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between two worlds

I dreamt Laura, one of my best friends, Ren - Mackay reminds me of her. It was a nightmare this time, since she died in 2021 at age 29 I had good dreams, but I have sometimes nightmares.

When she passed away, I was convinced that I really sens people and what is going on with them even from distance.

I had other experiences, but this was the strongest one. She was in a hospital for a treatment, very ill and still we hoped and believed she will get to the transplanatation of lungs on time.

I dream one morning how she is very calm and going elsewhere to create, she was optimistic about what she will do, and I felt her she feels free but kind of lonely. She continued ahead. When I woke up, I thought she was getting better and could not wait to share the dream with her and I got that call...

She was saying her last good buy as she had no time or strength to communicate.

Couple of days after that, I dream I am traveling on a bus and sitting on th seat turned towards the back of the bus, sad and depressed. And I saw her, a glimps, she scared me, she was all in white, healthy, good, optimistic, just with her calm look and smile she told me she is okay and not to be sad.

After 40 days if her death they started giving her clothes to her friends. I was feeling very uncomfortable to take something of her, it's like wearing her skin. I dreamt days after that how there are people gathered and will take her body to another place, they were about to dig her and she said to me that she was feeling like her soul is teared appart, pieces of her soul were in so many people. And I was shocked and was afraid that we are causing her this suffering. I knew this was not what she wanted.

The dream from tonight I was dreaming we are at school again and she appeared and I was so happy to see her and I followed her immedietly. I saw like a fraction of a dream, a photo that was not moving and she was there, not moving, but before me was also her and the girl from the photo looked more like her. And then I started to feeling this before me is not her, but looked a lot like her and I missed her so much. After that I understood this was a demon using my affection to distract me and make me believe I see the real Laura. The dream I was in was made by memories, and my memories appeared my friend who was walking, laughing and talking. I went to her and hugged her immediately although I felt something was off. She was too tall, she was a little bit taller than me 1.80, but this creature was 2 m (7 feet). When I hugged her, I felt coldness, there wasn't that warmness when I hug Laura and still it look very much like her and I was so happy to see her again.

I know from the Scripture that demons can pretend to be our passed away siblings and friends to make us believe there are gohsts among us.

And yet, I was distracted. Even the colour of her hair was a give away, it was not her true color. She said that she needs to go, she acted so cold, have a hug, but was very cold and snooty. I shouted behind it's back: I know what you are, demon!

After that I returned at the table and saw that this demon gave some books to someone about witchcraft and the spirit of this demon was making them read those ancient books. I felt this demon connected to Laura, it was the same lying spirit, who made her believe in false things and the same was after others. I wanted to send a message that this is dangerous and I took a paper and I started writing, and what I write was about to be materialized as words on a page of the book the person is reding and to scare them off. The words were like burning, the person would see them as fire words. I wrote this is from a demon and it is dangerous witchcraft and not to read it.

Sometimes I protect people during sleep. The other encounter was when the grandmother if my husband passed away. Within the 40th days, when it's believed the soul is still on earth, I dreamt her. She appeared worried, she believed she was still here and she started talking about earthly concerns and I stopped her : calm down, granny, those things do not bother you anymore, you passed away, remember, go rest. She startled and escaped, never saw her again.

There was one night during sleep, I had to protect my familly, a succubus was after my man and I told him to get out, to leave it to me. When I was left alone with this creature, it attacked me and grabbed me at my troat, it was furious, it was feeling extreme hatered and wanted to kill me. I looked it dead in the eyes and said, go ahead, you can try. And I woke up.

There was another meeting with real Laura, 2 months ago, her soul was in trouble. There were some spirits who were trying to condemn her and were accusing her and I defended her and told them: don't lie, you made her do this and Christ already died for her sins. I wanted her to be saved for Christ. And she hugged me, she thanked from the bottom of her soul, and I felt her warmness as alive.

It does not end with death, we need to pray and help the souls, there is a battle for the souls after that when they don't die in Christ (for exemple the suicidals, the overdosed, the people who have not succeeded to confess Christ during their life here on earth), Satan is using his legal rights over them and trying to condemn them and we can help them to win them for eternity through Jesus Christ. Amen!

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Quiet life

Ahhh

I'll always speak up for quiet, calm and slow life. I was reflecting for years how people can be in a constant relaxed state and what and why make them be in constant stress. I did not like that life is so demanding, so fast. I was in that life, dust life, empty life I call it. No matter with what pleasures, amusement you fill it, in the end you are empty. And you still looking for that past to remind you you are not, to fill yourself with empty stuff.

I am not impressed by this loud lifestyle, actually it makes me sad.

is that what life is all about, to be amused, to be always where it's at. Look at the life of whales, look at the trees that do not move, but got life. What is life about? I needed to feel it and experience it just when I stop, stop moving, stop thinking, just contemplating and see what nature is trying to tell me. Because I know God is speaking to all of us also through nature.

So I was thinking, how can I go in this life without been so in it's demanding fast nature. It's like everything around me go faster and faster and I am always in the opposite direction, I am going slower and slower, because I never liked what's convenient. I will always show the opposite when the world is in one extreme, I go in the other and will have a sleepy energy until world learn how to slow down again and rest.

There was this interesting experience this summer when me and my kid went to the zoo. The pantera is usually very excited when there are a lot of people and is making circles in her cage. We were the only one this time to the pantera, she was first excited and looking who is coming who is going. She did not pay us attention, it's like we were part of the plants. There were other people passing, she looked at them existed. Our eyes crossed finally, I looked her in the eyes and blinked slowly, she came to the glass fence and flopped down next us, we started caressing her throught the glass, if there was no glass and we could touch her really I am sure she won't attack us and she would fall asleep. It was really cute moment.

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Bowen therapy

i will always speak up for Bowen therapy. Evey body is différend, every condition is specific, but for sure it helps even with chronical diseases to reduce the symptoms.

I tried it on my self and I studies 1st course and tested it in my family. There are thousands results and testimonies all over the world. It is not panacea, but it helps. I am not a therapist, just a content patient and was curious to try to see if I can do it to someone else and it works.

"Bowen works like no other therapy. People often say, “what is it like?” There really is no comparison.It is a gentle type of bodywork that focuses on stimulating the fascia or connective tissue surrounding everything in our bodies. These unique movements over very specific parts of the body shift the nervous system into a “relax and heal” mode instead of the “fight or flight” mode many of us are in. The body cannot effectively heal itself until it can rest. Usually all that is needed for relief is 3-5 sessions. Children often respond even quicker. Some chronic conditions may need regular sessions but the goal is to increase time between sessions and ultimately have the body balanced and healing itself.Some conditions responding well to this technique are:

Neurological or immune disorders

Parkinson’s disease

Lyme disease

Fibromyalgia

Chronic fatigue syndrome

PTSD

Stress and anxiety problems

ADD/ ADHD

Traumatic and overuse injuries

Carpal tunnel syndrome

Sciatica

Concussion

Sprains and strains

Neck, shoulder and back pain

Scoliosis

TMJ syndrome

Migraines

Gastrointestinal dysfunctions

Orthopedic problems

Podiatric problems

Support sessions—pre-and post-surgery and during chemotherapy."

I used it post surgery, this year I had to extract my last wisdom tooth in my lower jaw, it was again surgery in the bone. I was really scared because the last time I got it, the pain was insane and did not want to go through this again soon and it took me years to take the decision. But the tooth showed me it's time. But this time I knew I will use Bowen to recover. I felt pain in my nerve till the brain and just after first session, the tissue started moving and restoring inside, the bone, everything and I did not felt pain anymore and restored very quickly.

With chronical deaseas it will take more sessions and with some sicknesses it can at least reduce the pain. What is more important, it can be combined very well with other healing therapies that does not include massage or stimulating the fascia.

I was so miserable here

Here is better

BOWEN - A MIRACLE THERAPY FOR TREATING LYME DISEASE testimony in the last link

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"Mom, I draw this for you!"

I've never believed that someone could love me so sinsierly, so purely, without doing anything so special, without been always good, or doing my best.. loving me just because I am, I am his mother. And no, everybody would say, if course, you are his mother, bla, bla. I've never used this as preveledge, I've never expected just because I am mother or I deserve it, all are equal and even my kid I try to treat with respect as a separate being, that does not owe me anything, with unconditional love. Actually for me it is a preveldge to have him in my life, by my side, it's a total honor.

You know how there is this thing all about loving yourself. There is nothing more beautiful than giving to another and receiving from another. You never get tired doing things for others, no one wants to listen what you did for yourself and how good you are and how you have self helped yourself and how self-sufficient you are. All is about to share ourselves to others and serve others and not because you will get something in return, it is just the natural flow of life.

This in the middle is his hand. And the other thing i feel it like he is hugging me.

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fractals

years ago I was editing photos, absolutely normal usual photos, the system bugged and gave me those fractals

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Still very old video from 2016

I miss sailing, the movement of the water when you are on a boat, that calm, seeing the city from another angle. Once on a race that year, when we had to fix the spinnaker, I was about to fell off the board, I thought this was my last moment.

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cynical

Fan made video 2018-19

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heart attack

fan made video from January 2017, I don't know how it happened the picture in the end to be so small, it would have been a spectacular view, made for relax

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self-talk

Usually I'm very reasonable person

But

When I'm angry

Hell is unleashed

But then I tell myself

Don't you remember what happened the last time

With your immune system

You have to love them even when they're stupid

Uff, okay

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Chill

Thank you, Lord, for today's day! 🙏

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Prayer 17/12/24

Thank you, Lord!

I pray that I search the truth humbly, I pray that I have power to distinguish what is right, what is false. I pray that you will bring me the right resources, and I will be open minded. Let me not seek my own understanding and wait for Your revelation.

I pray that what I find, what I read, will help building your kingdom and bring people closer together. Use the simple curiosity for your purposes. I pray that you will guide me how to share things so they help building your kingdom. I pray that I won't want more knowledge than I can take. I pray that You will guide us through the process. Let this bring us Your joy, Your peace and Your love.

Thank you!

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Closer and closer

Time to shop some books

"The Fir Bolg are said to be descendants of the Nemed people who settled Ireland before them. According to Lebor Gabala, the Nemed, like those who settled Ireland before him, have a lineage that can be traced back to the biblical Noah. Nemed was the son of Agnomanus of Scythia, the son of Piampus, the son of Serah, the son of Sru, the son of Esru, the son of Phryamant, son of Fatochta, son of Magog, son of Japheth, one of the sons of Noah."

1.Jean-Jaques Hatt, Celts and Gallo-Romans, Geneva, 1970;

2.A.Holder, Alt-keltischer Sprachschatz, Leipzig, 1897;

3.Hallstatt, 700 - 400 av.J.C. A laube de la metalurgie, catalogue, Liege, 1987;

4.S.James, Exploring the world of Celts, 1996;

5. Lebor Gabala Erenn (Irish Invasion Book)

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Go

This song is the most romantic expression I can do for someone 🙄

If I am listening to the Grimes again, I am in a very beautiful place in my soul.

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EU

Prophetic dream about EU (14/12/2024)

I am dreaming really big house, one floor. Front door, back door, a woman who was about to cheat on her husban. Husband tried the front door, locked, went back, locked. Woman was there in the bedroom with another man. There were curtains, and he could not see her. But the shadow was visible. Woman was without hair, she had crown on the head.

Then I dream I am in the house again, but this time empty, I am going to investigate what happened and there are no curtains, everything is visible. Almost everywhere glass walls. Two bathrooms, one with bathtub, another for many people, blue tiles.

Wow, I was naked and I found little tower, that could not cover my whole body. I put it infront, and I leaned against the wall trying to figure out how to escape from here and find cloths without anyone to see me. A man from the outside looked at me. Fuck off. I escaped. And went outside to a flea market. Junks everywhere, no normal clothing, my first thought was to find first panties, of course. I found them, but after I did not find normal cloths, everything was making me look like a whore.

This will become EU, totally naked, trying to borrow, to have something to put on, to cover herself, but there won't be anything, she will be left starving and will be made a mockery for all nations.

Europe, the Babylon whore, hahha

Now

Soon

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Tattoos?

Why I don't need tattoos. Because life is painting me every day and every day is different.and unique.

And one day we won't have these bodies, why bother with them.