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Nightshade week 2024, Day One, Whitespace Prompt: Hurt/Comfort

Can be read here

General CWs: Blood, Suicide, Self-harm, Death

Other CWs: Knives, Implied Eating Disorder

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Edit:

No there are not 31 prompts/chapters in total overall. Some of been combined that way I’m not using all of my brain juices just to fulfill two similar prompts in completely different ways.

Angstober Plans

I made a bunch of concepts and wrote a large chunk of drafts for every day, but I realized that I didn’t exactly want to go through each one and post each on every single day. It felt more like I was grasping for shitposts rather than quality work, so I had to change a few of my plans in turn for that.

So instead:

I’m going to release one work for every written prompt that falls under the same AU/timeline.

Ex. Day four, six, and seven are part of the same story, so they will all go under one work, with specific chapters dedicated/relating to the prompt.

They’re going to be posted when I feel satisfied with them, so don’t expect any specific day(s) for the works to drop.

I also want to go back and make them a bigger, more developed thing, so they may or may not be released later than expected in general.

I’m also just really bad at oneshots because I love story and lore. Sorry gang, I’ll be better

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Angstober Plans

I made a bunch of concepts and wrote a large chunk of drafts for every day, but I realized that I didn’t exactly want to go through each one and post each on every single day. It felt more like I was grasping for shitposts rather than quality work, so I had to change a few of my plans in turn for that.

So instead:

I’m going to release one work for every written prompt that falls under the same AU/timeline.

Ex. Day four, six, and seven are part of the same story, so they will all go under one work, with specific chapters dedicated/relating to the prompt.

They’re going to be posted when I feel satisfied with them, so don’t expect any specific day(s) for the works to drop.

I also want to go back and make them a bigger, more developed thing, so they may or may not be released later than expected in general.

I’m also just really bad at oneshots because I love story and lore. Sorry gang, I’ll be better

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Angstober Stuff + Prompt 16 Spoiler

I had to scrap a few Angstober things due to the repetitive arc they kept taking so uhm... Sorry gang! I'm doing the Nightshade thing though, and since those prompts are actually more geared toward Omori content, I'll just use most of my scrapped ideas for those prompts instead.

Anyways, I've got prompt 16 for angstober ready, so that's a definite. It's not really angst since it's just... Not working out to be that way? It's whatever though, read CWs if you're going to view what's under the cut though

CW: Omori Spoilers. Mari's... Tree scene. Sunny's POV, not Omori's.

"He remembers the feeling of ice coursing through his veins, the sudden feeling of the ocean surging through his bloodstream, swallowing him in a single rush of realization.

And he froze. He froze because the sharp scream deafened him to everything else, drew his eyes to the pale hand reaching up in desperation, only to be whisked away and caught in the frenzy of twisting limbs.

And suddenly the harsh thuds aren’t what stick with him. It’s the silence. The deafening, deafening sound of silence. Too quiet. But he remembers the other who had been there. Basil. Basil who had only grit his teeth, with his hands balled up into trembling fists, fear highlighting the irises of his eyes, and tears streaming down his cheeks.

But it’s the image of her body swaying in the breeze that breaks him every time. With the sun directly behind her, painting her stiff, lifeless frame. Leaves fell from the branches, dancing and twirling in the air, as if celebrating.

Celebrating what he had done.

And maybe that’s why this white space, this white hell, feels so much better than reality. It’s hard to picture the events. Hard to see it in the expanse of stimuli. Just white. Blinding white. It’s better than the metaphorical penitentiary his house has become over the years. Anything else is better than the creaky floors of his house. Of the rough, splintered wood, with the old stains along the bottom edges of the wall, tinted yellow with age, and the numerous holes from many nails and pins that had been stuck into the plaster.

He stares up. Up at the ceiling. Here, there are no walls. Here, there is only a lightbulb. There is a long black wire that trails up and up. But the ceiling is only an infinite expanse. Empty, empty space. It waits to have a purpose, to be used.

But the energy inhabiting his body seeps through him and bleeds into the floor at his back. Tasteless air drags through his lungs, too exhausted to try anything else. Thinking hurts. Thinking brings back the memories he doesn’t want.

He’s tired of the claws that sink into his stomach, of the burning guilt that resides eternally in the lower part of his chest, just beneath his lungs."

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!Omori AU Dump! pt. 3

Part Three of A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia's AU, part one can be read here, and part two can be read here.

This part details the co-dependency between Sunny and Basil. Mostly how it developed, and how it has affected one another in the long run.

(AU dump below cut)

Continuing from Mari's Commitment

Sunny ends up shutting himself in like he does in the main game. This is mostly because of how badly his emotional stability had just ended up crashing after the incident. Aubrey becomes less of her innocent self, further pressuring Sunny to keep inside. Kel reaching out and trying to be more forceful with everyone hanging out, also does not help.

Basil ends up breaking himself off from everyone from this fact, telling Kel that he's not being considerate for Sunny, and that he wouldn't understand the turmoil Sunny is going through. For Aubrey, Basil berates her for being selfish and self-centered.

Since Basil and Sunny had both seen Mari before anyone else had, they both rely on one another for support. This need for trust also stems from the fact that Basil had been aware of Sunny's situation, Sunny trusting Basil enough to even confide in him in the first place.

(There are more nitpicky things to strengthen this bond between them, but I won't be detailing any of that here.)

Basil tries to visit Sunny after the incident, and because Sunny hasn't exactly found escapism in sleep or really developed WS, GS, HS, or BS yet, Basil is able to reach out and worm his way in.

For the first few weeks Basil visits Sunny rather often, keeping him updated on school and bringing in his schoolwork/homework for him.

After a month and a half or so, there's a day Sunny doesn't answer, and Basil gets worried. He keeps coming back every day, eventually going earlier in the day to avoid Kel and Aubrey (and others) from questioning his actions.

After a week or two of this, Sunny does eventually answer. Basil is really worried and starts crying. Sunny expresses confusion, to which Basil explains that he thought Sunny might've committed to. Sunny explains that he hadn't heard the doorbell.

This is supposed to highlight the point that Sunny has now developed WS and HS and has slept through the doorbell every time.

Essentially this turns into Basil visiting about once a week, very early in the day, on Fridays. Basil eventually stops bringing schoolwork for Sunny, but he does tell/teach the fundamentals of what they had learned that week. (This is to help serve the factor that Sunny does eventually graduate high school, and moves onto college, where ABoRD takes place.)

Sunny and Basil don't really talk openly to one another, usually sticking to basic topics. It's become a routine for Basil to visit, and for Sunny's body to wake him up around 3 am on Friday mornings. Sometimes they play games together. Sometimes they watch shows. They both don't discuss Mari, or what Sunny does when Basil isn't there.

Basil has suffered throughout this whole time too, so when Sunny eventually gets out of the house, it makes him feel overprotective. Basil still isn't a huge fan of Aubrey and Kel, but he more or less "tolerates" their presence as long as Sunny is there.

This leads to the fact that Basil doesn't really talk to Kel or Aubrey throughout ABoRD, and is more or less just focused solely on Sunny. Sunny has taken the observer stance as well, kind of reciprocating Basil's toleration, but in a friendlier, more quiet way of doing so.

Basil and Sunny's co-dependency in ABoRD has been made to highlight the grittier details of their relationship. Basil and Sunny love each other, but it definitely is NOT a healthy relationship. Really the only thing holding Basil back from doing self-mutilation is Sunny. And the only thing keeping Sunny attentive and active is Basil.

Example for Sunny: Sunny never really focuses on himself throughout the entire time of his POV, and in some way it always rounds right back to Basil. (He's only got two somewhat major emotional scenes throughout the entirety of the fic.) If you pay attention to the fact that every paragraph could actually be from Basil's POV, you'd realize just how focused Sunny is on Basil.

Example for Basil: All the gross shit he says about himself, he doesn't use for Sunny. And if he does, he never really means it. It's always in a choked fit of rage where he's throwing fit. It's like a child having a tantrum. They'll say they hate something when they don't actually mean it. They just don't want the other to be right, or smug about it for that matter. This is a little harder to pick up, but the cues are there, I promise you.

(Part 3 of 5)

Part 4 - Whitespace, Grayspace, Headspace, and Blackspace

Part 5 - Official ending for the AU, and official explanation of ABoRD's significance to this AU.

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No it’s okay!! I literally love writing so much, you don’t understand

I’ll try to keep all the details accurate to what you give me as best I can. And if you want anything changed in the end to reflect your vision it’s okay! Edit: ALSO DAMN IT WRONG ACCOUNT I JUST REALIZED!! (Fml, so sorry) (But thanks!!!)

I need… I need that one AU’s details, I wanna try writing something for it (If that’s alr with you???)

It’d be the direct scene of what makes the AU the AU btw (Basil accidentally kills Sunny), just a short little thing, nothing much

Uhhmmm

So

Like it start off like normal in-game when the fight happens I guess

And in the neutral route Basil kills himself with the shears... And I thinkk it was in the stomach so maybe Sunny's wound is in the stomach too? Or something. And like it was all in the blink of an eye. Basil was mad at sunny. For a little moment. For ruining his life. He had to keep so many secrets and all the blame was taken on him for like scribbling the photos I think and Aubrey started bullying him and like in that one quote or whatever soon she wasn't the only one bullying him (meaning more people starting bullying Basil too)

So like basil was just tired of this. He wanted sunny to speak up. But obviously he didn't so. He went for him with shears. And uh yeah

IM TERRIBLE AT WRITING AND HAVE BAD IDEAS!! CHANGE LITERALLY ANYTHING U WANT IN THE WRITING LOL

And I probably wrote that badly

Uh sorry (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )

And good luck you got this!!! There's no deadline. Like ever and you can quit WHENEVER YOU WANT!!

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what if 7… Sunny to Basil a little after Mari’s death… or Basil to Sunny in good-ending continuation?? (hopes i did this right..?)

I’m assuming this is how the other feels about the Mari Accident then? Because yes. Yes, I’ll use that

I can feel the angst brewing already, thanks!

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Suggestions… Suggestions Pls

17 of 31 writing prompts for Angstober. I’m trying so hard to do all of them. I like… Really need some suggestions so that these don’t get repetitive or something (I actively feel like the soggy sponge you wring out after use)

These are the prompts that are left if you wanna req or give suggestions for in case there’s anyone interested

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ABoRD, Chp 4

Finally finished A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia! Chapter Four, Primrose, was the last installment. We get some Kel and Aubrey. And slight mentions of Vance and Kim. (and Kimbrey.)

I'll finish the AU dumps when I have time, but that's it for the fic, so yay! Honestly, I hope one day I can find motivation to work on a full-fledged AU fic to go further in depth... But I also feel like I don't have the skill yet to depict what I want, and how I want it just yet so... Definitely might be a while if that were ever to be a thing.

Uhm, anyways, that's pretty much it, so I'm gonna disappear for a while now.

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!Omori AU Dump! pt. 2

The second part of the AU dump for A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia. Part One can be found here, though it isn't required to read before this.

(AU dump below cut)

Mari never dedicates herself to the piano for perfectionist reasons, but rather parental association. Mari had struggled to find a proper hobby and had poor mental health. This mostly started when she got her knee injury, which in this AU happened indefinitely from Softball. She wasn't able to do a lot of the things she loved since it limited her physical ability. (Soccer, Basketball, Running, Long walks, prolonged usage of leg, etc etc.)

She became severely depressed because of that until she was taken to therapy, and eventually got into playing the piano after a numerous number of sessions. This fact made Sunny himself feel closed off, as Mari was always occupied with other people because of this, and began to feel cut off during this period of time.

Sunny eventually expressed an interest in playing with Mari, which led into him getting the violin for Christmas, as Sunny had confided in Basil, telling him that he felt forgotten and left out ever since Mari had injured her knee.

Mari and Sunny began to get closer because of this. Mari pushed Sunny during their rehearsals, leading Sunny into a constant state of resentment toward Mari, the piano, and the violin. Mari noticed this, and that feeling of worthlessness returned just as she began to "get better."

Mari eventually felt so much stress for the recital, with crushing feeling of self-hatred, and feelings of "I ruin everything," and "My own brother hates me because of what I did," and so on and on.

This leads to her commitment...

With Sunny and Basil eventually finding her later in the day. Sunny waiting for Mari to get ready, as he had been hanging out with Basil that day. He gets a little worried, and the two eventually set off to find her. Starting their unhealthy feedback loop of co-dependency.

(Part 2 of 5)

Part 3 - Sunny and Basil's growing dependency on one another over the next few years.

Part 4 - Whitespace, Grayspace, Headspace, and Blackspace

Part 5 - Official ending for the AU, official explanation of ABoRD's significance to this AU.

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!Omori AU Dump! pt. 1

This is an AU dump for A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia, made solely by me. I will also post all chapters here once I finish and re-edit them, that way those who don't use Ao3, or don't like Ao3, can read it.

This is basically going to be one of five(?) large AU dumps that I do for ABoRD. I don't exactly plan to continue the series, which is why I'm making this, just for anyone who might be curious of the lore.

(AU dump below cut)

This AU mainly derives from the fact that Mari committed suicide, and was not killed by Sunny, nor framed by Basil.

Sunny and Basil were the two who found Mari's hanged body the week of the recital, which still kind of links the two through her death. Sunny blames himself for Mari's commitment considering the fact that he had been the one not wanting to do the recital. Doesn't help that Sunny was the only one who knew that she had tried to commit a year before and had only been unsuccessful because Sunny had managed to stop her before she could. (She tried to drown herself in the lake, but Sunny had found her at the lake's edge.)

Sunny had created whitespace first to desensitize himself from the outside world. He hated the thought of Mari having actually committed. Hated the thought that he could've been the cause. He decided to turn to his own mind, where he could make up delusions and fantasies. He basically altered all of his recollections and memories of Mari, making her a "happier" person overall. Much more like canon Mari is in the game, minus the numerous Something references and underlying sense of "this isn't right" the game gives.

After making himself a blank-ish slate, he created Headspace. He realized that he himself was starting to feel overall worse and needed something to drive him away from the thoughts of self-harm and suicide. He feels guilty feeling those emotions since it always reminds him of Mari, and he knows it isn't exactly a healthy way to think.

Whitespace quickly turned into "Grayspace" an AU adaptation of his faltering mentality. He knows he is repressing everything, knows that it isn't right. It makes him feel guilty, which makes it difficult for him to disconnect from reality. He's very aware that he is mentally messed up, and that in itself creates a loop of relapsing.

Blackspace is where he goes when he has a particularly bad relapse, of which he's very aware of its presence. He knows Stranger and the Somethings, even talks to them. This differs from the in-game interactions where he like... never really interacts with them. Omori is also a Blackspace entity, mostly his voice of reasoning, and is not the vessel he uses for himself within Headspace. (Sunny is Sunny)

Basil visits during his years of isolation, creating a sort of co-dependency on the flower boy's side. He feels like he can really only confide in Sunny with most things considering the secrets they share between each other. (Sunny telling Basil that Mari had been suicidal for years. Basil confessing that he thinks about committing more often than not. Sunny telling Basil about headspace. Basil updating Sunny on everything that happens in Faraway. And more.)

At some point Sunny does re-emerge, about when he's 17 in this AU, and tries to catch up in his academics. He's able to finish all of middle/high school within two years since Basil had helped Sunny with his education during his Hikikomori phase. They both got back together with Aubrey and Kel during the time Sunny began to catch up in school, of which they all made a pact to wait for Sunny to finish school before they would all then go to college together.

During college, this dependency between Sunny and Basil grows into a twisted mangle of vines, where they eventually end up going to college. They room together for money reasons... and their festering dependency on one another.

The fic for this specifically takes place during the college phase, meant to show the bigger impact the trauma and dependency had on the two of them. Aka, how Basil's sickness had really only set in after Mari's death due to stress, anxiety, and the overall lack of self-care. (It's hinted at that Basil doesn't take his prescriptions.) And that Sunny's become a less emotional person who clings onto Basil for support. (You can see this in Sunny's POV, as he focuses very intently on Basil no matter what happens. He's less focused on his own emotions and words, and is much more intent on dissecting Basil's every movement.)

(Part 1 of 5)

Part 2 will focus on the details of Mari and Sunny's relationship, and why she had even committed in the first place.

Part 3 will focus on Sunny and Basil's growing dependency for the other over the year.

Part 4 will focus on Whitespace, Grayspace, Headspace, and Blackspace, both creation, design, and interaction-wise.

Part 5 will explain the college segment and A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia, will also include the official ending to this AU. (Hint: It's not a happy one.)

Thanks for reading through this, and showing some interest in this AU! (AU is called ABoRD)

My main blog is @faceyourphobia, where I ramble and actually interact with people. (This is my update/writing blog, so please reach out to my main blog if you want to get to know me!)

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ABoRD

I’m so sorry gang, I completely forgot that Kel and Aubrey have their grand appearance next chapter, not this one so… Disregard whatever I said about them for this chapter.

Chapter Three of ABoRD (Heart’s-Ease: You Occupy My Thoughts…) is finally here, despite it being so short it took a little longer to finish than what I would’ve liked. (I literally just finished chp2 like 4 days ago, what am I on about?)

I also already know that I’m going to look back at this chapter and find so many mistakes later on, I just know it. (I’m going to go feral because honestly, this happens every time.)

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The gals (Sunny and Basil) doing makeup on one another is honestly such a funny mental image for me.

Someone’s probably drawn that before, so here’s a taste of it in writing, I suppose. (Below cut.)

(This is just a spoiler for ABoRD’s chapter three, I can’t even lie.)

“But Sunny doesn’t care about any of those things. Focused more on the cold, sticky beauty sponge held carefully between his fingers, and the hot, pale flesh pressed against his others. Little caves in Basil’s skin make it much, much harder to apply the product thoroughly, where it then highlights the scars and natural dips of his throat, where the concealer clumps and ruins the smooth shine he had definitely spent far too long working on.”

They’re so queer for each other.

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Angstober dumps because I’m kind of motivated to keep doing this daily streak thing or whatever. They’re in screenshot form because there’s so many and I don’t really feel like copy and pasting so… it’s whatever.

Also it’s angst, so it’s kind of an outlet, not a thing to give you motivation to do the certain… written things.

They’re also all drafts, so none of this is the official stuff, and is subject to change. They’re all first drafts actually, which is really funny. Some have a lot more content than what’s shown too if you’re curious.

(Also if you want a prompt dedication or smth then reach out, because I’m about to have like 15+ of these.)

Screenshots under the cut, prompts for each screenshot just below.

Content Warnings: General warnings for angst. Self-harm. Overdosing. Death. Graphic violence depictions. Sunny, Basil, Stranger, and Omori appearances. Omori spoilers. Some alternative AU stuff.

(This is all writing! Please do not do any of the shit that happens in any of the given screenshots! Please love yourself, damn it.)

First Image: Promise, Prompt 9

Second Image: Wake Up, Prompt 11

Third Image: Blood, Prompt 4

Fourth Image: Self-Destruction, Prompt 3

Fifth Image: Medication, Prompt 6

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Chapter two, Peach Blossom for A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia has been finished and put up on Ao3 now!

I really meant to get this out on Thursday, so I’m kind of annoyed that this is the post that’s going up now. Can’t believe I spent my Saturday writing, smh (I didn’t even finish on Saturday help??? I’m actually so tired right now.)

(Extra)

Can’t lie I made so many changes to this chapter and am now currently peeved by those exact changes. It was for the better, but I liked my original draft much, much more. (HONESTLY, I might link the google doc of the old version here since the official chapter is honestly making me tweak right now) (But who knows?) (Hint: Not me)

(I’m also going to genuinely freak out if there are major edit errors in this chapter.)

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Damn I totally meant to get Chapter 2 out today, but I got hella distracted while trying to write it. Disappointed in myself, so I’ll just write some lore for A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia (ABoRD) instead.

(CW: Suicide mentions, Self-harm mentions, ABoRD spoilers, Omori spoilers, Alcohol abuse mentions, it’s a sunflower fic)

See below the cut for some info!

Mari committed suicide in this fic, aka Sunny and Basil did not kill her and did not frame her death as a suicide

Basil did take Sunny’s eye in this AU, even doing it in a similar fashion as he had in the game (But it was a lot more messier, and was definitely not for the same reason)

Basil has a poor immune system, hence the whole start of the fic: Him being sick, and in bed… He is sick for other reasons too though, some of which are definitely more mental than physical

Sunny isn’t exactly fine in this fic either. I’ve tried to lean more into his selectively mute side, with a more purposeful reason behind it. That being for the reason of emotional suppression. Something he’s gotten fairly good at.

Basil has pierced ears

Sunny has an accurately described drinking problem (At least it’s based off my personal experiences so… Mostly accurate???)

The flower mentions in the fic have their own double-sided meaning, but they’re not like essential to know or look up. I chose them for a reason though.

The flowers on Basil’s windowsill aren’t under-watered, they’re actually over-watered

Sunny has self-harm scars on his forearms, hence the sentence: “Every little dark line that trailed up the highway.” It’s a reference for the saying “Across the road for attention, down the road for results.” Just a small twist on the words though, of course. (Please don’t do this)

Contrary to Sunny’s, Basil’s mentioned scars are actually from their fight.

Anyways, some of this is mentioned, some of this isn’t, and won’t ever be. I have been thinking about turning it into a full-on series since I don’t do artwork or anything of the sort. I also feel like straight rambling like this will get hella boring real fast.

Decisions, Decisions… Maybe I will, maybe I won’t.

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Maybe I should just try to post every day honestly, it helps me stay motivated on my projects and helps get me in the writing mood for them

I mean, who knows, maybe there is someone out there who does actually like to read these lil’ posts.

Chapter two of A Bouquet of Rotten Diphylleia

It’s kind of short because I don’t want to spoil the rest of the chapter, but I promise the whole chapter isn’t Basil just throwing up and hating everything with his sickly ass. This is more Basil Angst, with the same CWs of blood, vomiting, and general angst. This also 2/3 edited, I have yet to reread and correct it, so spare me some slack if you could (Heart empji here)

He hisses out another sigh as he tries to push the guilt down, shrugging a shoulder out of its sleeve before gripping the countertop once more. He leans against the cool marble structure carefully, enjoying the cold chill of the material pressing into his stomach. He lets the shirt drop onto the floor carelessly. It’s already ruined anyway. With his blood.

He pulls himself into a hug, resting his elbows against the counter as he lets his upper body sink down into itself. Drops of water slide down his skin, the burn of his body sliding into idle aches as he forces himself to relax. His breathing is unsteady and clogged with sinus, lungs rasping under the weight of infection.

He feels nauseous under the weight of his hunger. Nauseous under the weight of his guilt. He feels his finger nails dig into the skin of his upper arms, certain to leave imprints, if not little scabs, up the length of his flesh.

He grits his teeth, and swallows back the thick saliva that tries to flood his mouth. His throat tightens painfully as his head begins to feel light. His stomach tightens. 

Tightens until he can feel the gag sitting at the back of his tongue.