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Oh baby every night

yeah sex is cool but have you ever sat in total darkness alone wondering why your not good enough

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Feel like stabbing myself but like, with a reverse button next to me so people won't know I wanted to stab myself in the first place.

There's maybe like three people I care about fr. Ok maybe four. Wouldn't want to hurt their feelings for everything in the world.

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The dead of night is when I feel the most alive. At the same time, I also experience incredible guilt for not becoming the best version of myself. It's quite ironic really: I get all those feelings of my own prowesses and then I rob myself of the joy by comparing it to my potential. Being told that I was always smart and had so much of that so called potential;

It made me numb from getting any achievement since I already knew, my better self, achieved it long ago. Now I'm just a shallow vessel, waiting for someone to make me realize I'm utter trash, so I can start becoming better.

But my better-self already did that...

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Something that pisses me off internally is how bilingual signs are made but today I found one that I rlly like and decided to share with whoever sees my blog:

Different languages cannot be translated word for word and the person who did this poster knew exactly how to do it. See how the big title in English is way quicker than the one in french? That's because there's no logical way to say "Buddy up" in french with only 2-4 words without sounding like a AI or a don't-care-about-the-other-language guy

Good job, whoever made this poster. I'm proud of you

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Someone: wow, you're an inspiration

Me: ???

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When you try to get meds after so long but they can't find the diagnosis and you can't either so the stress gets worse every day and knowing that the stress is bigger stresses even more and you start overthinking so much you don't even know if they'll diagnose you the same cuz the place you live in isn't even in the same language and the amount of coping mechanisms and tricks to not let people know you're fucked up makes you think they won't believe you and that stresses even more the shit out of you so you can't sleep and that makes you stressed so you try to relax but your brain needs stimulation all the damn time so you end up doing nothing but waste time on useless shit instead of doing stuff you love and you aren't relaxed and that makes you stres-

me rn

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Can I get a "how to sleep 101" lesson?

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standards. good and bad.

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I feel like a dirty rag laying in a garbage shithole of a street, Arkham city style

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Me: Nothing beat a session of star citizen after a long day at work

Star citizen: how about no

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i had a dream with chris evans in it and he kind of just ignored me

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