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so i have an idea but also a conundrum.

so i don’t write for real people. i haven’t for a long time. but ive had an ongoing daydream ab dating a musician (while also being a musician). now if i were to write it as an insert with an unnamed love interest so it can be whatever celebrity you want it to be, would the masses be interested in it? i’ve made up a whole backstory, exes, collabs, tours, interviews. it’s very in-depth in my head, more of a DR than a daydream i guess but still

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so i have an idea but also a conundrum.

so i don’t write for real people. i haven’t for a long time. but ive had an ongoing daydream ab dating a musician (while also being a musician). now if i were to write it as an insert with an unnamed love interest so it can be whatever celebrity you want it to be, would the masses be interested in it? i’ve made up a whole backstory, exes, collabs, tours, interviews. it’s very in-depth in my head, more of a DR than a daydream i guess but still

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i will continue writing and posting soon, getting over a light head cold and working a lot lately so i haven’t been able to really focus

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I feel like "I hope you die first" by ashe is so ex coded in any romantic or platonic relationship ever (I am projecting)

it won’t let me answer this other one but yes, both of these are my girl. i’ve decided i’m gonna write some julivia scenes in a big doc and make a little compendium post with all the scenes later, like a short story collection

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imsochillandcool by alessi rose is so ex if she was a teenage girl during s2 with matt and elektra (honestly its still pretty her coded)

college!mattlektrivia vibes

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Mind The Gap and Heartbreak Hotel by Erin Lecount are both SO livia coded

“my loves a rehab for boys who couldn’t save themselves”

livia unintentionally lives by “i can fix him” for her love life bc she’s never seen what an actual healthy relationship looks like

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i just know june and aimee absolutely team up to make fun of frank and livvy

oh a hundred percent. june reads frank to filth immediately and amy’s laughing the whole time. liv tries to mediate but then gets ganged up on. it gets to a point where she has to put june in timeout

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I'm reading a Logan fic rn and they have y/n bonding with Laura and all i can think of is julivia 😞

this is so accurate it hurts. but also how laura would scream at logan in spanish, that’s how june and liv communicated for a while. just screaming matches in russian, matt on the side like 😳

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i’m reading the last book for the dark artifice trilogy by cassandra clare (ik, more shadowhunters. no ones surprised.) ((actually some of yall might be. not everyone knows of my very first OC allison carstairs on wattpad)) and cassandra will pay for my therapy for paralleling the fallen twins between earth and thule

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spent all day yesterday on this and idk if it fully makes sense // also there’s one specific part towards the middle that i really hope translated right // i unfortunately should be writing and not editing but 🫣 // @fallingfavourites

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I’M HAVING THOUGHTS… (don’t ask where it came from bc i do not know) burlesque dancer reader x billy russo, him seeing her dance for the first time?

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@fallingfavourites 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

the joy of ocs is to keep posting and talking about them even if only you and two other people give a shit

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i need more time with them honestly 🙃🙃 mattlivia has the yearning and the slow burn, but something ab billivia (it’s just me trying to fix him, ik it is) (i also rb from wrong acc a second ago)

lowk billivia lives in my mind more than mattlivia (also is that even their ship name 😭😭)

shit dude, me too lately. obvi mattlivia (unless i think of something else, yes it is) is the endgame bc billy kicked the bucket, but if that man could’ve just made the right choice 😠😠😫😫

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this song is so mattlivia.

dawg we’ve been talking ab billivia so much, mattlivia needs their spotlight again

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@fallingfavourites i wrote a quick scene for this

She had been released from the hospital the day before, and she’d been sitting on that ledge ever since she woke up that morning. Her legs dangled freely over the edge while she watched the cars driving by.

Briefly, she considered what the fall would be like. It wouldn’t be quick, but it’d be easy. Gravity would do the hard work. The landing would be painful but at that point, she was convinced anything would be less painful than the blistering betrayal in the center of her chest.

The cavernous feeling in her soul was gone. The rumbling explosions of the Midland collapse had faded. The furnace beneath her skin was snuffed out. She recognized that when she woke from her coma. The near death served as a reset for her soul in a way.

In its wake, however, was something far worse.

It was living within her, breathing when she did. Pumping in her blood. Speaking when she did. It was her and there was no way to rid herself of it.

“Go away, June.” She said flatly. It was the first she’s spoken that day and she hadn’t realized how dry her mouth was.

The girl didn’t listen. She felt her uncertainty without her speaking. It practically slammed into her back, an unsteady force that she pushed through.

“He was shitty anyway.” June tried to comfort her. “Who cares?”

June never liked Billy. That wasn’t hard for anyone to notice. He didn’t care much for her either, but he knew Livia did so he kept his response to mild irritation and sarcastic comments. Calling her Livia’s ankle biter seemed to be the worst she knew of. She found it endearing at the time, a reluctant fondness for Livia’s newest and youngest addition to her inner circle.

“You don’t get it.” Livia said instead.

And how could June? Much like Livia when she first escaped, the girl didn’t have much life experience. Where Livia lucked out in Matt and Foggy welcoming her, June fell short. She had only had her own life for a short while and she was still an angry little thing.

Livia didn’t hold it against her though. She knew part of her was simply feeding on those broken emotions, the shattered heart that was held together by sheer spite at that point. Livia hadn’t fully mended after Midland Circle. She knew that and she made sure Billy knew it too throughout their relationship. What she didn’t tell Billy - She still wasn’t sure if she was glad she didn’t or if telling him would’ve made a difference - was that he was helping to mend her in a way she never thought possible.

“I don’t.” June admitted. “But I get you… Sort of.”

Livia could feel her little shadow moving closer, more determined with each step, but she didn’t have the energy to chase her away.

“The thing is, I know he cared about me.” Livia sniffled. That damn was so close to breaking, to unleashing a flood of tears from everything. Losing Matt, losing Billy, chasing away Karen and Foggy, losing Elektra. The tears burned at her eyes and she couldn’t find the damn switch to shut it all down. To trap it deep in the corner of her mind, lock it in a damned box and throw it somewhere she didn’t have to acknowledge it.

But this pain was too constant, too demanding. It wouldn’t be pushed aside this time.

“And I…” Livia sucked in a shaky breath. She refused to break in front of June. “I cared about him. I always told him I didn’t but I did. I don’t get why he didn’t pick me or Frank.”

Livia heard the light thud as June dropped beside her. She felt June’s head fall against her shoulder and she reached for the younger girl’s hand. June gave it a gentle squeeze in response.

“I’d pick you.” June said softly. “If it helps any…”

That did it. The dam broke with those gentle words and Livia felt the tears down her cheeks. She gave a sad chuckle and let her cheek fall on top of the girl’s head.

“Thanks, Junebug.” Livia managed. “I’d pick you, too.”

“You actually liked this guy, huh?” June asked. There was no undertone or accusation in her words. Just curiosity, looking for some way to comfort her adversary turned mentor. “What’s that like, to care for someone else like that?”

“It’s terrifying.” Livia confessed. “It’s vulnerable to let someone else see the worst parts of you… But it’s so nice to have someone see that and still want you around, to want to be the one to pull you out of your own misery. We had the right steps, just different dances.”

“I thought he was kind of a dick but I saw how he looked at you, Livvy.”

Livia’s heart twisted in her chest, thinking of how Matt started that nickname. How June heard it in an old voicemail Livia was replaying and decided to adopt it as well.

“How did it end?” June gently shook Livia’s hand.

“My beloved ghosts and me.” Livia sighed.

Everything would be haunted from now on, not just by Matt but by Billy. By the potential of what Billy could’ve been.

“I can’t pretend I understand what happened.” Livia shook her head. “I have no idea, really. If he had just picked me or Frank, both of us, we could’ve done it the right way. Frank and I, we could’ve protected him.”

“Maybe he didn’t deserve to be protected.”

“Maybe.” Livia shrugged. “That doesn’t mean I didn’t want to.”

Protecting people and failing. That was what Livia did. She failed to keep people alive, to keep them safe and happy. She had the sobering thought of failing June and her grip tightened on the girl’s small hand.

If there was one person left in New York that she wouldn’t let herself fail, it’d be June. Suddenly the thought of dropping off the high rise to the street below wasn’t so appealing.

“You won’t.” June said firmly.

Livia didn’t need to ask to know what she meant.

“That’s why I’d pick you. Not Fisk, not Natasha, not Maya. You.”

“Thanks, Junebug.” Livia repeated.

for some reason this gives me junelivia vibes idk

i could see this as the background for a scene like this:

L: *sitting on the rooftop after billy* go away, june

J: *hesitantly comes closer* he was shitty anyway, liv. who cares?

L: you don’t get it

J: i don’t… but i get you, sort of.

L: the thing is i know he cared about me, and i… i cared about him. i always told him i didn’t but i did. i don’t get why he didn’t pick me or frank

J: *sits beside liv and leans on her shoulder* i’d pick you

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for some reason this gives me junelivia vibes idk

i could see this as the background for a scene like this:

L: *sitting on the rooftop after billy* go away, june

J: *hesitantly comes closer* he was shitty anyway, liv. who cares?

L: you don’t get it

J: i don’t… but i get you, sort of.

L: the thing is i know he cared about me, and i… i cared about him. i always told him i didn’t but i did. i don’t get why he didn’t pick me or frank

J: *sits beside liv and leans on her shoulder* i’d pick you

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June and livia are so mirrolball (june) + this is me trying (livia) duo coded and tbh they could also be switched

the fact that our girls are coded in every sad song isn’t fair, they are also the vibes like good graces by sabrina carpenter 😠😭