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I’m sorry but it’s fucking delusional to act as if prioritizing the actual material consequences of an election over making an abstract ideological “point” comes from a position of passive, moderate liberalism. I literally don’t have a guarantee to basic bodily autonomy as an American woman anymore because people didn’t take the threat of Trump presidency seriously enough in 2016. I don’t think democrats are undeserving of criticism either but if you don’t think there’s a significant difference between the parties at this point I have to assume you are not actually informed about the issues and institutions you’re discussing

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that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

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truly Nothing Will Ever Be The Same but then there are postChristmas preNew Years days with my childhood best friends bumming around between the bookstore the movie theater the back canal trails where we have smoked weed since we were sixteen and well

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love characters who are like "this is how the world works. this is how it has to be (because if i'm wrong i have to face what i've done // if i'm wrong i have to face whats been done to me) "

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One thing I really love about seedy anime websites and YouTube mp3 converters is like. They actually do what they say they’re doing. But they WILL try to trick you into downloading a virus. Like it’s almost just a greeting at this point. I try to extract a song from a YouTube video and it says free VPN installer tonight perhaps? Free VPN installer tonight queen? And I say YouTube-mp3 converter you sly dog, you know what I’m here for. Show me the goods. And YouTube-mp3 converter says ahhh you got me, no getting one over on you. Thought it was worth a try tho. Here you go king x

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By popular demand, I've restocked all 16 of my The West Wing retro episode prints in my shop. Find them in 12" x 16" and 18" x 24" and thanks so much for all the kind works about the artwork in my previous post.

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fyodor dostoevsky (the brothers karamazov), charles bukowski (a vote for the gentle light)

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* walking round the supermarket muttering to myself* loneliness is still time spent with the world loneliness is still time spent with the world loneliness is still time spent with the world loneliness is still

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listen i was all in on succession fandom but it’s so so insane and funny how many people would look at a white man who works for fox news and type out the words ‘he’s so mitski coded’

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bad movies are sooo fun because i try to rate them and it's like welll i had a lot of fun even though it was pretty bad so 3.5 stars and then i watch a highbrow movie and it's like well it was good but not that much fun so 3.5 stars also :)

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so one thing about me is that for the better part of a decade i've been keeping extremely detailed google doc lists of most of the fanfics I've ever enjoyed in most of the fandoms I've read fanfic in... thinking I should Give Back to the Community and post some abridged fic recs lists, so let me know if there's anything in particular you seek! the biggest files I need to sift through include: mcu, west wing, grey's, harry potter, hunger games, and succession

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THE BEAR Season 2

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girls (gender neutral) when sarah snook says:

“there had to be something that was more of a schism in her life and shiv as a person’s reaction to trauma or to conflict is to double down and control and tighten, there’s a familial sense of addiction, there’s a familial mirroring, in the way that she’s similar to logan she’s probably very similar to kendall, and i think there probably has been a time when she has been out of control and then really doubled down to knit that back up and tom probably was a part of that”

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“it’s that last moment before the final commitment where, this is what she’s been driving for, she’s been driving for the stable boyfriend, the husband, the house, the career, all of those things, she’s a box ticker, down the list, and this is that last moment of going well fuck, i’m signing onto a life of commitment that I have no blueprint for in my own life and the only blueprint i do have is infidelity, and i’ve been doing that, whether consciously on purpose or not, and in some ways it’s a miraculous communion there, she’s being honest, she could not tell him, she could not say anything at all”

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“and part of that i think is testing the boundary of how much punishment will you take, how much can i be vulnerable in front of you not in service of bringing us closer together”

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“she’s sort of like, this is me and you have to accept it, and part of that is somebody who’s not very confident in who they are, if you’re comfortable being vulnerable, you’re flexible, so saying, this is me and this is who i am, it’s antithetical to vulnerability”

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do you guys know about an unauthorised fan treatise.

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forget about touching grass, i need to touch THE SEA I NEED TO GO INTO THE WATER I NEED TO DIVE INTO THE SEA!!!!!!!!!!!!

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its literally just me and my online circle of emotionally intense girls against the world all tagging our hyperfixation essays with variations of ’i feel literally sick to my stomach. absolutely insane. going to bite something. might genuinely physically explode’ and then liking each others posts