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You make plushies??? Like... I want a plushie that's Rick Sanchez but it's also a bag - is that possible? 👀💙💙🥼

Admittedly I have no experience in making bags and with the shape of my Rick plush pattern he wouldn’t be able to hold much if I could. But as far as normal plushies go I can definitely do that. Sorry to disappoint ^^;

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My first Tenna art, and it's yaoi.

[COMMISSIONS OPEN if interested]

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it is a start ÖuÖ

(deltarune)

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I’m going to be spending most of my day in bed today because of how much I overdid it sewing yesterday so I’m going to take this time to make some posts that I’ve wanted to make that I never got to… starting with the story of the cat in my profile picture, Smudge.

TW// ANIMAL DEATH, ABUSIVE HOUSEHOLD, PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

When I was about 6 years old, my greatest dream came true: I got a siamese cat. I had always wanted a siamese, especially after hearing about the siamese cats my mom grew up with, so my mom found a “traveling shelter” online. They drove up the east coast, pulling animals about to be put down out of kill shelters and putting them in a huge van. People would reserve the animals they wanted and go get them. I wanted a female meezer, and the truck said they had one so my mom reserved her, but they called back later saying she was actually already reserved by an elderly couple, however the guy said he thought they had one more meezer… and they did. A 6month old scrawny little fleabag by the name of Smudge, since part of the coloration on his face looked smudged at the time. My mom said she’d take him, and we drove from NJ to Maryland to get him. We got there, I met him, and I fell in love immediately. I’ll never forget first seeing his gorgeous blue eyes.

We had brought a carrier, but about 10 minutes into the drive home, I asked my mom if I could hold him, and she said as long as he doesn’t leave my arms. I pulled him out of the carrier, he laid across my lap, resting his head on my arm and falling asleep. He remained that way all the way home.

When we got home, I gave him a bath to get rid of all of his fleas, and I went to bed. He was my first ever cat of my own (we had 3-4 other family cats) and was the breed I’d always dreamed of. And from that moment on, he was my guardian angel… in more ways than one.

He wasn’t very affectionate— he was very quiet and stoic. He grew to be a big beefy applehead, and despite his lack of affection, it was very clear that I was his world. He followed me everywhere, and whenever I was in my room, he’d sit on the corner of my bed and face my door.

Now here’s the thing. My family was pretty abusive. My mom was bipolar 1, my brother had intermittent explosive disorder and severe adhd, and my dad was basically absent despite physically being home (which I later realized was him in shutdown because he didn’t know how to handle any of us) and I was/am bipolar 1 with major depressive and schizoaffective as well. I was the scapegoat of my family, and I was never safe. The lock on my door was one of those “slot locks”, and my mom and brother would frequently unlock it with a butter knife to come in and berate me. I had no safety, even in my own room… except for Smudge.

This cat would sit on the corner of my bed and stare at my door. And if anyone busted in, he would growl, arch, hiss, and even swat if they got too close. After they’d leave me in my room in tears, he would always come to comfort me. He wasn’t affectionate, but after a blowup, he always came to love on me.

6.5 years after I got him, he didn’t come to bed one night, something he never once did. I was worried, but I went to bed anyway. Later in the night, my parents went looking for him. They eventually found him behind the couch, curled up, looking asleep. My dad went to pick him up…

And he was cold.

My mom and dad debated for a while on whether or not to wake me up, and ultimately decided to do so around 1am. I’ve only ever seen my dad cry 3 times in my 26 years, and that night was one of them. He was my first experience with death. My world had shattered. And I held him lifeless in my arms, sobbing out of sheer grief I’ve never felt before in any way. I didn’t want to let him go. And in a way I didn’t, because I had him cremated.

After he passed, the abuse from my family got so much worse. But even though Smudge physically wasn’t there, he was spiritually. I could feel him at night on my leg. I could hear that strange sound he made when he’d grind his teeth, well after he was gone.

One night, my brother busted in, berating me about something I can’t remember. As soon as my lip began to quiver, I heard it: the growling. Smudge’s growling. The lamp near my door flickered a little, but I didn’t think anything of it. As my brother continued to berate me, I eventually began to cry.

… and as soon as the first tear fell, I heard a visceral hiss, and the lightbulb in the lamp near my brother exploded.

It freaked him out so bad that he left. I was crying, but my tears shifted from pain to relief, and I knew that Smudge was still watching over me. Even to this day, once in a while, I’ll still hear him grinding his teeth. And I know in my soul that he’ll always be there.

Rest in peace, my dear angel. One day, we’ll be together again.

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Here’s the Tenna plushies I made for my brother and I. The one with the curled antennas is his and the other is mine. The colors are slightly off on mine bc I ran out of the exact red and yellow needed but I wanted to snuggle him so bad that I didn’t care. I might make another and post him on Etsy when I get the right colors again. He’s 28” tall, and his inner mouth glows in the dark on both. If I did make one for Etsy he’d be priced at $230+shipping bc the amount of materials and work that goes into him is even more than the Rick plushies I make and that gitd thread is uber expensive.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask!

EDIT: oh my GOD YALL THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE AMAZING RECEPTION THIS IS MY MOST POPULAR POST THANK YOU SO MUCH AAAAAAAAA IM SO GLAD YALL LOVE HIM I’ll DEFINITELY be making one for my Etsy eventually!!!

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Tiebreaker time!

My embroidered logo is a black praying mantis with cyan eyes and my signature over its head and the goodie I’ll be shipping with my plushies from here on out is a praying mantis sticker of some kind so I think I may as well go all the way and title my business after a mantis too.

This is the logo in question

[TW// IRL MANTIS PICS]

I’m using a mantis because I’ve gotten so many signs since my early adulthood relating to them. Right before I moved out of my abusive household, they started showing up everywhere in the strangest ways.

Like sticking to my car and hopping off into my hand and vibing for a while…

Or a majorly preggo one sticking to my window in my new apartment in a time of year when they shouldn’t be out…

My friend even had a tea leaf reading about me that showed a mantis extremely clearly (unfortunately I don’t have that one saved)

Praying mantises represent rebirth and new beginnings, and that couldn’t have been more true for me. I moved out, I came out, and became the person I truly was inside. So now, I have a special connection to them, which is why I like to use their image to represent this important aspect of my life. I also like to believe that my late Memom shows herself through them.

Thanks for reading all that, and please lmk which name you think is best!

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My embroidered logo is a black praying mantis with cyan eyes and my signature over its head and the goodie I’ll be shipping with my plushies from here on out is a praying mantis sticker of some kind so I think I may as well go all the way and title my business after a mantis too.

This is the logo in question

[TW// IRL MANTIS PICS]

I’m using a mantis because I’ve gotten so many signs since my early adulthood relating to them. Right before I moved out of my abusive household, they started showing up everywhere in the strangest ways.

Like sticking to my car and hopping off into my hand and vibing for a while…

Or a majorly preggo one sticking to my window in my new apartment in a time of year when they shouldn’t be out…

My friend even had a tea leaf reading about me that showed a mantis extremely clearly (unfortunately I don’t have that one saved)

Praying mantises represent rebirth and new beginnings, and that couldn’t have been more true for me. I moved out, I came out, and became the person I truly was inside. So now, I have a special connection to them, which is why I like to use their image to represent this important aspect of my life. I also like to believe that my late Memom shows herself through them.

Thanks for reading all that, and please lmk which name you think is best!

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Fight me hoes.

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Am I the only one who’s pretty disappointed with the AF team theme this year…? Like, we could’ve had Heart vs Soul, Time vs Space, hell, even Unicorns vs Dragons but we got Fossils vs Crystals. Literally come on. And I thought last year’s theme was lame but this is a whole new level of eyeroll 😭

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Been playing the Drawn To Life games lately and I made these lil Wilfre’s for my Etsy. No one has bought any and yet I want to make more still bc they’re so much fun to make!

If you’re interested in buying one, you can do so here! https://paracosmicplushies.etsy.com/listing/4325512589

I priced him at $45 (+$7.50 for gitd thread bc that shit is expensive af) w/free shipping bc I use the best quality minky out there (Shannon cuddle 3) and he does take a decent amount of hand sewing.

Wilfre is my favorite character (despite being the favorite character of one of my childhood gr**mers) so I hope someone out there wants one eventually! Also, they’re made to order so don’t worry about them going out of stock!

That’s it for now! Thank you for viewing my work!

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Government: “Your body our choice”

Me: “Wanna bet mutherfuckerrr??????” *laughs in laparoscopic bilateral salpingectomy*

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did u go protest today

good evening officer

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I feel like pirating media that isn’t sold or offered anywhere legally anymore shouldn’t be called piracy. Girl thats archaeology

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they are canceling me for the way i deal with grief. also, for the infinite number of destroyed universes

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Imo, earlier Rick and Morty episodes have tighter writing, but the later episodes have better character development. Final Desmithation and Wet Kuat Amortican Summer might not be as strong as The Rickshank Rickdemption or Rest and Ricklaxation, but it's so satisfying to watch Rick finally act like a human being.

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This is how blood ridge should have ended!!!

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Este es mi primer dibujo de ellos dos, solo durmiendo 🤓