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I was thinking about Shinichi today. Do you know how loved you are? Your parents love you but they are not qualified to be parents. Have you ever known what true parental love feels like? Has anyone ever looked at you and thought that I need to protect this child and make him happy and feel loved? Ironically, it was Ran who did that. Ran ��� who is so kind that despite her very obvious physical strength, kindness is her best suit – looked at Conan, a child who is not with his parents and needs to be cared for.

The dichotomies of Shinichi and Conan baffle me. Shinichi's parents left when he was barely a teenager. They weren't deadbeat but they just were not there. Shinichi doesn't know what it feels like to come home and hug your mother who has been waiting for you to be back. He doesn't know what it feels like or more like he doesn't remember, when you hug your parents willingly after a long day and just want to be that little kid who was safe in his parents' arms.

He gets to do that with Ran. Kogoro, for all his faults, tries to make sure that Conan is not exposed to violence and bloody murders if he can help it. I won't forget that yes, Kogoro does hit Conan on the head but to me that seems more of an old anime thing where they used that as a comedic device. He does care about the child. Yes, I also know that he gets money from the Kudos to take care of Conan but I will not consider that here.

Shinichi never had any true friends except for Ran who brought Sonoko along with her. He had teammates and classmates. But no friends. If not for Ran, how would the younger Shinichi who was left behind his parents survive? Shinichi is incredibly mature for his age but that doesn't mean that he is not a child. He still needs to be loved and cared for.

In canon, it was shown that Ran helped Shinichi to clean the house and cook him some meals. It makes me wonder if Shinichi knows how to cook enough to survive. He may know how to kill someone with a toothpick, but can he survive on his own?

Does Shinichi sometimes stare at the ceiling and think how Conan has a better life at 7 than Shinichi had at 17? Conan doesn't have fans writing him letters but he has friends that visit him when he is sick or the care enough to meddle in his life. Conan doesn't live in a mansion but he lives in a home where he gets to eat dinner at a table where it is just not him and the lonely mansion.

Will he miss the chaos of the Mouri house when gets his old body back? Will he be able to eat his meal in silence without Kogoro's rambling and Ran's nagging? Will he even remember to eat breakfast or lunch? Will he miss Kogoro's snoring when he finally gets to sleep in silence? Will Shinichi miss feeling pampered by someone older than him?

Does Shinichi know that he is loved as Conan not because he is Conan but because he is himself? Conan may be a lie but he is still Shinichi inside. The body may be Conan's but the mind and the decisions are of Shinichi. Your friends love you because you are you. Not because you are Conan or Shinichi. Your allies trust you because of your intellect which has always been Shinichi's. You may not know it but you are loved. You were thrown off an airship and your rival whom you swore to catch one day jumps off just catch you and save you. He has no reason to do it. My child, you are so loved. The amount of people do not matter. You are loved. That is what matters.

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Another alternate title could be "Shinichi's new cat-like life"

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Y’ALL OMG THIS IS SO CUTE RAN IS SO CUTE

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My pathetic autistic man I love you

Pride & Prejudice (2005) dir. Joe Wright

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Dear video essay creators. A video analysis is when you analyze a piece of media. No no look at me. A summary, no matter how thorough, is not an analysis. An analysis requires you to draw conclusions about the media such as authorial intent, real-world parallels, discussion about themes/worldbuilding/character motivation, and so much more. You have to stop summarizing something and saying that’s analysis. The Gaylors are doing more critical analysis than you. Is that who you want to lose to? The gaylors?

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every day people tell me that the untamed is good, i’ve seen the first episode, stop gaslighting me

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"If tampons should be free, then so should my diabetes meds."

Yes? Yes they should be? Your life-saving medication that you need in order to live for a condition you were born with should be given to you at no cost?

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a vengeful spectre. those who approach her notice her resemblance to a beloved knight who lost her life to the sea.

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I just think people who clean public spaces should make no less than $100,000 a year

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Shoutout to my dad who accidentally moved into an up and coming black lgbt neighborhood and was very disappointed to learn that all of his “new friends” weren’t actually interested in how to use iNaturalist or where he saw coyotes on his walks 😔🙏����

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* (Oh, these parentheses I keep opening?

* (I'm collecting them.

* (Right now, I'm 1,762 parentheses deep.

* (Oh, my precious parentheses... (I don't ever want to close them!

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Down it fresher

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YOUR MONSTER (2024) dir. Caroline Lindy

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Art by Mikko Tyllinen

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EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP SCIENTISTS AT THE SCHMIDT OCEAN INSTITUTE HAVE FOOTAGE OF A LIVE COLOSSAL SQUID FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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