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they left a present...

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THEY MOVED OUT

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goddamn i cannot wait to move in with my partner and away from this hellspawn

oh my god i just realized i can be petty and vaguepost on here and nobody but the porn bots will ever see it

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🎸Today's Miku figure is:🎸

Atelier Hiro Garage Kit Punk ver.

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okay wait i have more to say but its a little more off topic so new post. (this one was going to be a two parter as well but part 2 felt too much like basic Drama™®©)

genuinely,,, sincerely,,, unflinchingly,,, how,,, the,,, fuck,,, do you,,, have,,, any friends? im not trying to be an asshole. like i get the appeal on some level, youre a likeable chap, but you cant be on time to shit to save your life. and not in a "fuck i forgot to get ready im heading over when event is supposed to start" kind of late because i get that, i know people who are consistently like that and you just kinda learn to plan around that. what im talking about is a full "hey i slept through when we were supposed to get lunch together after you get off work" kind of late. not even late. full cancel. its probably a 2 out of 3 chance that youll cancel. and yet its always the same excuse. "damn i slept through it.” congrats, fix ur sleep schedule or stay up i do not care just something. i know you have other chronic illnesses and sleep disorders (though not the narcolepsy kind that other friends deal with and dont let get in the way of hanging out) and yet those never seem to come up directly. you can say "hey i havent been able to sleep for a while, im going to have to cancel tonight" BEFORE you leave people high and dry. its a thing that respectful people do. i get that you really want to do stuff sometimes and shit pops up last minute, but good fucking lord let people know. surprise, they will be less angry at you. i know multiple people who will purposely double book themselves if theyre making plans with you because they just assume youre going to cancel. MULTIPLE PEOPLE. im sure that there are others. and yet again this problem comes down to one thing: communication. let people know things, and they wont,,, be mad.

oh my god i just realized i can be petty and vaguepost on here and nobody but the porn bots will ever see it

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another great innovation from fuckwit mcgee: walk over to a mutual friend's apartment (who lives alone and in a decently sized place), and walk them back to our apartment...

why the fuck would you do that. genuinely. in what fucking world does that make sense. just stay at friend's place. its not that hard. you wont be inconveniencing the people YOU live with. at worst friend might piss off their neighbors for a bit but like,,, if yall are being that loud, it would piss off our neighbors too. its maybe a 5 minute walk between our two apartments and friend is a 6+ foot tall white dude whos kinda built so like,,, safety is not the fucking issue. why walk just to walk back? you arent going anywhere between that would be a meeting point. is it just to try to get us other roommates in on hanging out? just let us know if thats the case! also you know that i really fucking hate you right now! why would bringing someone over fix it! maybe if you apologize for fucking up everything so much it would start to patch things up! but no! thats too much to ask!

"but eve", you might be saying, "why dont you just forgive and forget?"

ive done that for everything else. literally everything else i forgive and forget. I apologized to THEM for wording things too rough when i confronted them about our dryer breaking. they didnt apologize for NOT TELLING US. forgive and forget. I clean up THEIR weeks old dishes that are a literal biohazard with half an inch of mold on them, they respond with "lmao". forgive and forget. no. I'm fucking done. when i ask them firmly but politely to actually do the fucking dishes i get just a "? okay" verbatim. i will forgive and forget when they learn to take care of themselves. i havent even mentioned the multiple plants that OTHER PEOPLE have gotten them that they straight up didn't water or put in sunlight. AND THEY WANT TO GET A CAT???? IVE THROWN AWAY 3 DIFFERENT EXTREMELY DEAD PLANTS THAT YOU SAID YOUD TAKE CARE OF AND YOU WANT TO GET A SENTIENT FUCKING ANIMAL ARE YOU INSANE? NOT TO GO ALL GRIFTING CANADIAN ON YOU BUT LEARN TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF FIRST JESUS FUCK.

okay this has gotten off topic in short still a horrible roommate

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roommate: *speedruns mold growth by taking hour long showers every day in which they turn the bathroom into a makeshift sauna and then leaving the bathroom door closed with the fan off to provide absolutely 0 ventilation*

also roommate: woah wtf why is there mold in the bathroom, could you clean that?

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help what the fuck is the luffy tab and why is it there ive never read one piece nor do i intend to

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Happy new Hozier album day to all sapphics and tree nymphs out there

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man baldurs gate 3 really gets the dnd experience of going into an encounter thinking "ive got this itll be easy" then it going to shit like 2 seconds later but somehow coming out alive

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i'm bisexual and tired. rb if you're bisexual and tired.

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okay this was originally part of my roommate rant post but imma do it separately because its more of a critique of a mindset:

I do not understand rapid completionist collecting culture

i know what youre saying, "eve, what the fuck are you talking about that makes no sense" let me explain

theres probably a proper term for it but I've noticed a worrying trend specifically in online spaces recently of rapid completionist collecting culture. basically a subculture of wider collectors which focuses on the attainment of a "complete collection" as fast as possible and often with a disregard for the actual content of what they are collecting. i have seen posts about this in comic collecting forums. ive seen similar kinds of posts on video game forums. my experience with it has been through my roommate though, who i will kind of vaguepost about (nothing new for this blog tho).

My roommate, who we'll call Adam (not his real name) for the sake of brevity, has a real strange relationship with these cultures. I first noticed it soon after i moved in with him, when he decided to watch every publicly available tv show and movie that marvel has made,,, ever,,, including every ,,, single ,,, saturday ,,, morning ,,, cartoon. this small feat took months. all catalogued in a nice tidy spreadsheet noting the runtime of them, the episode count of the shows, which storylines were adapted (iirc), and his overall rating (again iirc). this was not a months long project because oh he only watched an episode or two a day, no not at all. i would leave for work with some x-men cartoon playing in our living room and come home to fantastic 4 playing instead. every day. hours upon hours. it was not a simple, "oh one day ill watch them all eventually". it was a dedicated marathon of back to back to back marvel. it honestly completely burnt me out on all things superhero just being in proximity to it.

so what is there to take from this? "let people like stuff!" "its just a show why are you so mad?" well its hard to put my finger on it to be honest without sounding pretentious or hyperbolic. ill try my best...

in just a second...

first lets get pretentious!

i personally find this style of engaging with content to be very shallow. ive always kind of had a bone to pick with background watching, having a show on while doing some other task, but this is different. while background watching is annoying imo, most of the time people are doing so with shows that are kind of built for that (think sitcoms or light dramas) where you can kind of tune in and tune out on a whim and the point is more on the other activity that the show is the background stimulation for (i.e. homework, sewing, cooking, hanging with friends, etc.). in short, when background watching, the point is not to really watch the show. so that should be the polar opposite to what my friend was doing, right? nope! all these stats and all this time, just to usually be playing destiny or scrolling through DiscussingFilms' twitter posts for most of it. this is a recipe for not really getting anything from these shows.

secondly, the binge model is kind of horrible for story engagement or thematic understanding. there are very few stories in long form media which adapt well to binging. it has been discussed before, so im not going to re-litigate those arguments here, but suffice to say that binging is bad actually. pair that with these shows mostly being background fodder and it just strikes me as profoundly pointless.

Maybe I just have different wants from my media than others, but i usually like my media to have a point beyond just "it looks cool" or "it belongs to an ip i like". spin offs dont really excite me unless theres a reason for it to exist beyond just "hey look at this cool side character! guess what? theyre a main character now!" yes a lot of good stuff has come from "spin off" series (look at puss in boots: the last wish as just one example), but their mere existence will never excite me. i prefer to really watch movies or tv shows that im interested in: dim the lights, grab some popcorn, and set aside time to really engross myself in every detail. its not for every show and it is a little time consuming, but the depth in every piece of art that you learn to see is so worth it. but maybe thats not everyone priority.

okay now lets get hyperbolic!

im not going to sugar coat this and itll sound weird, but i see a lot of similarities between this kind of hyper obsessive yet shallow fixation and some very very disgusting subcultures online. and i dont mean that because i dont understand them. i mean that because i am sadly referencing many of the boys and young men who fall down the alt-right pipeline through porn fixation. if you do not know what i am talking about, youll have to trust me on this because i do not think that anyone should look these things up on their own because good god every trigger warning possible applies if you look at some of these peoples accounts. they make my stomach churn and i am pretty resilient to things. basically for those who dont know, what im referring to is a subculture of predominantly young men who become obsessed with porn and porn stars to the point that it is all they can think about. if this is giving hints of incels, it should because the venn diagram is actually just a smaller circle within a larger circle. their obsession and incel nature leads them to the expected political and social beliefs: misogyny, transphobia, grooming, forced marriage, etc. truly some of the worst humans.

now is this a leap? admittedly yes. but i dont think the comparison isnt without merit. the initial actions are the same and both lead to heavy levels of social isolation. sure you have your in group that understands every reference you make, but beyond them, you become stunted. that social isolation is the most dangerous fuel for a man to have.

overall thesis

i could write at length about this topic (and who knows i might one day) but ill keep it brief for now. in short, this trend of hyper obsessive binging that ive seen is extremely confusing to me at best and potentially dangerous at worst. i wish i had a way to break people's habits with this kind of thing but sadly i do not know how.

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the rare multiple posts in a night! three simple words is all that i ask: refill the brita. if its empty, from for example emptying it, then refill it. its not hard. i do it all the time. in fact, im pretty sure i do it most of the time.

usually i complain about roomie 1 but roomie 2 you are going to be getting your very own paragraph here (very fun! [also ordering is based on how annoying yall are]). if you are wondering why i never want to watch anime with you, it is because you are weird about anime. simple as that. your collector mindset really hampers your viewing experience. not to get super snobby but like having eva playing while your grinding league is not really how you should consume media. also just sitting around watching an anime i have 0 interest in while cracking jokes until 4 am is not really my idea of a good time

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having a disability does not absolve you of your impact on other people's lives, specifically when it comes to direct impacts on another's ability to do basic tasks. put another way, if your mental illnesses require you to belt out Olivia Rodrigo at 3 in the morning so loud that I cannot sleep because of it, then you need to figure out a way to lower your volume, dampen the sound in your room, and/or find a new coping method like idk singing at a different time of day (and i do mean day,,, yknow,,, when people arent trying to sleep). while yes this is a vaguepost, this is also (from my perspective) common knowledge and basic human decency

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choir kid is an infinitely worse insult than theater kid idk how the fuck people let theater kid be the cringe one in pop culture

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Certain words can change your brain forever and ever so you do have to be very careful about it.