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i love being a lesbian, really, i love consuming lesbian media.

watching lesbian movies

listening to lesbian songs

reading lesbian stories

i just really love being a lesbian and love loving women.

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THE BURGUNDY ON MY TSHIRT

WHEN YOU SPLASHED WINE INTO ME

AND HOW THE BLOOD RUSHED INTO MY CHEEKS SO SCARLET IT WAS M A R O O N

THE MARKS THEY SAW ON MY COLLARBONE

THE RUST THAT GREW BETWEEN TELEPHONES

THE LIPS I USED TO CALL HOME

SO SCARLET IT WAS M A R O O N

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he took the "DO A FLIP" thing too serious

shark of the day: spinner shark, carcharhinus brevipinna

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spinner sharks are named for their unique method of hunting, in which they make a spinning leap out of the water. they grow to be up to 3 metres(~10 ft) in length. spinners can be found in coastal-pelagic waters in the atlantic, mediterranean, and west-indo pacific. they feed mainly on bony fishes and cephalopods. the tips of adult spinner sharks' pectoral, back dorsal, anal, and lower caudal fins usually have black or dark grey tips.

this is one of my favourite gifs ever

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meu mac'n cheese deu certo e eu consegui um pdf de um livrao sobre tubaroes

que felicidade meus amigos, QUE FELICIDADE.

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whale sharks are like my FAVORITE sharks, if i see one in person i think im going to fill all my phone's storage with pics of it

I think my ultimate level of happiness will be achieved if I ever see a whale shark. They're so pretty

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acabei de ver uma oferta de um ps3 usado funcionando q vem com 12 jogos originais e 3 controles por 530 reais

me cheira a

golpe☆

parece q eu vou receber 2 tijolo e uma banana

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gemaplys acabou de lancar o cd de bittersweet memories e eu nao tenho dinheiro pra comprar

vou comer 50kg de

Amianto♡

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my essays used to come with lots of "???????" in them bc the teacher didnt understand why i was using parenthesis to say something like

-normal phrase of the essay-(not that i understand why things have to be like this, but ok)

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this explains A LOT

like A LOT

Let's talk about some lesser known symptoms of autism! Maybe this will help some of you get a broader perspective on what this can be like. There is a whole grab bag of symptoms of autism, but here are some ones you may not know that you have.

Focus on truth

What does this mean? Well glad you asked. This is the focus on facts and logic rather than anything else. People have shown this as autistic people may refusing to lie because it goes against what they find as true. But that's not always the case.

Have you ever used logic to try and figure out your emotions?

Are you someone who doesn't understand why others may speculate when the current knowledge is right there? (such as subtext versus canon knowledge or theoretical arguments)

Do you find it frustrating when others avoid their problems as a way to avoid figuring out negative things? (such as avoiding conflict in a friend group)

Is it easy for you to talk about your strengths and flaws? Do you know your likes, dislikes and limits pretty well?

High context communication

This is preference on details and the full context of any situation. Often going into great detail and backstory to anything.

Do you feel as though you need to overexplain to give the person everything they need to know?

Have you ever apologized to someone by explaining the deep and meaningful reasons of why you did it, before you said you were sorry? And maybe even felt upset or confused why they reacted badly?

Have you ever felt stressed out because you wanted to give others full detail but they either interrupted you or cut you off?

Are you stressed out by people who tell you what to do and not why they want you to do it?

Are you ever told that you talk back a lot?

Do you prefer recipes versus verbal/vague instructions? (All the things that you need such as ingredients, measurements, prep time, etc.)

Do you really like watching deep dives and knowing about the whole history of something you're even vaguely interested in?

Identity diffusion

This is not everyone's experience, and it is common in a variety of other disorders such as DID and BPD. However, it is when you do not know who you are in regards to others. This is also known as identity disturbance.

Have you ever felt like an outsider without knowing why?

Are you deeply interested on what other people think of you? Especially if it's all the time?

Do you really like taking personality tests and quizzes? Are you interested in horoscopes?

Do you feel like you don't fit in any one specific group? Either being a loner, or hopping in between many different groups?

Do you ever feel weirder than the "weird kids" group? Do you not really get along or feel like you belong with them?

Do you have low self esteem when it comes to comparing yourself to your friends? Do you feel like they're better or more capable than you?

Do you feel drastically unimportant and not as interesting or cool as everyone else?

Have you ever related to narratives surrounding a character that is the last of their kind?

Do you feel like your identity is a vast and gaping void, that even if you learn a little bit, that you'll never know everything?

Internalized repetition

This is one of those traits that not every autistic person experiences, but that some might. You could say that for all autistic traits, but hey, good to know regardless. Because of internalized repetition, you may not do many external stims, besides vocal.

Do you listen to a song over and over again? Perhaps having a playlist on repeat?

When stressed out, do you type the same word or phrase over and over again?

Do you like looking at the same things, such as the same color or the same artist's works?

Do you really like certain patterns, crystals or aesthetics?

Do you enjoy games with recognizable fighting patterns? (Such as character rotation, boss battle rotation, etc.)

Struggling to connect to others *

This is something that's been characterized by struggling to connect to others through their emotions, but the opposite is actually true for many autistic people. *I will be talking about those who struggle to connect to others who are emotionally distant or unavailable. Being emotionally distant or not showing emotions externally is a trait that many autistic people share, but for those without alexithymia, they may struggle to understand why anyone wouldn't like to talk about their emotions. I don't know the specific symptom term for this, so please bare with me. If anyone would like to inform me about what this is called, please tell me.

Do you struggle to talk with dry texters, or tend to over-examine people's tone through text?

Do you have anxious attachment?

Do you feel disconnected with many other autistic people and struggle to make friends or talk to them?

Do you feel embarrassment or shame with being emotionally sensitive?

Have you fallen down the rabbit hole of things like starseeds, star children or empaths?

Do you want to talk about serious emotions a lot, even when its not appropriate?

Do you trauma dump or wish people would become more emotionally intimate with you? Do you enjoy it when people share their deep traumas with you, even if it's triggering?

Are you constantly reassurance seeking?

There is plenty more symptoms out there, and these are just a few that stood out to me, because I think I may be autistic. I've always related somewhat, but never connected the dots. But there are reasons for that, such as identity diffusion and thinking I'm different from everyone else no matter what. I struggled because I didn't seem to have a lot of the outward and visible symptoms that were often talked about. I thought every autistic person had alexithymia, when that's just not true. My best friend, who has similar symptoms to me, along with another close friend of mine, have a similar presentation of autism. And it's taken quite a bit for me to accept or process. I feel like I'm faking my experiences just because I've self diagnosed before. And I'm angry that ADHD isn't given enough significance.

But I think I might be autistic, and this article that I based this post off of, confirmed it. So here's my post informing and coming out on that. You can be autistic and highly masking without actually knowing what's going on is masking. You can be autistic and have a spectrum of verbality, you can be autistic and struggle to connect to anyone who isn't immediately emotionally intimate with you. You can be autistic and not relate at all to other autistic people.

You're not alone.

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MAN

I GOT LATE TO SCHOOL AND HAD TO RUSH ALL THE WAY TO THERE AND MY FELLAS

I ALMOST PASSED OUT

everythinf because i wanted to watch the date of q!cellbit and q!roier and lost track of time

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i got into SO MUCH trouble for this in school, cus for me ur not better ur "more" than someone just because ur older or bc u have a graduation as something, so i used to get in trouble for "not respecting the autority in class"

the thing i like about myself and my autism is the no perception of social hierarchy. i never completely understood it and i don't care about your job title, how much you get paid and other things that define your social status. i just don't categorize people that way and i think social hierarchy makes no sense.

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im kinda tired rn, BUT IM GONNA REBLOG TELLING U EVERYTHING ABT SPIDERVERSE, JUST WAIT

Sometimes I feel sad that my special interest is learning as a broad because I used love school so much but obviously the school system and being autistic and shit kinda ruined my experience and now I really struggle to engage in my own special interest.

But then I remember I’m the perfect friend to other autistics. Like please. Tell me everything about your niche interest. I will ask questions. Lots. I will get as obsessed with you. I will remember for next time.

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the bouts of depression are so accurate

Autism Bingo

Here’s a blank template so you can participate if you’d like. :)

Source: Pinterest

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HE LOOKS LIKE THAT MASK SELLER FROM ZELDA MAJORA'S MASK

i made a spidaman (theythem)

edit: their name is Sumo (jesús contreras)

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my old psychologist completely erased autism from the possibilities because i can make eye contact

i dont make eye contact because i like, i was forced to do since a little age, so my eye contact looks like this: 👁👁

AND SHE DIDNT EVEN READ WHAT I WROTE AFTER RESEARCHING

Mental health "professionals" when they hear about the Spectrum in Autism Spectrum Disorder: 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯😤😤😤😡😡😡🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

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for me is always a 50/50

either i'll miss u and cry because ur not with me

or i will forget abt ur existence not bc idc but bc its like this for me

Anyone else with ADHD feel guilty for not really missing people? Like I think you're cool and I'm excited when I see you but time just passes differently to me so missing for me isn't the same thing as what neurotypicals make it out to be and I feel really bad about that...