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Update

Today I woke up in so much pain and I was shaking. I couldn’t walk barely but I had to continue. I feel so weak but I must continue. I’ll do a weight check tonight.

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Moromi //Junji Ito

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Variation no. 1

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thinking bout this „something about you“ got me like. . .

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“Honestly I thought that I would be dead by now.”

— Billie Eilish

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I want to be an angel. So featherly weightless and soft.

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I’ll never be good enough, will I?

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i love you?

do i love you

or do i not

a constant battle I’ve been fighting for three years

my heart and mind can never be at peace

keeping this from you was my biggest strength.

and my biggest weakness.

every time i feel im over you,

the feeling creeps back in

that feeling of wanting you

needing you

craving you

but this time

i pushed you too far away

too far to even reconcile what we once had

i need you in my life.

everyday. you make me so incredibly happy

but hurt me so irrevocably without even knowing.

you know how to make me happy.

you know how to make me sad.

you know how to excite me.

you know how to calm me down.

you know my strengths.

you know my weaknesses.

you know my insecurities.

you know me.

The funny thing is that

i love you. and this is me admitting it.

here’s to you never reading this.

or ever knowing.

what eats me inside is not knowing you’ve ever felt.

or how you’ll ever feel.

sometimes my soul, my mind and my body go numb just at the thought of you

will i never be enough for you?

am i too much for you to handle?

am i too dramatic of a person for you?

will you just end up being someone i loved?

i need you to keep me happy.

im not enough for myself

but you help me love myself a little more everyday

i need to you heal me

you help me numb the pain.

you help me escape.

i don’t think im ready to go back to being strangers.

i don’t think ill ever be ready for that.

i want you.

i need you.

i love you.

-things I write at 3am

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But what if I don’t ever stop feeling this way?

myownthoughts

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welp I guess I'll just smoke weed

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