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19 hit me like a truck.

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sometimes all you can do is sit and let everything pass by

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The reason why i want to become a doctor is to save myself. A doctor is a person who gives hope to people, who makes them feel okay. I hope one day i can do this for myself and for others.

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The urge to cosplay becomes stronger as each day passes🥸

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just a girl in her room trying to forgive herself

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I don't know how i understand everything that goes on in a lecture and then when it comes to solving questions, i blank out and get the answer wrong--

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One of the people I talked to told me that i am not a girlfriend/wife material type of person. I am more of a bestfriend/ friend type of person and while i do think that this is true, it still hurts to know that other people feel the same way. I am not meant to be loved or fall in love, that's for sure.

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I am worried about my mind. I don't like the way i think. Maybe i am overthinking again or maybe i am not- I don't know what to do anymore. I wish someone could read my thoughts and not hate me and tell me what to do. I don't think my friends like me.

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Okay! I finally texted this person who is adorable and really funny. AHSJDJSNDJNDNDNDND. I hope it ends well TvT

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my cry for help

my entire personality consists of me watching anime and when i stop watching anime, i have no personality and now i am just rotting away personality-less and have literally nothing to do. nothing to watch, nothing to read and nothing to draw/paint. i have become the most boring person and the worst part is that i can't seem to change.

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"i believe that we are just like terrariums. We can be alone for a period of time but at some point, we all need to be taken care of and to be loved"

-Manny (An Inconvenient Love)

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Kiyoi giving Hira a makeover to show off how hot his boyfriend is, and then immediately regretting it when it works is so deeply funny to me.

"Look at my man! No, not like that!"

They're so weird. I love them.

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I forgot how much i love chemistry

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Trying this thing where i wake up late (not purposely), study my arse off and bake

(i have the power of greek gods)

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when you don't want something to end.. that's when they end. you put in a lot of effort to keep it going, hoping it would work out and everything will be alright if you put in the effort..but nah, it just ends. The first signs which i got kept me up at night. i wondered if i wasn't a good friend anymore or that if i was incapable. i cried. it was hard. they didn't text back until the messages were a week old. after a few months, i was filled with hatred and jealousy "they found someone better" or "wow, they don't care". i hated that i thought that. But i got over all that. i am okay now. sometimes things don't end up going the way you wanted them to. you don't know the future so it's hard but in the end it will be okay. you will feel shitty and would question all the decisions you have made until now but, it got better. thankfully..

(listening to In the stars by Benson Boone currently)

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I think about this a lot these days:

“Someday you might want someone to be a nuisance in your life.” 

—Sarawat