Text
using AI is literally so embarrassing like đ you canât write an EMAIL???? or write a little story for yourself? what can you do lmao?
639 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ghost wasnât even looking for you two. He just needed to grab a goddamn med kit. Thatâs it. A simple in-and-out trip to the supply closet.
But the moment he opened the door, he knew.
Grunting. Breathing. Whispers. The thud of something hitting metal.
He paused in the doorway, completely still, staring into the dim room as his brain registered what he was seeing.
Soap. Shirt halfway off. Neck covered in bite marks. Mouth open in some silent, stunned expression of praise the lord and ruin me more. Hands gripping the edge of a crate like it was the only thing keeping him upright.
And you? Pressed against him. One hand buried in his hair, the other dragging slowly down his back, nails scratching like you were claiming territory.
You didnât even look away when Ghost appeared. You just kept your body flush with Soapâs, breath brushing against his ear as you looked directly at Ghost and said,
âOccupied.â
Soap finally realized they werenât alone, eyes wide as he choked out, â*Ghostâfuckâ*this isnâtââ
Ghost held up a hand. âNope.â
Just turned around and closed the door without another word. Stood in the hallway for a moment. Processing.
Then muttered, âTheyâre gonna burn this place to the ground and call it foreplay.â
He walked away. Found Gaz.
âDonât go in the supply closet.â
Gaz blinked. âWhy not?â
âTheyâre in there.â
Gaz paused. âDoing what?â
Ghost didnât stop walking. âPick a verb.â
3K notes
·
View notes
Text
some people think writers are so eloquent and good with words, but the reality is that we can sit there with our fingers on the keyboard going, âwhatâs the word for non-sunlight lighting? Like, fake lighting?â and for ten minutes, all our brain will supply is âunofficialâ, and we know thatâs not the right word, but itâs the only word we can come up withâŠuntil finally itâs like our face got smashed into a brick wall and we remember the word we want is âartificialâ.
242K notes
·
View notes
Text
Price, entering Johnny's room: "Why are you naked??"
Soap: "I-I don't have any clean clothes"
Price: *opens his closet*
Price: "What are you saying? You have shirts, pants, socks, hi Simon, more shirts, jackets-"
2K notes
·
View notes
Text
From Scratch
Nutrition Info: Johnny/Reader; 4k; a meetcute launched by Reader's inability to cook reasonable portions, and Johnny's... well, just Johnny
No matter how long you live alone, you canât get the hang of cooking for one person. Even when you try to make a single-serving meal instead of batch cooking, somehow it balloons out of control. Wasting food makes you feel awful, but you can only freeze so much.
One evening, desperate and utterly fed up, you go kick gently at a neighborâs door, both hands full, trying to mimic a knock with your shoe. Jason, you think his name was? Striking blue eyes, big frame, a cute cropped mohawk, amazing brogue, and heâs always been cordial when youâve run into him around the building. Friendly, but not too friendly.
Heâs understandably confused by your request at first, but seems happy enough for the food, and takes it around your repeated apologiesâfor bothering him, for existing, for anything you can find, really.
Unfortunately, not even forcing yourself to go and do all of that manages to pierce your shite sense of volume. Your trips to his door do get less awkward over time, though. And Johnny, his name is, always has sparklingly clean dishes and containers to return in exchange for the full ones.Â
Eventually he just starts showing up at your place instead and eats with you at your bar counter. He didnât really ask, and you definitely didnât, but there he is all the same, and⊠if you're honest? Heâs just so easy to be around, it quickly feels natural having him there. He puts you off your guard, puts you at ease and makes you smile, like those are somehow the most natural things in the world.
From that first night, Johnny has insisted on helping with dishes. Starting the second, heâs always got groceries with him. Even manages to talk you out of your discomfort over accepting them, so well that on his fourth night, youâve got a small shopping list ready. Heâs cheeky, you donât think heâll mind. And he is right, after all: you're probably feeding him at least three or four nights out of the week, what with all the leftovers.
You start eating better, and trying new things you'd always planned on âgetting around to,â now that you've got a reason to cook beyond not starving. Everything comes out fine the first time you make it, when youâre closely following a recipe, and Johnny has no qualms about trying anything you put in front of him. Youâve never met someone so genuinely un-fussy when it comes to food.
A couple months after heâs started eating at your place, he disappears for a while. âWork trip,â is all he'll say, and you donât pry, even though you really want to.Â
Once heâs back, he starts coming over weekend afternoons sometimes. You do brunch with beer or fancy drinks in champagne flutes, or occasional breakfast on the roof before other people are awake, him in a big hoodie or jumper, and you wearing a thick blanket like it's trying to digest you, looking like a half-drowned cat because no living being is meant to be awake at such an hour.Â
You cut fruit into mangled flowers and vague geometric shapes for the brunches, usually while just spending time with him. He tries his hand at it once, with you pulling up videos, laughing the whole time youâre explaining how itâs supposed to work, and the utter bastard is better at it on his first go than you were after weeks. His hands are confoundingly steady, and his hand-eye coordination borders on the unnatural.
Thatâs probably the official start of his sous chef arc. And thatâs what has him spending a night judging your knives and marveling, repeatedly and loudly, that you still have all your fingers.
You might put a piece of eggshell into his omelet that night in retaliation, and he might not even have the decency to react to it.
â...Johnny I can hear it crunching, oh my God would you spit it out!â You manage between laughter thatâs got your face hurting.
That happens a lot around him. Smiling so much it hurts.
âNah, iâs nice texture,â he says around the mouthful, then starts enunciating the longer words. âVery advanced technique. Shows a great awareness of the culinary experienceââ
âYouâre being such a prat. Why are you being such a prat!â
He talks over you as if he canât hear you, as if heâs doing some mockingly posh review. âAnd honestly, the crunchingââ he pauses and chomps down on the shell for effect, and how is it still intact, âit really engages the senses. Keeps me immersed in my dining experience.â
You regret loaning him your cooking books. Never again.
After that, though, he steals your knives, takes them home, and they come back so sharp you can cut windowpane slices of potato. He offers to teach you how to do it yourselfâafter stipulating with heart-clenching thoroughness that heâs happy to come over and do it for you any time.
Johnny gets weirdly into shopping farmerâs markets, walking around discovering new produce and varieties of things heâs never seen before. âFuck would I know tomatoes come in this color? Look at this thing, itâs like a feckinâ... itâs a wee lumpy sunset, isnât it? And this! Like someone took the heart of a dragon,â his voice had gone terribly dramatic, and you definitely hadnât covered your face, âand stuck it on a bush somewhere.â
âBaby how are you so huge, but so adorable?â You don't know when the pet names started, but you know he started them; sometimes it feels like you two grew up together.Â
You like the challenge of the new and unexpected ingredients that come from his trips, and by this point, heâs keeping your kitchen pretty stocked with whatever oddball pantry items you ask for, so you're set up to deal with almost anything. But on rare occasions heâll call you with a question, too. Youâve had each otherâs numbers for a while, it just made coordinating easier.Â
âOi can you make sommat with uh⊠fiddlehead ferns?â
You always can, whatever he asks about. It just takes a quick internet search to find out if you can tackle it that same night, or if it needs to wait for another day. Sometimes it ends up disastrous, but like a shot, Johnny has you laughing or throwing something at him (usually-but-not-always also while laughing) before guilt or shame can get a proper foothold.
There was a night when he was too excited about something to wait for you to answer the door when he knocked, and since then, he just sort of comes in on his own after he announces himselfâat least when you know to expect him. That feels right, too, just like having him at your counter had.
Youâre feeding the both of you almost every night of the week by now, even if youâre still not cooking often. You like being around him so much, you canât imagine doing it less, not even when cooking is the last thing you want to be doing. Itâs like thereâs a bubbly little sun in your chest when heâs around.
Johnny makes you so happy, in fact, and youâre so afraid of losing your time with him, itâs nearly six months before the first time you have to tap out of a dinner, too knackered to make yourself even casually presentable, nevermind cook so much as instant noodles.
He reacts like itâs no problem at all, which of course heâd do, because heâs wonderful, but you donât manage to keep your heart from dropping that heâs not at least a little sad. That he doesnât, maybe, look forward to the nights like you do. You know your arrangement is practical, and heâs never been over unless there was food involved, but⊠well⊠seeing him seems to have become rather⊠vital to you.
Which means itâs better to put it away, anyhow, right?
So when, an hour after youâd texted him and basically all heâd said was No problem, thinking takeout, any votes?, heâs coming through your front door with delivery bags and talking a mile a minute like itâs just another night, you're left with your mouth open and your hand on the knob, because⊠because he's here.
You're not cooking, but he's still here.
You just stand there gobsmacked as he sits on the couch, nattering away, half the food out before he even realizes youâre still playing doorstop. He asks if youâre having the time of your life or if youâre going to come sit down, those horrible (wonderful) crinkles at the sides of his eyes, brows pulled up in the middle.
He looks confused when you say you want to freshen up, like he canât see that your hair mightâve lost a row with a feral rodent, or that youâre wearing clothes that shouldnât even be outside of a bin, nevermind on a person. He just tells you the food will get cold, and that itâll be no good that way.
So you run your hands through your hair and sit, subdued and uncertain like you havenât been around him in ages, as he amiably fills the silence. You know he can tell youâre not right, but heâs just⊠acting like itâs ok that you arenât.
Midway through the meal, he reaches forward to grab a container and put it in front of you, and it makes his knee come up against yours.Â
It doesnât move away when he sits back.
Then, as the night wears on and the very most jagged edges of your weariness have eased, he makes a joke and you bump your shoulder into him in retaliation. It pushes your legs flush⊠and neither of you do anything to separate them. He just keeps on being Johnny like nothing is different, like nothing strange is happening, like he canât see how bloody flushed you must be, like the room hasn't turned to glass and burst, leaving the both of you toppling through the air.
You're not stupid, so you have to tell yourself repeatedly that heâs just trying to comfort you. Heâs acting completely normal otherwiseâfor Johnnyâand you look like a person in need of a friend tonight. And same as him, youâre at all your meal nights instead of off with friends or dates. At least for him, itâs because of his career. You havenât even seen him bringing up a new fling in ages.
âŠYouâre not stupid. Right?
After the food is finished, Johnny putters about cleaning up, working his way around your kitchen like he knows it exactly as well as he does. He puts all but one container of leftovers in your fridge.Â
You hug your knees comfortably, just sort of watching him, too full of static to be paranoid about it, and he either doesnât realize or isnât bothered by it. Not being a complete creep, you donât keep it up for too long, anyhow. Youâve got plenty to occupy your thoughts.
He surprises you on his way out by casually setting a mug in front of you. Heâd made you something hot to drink while he was cleaning up, and you were so spaced you hadnât realized. He just gives you a little smile, a gentle squeeze on the shoulder with a stroke of his thumb, says, âWednesday, yeah?â (the night of your next normal get-together), and moves on toward the door. All normal. But thereâs some metal in your chest painfully bending itself into unaccustomed shapes, jabbing places that arenât used to the pressure, pushing into your windpipe until itâs hard to breathe, and you canât stop yourself from telling him that you made up a new seasoning blend for popcorn, if heâd maybe like to watch a movie before he goes.
He stands there by the door looking at you just for a split second too long, opens his mouth, closes it, then settles right back onto the couch up next to you. He reaches out an arm and pulls you gently into his side, moving in a way that makes it an invitation and not a demand, while heâs talking about what to watch.
You fall asleep there. So does he.
Things turn a bit funny after that in a way you canât quite put your finger on. At the surface, everything is the same. But nothing feels the same. Every time thereâs a tease, casual touches, close quarters, you have to chant not stupid not stupid not stupid on repeat in your head. Heâs just Johnny, thatâs all. The guy you could have grown up with.
You keep up the dinners and the weekends, and eventually, finally realize that with him around to take all your extras, you can bake. Itâs something youâve wanted to try forever, but recipes donât really make single servings, and you never had anyone to pawn off the other 22 muffins or Ÿ of the cake onto, or the sheet of croissants, because you absolutely want to try the most fussy, difficult things. And it turns out, when at last he tells you what he does, that Johnny works at the local military baseâwhich at least explains his sizeâso if he canât polish something off, well, he knows some blokes.
Youâre so excited after that, things almost seem to return to normal. He even comes over and hangs out while youâre baking sometimes. Just knocking about, licking the beaters and the spoons and the bowls, doing dishes as you go, fidgeting with this or that, all while knowing youâre equally as likely to produce something inedible as you are a treat.
Johnny tells you a little about his career one evening. He says that it means heâs in real danger often, thereâs a lot of secrecy with people in his personal life, long absences and surprise ones, shit pay, and likely a brief expiration date. (You donât really let that last one in). Heâs got a bit of a funny look in his eyes when he shares about all of it. Quite focused on you, in a way? It makes your cheeks heat. It isnât as if itâs on you to approve of his life.
But at least now you understand why heâs on his own. And you suppose youâre a bit small, because while youâre incredibly sad for him, part of you is thrilled that it means heâs not likely soon going to be swept away by someone else too soon.
You just gather yourself up, smile, and tell him that at least heâs spending the time he has as best he can, which is a hell of a lot more than a lot of people doâalthough you personally hope thereâs a lot more of it. And that⊠at the end, you're glad for all the times you're involved.
Johnnyâs leaning against the counter while you fold nuts and rum-soaked fruit into a thick batter, his normally busy hands jammed into his pockets, posture a bit off, and so close you almost keep elbowing him on accident, the two of you just bantering back and forth.Â
You turn your head toward him to fire back, andâ
âhis mouth is just there, on yours.
He lingers, but doesnât move otherwise. Itâs⊠testing, you think. You feel his lips shake against yours, in fact, just once.Â
Your shock dies fast and your eyes slip closed, and while itâs a brief kiss, when he pulls away, you donât open them. You canât. Because if youâre honest, youâve probably been gone for him since the first time you gave him a friendly hug goodnight, and itâs only ever gotten worse. If you open your eyes, this wonât be real, or it wonât have happened, or it will shatter somehow.
After a pause, he runs the back of a finger down your temple, trailing the side of your face to your jaw. You still wonât open your eyes, so he just toys with your face until you do.
Heâs got a soul-crushing smile at the corners of his eyes.
âBeen wanting to do that for a long time,â he admits into the quiet.
â...Oh?â Your voice is embarrassingly, unhelpfully breathy. Itâd probably be mortifying, if you had the mental capacity to fully register embarrassment at the moment.
He pauses, smile making its way to his lips, and curling them up at the corners, bit by bit. He cants his head, just a little, like he wants to see you from another angle. âAye. âŠMightâve been since the first time I saw you at the mailboxes.â
âOh?âÂ
That had been one of the first times you remember ever seeing him. He never said a word to you other than, âMorninââ or âEveninâ,â if he said anything at all.
His smile blooms until you can see his teeth. âYou were wearing this little shirt. Green, thin. Bit worn, like it was a favorite. Showed a wee spot of skin at your back.â His fingers brush the spot, soft and testing, near the base of your spine, and it jolts you from scalp to toes. âMightâve⊠lost some time, thinking about what itâd feel like if I slid my hand up there.â He toys with the hem of your shirt and steps in, voice going deeper and rougher around the edges. âMightâve imagined pushing it up, getting a bit closer. Really mightâve imagined putting your back up to the slots, moââ
You kiss him this time, before he can go on, and itâs anything but testing.
And just like everything else about him, this fits.Â
His mouth fits against yours. His body fits against yours. And as if some band of control snaps, so abruptly you swear you feel it jolt through his skin, he's got you up on the counter, his thighs between yours, both of you already breathing hard.
His hands on you are perfect, calloused, slipping up under the back of your shirt, smoothing and gripping, making your chest and your thighs feel molten. It's ravenous, like he just has to touch your skin, has to get you closer. You arch toward him, fingers running up through his hair, legs curling around his and pulling him nearer.
His hips are carefully, stubbornly, infuriatingly back from you, but the kiss is so full of need, so close, that some of his breaths sound hollow against your mouth. It's like he can't decide whether inhaling or devouring you is more important, so he just doesn't choose.
When you're at the point of moaning unintentionally, of hungry little sounds forcing their way out of your chest, of your hips moving against the counter in desperation, when you're moments from outright begging, Johnny pulls back, and goes further when you try to chase his mouth.
His lips are red and full, his face dark--much worse when he catches sight of how completely drunk you must look--and he's panting. His fingers dig into your hips like he's trying to keep one or both of you from drowning. He squeezes his eyes shut.
You don't mean to, you really don't, but you look down, and lord help you butâ
âThat looks painful,â you tell him. Your voice sounds like it's been run over a washboard. He's tented against his denim, and his size is⊠proportional.
âŠYou can't seem to remember how to make yourself look up.
âReally rather not talk about my cock just now, love,â he gravels, fingers clenching briefly against you. His head tips forward onto your shoulder, breaths panting out against your collar bone, leaving you to pick up every bit of heat he's trying to get out of himself.
You hum, teasing. âShame, because I can't think of anything I'd rather talk abââ
His big paw covers your mouth. âFor the love of every Saint, Iâm beggiââ
You cut him off right back. By licking his palm.
He recoils in horror, but the moment your eyes meet, you both burst into laughter, made worse every time he tries to tell you how disgusting that is, something about his sisters as kids, you don't know what else.
You're the first to sober, breathing almost back to normal, thoughts already whirring on fast-forward. You look down, pulling your knees together, hands gripping the edge of the counter. âAre weâŠ. Will we be ok, after this?â
You peek up to see him looking at you like you're daft.
ââS been the better part of a year,â he says softly, moving forward and running his thumbs over your knees. Asking your legs to make room again, to let him get close again. âHave you really not figured it out, all this time?âÂ
Your legs open hesitantly, and he steps in and, when you look up at him, kisses one corner of your mouth, then the other, slow and warm and so tender it feels like your chest is cracking right down the center.
Eyes closed, brows a little pinched, you murmur, âWe can't all be SAS savants, Johnny.â Maybe you know. Maybe. But it has been all this time, so maybe you need to hear it, too.
He's still kissing, pace unhurried and savouring, making his way to your jaw and just beneath it. But it's calming now, somewhere between reverential and still trying to bring the both of you down. Himself especially, you think.
âThen let me spell it out for you. Gladly.â He noses up against the bottom of your ear and roughs, âYou are fucking stuck with me. Glued. Bloody welded.â He huffs a laugh and leans back uprightâbut not all the way, not too far back. âThis isnae a new thing for me. You know that, right? I justâŠ.â He shakes his head and abandons the thought, âHell, my mates have already been asking when they can come over for dinner, the dobbers.â
Your brows shoot up. âYou've talked about me at work?â
He looks down, and while his face is in half a scowl, you'd swear he does it to hide a slight flush, too. âHaven't shut up about you, more like. Should hear what my Lieutenantâ Ach, nevermind that.â
You hurry to say that they're welcome any time, but it makes him scowl fully.
âNot exactly keen on the idea just yet.â He puts his arms around you, buries his face in your neck, and just stands there, breathing you in. He mutters into the crook of your shoulder, âMind if I stay like this for a bit? Just while I, uh⊠calm down.â
His hips are still well back from you. Youâre not sure youâve ever adored and hated him so much at once.
âIâd really like that,â you tell him softly, arms going around his ribs, hands on his shoulders, chest to chest.
It's warm and resounding like this, so after a spell, without thinking, you bite his shoulder. Just sink your teeth in and leave them there. Itâs not even entirely conscious, it's just so comfortable and comforting.
âAll good, there, wee piranha?â he eventually asks, a smile in his voice.
You detach instantly. âAh, sorry! I, uh, might have a tiny bit of an oral fixation.â
He groans. âAre ye trying to do me in?â
âIâm not the one who said we had to stop, Mr. Military Discipline.â
His eyes darken in a flash, but he tamps down on it just as quickly and gets that godawful cocky look on his face, instead. âPardon me for not wanting to rush something that really matters.â His tone goes so soft at the end that you canât even be mad at him--exactly as you know he intended, the great bastard.
âHow did I not know what a sadist you are?â
And that look means heâs about to make you eat your words.
âJohnny I will happily kill you in your sleep.â
âI could handle that. Means you'd be in my bed, aye?â
He pulls your hands up from the death grip they've found on the edge of the counter and laces your fingers together. âI dinnaeâŠ.â He clears his throat, frowns. âJust being away on deployment is shite now, and I love what I do. But I miss you while I'm gone, think about you back here all the bloody time, and we havnae evenâŠ.â
When he doesnât finish, you whisper, heart clenching with the realization, âYou don't want to rush this.â
He laughs quietly like he wants to argue. But what he says is, âNo. I don't. But while that's trueâŠ.â He steps in, chin ducking, eyes darkening even as they shine, voice lowering. âWhat do you say we turn the oven off? I've a funny feeling you willnae be getting around to that bake today.â
Masterlist
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Bird Behind Bars
Credit to @enchanthings-a for dividers :)
Word Count: 935
TW: Violence, Blood, classy military life, depressive thoughts
She's just a soldier shown by the mud on her boots and the blood under her nails. There should've been an end to this, now? Peace is only an option the military won't choose.
The air was thick with metal & dirt, the wafting of copper through muddied soles of tearing boots and wrapped cloth & skin that barely held itself together and was torn unevenly. Stained in the elements of flesh. Steady, gloved fingers rested around the barrels underside of the rifle strapped against her hole-filled rig where the pocket of its left breast was torn off, threads plumming from the seams once met. Back sat against the interior of the bladed craft, currently surveying across the northern most plateau in its leisure travel toward the base, gleaming at its pilot through thickets of fog into the clearing surrounding its stood-tall fences. Wire woven through pinhole divots that allowed it to criss-cross in thick wire-covered metal. There was a slight, sudden bang as the wheels dispatched below the craft, the innards & unstrapped passengers alike being jostled as its wheels pressed down toward the landing pad.
Pressing a gloved hand against the bench, she quickly came to a stand in similar fashion alongside her fellows. All dutifully filing out from the craft with learned ease, raising their arm arm abruptly, hand pressed near their foreheads in salute. Legs pressed firmly into a straight line aligned with the straightness of their back.
Stood before them, a tanned man with fringes of orange visible below his strapped helmet as he adjusted the radio attached to the dirtied but otherwise uniform rig strapped around his torso & rolled up sleeves of his uniform.
âGood work, Youâll find your next assignments here.â
Only now visible, as a uniformed woman stepped from behind the otherwise taller man. She didnât recognize the secretary, mustâve been new. Eyes met her staff sergeants, glancing towards her hands that held the assignments. A brief nod was given as he reached her own dirtied hands toward the clean one grasping the files. Tucking it into her rig carefully. He waved a hand up, dismissing the secretary as his eyes wandered toward the soldier stood before him.
âYou look like a mess.â
Her eyes traveled down her outstretched hands, eyeing over the gathered & drying mud or blood, taking his rather astute observations as due process to clean up. Though she looked back toward him, in waiting. This caused him to cock his head to the side, staring back before simply speaking.
âYouâre dismissed.â
Her boots pivoted against the concrete, saluting him before walking off.
Itâd been some weeks, moving between otherwise ruined buildings in scouting, looking for strays who had managed to slip between the cracks. Their company almost thought any had already fled off & far away, away from all the war & bloodshed. It wasnât until theyâd caught sight of a head poked from the bush when they heard the shots ultimately directed toward them, even if they had all but missed.
A child, some young hybrid stood over a separated soldier baring the dead mans rifle. She was on the ground before she could blink. Disgusting of an act as it was, desperation brought forth the lowest, as far as to lend a child a weapon and condemn it to death for your own escape. She acted faster than she could process what had just happened. When she opened her eyes again, she was facing the shower head as water cascaded down her body, washing her of any physical filth. Like clockwork, shifting the handle reflecting her own scarred body een as the water held itself back in the creaking pipes until the streams were reduced to barren droplets.
She dropped her head a beat, staring into the drain as if it, too, would suck her into a dark eternity. Lifting her gaze until it looked toward the handle as she finally stepped from beneath the showerhead, drying and then dressing in similar attire to what she arrived in with less intricacies & lacking a helmet & rifle. Cleaner, polished, laced up boots that stepped in muted fashion toward her office.Â
It was as her fingers wrapped around the cold brass of the handle, as her feet pushed through the door, that she found herself having to consciously remember to check her phone. An emptied thought after being sat at her desk with some several labeled folders staring back at her. An unmotivated, careful hand reached down & slipped the rectangular device from her pocket & placed it to the far side, slid against the otherwise polished wood allowing such filthy to rest & idle.
Black screen reflecting the fluorescent light beaming down at her until it lit up.
A rare, brief look of some interest before dismissing the system notification, shoulders deflating at her sides with solemn eyes. Thumbing briefly through the folder - reports, -forums - the assignment keenly sat near the bottom until it was slipped from the stack with some relative ease although discount as she flicked the folder open & reviewed its contents line by line with necessary care. Hands who were unknown to a delicacy tentatively flicking through page after page of information almost who wandered what delicate hands would attach themself to her body. Where would it come to find her?Â
Finally, the assignment was no more until it could consume her whole and tuck her paper sliced head between the edges of its arms with willing comfort.
Like a phantom, all consuming in its ruthless & gloomed over path, something dark settled in the root of her stomach. Working like a dog, for what? She wished, hoped, to be taken away almost & uprooted because maybe & only then, would peace fully allude her once & for all until it dissipated and enticed like droplets underneath the impending ending that should face her with untimely demise.Â
#cod inspired#military#PLEASEEE forgive formatting#unedited#tips appreciated :)#third person#bird behind bars
0 notes
Text
(Poly 141 x medic reader, where you might as well be the sun to them)
The phrase started as a whisper.
It drifted through the base like smoke curling around corners, impossible to pin down but impossible to ignore.
âHere comes the sun.â
It bounced off walls, passing lips in hushed tones, slipping into conversations as a half-joke, half-omen. At first, the 141 didnât pay it much attention. Soldiers had their quirks, their superstitions- rituals to keep them sane when missions dragged too long and they smelled more blood than earth. But this one stuck.
Price furrowed his brow the first time he heard it. Ghost only tilted his head slightly, filing it away. Gaz grimaced and muttered something about troops getting weird ideas. Soap, though- he took notice.
Heâd caught it more than once before a mission, said like a prayer or maybe a warning. Heâd asked around, but answers were vague. âYouâll know when you see it.â Thatâs all theyâd tell him. It irritated him to no end.
Then the mission happened.
It was supposed to be a clean extraction. A quick in-and-out, but things went sideways fast. Soap had been covering the teamâs six when the ambush hit. A sharp crack split the air, followed by the searing pain in his side. He hit the ground hard, blood soaking into the dirt, a familiar, burning ache travelling through his body.
âSoapâs hit!â Gazâs voice barked through comms, panic threading through the static.
âPull him out!â Price ordered.
But the line fizzled and died. Soapâs world narrowed- gunfire, shouts, and the taste of copper in his mouth. He couldnât hear the others anymore. The ground felt colder than it should have. He pressed his hand against the wound, but it was bad. Really bad.
This is it, he thought. This is where I die.
The edges of his vision blurred. He barely noticed the figure sprinting toward him until a flash of bright red and orange, a blazing fire, pierced through the smoke and haze.
Like the sun.
You hit the ground beside him, all motion and precision, your gear unlike anything heâd ever seen. Bright red and orange covered your tactical vest and helmet- colors that didnât belong in a war zone. Colors that shouldâve made you a target, a dead woman walking.
But instead, you looked like salvation.
âStay with me, Sargeant.â You said, voice sharp and steady. You werenât panicked- not even a little. It was comforting.
Soap stared, wide-eyed, as your hands worked quickly to stop the bleeding. He shouldâve been paying attention to the pain, to the gunfire, to anything else- but he couldnât stop looking at you.
âWhat the hell are ya wearing?â he rasped, because that was apparently the only thought his brain could form.
You didnât look up. âBright colors make it easier to spot me. Medics donât have the luxury of hiding- we have to be seen when it counts.â
âItâs bloody ridiculous.â he muttered- and then sucked in a sharp breath as you tightened the bandage.
âMaybe,â you said, finally glancing at him. âBut it got me here, didnât it?â
Soapâs heart stumbled. Your eyes were sharp, focused- but there was something else there too, something warm. Something steady.
Here comes the sun.
It hit him all at once. Thatâs what the others meant. It wasnât just the colors. It was you. The way you moved, the way your voice cut through the noise, the way you didnât hesitate for a second.
âStay awake, Sargeant.â You ordered, and for the first time in his life, he didnât have a single smart remark.
Much later, he woke up in the med tent, groggy but alive, and immediately found himself staring at you again.
You were restocking supplies nearby, your bright gear an almost comical contrast to the sterile white walls. The moment you noticed him looking, you crossed the room.
âYouâre awake,â you said, checking his vitals. Your voice was softer now, calm and patient. He felt like he could melt. âGood.â
âYouâre real.â He blurted out before he could stop himself.
You raised an eyebrow, tilting your head. âWhat?â
âThought I was hallucinating.â He gestured vaguely at your vest, a grin cracking on his lips. âI mean, look at ya.â Lovely. The sun has never looked better.
Your lips twitched, like you were holding back a smile. âI get that a lot.â
Before he could come up with anything else to say- anything remotely smooth- the tent flap opened.
Price, Ghost, and Gaz stepped in, their eyes immediately landing on you. And for once, Soap wasnât the only one caught off guard.
Gaz blinked. âYouâre⊠bright.â
âEasy to spot.â You said, beaming.
Ghost stared at you for a few seconds longer, peering, before he spoke. ââŠYouâre the sun.â
Price studied you for a long moment as well, then nodded like something clicked into place with a sigh. âMakes sense.â
You, on the other hand, looked confused and unsure, tilting your head once more in the way kittens do.
Soap couldnât stop staring. He barely even heard the others talking, answering your confusion. All he could think about was how youâd shown up when he thought he was done for- and how youâd looked like a fiery star in the vast expanse of a cold, dark sky.
You glanced at him again, eyes sharp and warm all at once, lips quirking in a delicate smile while Gaz talked with you.
Here comes the sun, he thought.
(⊠would it be possible to cradle the sun, such warmth, in his hands?)
4K notes
·
View notes
Text
đđ± đđ«đąđ§đđđ« (đđ+)
đđđ«đ đ - đđ„đšđšđ
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/Fem Reader Zombie apocalypse AU (all parts here)
CW: Death, gore.
Suddenly the injuries arenât bites anymore. The rock in your hand falls uselessly to the ground, as your eyes trace over the body again, and you finally understand those straight cuts and deep gashes. Theyâre ax wounds.Â
Oh, god.Â
Oh, god.
Was this Nick? Was your intuition right after all? Maybe he followed you, and Rich just happened to discover him creeping in the woods. What if he was hacked to death defending you?
The killer could be anywhere at this point, and the woods are growing rapidly dark. You have to get back to camp, now.Â
Quickly examining yourself for blood, you find only a little bit on your palms and quickly spit on them, scrubbing the red off on Richâs pants. Itâll do for now, but you wonât be able to stay anywhere near here tonight. Biters are coming, murder or not.Â
You take off running in the direction of camp, mind racing with every individual worry â that youâre currently being stalked, that youâll have very little time to pack up camp before this turns into a red zone, and that Doran will somehow blame this on you, which is such a stupid situation for you to even have to consider. This was all Nick. He had the ax, heâs the creepy stalker guy, heâ
He told you, âSorry,â when you left.Â
You didnât think anything of it at the time, but now you remember how the inflection on the word was strange. It wasnât the sort of way people usually apologize, it was more like the way youâd say goodbye to someone. Why did he say it like that?
Why did he say it like that?
It felt wrong, but was it a, âsee you later tonight,â sort of goodbye, or an, âIâll be over there in a minute to kill you,â sort of goodbye? What if heâs chasing behind you right now, with a bloody ax and a fresh, âSorry,â as you die?
You havenât been eating enough for all this running. Every so often you have to stop, lungs burning and chest heaving. You have to quiet your own breathing to listen for any other sound in the forest, but thereâs no sign of anyone crashing through the leaves behind you. The muscles in your legs protest the lack of electrolytes with low grade cramps, but you push on because you have to. This canât be all for nothing. You canât have just spent months and months surviving the hoards, just to go out likeâ
Thump.
In the dim light, you donât see the solid protrusion in the leaves. It catches on your boot and sends you flying face first to the ground, as you trip over something squishy and heavy.Â
You already know itâs a body, even before you push yourself up off the ground with trembling arms. A childish, insane impulse screams at you to ignore it, to pretend you never saw it, like if you could just make it back to camp without stopping, the body wouldnât exist. If only there was some way to rewind time and fix everything and make it not exist.Â
Nausea and dread rise inside you, but you bravely get up on your knees and crawl to the second dead man youâve found in less than an hour. Heâs lying on his back, eyes staring unseeing towards the bare branches and the gray sky above. Thereâs blood crusted throughout his hair, but you know that silver-sprinkled beard even in this poor lighting.
Itâs Doran.Â
NO.
A strangled cry shreds itself out of you, grief and helplessness that you canât possibly keep inside anymore. Doranâs dead. The one protector you found in this new, lawless world, and heâs lying here with a single arrow lodged in the middle of his chest.Â
Heâs dead forever.
Youâll never see his face again, never see him smile at you when he takes his first bite of the food you worked so hard to create. Youâll never hear his firm voice again, reminding everyone of the rules that keep you all alive. This one stability, this one constant that existed in your life, and itâs simply gone, maliciously stolen from you.Â
A flutter of movement nearby has you jerking in fright, but itâs just a bird. A lone songbird fearlessly perches itself on a branch just a few feet from your face. Itâs too dark to tell what kind it is, but youâd guess by the size that itâs some kind of finch, bobbing slowly up and down on the too-thin twig itâs found.
âWhat are you doing?â you whisper, hot, helpless tears spilling from your eyes. âYou should be in bed."
The bird makes no move to find somewhere warmer for the night, twitching its head around and rustling its tail.Â
âDonât you see?â It seems to say, flitting to a thicker branch, just to observe you. âThis is how itâs meant to be, in the wild. There are no friends, no inherent allies. We wake up, we eat, we die. You humans are a part of this, now.â
âWhat do I do?â you croak towards the dark smudge of the bird.Â
As if shot from a canon, the songbird suddenly flaps away, into the branches overhead, and youâre left utterly alone.
You have no weapons, no fighting skills. All you have is this horrible arrow, which you canât bring yourself to rip out of Doranâs still-warm flesh, and the rocks and sticks around you.Â
Thereâs nothing left to do for these dead men. Thereâs only getting out, and getting away.
Getting to your feet, a wave of light-headedness washes over you, and you realize itâs been far too long since you had a full meal. You swipe your tears away, and maybe youâre simply going into shock, but you feel numbness closing in. Itâs almost a trance that envelopes you, while you journey the last few paces to the camp. Twenty or so steps, and they feel like miles, dragging at your leaden feet.Â
You barely register the high pitched ringing in your ears, as you break through the treeline, and finally understand the extent of whatâs taken place. Itâs almost too much to process, but you do your best.Â
There are bodies everywhere.
Crumpled on the ground, slumped against trees, men lie dead and bloody all around you. A cold breeze cuts through the place, chilling you through your jacket and further plunging your heart into darkness and despair. You glance to your left and right as you walk, eyeing the arrows shot perfectly into heads and chests, never more than one.
Nick is a good shot, the clinical part of your brain decides, but not this good. Thereâs only one man in your group who could have accomplished this kind of slaughter in this small timeframe.Â
Gaz.
Loud, irritating, idiot Gaz killed every single person here, and the only reason youâve survived this long is because you were already hiding from imagined shadows.Â
You donât see Nick, but you can assume heâs lying somewhere in those woods, same as Rich, killed with his own ax. Youâd feel a little guilty for suspecting him, if you could feel anything at all right now. You donât even feel your feet as you numbly traverse the cold ground ahead, towards the cache of supplies.Â
Youâre completely depleted. Youâve poured out every bit of energy you possessed into surviving this new world, and itâs caught up to you. You donât have a calorie or a brain cell to spare, and now youâre faced with your own certain death, and you canât even come to terms with it.Â
Will he kill you quickly, same as the men? Is there an arrow destined for your own chest, perhaps trained on you right now? How convenient youâve made it for him, walking straight into the field of bodies as if you havenât any sense of self preservation left.Â
You find yourself at the supply tent without even realizing it, staring blankly down at the pile of food and gear thatâs no longer needed, because youâll be dead soon.
Wait.
Where are your fucking tampons?
For some reason, that snaps you out of the haze, because you know exactly where they were on the pile, and now you find that spot completely empty. What the FUCK?Â
Incensed, you start plowing through the supplies with your hands, knocking things to the ground and unearthing the bottom stuff, just to verify that your tampons are indeed gone. Soon youâre surrounded by scattered cans and plastic packaging, and the sound of your own enraged huffs of air.
A frustrated scream bursts out of you, because why the fuck would Gaz steal your fucking tampons if not to destroy the last little bit of your hope?Â
Your brain is back online, and suddenly youâre too angry to die easy.
Someday youâll worry about becoming too predictable, but today isnât that day. You know whoâs not lying dead in the woods right now? You. You know why not? Trees.Â
From the branches of a friendly maple, you keep a determined vigil over the supplies. How exactly you know he's coming back, you're not sure. It might be thanks to your observant nature thatâs convinced you he hasnât taken any food with him, or maybe itâs because you know thatâs his camp roll and backpack down there, because you checked.Â
Heâs been too busy hunting you to gather his things, so he must be coming back.Â
Youâd like to say youâll be ready with some sort of weapon, or plan, or at least an idea of what heâll do next, but that would be a lie. Youâve got nothing. Youâre scared and alone, and youâre doing what youâve always done to survive, because itâs worked before â youâre watching.Â
You donât have to wait long. Itâs not even a half hour later that you hear leaves being crushed under boots, and see movement at the treeline.Â
Itâs not a biter, you can smell that much. The figure slows at the edge of the clearing, nearly at the exact same spot that you stood and realized your life was over. Itâs Gaz, you can just tell. Even in the dark, even from this distance, you know that hateful posture.Â
He seems fatigued, or maybe injured. Youâve never seen him drag his feet like that, almost stumbling forward as he traverses the clearing. He probably canât see the bodies where they lay in darkness, but you hope he can feel them. You hope every life he stole weighs heavy on his shoulders, now and forever.Â
Thunk.
Gaz stops only to bury his ax in the trunk of a fallen tree, as if retiring it for the night. Youâre not sure where the bow went, so he must have been hunting you with the ax this last hour, as if craving your violent death by his own hand. Grimly, you hope heâs disappointed.Â
You expect him to pack up, or eat something, or keep looking for you. What you donât expect is for him to collapse at his bed roll, stretching himself out on the grass and apparently using the pack as a pillow.Â
Is he⊠going to bed?
Surely not. Surely he understands the danger heâs brought upon you both, dousing the area in blood. He canât be that stupid. Come on, Gaz. Show your hand.
He doesnât.
That fucker lays there, and doesnât stir again.Â
And that is a position you never expected to find yourself in. Thereâs no lead to follow. No plan. Just one horrible, very stupid man, fallen asleep in the middle of a bloodbath, near an undeniable weapon.Â
It takes you a few minutes to decide, just to make sure itâs not a trap. It might be a trap. Youâre too full of hatred, and too desperate at this point to care.Â
Slowly you descend the branches of the tree, taking care not to make unnecessary noise or lose your footing. Where you were numb before, now pure insanity has its claws in you. Thereâs no more haze, just narrow minded focus, and an absolute lack of doubt.Â
Gaz deserves to die. Itâs him or you, heâs made that part as clear as can be. Youâre not sure if heâs some kind of serial killer, or maybe driven insane by the world heâs been thrust into, but at this point it doesnât matter. He needs to die, and youâre finally prepared to kill. Itâs not even murder anymore, itâs a righteous execution in the absence of law and order. Itâs practically self defense.Â
Your feet are swift and silent, as you approach the sleeping form of your enemy. The first droplets of rain hit your cheeks, just as you reach down to work the head of the ax out of the log. Youâre patient with it, slow. Your eyes stay locked on the figure a few paces away, verifying his stillness, and bit by bit youâre able to work the blade free.Â
The handle is damp, but not sticky with blood. You wonder if he found a creek to wash it off, maybe washed himself as well. After all that killing, you canât imagine his clothes were salvageable. He seems to have thought this whole thing through, from the weapon upgrades to the cleanup afterwards. But he wore himself out doing it, and he also didnât factor in that youâre a little faster on your feet than the others.
You think about that bird, as you silently approach his unconscious form. This is natureâs course. Itâs about as personal as a herd of buffalo stomping a mountain lion to death. Sometimes things just need to happen, and the natural order allows it.Â
You come to a stop just a few inches from his body. The ax dangles loosely in your grasp, and you carefully tighten your hold. His neck is the obvious choice, itâs the way Rich died. One committed chop is all it will take, and then you can finally worry about tomorrow.Â
One chop, and youâve got to mean it.
It happens so fast, youâre momentarily stunned. Youâve just planted your feet, just started to lift your weapon, when your leg collapses in a flash of pain.Â
You cry out in shock, toppling to one knee, and barely keeping hold of your weapon as you bash your knuckles in the fall.Â
Your brain catches up to events in a delayed second, realizing that it was Gazâs fist that slammed into the back of your knee, and registering with icy horror that his hand is now clamped firmly around yours atop the ax.Â
âClever girl.â
Next Part
Dividers by the-aesthetics-shop
Big thank you to Gorsime for being Ax's #1 fan and sending me art and music for its creation. The fur that he is wearing is the fur that he prefers.
621 notes
·
View notes
Text
đđ± đđ«đąđ§đđđ« (đđ+)
đđđ«đ đ - đđđŠđ©đšđ§đŹ
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/Fem Reader Zombie apocalypse AU (all parts here)
CW: Death, gore
Youâre so shocked by the sudden contact on your lips that all you can do is jerk away at first, stumbling back a step and trying to process the fact that he just kissed you.Â
Gaz makes no move to pursue. He meets the stunned outrage on your face with that icy, dark gaze of his, and then ignores you entirely to tuck a cigarette between his lips.
âDonât ever do that again,â you threaten in a low whisper. Thereâs a mortifying burn lingering on your skin where his mouth touched you.Â
Heâs just finished coaxing a flame out of the lighter, and regards you over the first red embers of his cigarette. âYou havenât got your supplies sorted, have you?â
âIâveââ you square your shoulders, irritated that heâs somehow sensed your failure. âIâm almost done.â
âYouâd better hurryâŠâ smoke curls around his face as he softly breathes it out, raising his eyebrow at you and adding, ââŠwife.â
A sizzle of rage gets added to the churning hatred deep inside you, but you donât dare make a move to knock that stupid thing out of his mouth like you want to. You have to be smart, because you do need your supplies. You need to be able to leave and never see him, ever again.Â
âGoodbye, Gaz,â you tell him for the last time, securing your backpack onto both shoulders.
The smug bastard has no idea what you mean, or course. For all he knows, youâll be hanging around like an idiot, today, tomorrow, and every day after.Â
With a jerk of his chin towards the door, Gaz dismisses you with an exasperated, âFuck off.â
So you do.Â
You turn your back on that miserable prick, and get to work on what matters.Â
Youâre grateful for that chance encounter. It spurns you on, makes you remember the reason youâre here in the first place, and itâs not to sit around and be nostalgic about your past life. Today, itâs your job to escape the control of men once and for all.Â
You get lucky, soon after. Someone who lived at the next house must have been a planner, because you find four unopened boxes of tampons tucked away in the back of a cabinet. Normally youâd be gleeful at the find, but all you feel now is righteous determination. This is your day. You just need some food, a lighter, and some warm clothes, and you can leave these weasel men to their weasley ways.Â
Itâs going to work out.Â

âConsolidate supplies here,â Doran orders, setting a small jug of gasoline on the grass. Youâre not really sure why he has it, but you donât dare ask and draw unwanted attention to yourself at the moment.
It was just plain bad luck that allowed Tim to catch up with you right before you could sneak away. The jacket you found isnât as thick as you hoped, but you did get some new boots that fit well, and thick socks. Maybe youâll come across another town before too long, but for now, you just need to survive until nighttime, when you escape.Â
Regretfully, you unload all your beautiful food onto the pile â tinned fish, bean soup â things you were looking forward to eating as your first freedom meal. Youâll have to raid the food before you leave. Damn you, Tim.Â
You step back to give the others room to unload, so lost in your own planning that it takes Doranâs booming voice to shock you back to reality.
âYouâve still got a full pack.â
Confused, you look up to find that, yes, his eyes are locked on you. Heâs talking to you, for some reason.Â
âIâ uh, itâs just menstrual stuff.â
Before you can process the strange way everyone seems to be staring at you, Doran tips his head towards the pile. âCommunal supplies.â
What?Â
You blink in confusion for a second, before Doran reaches over and rips your backpack out of your hands, dumping out your tampon boxes and a few fire starting tools.
âS-sir!â you protest, sputtering in your indignation. âIâm the only one with a vagina!â
âCommunal supplies,â he repeats evenly, thrusting your bag back into your arms without any further explanation. Doran holds your eyes in his steely gaze, daring you to question his authority in front of everyone. All of them are his men, apart from maybe one, and that one is not your friend.
An infuriating chuckle sounds from somewhere nearby.
In your absolute disbelief, you glance around the group for a second, trying to figure out if this is some tasteless prank. Youâve never had to fork over any hygiene products before. Theyâve never even been mentioned, except to verify that youâve got enough.Â
Gaz doesnât even bother to meet your eyes, instead taking a large bite of some chocolate bar with a hideously bright wrapper, as if your human rights were the least of his concerns at the moment.Â
He did this. Gaz was the one who made you an outsider here, who changed all the rules and drove a wedge between you and your carefully-wooed leader. You canât even stand to look at him now.Â
Disgusted, you zip up your empty backpack and retreat to the edge of the group. Itâs dizzying how easily your earlier plans slipped right through your fingers. If Doran is mistrustful enough to confiscate your tampons, what else does he have in store for you? How many more trees will you have to sleep in before you can fucking leave?Â
You canât leave, when you have no tampons. Your period starts in two days, and now you canât even leave.Â

There is another option, you realize, helping to set up the temporary camp an hour later. The distance from the town is still pretty small, you could spend the night ransacking houses again in the dark, and just hope you can find everything you need all over again. Itâs your only feasible option at this point, because you will not let yourself become some kind of slave, with more and more of your autonomy being stripped away every day.Â
So you bide your time. You chew on your stash of jerky as you help erect a tent over the supplies, because it looks like itâll rain overnight. You donât work diligently or quickly, because fuck them.
âHey,â calls Nickâs voice from somewhere behind you, and you feel a lock of your hair getting playfully tugged.Â
Warily you turn to face him. âWhat?â
âWant to help me with firewood?â
His eyes are lazy and lidded, dropping to your mouth and staying there, with the camp ax dangling in his hand. Always a casual hold on the ax, but that can change so quickly.Â
On the other hand, you could really use an ally. If you can convince Nick to help you escape, maybe even run off with you, things could go twice as smooth tonight, and every night. Do you trust your own ability to manipulate him?Â
âOkay,â you agree, and then scowl when he steals a piece of jerky out of your hand and pops it in his mouth.Â
âGreat,â he says through the mouthful, hand on your lower back to lead you towards the woods.
âNick,â calls Doranâs hateful, horrible voice, making you grind your teeth in frustration.Â
âYeah, boss?â
âSheâs going hunting with Rich. We wonât need much wood, get going like I told you.â
Grumbling to himself about busybodies, Nick hooks his arm around your neck to give your cheek a solid kiss. âSorry,â he whispers, before pulling away.Â
âItâs okay,â you whisper back. Maybe he would have conspired with you, but Doran is determined to keep you apart.Â
At least heâs paired you with Rich, and not Gaz. Rich isnât exactly your friend, but heâs always been a safe option. Quiet, keeps to himself, and doesnât leer. You scale your plans back to what they were five minutes ago, and mentally kick yourself for getting your hopes up over nothing.Â
Rich meets you between two trees, with a large knife on his hip and the compound bow slung around his shoulder. This is a new location, so thereâs a decent chance heâll take down something edible, even if itâs just a squirrel or two. Canned food is always a last resort these days.
âHowâs it going?â you prompt, trailing behind him as he starts to move through the trees.
âFine. Ready to be headed south.â
âI think we all are,â you murmur. Winter is coming whether youâre prepared or not. Itâs your first winter in the elements, and memories of every survival show youâve ever watched have been flipping through your mind, flashes of frostbite and starvation.Â
The last time you had a period, Rich was the one who would go into the woods with you, keeping a look out while you changed and buried your tampon. In fact, heâs been a pretty constant, safe resource for you, for a while. You start cursing yourself internally for overlooking that obvious alliance, in favor of Nickâs aggressive flirtation.Â
You stare at the back of Richâs ponytail as you walk, calculating the trust you have for him. Heâs doing his usual hunting routine, stepping carefully and scanning slowly each direction, bow in hand as he goes. Youâve been completely oblivious to any foraging opportunities, but thatâs alright because you need to save your brainpower for scheming.Â
âI think we should split up,â he finally says, glancing back at you for just a second before looking away. âYouâre making too much noise.â
âOkay,â you say automatically, coming to a stop as well, in the thick layer of fallen leaves.Â
âOkay.â
He seems to vanish into the trees in an uncharacteristic rush, and youâre just left standing there, wracking your brain for any other time heâs ever asked to separate on a hunting trip.
Never. Not once.
Goddamn it.
That familiar feeling prickles across your skin, the same warning of danger that youâve felt since the first day that Gaz arrived. The trees are suddenly too still, the birds suddenly too quiet. Something is wrong.Â
You take a few quick steps in the opposite direction of the way Rich went, and again, dread sinks low in your belly, when you realize youâre running away. Youâre running from a man with arrows.Â
God damn it.Â
For the second time that week, you sprint for your life. Half feeling like an idiot, and half feeling like prey, you take off as fast as you can, farther away from camp and deeper into the woods. You duck under branches and weave around trees for several minutes, looking around frantically for what you needâ
There. An evergreen with branches low enough to get a foothold, if you take a running leap. Your foot sinks into a space between rocks while you plan your trajectory, but thankfully youâre not hurt. Mentally cursing yourself, you do a better job of mapping out your path, and then your legs pump as you fly over the leaves, and launch yourself at your safety tree.Â
You make it on the first try. Scrambling up the branches, you donât stop climbing until youâre sufficiently hidden away behind the pine needles, and then you hug the sticky, papery trunk, and catch your breath as quietly as you can.
And then you wait. You wait a long time. It probably feels like longer than it is, but the sun is setting, and the forest remains artificially silent, and youâre still so afraid.Â
You oscillate between convincing yourself that youâve made up an enormous pile of nothing in your own mind, and no one is actually out to get you. Itâs normal to have delusions when everyone in the world turns into walking corpses, and you're left wandering the wilderness for months. You probably canât even rely on your own perceptions anymore, with how paranoid youâve grown.Â
Tampons. Splitting up. Gaz. Youâre not delusional, surely. You havenât been hallucinating these things, right?
A faint animal cry rings out, the creepy kind that owls make at night, but itâs not quite right. It cuts off just when you think you recognize it, and then the woods are blanketed with tight silence again.Â
The sun is setting, and youâre still stuck in this damn tree.Â
Thereâs been no sign of Rich, so when you land on the ground with a heavy thump, you prepare yourself to pretend youâve just been lost all this time. If he hasnât gone looking for you, it probably means he killed something decent for dinner, and heâs busy burying the blood.Â
Youâre basically being the worst hunting-helper imaginable, so you decide that youâve been exaggerating things in your own mind, and start walking in the general direction of the new camp.Â
Maybe you canât trust your intuition every time. Maybe the wind has been playing tricks on you, making your skin prickle and your nerves stand on end. Maybe youâre just not used to being in the wilderness this time of year, and itâs making you imagine sensations that arenât there.Â
The dreadful silence continues as you walk, trying to plan your next steps, but for some reason unable to think about anything but the danger. The arrows. The ax. They circle your mind like vultures, as if waiting for the singular moment when you drop your guard.Â
The sky is just light enough that you make out a larger sort of lump, a few minutes later. At first you think itâs an unusual boulder sticking out of the leaves, but soon your heart sinks as you recognize a human arm, bent at an odd angle. And then you see a familiar ponytail.
Shit.Â
Cursing aloud, you stumble to the form of your fallen companion, horrified the closer you get and the more blood you see. Itâs definitely Rich, and heâs been viciously torn up.Â
How could you have missed the rotten smell of the biters? You whip your head around, sniffing and trying to discern any movement through the scattering of trees. Nothing.Â
Fuck, Rich. You canât let him turn.
You find a serviceable rock about the size of your fist, and heave the corpse of your dead campmate over, to get a better angle at his skull.Â
Only to find it already spectacularly crushed in, with what appears to have been efficient, targeted blows.Â
A shudder of repulsion wracks your body as you finally glance around the leaves, and realize the horrible truth. Thereâs no knife on his body. No bow or arrows anywhere to be seen.Â
Rich was murdered.Â
And he was supposed to be with you.
Next Part
Dividers by the-aesthetics-shop
520 notes
·
View notes
Text
đđ± đđ«đąđ§đđđ« (đđ+)
đđđ«đ đ - đđĄđ đđšđ°đ§
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/Fem Reader Zombie apocalypse AU (all parts here)
Something is wrong.
Your nervous system has known it for weeks, ever since Gaz appeared out of nowhere to ruin your life. But now the constant hum of danger has escalated into a tangible vibration, as night falls on the camp, and you feel the invisible attention of every man shift to you.Â
Something is wrong, something is wrong, SOMETHING IS WRONG.Â
It doesnât seem to matter that you absolutely - and loudly - denied Gazâs claim. Nick hasnât stopped glaring at you like you stole his ice cream cone. At you! Not Gaz, whoâs the dirty rotten liar, but you, who did absolutely nothing wrong. In fact, you were the one who begged not to be left alone with Gaz, so what right do they have to be upset?
Not that Gaz got off scott free. Doran dragged him into the woods for a talking-to as soon as you returned, which you fear was more about sexual misconduct than about his ridiculous vendetta.Â
Thatâs the part that hurts the most, not that he betrayed you, but that you werenât expecting it. He was being so reasonable that for one measly afternoon, you almost started to like him. What a fool you were. A hopeful, unsuspecting fool.
Sitting beside the campfire, you try to ignore the charge in the air, and methodically work your hairbrush through the last of the half-dried tangles. You smell and feel clean now, but at what cost?Â
âWeâre not supposed to touch her.â
Again, Nickâs words weave through your thoughts, and you canât quite put your finger on the reason they disturb you so much. You should be grateful that Doran set up some kind of protection. Itâs undoubtedly why youâve felt comfortable with them for as long as you have â the understanding that youâll have safe passage, in more ways than one.Â
But there was no mistaking the resentment in Nickâs eyes, while you scrambled to throw your clothes back on beside the creek. âWeâre not supposed to touch her.â
Why canât Gaz just leave you alone? You were fending for yourself perfectly fine with only his casual disdain, but now it seems he wonât be satisfied until youâre left abandoned on the side of the road, like that horrible, mass suicide Rich found a month ago. Every day, Gaz does everything he can to alienate you from the group, and every day you get closer to your period.
You hope he doesnât come back from that talk. An arrow in the chest could remove a really big problem in your life, and itâs not like the blood would matter all that much. You only have two and a half days left, so youâll be on the move again whether you like it or not.
All you want to do is eat til youâre full, sleep til youâre rested, and trust someone enough to turn your back on them. But at this point, youâre fairly sure youâre never going to get any one of those luxuries ever again.Â

The first thing that really sets your nerves on edge isnât what happens, itâs what doesnât happen â Doran doesnât announce anything at dinner. You know youâre going to the town tomorrow, heâs said as much, but thereâs no delegation of tasks for the morning. Thereâs just that electricity in the air, the unusually quiet dinner, and Gaz sitting as far away from you as possible, glowering at the flames.Â
Despite his betrayal, youâre distinctly aware of his insinuation from earlier, that your rights were being discussed among the others. Youâre obviously anxious about the outcome of that discussion, and especially nervous that Gazâs stunt at the creek may have tipped things out of your favor.Â
Donât worry, you tell yourself. Thereâs no point in driving yourself crazy, when you need to be smart, and present in the moment. You need a plan.
When Doran pulls you aside after dinner, youâve got your innocent face on. Youâre just a cute, helpful thing, and surely itâs more trouble than itâs worth to get rid of you.
âTim will take your watch tonight,â Doran tells you bluntly.Â
Your face crumples in disbelief. âWhat? Why?â
He frowns. âYou want watch?â
âYes, of course. We all have to share the load.â
Doran eyes you speculatively. Thatâs something youâve always liked about him, that he doesnât weasel his way out of anything. Heâll look you in the eye and tell you the painful truth, which is essential for survival these days.
âYouâll need your sleep, for when you have to travel on your period. Take the night off.â
Reasonable, right? Logical, and unusually accommodating. But as you frown up at his face, you observe his eyes flick uncomfortably towards the trees for a moment, and a stone of dread sinks in your belly.
âThank you, sir,â you tell him, innocent and unsuspecting.Â
A grunt is his only reply, turning back towards a group of the others near the edge of the woods.Â
Gaz is not in that group.Â

There are three reasons why youâve survived this long, without any family or friends to protect you after the collapse of civilization. One, youâre uncommonly good at reading people. Two, youâre uncommonly good at mirroring, and figuring out how to fit yourself into whatever you need to be. And three, you always listen to your bodyâs intuition.
That night, youâve barely rested your head on your lumpy, spruce needle pillow, when your skin pinches in a tight layer of goosebumps, and a warning radiates up your spine.
You subtly look around at first, trying to understand what it is your subconscious has picked up on, but nothing appears out of the ordinary. Thereâs just you, and your campmates, and Gaz. All stretched along the trampled grass as usual, but thereâs something very wrong.Â
Youâve got nothing now, not even a knife for defense. If Gaz decides to off you in your sleep tonight, youâre confident he could take you out before you could so much as scream for help.Â
But youâve also begun to suspect that Nick was the one who followed you into the woods last night. That his presence was the oppressive danger you felt, and subsequently ran from. What if he has something horrible in mind? What if Gazâs claim to your body unintentionally painted an even worse target on your back?
You donât dare go to sleep like this, you wouldnât manage it even if you tried. Tim is on watch on the other side of the camp, and there are clouds covering the moon, so he doesnât see you army crawl your way towards the woods. It takes quite some time to do it slowly and silently, but eventually youâre safe in the tree line. You brought your fleece jacket with you â youâll need something warmer very soon, and maybe the town will yield a winter coat â but the night air is still uncomfortably cool against your cheeks.Â
What now? You canât just stand here all night, losing sleep and making yourself vulnerable to the woods at your back. If someone found your bed empty, itâs a good bet theyâd come looking over here anyway, so itâs not exactly a safe zone.Â
Thereâs an oak tree just a few meters farther into the woods, a big one. Itâs not the easiest thing to climb, but after the months youâve had to practice, you manage to haul yourself up into the branches without breaking any. You climb carefully, high enough up the trunk that you wouldnât be spotted from the ground unless they had a flashlight. To your relief, you realize you now have a clear view of your camp roll below.
You canât see much more than the blurry lump of it on the ground, but it gives you a measure of comfort, knowing that your paranoid delusions will be proven wrong over the course of the night. Thereâs certainly no prickle on your neck now, as you ease your body into the snug V of two solid branches. Itâs not comfortable enough that youâd quickly fall asleep, but itâll be relatively safe from a fall if you do. Â
The leaves rustle around you in the autumn breeze, and you rest your cheek against rough, crinkly bark. Like many other nights, you find yourself fantasizing about your past life â the bed you had, the food, the locked doors that kept you safe. You remember how it was to have friends, and never have to wonder if they were just leveraging you as a means of their own survival.Â
Sleep comes surprisingly fast, in the safety of the oak tree. When you realize youâre beginning to doze, you hook your arms around each branch, and let your legs hang loose to act as a counterweight to your upper body. And then you fade.Â
When you come back to awareness, youâre confused about how long you were asleep. The night is still the same shade of black, but the wind has stopped, and thereâs an eerie silence blanketing the area. Your only solace is that the camp takes watch duty seriously, and if there were biters in the area, youâd know from the smell.Â
Youâve just begun to close your eyes again, when the task of checking on your camp roll comes back into focus, and you squint down atâ
Shit, somethingâs moving. Thereâs some kind of grey blob slinking slowly towards your bed, apparently unable to tell that youâve abandoned it already. Even this far away, you find yourself holding your breath in fear, doing your best to gather back your mental capabilities and figure out what this means.Â
The outline goes motionless when it reaches into your blanket and finds it cold and empty. It freezes there for a few seconds, and you smile grimly to yourself at the disbelief you imagine on the face of your would-be attacker. What? Silly forager girl is smarter than she looks? How inconvenient.
The shadow straightens up, leaning forward as if peering into the woods. No, youâre not coming back. Youâre going to stay in this tree, and watch whoever-it-is go back to their own bedroll. You know, one of the ones youâve marked in your head, aware of exactly the spot where each person sleeps at night. Theyâve shown their hand tonight, and youâll finally be a step ahead of this threat.Â
With the same wary slowness, the man slinks over to the other side of the clearing, and crawls back into Doranâs bed.

The next day, it takes an entire morning to travel all the way to the town.Â
Sitting in your tree that night with adrenaline pounding through you, youâd seriously considered abandoning the group right then. It was tempting to make your way in the opposite direction all on your own, without a moment to spare. But all of your supplies were still down at the camp, and youâd have to be a fool to leave with no water filtration, no means to make a fire, and no tampons.Â
So youâd crawled back into bed right before dawn, and when everyone else woke up, you pretended youâd been there the whole night. You were smiley, you were helpful, and you didnât cast a single suspicious glance at the man who tried to sneak up on you in your sleep.Â
Let him wonder. Let him doubt. If youâre sure about one thing, itâs that you wonât be spending another night anywhere near these men.Â
You hike most of the day next to Rich, because heâs never seemed to care about you one way or the other. You donât look at Gaz, and he doesnât look at you.
Itâs fate youâre relying on now. Youâre desperately hoping that the town will have the survival supplies you need, maybe some lightweight food options, and a winter coat. If somehow the stars align on your scavenging, you can separate immediately from the others, hide somewhere in an empty building until they give up looking for you. Youâll make your own way at night fall, abandoning the only safety youâve known in all these months, and hoping some other stroke of luck will befall you. Â
The others will probably thank their lucky stars to be rid of you.Â
You spend the journey scheming, and then mourning. Itâll be you against the world in just a few short hours, and youâre so close to your period. The timing couldnât have been worse for Gaz to come out of nowhere to disrupt your life and your wellbeing. Youâd probably be angrier about it, if you were a little less tired.
Itâs strange, seeing the straight lines of rooftops again, when you get closer to the small town. Man made construction, now abandoned and haunted with the lives that will never be. You can practically see the cars cruising up and down the street, the mothers carrying in groceries.Â
Life, and purpose, and women.Â
Gaz goes on ahead, to take out the couple of biters wandering the outskirts. Two well-placed arrows in the head gives your group a clear path through the overgrown lawns, and you all leave your supplies near the treeline, for a faster escape if necessary.Â
The arrows have already been picked out of the motionless dead when you pass by, black rot oozing out of one of the eye sockets that was pierced. Theyâre both female, as biters often are.Â
âLook for any houses that are still locked,â Doran orders the group at large. âCheck basements and garages.â
Funny, you were under the impression that menstrual products were a priority.Â
Fuck, stop. Youâll have time to murder him in your mind later, when you have some comfortable miles of separation.Â
You head for the houses farther in, hoping that most scavengers would stick closer to the woods for an escape route. Still, nearly all of them have been broken into, or unlocked.Â
This was not a wealthy town, and the first home you walk into reminds you uncomfortably of your house growing up. Quickly scanning the disarray inside, you notice that something weird was done to the kitchen. Appliances were unplugged and moved around â a mixer here, a blender there â as if someone meant to take it with them, and then thought better of it. You open the oven on a whim, and shake your head at the electronics stowed in there, as if someone were afraid theyâd be stolen in their absence. Itâs difficult to see the value in a Nintendo Switch these days.Â
The house is colder than the air outside, so you hurry to the bathroom and check the water cistern on the toilet. Youâre delighted to find it full, and you take your first comfortable piss in a long time, flushing it down with the months-old water.
Unfortunately, whoever lived here only used pads. You grab a half empty bottle of ibuprofen from the cabinet, foregoing the crusty tube of toothpaste, and try the bathroom connected to the main bedroom.Â
That investigation yields more pads and a fucking menstrual cup, so you cut your losses and head to the next house. And then the next. Half an hour later, and youâve got a whopping seven tampons, a new bar of soap, and some Vaseline that looks nearly fresh out the package. You donât dare carry anything containing water these days, as much as you may longingly eye the conditioners and lotions. Water has weight, and every gram counts when youâre backpacking for weeks.Â
The sudden noise of a door latching disturbs you. You distinctly remember locking everything behind yourself with each house youâve entered, so whoever-it-is must have found another way in.Â
Silently closing the bathroom cabinet, you grab the pair of grooming scissors sitting on the counter, and fit them snug into your palm in a way that keeps them concealed, but available for stabbing.
Entering the hall, the floorboard creaks under your weight, and you freeze to listen. There are only small, scuffing sounds coming from the living area, but no other clues to your intruderâs identity. Biters canât close doors, right?
Sticking to the extreme edge of the hall near the wall, you keep your feet in a straight line to walk on the sturdier parts of wood, and make your way slowly to the corner, peeking one eye around the drywall.Â
Itâs Gaz. Of course itâs Gaz. He doesnât appear to see you, even though heâs facing in your general direction. Heâs found a cigarette somewhere, and heâs currently taking drag after drag of it, shoulders slumped with fatigue, and eyes half-lidded like heâs gone somewhere else mentally. Â
He has no idea the impact of his actions. Heâs a stupid, stupid man, who does petty things because he has no other joy in life. Adjusting your grip on the scissors, you seriously consider for a moment, just attacking him. He doesnât seem to know youâre here, and you might get a few good blows in before he could react.
But those are inside thoughts. Realistically you canât afford to be covered in blood right now, even if you did manage to gravely injure him. There are tampons to look for, and not enough wiggle room in your schedule for murder.Â
But that doesnât mean you have to walk away.
âHello, Gaz.â
To your immense satisfaction, his entire body jolts in surprise, and his mostly-smoked cigarette drops to the carpet.Â
âFucking hell,â he grumbles, snubbing it out with his boot and then frowning over at you. âThis is not a good time.â
You adjust your backpack a little higher on your shoulder and peel away from the wall. âOh, yeah. It must be so inconvenient to have women always coming on to you, when youâre just minding your own business.â
He blinks tiredly at you, shaking his head a little. âDonât do this.âÂ
You take another step forward, screwing your face up in mock confusion. âDonât do what? Because according to you, Iâve already done it.âÂ
Gaz merely reaches into his pocket and procures another cigarette, releasing a long, frustrated breath.Â
âIs that what you wish would happen?â you purr, stepping up to the edge of his personal space. âIs that what you think about, Gaz?â
Tucking the unlit cigarette back into his pocket, he finally turns his attention on you with a steely look. âNo.â
âYou know what I think?â
âReckon youâre too busy being Doranâs little wife to do any of that.â
You ignore the insult to smile innocently at him, and take that last step into his body. Brazenly you place your palm right over the middle of his chest, atop the heart thatâs pounding a rapid, frantic rhythm against your hand. Liar.
âMmm.â You let your hip settle against his, curving your body seductively into his warmth. âI think you get so hard when youâre around me. I think you lie and cheat and ruin my life, because you canât stand how bad you want me.â
âDonât flatter yourself,â he mutters, his heart picking up even faster. The scent of that stupid deodorant somehow pokes through the smell of tobacco, and you screw up your nose at it.
âYou smell like a girl.â
âThank you,â he murmurs, slightly adjusting the angle of his body.Â
And then you feel his fingers finding your hand, and the scissors get skillfully removed from your possession, as his eyes stay locked on yours.Â
A thick, hot wash of rage floods through your chest, as you stare back at him and imagine smashing his nose into his brain. Your face is carefully neutral, but if he were to find your pulse right now, it would rival his.Â
Impulsively you bring your face even closer, nearly brushing your mouth to his ear as you tip your chin up and slowly, distinctly whisper, âI hate you.â
Heâs so still. He doesnât even seem to breathe at all, which gives you a ball of sick satisfaction in your chest, that you finally managed to offend him.Â
And then just when youâre about to pull away, he turns his head and presses his scruffy mouth to the corner of your lips.
Next Part
Dividers by the-aesthetics-shop
628 notes
·
View notes
Text
đđ± đđ«đąđ§đđđ« (đđ+)
đđđ«đ đ - đđšđŻđ
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick/Fem Reader Zombie Apocalypse AU (all parts here)
CW: nudity
You already knew creek bathing wouldnât be sexy.Â
Youâve done it enough since the outbreak that youâre prepared for the icy chill, the gritty texture of silt in the water, and the effort it takes to keep your footing on the slimy rocks.Â
But up until now youâve had at least a little bit of privacy to make it work. This time itâs just you and Gaz, standing close enough to pass the bar of soap back and forth while you both expressly donât look at each otherâs bodies.Â
Most of the time you can sit in the knee-high water to hide your lower half, but when it comes time to wash your hair, you nearly expose your unmentionables in an effort to turn away from him while your eyes are closed.Â
That is not happening today. You are not bending over naked in front of Gaz.Â
So you end up feeling absolutely ridiculous, dunking half your face in every time you have to get your hair wet. The whole thing sucks ass, partly because you donât have any conditioner, and partly because this soap is turning out to be the worst thing youâve ever put on your hair. The first wash feels alright, but it ends up loosening all the hair youâve shed since you last shampooed, and it all gets matted halfway down the shaft. Â
Whatever. You huff through your second shampoo anyway, relaxing a little when you finally hear Gaz slosh his way out of the cold water. Your eyes are still closed, but youâre aware enough to angle your body away from the bank so at least he canât stare at your chest.
And thatâs when you remember one vital step of wilderness bathing that you somehow overlooked until now â you have to drip dry before you can put your clothes back on.Â
In the summer you could get away with getting dressed while still a little damp, but with the October breeze, and night fall in a couple of hours, youâll need to get as dry as possible.Â
Gaz seems to have the same idea, you note when you peek at him over your shoulder. Heâs already stretched out atop the one patch of grass on the bank, face tipped up into the sunshine.Â
Squeezing water out of your worrisome ball of hair, you consider your options. You can walk through the woods bare ass naked until you find another drying-off spot, or you can stand around naked and awkward⊠or you can share that patch of grass. Itâs just big enough to allow you to lay next to him without touching, as long as he can manage to respect your space. You certainly have no interest in crossing into his.Â
Feeling cautious but wonderfully clean, you stand up in the chilly breeze and make your way up the bank. Gaz has been pretty nice to you today. Maybe heâs finally decided youâre worth some basic decency, and this is a sign of things improving. He certainly seems to be choosing the high ground for once, giving you privacy by draping his forearm over his eyes as you approach.Â
âDonât look,â he warns, just as your eyes lower thoughtlessly, down toâ
To his fucking erection.
âTold you not to look,â he mutters when you come to a stumbling halt.Â
âThatâs⊠pâ c-completely inappropriate!â you sputter.
âMhmm.â
He keeps his arm over his eyes as if your outrage doesnât phase him at all. As if having a raging hard-on in nature is just part of his daily routine, and heâs bored by you witnessing it.Â
Whatever.Â
You know what? Whatever. If he wants to have zero shame and pretend itâs not there, then so will you. At this point you just want to be done with him as fast as possible, so you plop your ass down as far away as the patch of grass will allow. He doesnât move at all while you squeegee water off your body with your hands and irritatedly flick some at him.Â
And of course you accidentally look, again.Â
Still hard.Â
âI can turn around if you have things you need to take care of,â you snark, starting to detangle your ratty hair with your fingers.Â
âYouâd like that, wouldnât you?â
âWhâ fâ- NO,â you squeal, mortified to see him actually smiling to himself in the shadow of his forearm.Â
Horrible⊠No good⊠Piece of shit⊠MAN. He definitely saw you watching him last night, and now heâs making you out to be the pervert when heâs the one getting turned on over nothing.Â
Youâre still glaring at him as you work out the hair shed, so you see him take a peek at you around his elbow.
âDonât look at me,â you hiss.Â
He sighs, shifting his face back to its hiding place from before. âPity. Youâre a looker.â
Oddly, your breath catches for a moment before you command your lungs to keep pumping. You turn your face away, refusing to dignify that with a response. You donât give a shit if he thinks youâre pretty or not. You canât think of anything that could possibly matter less, when heâs the absolute last person in this camp you trust.Â
Youâre halfway through your hair when you decide to give up. The building frustration makes you want to rip and break the tangles apart, and you know youâll regret it later, so instead you just lay down and sulk.Â
âWe need to be heading back,â you comment flatly, even though youâre still shivery and wet.Â
âNah. Give them another hour, Iâm sure they need to finish their little meeting.â
âWhat meeting?â
Gaz finally lowers his arm to sling you a know-it-all look. âCome on. You think itâs a coincidence they got us both out of camp for the afternoon?â
A bolt of dread skitters down your spine, but you ignore it. âYouâre full of shit.â
He blows out a long breath. âIf you say so.â
Heâs trying to get in your head, make you doubt the other guys for his own sick entertainment. If you were in a more comfortable position you might just ignore him, but you donât have that privilege today.Â
âOkay, wise one. What is it you think theyâre having a secret meeting about?â
That pain in your ass looks up at the clear sky for a moment, considering. He makes you wait so long that youâre about to tell him to forget about it, when he says thoughtfully, âYouâre bleeding in a few days.â
He doesnât offer any more explanation than that, but itâs enough. Thatâs all you need to understand with horrifying clarity exactly what heâs suggesting, because itâs already your ever-present fear. Theyâre meeting to decide whether youâre worth the inconvenience of the next week. If they should even bother dragging you along another month, or just leave you here to fend for yourself. Having to look for food and water while on the run would slow you down significantly, and you wouldnât last three days before a biter tracked you down.Â
Apparently youâve taken too long to answer, because Gaz rotates his whole stupid face to look at you, as if he sees every panicked thought crossing your mind. You quickly dart your eyes away so he wonât have the satisfaction.
âYou donât give a shit about me,â you mutter.
In your peripheral vision, you watch him roll over onto his stomach and casually rest his head on his arms. âYouâre right. But you donât see me in that meeting now, do you?â
Whatâs that supposed to mean? That he decided not to be a part of the debate to keep you alive, or that they didnât want him there? One seems too bizarre to imagine, but the other paints him as a person youâd empathize with, and that makes you uncomfortable.Â
âI wish I brought my deodorant today,â you grumble, changing the subject.Â
âGot some in my bag. Help yourself.â
He must have planned to bathe on this trip, if heâs so equipped with toiletries. The creek was no spur of the moment decision, and now that you think of it, he was sort of the one leading you here as you walked.Â
Cursing yourself for your gullibility, you get up and rifle through his backpack thatâs hanging from a tree. Surprise surprise, heâs allowed to carry a knife. Thereâs a toothbrush, a little black notebook, pencils and matches. And at the bottomâ
âYou wear womenâs deodorant?â you scoff, holding the tube of Dove in the air.Â
âNot exactly choosy these days, love. Smells good, anyhow.â
You roll your eyes at the sarcastic endearment, popping the cap off to apply it, and reminiscing as you always do of times when you had easy access to a razor.Â
âGive us turn,â he prompts, sitting up when you go to put it back in the bag. He snatches it effortlessly out of the air when you toss it at him, like a total jerk.Â
Your back is still wet, so when you return to your spot on the grass, you stretch out on your stomach and try to pretend youâre alone out here. Thereâs no group of self-serving men deciding your fate, no hoards of monsters stalking your every step. The world is civilized and orderly, and youâre⊠on vacation, or something. Going camping on a pretty autumn day, and you went skinny dipping just for fun.Â
The ghost of a breeze runs through your hair, but you keep your eyes closed and focus on the dry patches of your skin that feel warm. Theyâre probably not actually warm, but enough of you is cold that the contrast tricks your brain. Itâs a shame that Gaz is such a dick, because youâd totally snuggle up against someone right now if you could. It would block a little of the wind, and give you a solid wall of heated skin to soak into yours.Â
Itâs the PMS hormones talking, has to be. Thatâs the only reason youâre picturing it in your mind, scooting that last little bit over to the muscled heater next to you, letting him spoon you and wrap his arm around your front to press you in tighter. You wouldnât be able to see his face, which would be nice because then he canât give you that look that always pisses you off. Yeah, you could objectify Gaz as a space heater quite easily.Â
You must be more comfortable than you realize, because amid those absurd fantasies, you start to doze. You shouldnât let your guard down like that with Gaz, and definitely not while naked, but for some reason that usual pit of dread has mostly gone away. It feels strangely safe to let your muscles go loose and slip into unconsciousness next to him, this one afternoon where you shared deodorant.Â
Even in your half-dreams, youâre processing it â doubting your own memories, wondering if all this time you just imagined Gaz singling you out as his target. You try to always trust your intuition, but the way heâs acting today is so different from his usual rudeness that youâre baffled as to what brought on the change.Â
Itâs nice, though, letting your mask slip. Being rude right back at him is a relief you didnât know you needed so badly. Something in your chest has decompressed, and maybe thatâs what makes you drift off, even more than the rare moment of relaxation. Youâre tired of performing.Â
What wakes you is intangible, a shift in energy. At first you assume Gaz has spotted a biter, with the way heâs frozen into place beside you, reaching slowly for the bow. You blink around in confusion until you hear a twig snap, and glimpse Nick stepping out from behind a tree, taking in the scene heâs found with a horrified expression.
âWeâre not supposed to touch her,â he snaps at Gaz, uselessly kicking some leaves in his direction.Â
Pissed, youâre just opening your mouth to tell him that you can do what you damn well want with your own body, but Gaz beats you to it, in an infuriating drawl.Â
âShe came on to me, mate.â
Next Part
Dividers by the-aesthetics-shop
527 notes
·
View notes
Text
Considering posting all the random write off work I do đ
I donât really post⊠so formatting and making this look good will be a CHALLENGE! But itâll otherwise be mostly unedited⊠probablyâŠâŠ. MaybeâŠ
0 notes
Text
take me home, country road
[ao3]
You have nothing on your person apart from a hastily packed suitcase and the dress you came into town wearing, on the run from trouble back home. Too bad John's missing a bride that matches your description. Or: the 1800s (mistaken) mail order bride au (chapter 20 / epilogue)
masterlist
-
Black trees against a yellow sky at evening time.Â
Itâs late when you finally reach home. Dark enough to almost be nightâa full day longer to return than it took to leave, but then you hadnât ridden as hard coming back, too sore and sleep-deprived to manage the same pace. Even the meager sleep you got on the road was hardly sufficient.
Then the shape of your house appears on the horizon and you nearly break down in tears. The sight of it fills you with such relief that you nearly lose your balance, your head slumping forward. Too long. Days that felt like weeks, your body and mind weary from the long trek home. Against the gold of the horizon light, it appears like a boat arriving at port.Â
You throw yourself off your horse and to the ground before John has even had a chance himself to dismount and come help you down. He stomps over when your foot nearly catches in the stirrup, nostrils flared and mustache twitching with his scowl.Â
âDonât go breaking your leg before Iâve even gotten you home,â he growls when he reaches you, fitting his hand around the nape of your neck and giving it a squeeze. Youâd shiver, but your body is too exhausted for your libido to manage more than a half-hearted twitch. Instead you nod, head bobbing like a baby doll.Â
John takes the horses to the stables while you clamber up the stairs on wobbly legs, headed straight for your bedroom, passing out the second your head touches the pillow. Your growling stomach will have to be addressed in the morning.
You arenât conscious for when John comes up to join you, but you swear even in sleep you can sense his presence in the room. Certainly when he curls himself around you, the wall of warmth at your back briefly making your eyes flicker open before sleep claims you again and they slide shut.Â
In the morning, you eat a big breakfast before letting John rub a liniment onto your inner thighs and bandage the cuts on your hands and face. The doctor he takes you to see after breakfast for the shoulder that Graves dislocated prescribes bed rest and light stretching for recovery and laudanum for any lingering pain.Â
âWhat did you tell him?â you ask when the two of you head out for a light lunch in town before heading back home.Â
âTold him you fell off a horse.â He shrugs. âNot that uncommon around here.â
All you can do is roll your eyes.Â
Still, itâs as good an excuse as any. No one questions your story when you tell it to them over the following days, when your shoulder is still too tender for you to move it too vigorously. Only Kate lifts a brow knowingly, all but cornering you for the real story when you finally get a moment alone.Â
âThat sonuvabitch,â she hisses when you finally break and tell her what happened.Â
âItâs fine,â you insist, shushing her. âJohn⊠Well, John handled it.â
She nods approvingly, then looks like she might say more before thinking the better of it. Silence falls between the two of you.Â
âHeââ you pause in the middle of your sentence, unsure of how exactly to say it. âIt wasnât so bad. Telling him, I mean.â
Kate must catch the slight inflection in your voice because she stares at you expectantly, waiting for you to say more. ââŠIâm happy to hear that.â
You inhale as if gathering your breath to say more, but nothing comes out. You know what it is you want to say, but itâs getting it out thatïżœïżœs the tricky bit. What you want to tell her is that your trust wasnât misplaced in the end; all of your fears that the truth would shatter the affection and trust that had finally been shown to you after a lifetime of nothing were unfounded, proven ultimately wrong.Â
âWas there something else you wanted to add?â
You chew your lower lip.Â
âNo. Nothing else,â you say in the end. Thereâll be a time someday to tell her that her trust wouldnât be misplaced with John or Kyle either; perhaps that day will come sooner than you expect, but for now it remains on the distant horizon. Itâs not your place to lecture or admonish; your place in her life is to offer the same feeling of security and companionship as sheâs offered you. Â
Today, you loop your arm through hers and join her for lunch.Â
In town, people greet you like you never left. Only one person asks you about the man you were walking with the previous day, and Kate covers for you when you stumble over your answer, throat constricting in your panic. Thereâs no suspicion in the question, but still you anticipate it because life has conditioned you to expect pain as a response to any action or inaction.Â
You are surprised when pain doesnât come this time. But still, you are wary.
When you get home, John fills the tub with hot water for you and lets you wash up on your own while he tends to the horses, the third now unofficially his. You lean your arms over the side of the tub and drift in and out of your daydreams, ears attuned only to the sound of his voice and the owls calling from the trees just beyond the house. Eyes fluttering shut until slipping deeper into the water kicks you back into wakefulness.Â
âYou falling asleep in there?â he asks when he stomps back inside, the door slamming shut behind him and nearly giving you a heart attack.Â
âNo,â you deny, discreetly wiping the rheum from the inner corners of your eyes. âJust resting my eyes.â
âOf course,â he snorts. Amused as ever by seemingly anything that comes out of your mouth.
A telegram comes in to the sheriff's office some weeks later asking about a missing bounty hunter, and though you pitch forward in your chair when John tells you this, heâs quick to remind you that as far as anyone else knows, Graves moved on after his first visit a month or so back.Â
It takes time to reassure you, but slowly your hands unclench from the edge of your seat.Â
Still, you make yourself scarce for a week after that. It takes some time for you to feel safe again. You spend those first few days after hearing about the telegram constantly looking over your shoulder, plagued by the worry that youâll be found out. Sharing your worries with John doesnât go a long way towards alleviating them because his confidence never wavers. Itâs almost infuriating.Â
âWould it kill you to just pretend?â you huff, cracking an egg into the skillet.Â
âNobodyâs gonna come looking for him here. âFar as anyone knows, he made his way west a long time ago,â he says, dismissing your concerns while clipping his fingernails at the kitchen table. You scrunch up your nose when you glance over your shoulder.
âYou better not think Iâm sweeping those up.â
He barks out a laugh at that, shaking his head at the same time.Â
True to his word, the front door stays shut. No one comes knocking looking for an errant bounty hunter. Perhaps that is a lesson that you can take away from all of thisâthat there is no reward for isolating oneself. Your safety has only ever been assured in community, in putting your trust in others and safeguarding their secrets in turn. Only love has ever held out its arms for you to fall into.Â
And now the days pass like clouds in the sky.Â
Tranquility hovers on the periphery of your life with every intention of calling out your name. Itâs waiting for you with open arms.Â
In the evenings, John takes you upstairs to the bedroom and pries you open enough to fit himself in. His mouth blazes a trail across your body, sucking your nipples until theyâre beaded, wetting his beard with the essence of your pleasure, and bringing you to the brink of completion time and again before pushing you over.Â
After a while, he leaves a piece of himself behind.Â
Weeks pass and the seasons change. The changes you notice in your body are physical as well as emotional. At some point since coming home, you must have started to unwind. Shoulders loosening up, knots melting down your back. Is it just you, or does the air smell fresher too?Â
You pin the laundry up on the clothesline and wait for your husband to come home. The sun sets earlier these days with autumn just around the corner. Already the leaves have begun to redden and brown, some breaking off from the branches altogether and floating to the ground where you know eventually theyâll rot and dissolve into the earth, starting the cycle of death and rebirth all over again.Â
Winter is fast approaching and you know this one will be tough with a little one on the way. Youâve already started preparing for the winter monthsâcanning and storing corn and potatoes and other root vegetables harvested from your garden, making preserves from the fruits of autumnâapples and pears sealed in jars of thick syrupâand filling the cellar with barrels of salted and cured meats. In town, you visit the seamstress for clothes of thicker material and leave with an armful of wool flannel petticoats, fur-trimmed bonnets, and corsets of a heavier cotton coutil.Â
You rest a hand on your belly as you stare off into the distant mountains. Even the sky darkens earlier these days. When all of the laundry is pinned on the line, you pick up the wicker basket resting by your feet and bring it back inside, shuffling into the kitchen to get started on supper.Â
Thereâs still much that needs to be done before winter arrives. Firewood to be chopped, furs and blankets to be hung on the walls, the fireplace to be swept, and more. Enough to keep you busy and your mind occupied when you arenât bent over a book because thatâs also your reality these days. The librarian in town now knows you by name and knows to set aside a few books a week for you to pick up when you pass by with Kate.Â
You donât think much of the knock at the door at first, absent-mindedly thinking that it must be a neighbor come to visit. Only when you open the door to an unfamiliar face do you pause.Â
Itâs a woman, not too dissimilar in looks from you. A bit taller, but otherwise if someone were to describe you from looks alone, they might be tempted to use the same words for either of you. She stands on your porch with a suitcase held by her side, a light sheen of sweat on her forehead from the short trip from town. She dabs her forehead lightly with a handkerchief before pocketing it again.
âHello there,â she greets, a bright smile on her face. âIâm looking for John Price. I was told he lives here?â
For a moment, all you can do is stare at her nonplussed, not understanding why a strange woman might be at your door asking for your husband in such a familiar way. It takes a moment for it to sink in. Then the light goes on and your confusion shifts to disbelief with a twinge of rage.Â
âWeâre engaged to be married,â the other woman hurries to explain, taking a step closer, foot wedged in the door almost as if intending to barge right in.Â
Her gall nearly makes you lose your temper. Months ago, you mightâve welcomed her arrival, eager to prove to John that you werenât the woman that he mistook you for so that you could be on your merry way. But that time has long since passed. There isnât anywhere else in the world youâd rather be than here. Youâve put roots down, entrenched yourself in every way.
Your lips pull into a hard line, face set in stone. âYou must be mistaken. Heâs already married.â
She blinks, uncomprehending. âThatâsâŠâare you sure? Weâve been corresponding. I know Iâm a few months late, but I was held up back inââ
You cut her off by sticking out your hand, topaz ring shining bright on your third finger. âIâm sure. But thank you for stopping by; Iâll let John know you send your apologies.â
And with that, you shove her foot out with yours and shut the door on her face. On another day, youâll allow yourself to feel guilty for your rudeness; for now, this is your happy ending to enjoy.Â
And savor it, you will.
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
Iâm actually almost done with this book and have thoroughly enjoyed it :)

This advertisement is for Canât Spell Treason Without Tea by Rebecca Thorne, a cozy fantasy steeped in sapphic romance about one of the Queenâs private guards and a powerful mage who want to open a bookshop and live happily ever afterâŠif only the world would let them. Cover art by Irene Huang.
WHAT ITâS ABOUT
All Reyna and Kianthe want is to open a bookshop that serves tea. Worn wooden floors, plants on every table, firelight drifting between the raftersâŠall complemented by love and good company. Thing is, Reyna works as one of the Queenâs private guards, and Kianthe is the most powerful mage in existence. Leaving their lives isnât so easy.
But after an assassin takes Reyna hostage, she decides sheâs thoroughly done risking her life for a self-centered queen. What follows is a cozy tale of mishaps, mysteries, and a murderous queen throwing the realmâs biggest temper tantrum.
2K notes
·
View notes