

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I am a(n):

⚪ Male

⚪ Female

🔘 Writer

Looking for

⚪ Boyfriend

⚪ Girlfriend

🔘 An incredibly specific word that I can't remember

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Fanfiction is such a great way to learn how to write. Like, you get to take these worlds and these characters created by other people, and you can play with them and explore them in ways that interest you, focusing on building your skills in dialogue, interaction, genre conventions and so forth, without having to worry about building the backstory for it yourself. That’s such a valuable thing.

Don’t let anyone tell you that fanfiction is less-than, because it’s one of the best tools out there for learning how to do the detail work of writing without having to concern yourself with the broad strokes (yet).

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Pt. 2 of the backgrounds I made! Enjoy!

Pt. 1: https://sarahsspirits.tumblr.com/post/171280581687/pt-1-of-some-backgrounds-i-made-feel-free-to-use💕— Pt. 3: https://sarahsspirits.tumblr.com/post/171309650392/pt-3-of-the-theoi-backgrounds-thanks-for-the

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You just have to Look

The gods haven’t left us, but some say they are forgotten

Zeus roars his battle cry as lightning strikes skyscrapers and thunder rolls over corn fields and grassy plains.

Hera sings a lullaby to the crying newborn babies every night and hold the hand of those born early, those fighting to survive.

Artemis screams her protest in the voices of every woman, young and old, as they raise their fists for equality.

Demeter whistles through the streets of cities, rustling the leaves of scarce trees, reminding the concrete jungle of the jungles around them.

Poseidon bellows through the foghorns of steam ships, cruise liners and cargo ships as they dock into the harbour.

Hephaestus hammers his forge’s red fires with the punch of a time-clock and in the muscles strains of the working man.

Apollo blasts his voice through every headphone, earbud and speaker turned way too loud.

Ares’ battle cry echoes through a stadium as the crowd cheers after a national anthem is played.

Aphrodite whispers in the giggles and “I love you"s said between lovers intimating.

Hermes laughs in the roar of every engine and the gurgle of gasoline through the pump.

Dionysus cheers in the spirit of every young person celebrating themselves and making their lives enjoyable.

Athena hums in the silence of a late night library visit, in the turn of a page and the scratch of a pen.

Hestia smiles in every host saying “come in”, in every oven’s beeping, and the sigh of relaxation in ones home.

Hades beams in every dark humoured joke, in every Halloween night, and in every morning after.

They say the gods are gone, forgotten and a world away. But they are here, if you look for them.

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Blessed Be! ✨ 🙏 😀

Persephone/Proserpina

Small devotional acts.

 Leave flowers at empty graves

Wear that lacy/flowery dress and the leather jacket

Wear a flower crown or flower hair pin

POMEGRANATES

Find nature and gentleness in the harshest of places

Practice your “don’t mess with me” look and posture. Use it while walking through crowds

Paint your nails dark red or wear red lipstick

When you find a small animal that has died, honor its life and death. If you can, bury it or leave it someplace for the other creatures of the forest

Go barefoot more often

Buy yourself a houseplant/s

Build your night vision, know your way in the dark

Take time to enjoy the sun whenever it is out

Drink coffee sweetened with honey

Demand respect and a listening ear from all – especially men

Decorate your home with dried flowers in the winter

When people do the unforgivable, hold them to their actions – do not forgive easily

Grow a rosebush or buy yourself some roses

Visit an arboretum or large gardens

Burn a candle for those who died unjustly

Volunteer with organizations that clean and restore forgotten places – graveyards, empty plots of land, etc.

Go swimming in natural bodies of water at night (be safe)

Offer a few coins/dollars to those who need it

Wear floral or fruity scents

Spend time outside in the winter too

Stand up for the abused

Go dance in or enjoy the next rainstorm

Don’t be afraid to defy stereotypes -  if she can be the Spring Maiden and the Iron Queen, you can be anything

Add more flowers to your garden

Take a candlelit bath

Know how to win a fight in case you need to

Don’t let anyone tell you who you can and can’t love

PRACTICE LOVING YOURSELF

Many, many, many other things not said here

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Cold pizza. Ewwww. Hot the first time, or nothing.

hey rb and tag a food from your culture that everyone loves but you hate

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Because Food Lion 😂

reblog for easter

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skin color ref because some of yall non-black poc and whites keep fucking up as if yall don’t know there’s other shades of brown when u racebend for woke points or something 

(non-black artists please reblog)

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Freddie Highmore Appreciation post

So I’ve been a fan of his since I was about five or six, and I just want to share some love for him because he’s awesome.

He’s British but can do a near-perfect American accent

Freddie worked twice with Johnny Depp, who he said was his favourite actor: the first time was in ‘Finding Neverland’ and then the second was ‘Charlie and the Chocolate Factory’

Following on from that, Depp was the one who recommended Freddie to Tim Burton for ‘Charlie and the Chocolate Factory’, and he said he’s always been impressed by Freddie’s acting at such a young age

He was an adorable kid I mean:

I swear to God, he was that kid who was in EVERYTHING. If you look at his filmography between 2000-2010 (so when he was 8-18 years old), it’s amazing.

To add, even though he was in so many films, he still managed to ace all of his exams. He got 10 A*s in his GCSEs and 4 A* grades in his A-Levels - so he got TOP GRADES IN EVERYTHING HOLY FU-

He studied at Cambridge University

He played two roles in ‘The Spiderwick Chronicles’ - he played twins called Jared and Simon, acting opposite himself and creating two distinct characters so it was easy to tell who was who (even the voices sound a bit different!)

He speaks fluent French, Spanish and Arabic.

He’s barely aged a day - he’s 26 now and still looks like he could be a teenager tbh

A number of the films he was in had video-games, and he would reprise his roles in those video games every time: The Golden Compass, Spiderwick Chronicles (he did BOTH twins and still sounded different), Arthur and the Invisibles, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory etc.

His performance on ‘Bates Motel’ as Norman Bates was simply amazing; to this day, I think he’s the only person who’s done Anthony Perkins’ performance any justice. He also directed an episode of ‘Bates Motel’

Not only did he play Norman pre-”Psycho”, but he also had to play Norma (Norman Bates’ mother) because she’s Norman Bates’ split personality - and he was PERFECT. It’s obvious he studied Vera’s performance long and hard because the detail/little body language movements were spot on

He’s now on a show called “The Good Doctor” where he plays a surgeon with high functioning autism; I’ve seen so many people say that his performance is, for the most part, extremely accurate as to what having autism is like.

He’s close to ‘Bates Motel’ star, Vera Farmiga, and is even the godfather to her son Fynn. There was a cute video that Vera filmed a while ago of him and Fynn play-fighting with plastic swords.

Also, there’s a picture of him reading to Vera’s kids:

He’s friends with Skandar Keynes, who played Edmund in the Narnia films

His full name is Alfred Thomas Highmore though omg

Learned how to play a bit of guitar for his role in ‘August Rush’

If you watch him in any film, he’s so painfully talented

I mean, have you seen that scene in ‘Finding Neverland’ where he destroys the playhouse? They filmed that scene at the beginning of filming because the director wanted the older actors (Depp and Kate Winslet) to change their attitude towards working with him (i.e. Instead of “oh he’s a little kid” it was “holy crap he’s talented”) and treat him like an adult actor (bearing in mind he was about 12)

He wore a #TimesUp pin at an event (I think it was the Golden Globes) which I know doesn’t really count for anything but still

He has a sense of humour and is able to joke about himself (just search “Bates Motel Comic Con skit” - there’s two videos that will make your day, I promise)

Freddie is honestly such a lovely guy - not only is he handsome (imho) but he also comes across as very down-to-earth and grounded too. He’s even said multiple times that he had a rather normal childhood despite being in movies, and that could be because his mother was his agent (she’s also Daniel Radcliffe’s agent). But he’s honestly so sweet and not full of himself at all.

In short, love for Freddie Highmore!