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We made it #2

I would like to thank each and every one of you for reading my story and for following me. You have no idea how grateful I am.

4ever blessed to have a pasion of writing

Please, stay safe everyone

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Ps. The next chapter (most likely) will be a finale

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“Wildflower”

Chapter 12: Narcissus

New beginnings

Corpse hadn’t told you but he was extremely scared. The main reason being obviously you. He was afraid your relationship would change drastically after the confession. He didn’t want to be a couple like those in movies, perfect and all sweet. It scared him as hell that you would want to go on dates with him all the time, that you would like to hold hands in public, and kiss him. Showing affection in public petrified him, that was not about you, he was not ashamed of you, he didn’t want you to misunderstand. Corpse was afraid you would get bored very soon.

But surprisingly nothing like that happened.

The two of you were still acting like best buddies, watching anime together, playing games, you wittenesing his streams, eating and cooking together, cussing at eachother from time to time, all that while kissing and cuddling a lot. Everything happening at his place, where he felt the most comfortable, sometimes in your apartment or his car, when he decided to pick you up from college. 

Everything was beyond perfect.

The both of you were sitting on his couch playing a video game which name you had already forgotten. All you needed to know was it being a car race. You were laughing and simply enjoying yourselves when suddenly the game lagged and then stopped completely.

“The internet connection here is so shitty, I can’t work like that anymore. Fvck this.” His voice was rather annoyed as he complied to you about this problem a lot of times before. It was hard for him to make lives and he got stressed when he was disconnected. He felt like he had disappointed his viewers in those times.

Corpse threw his gaming pad on the couch and sighed loudly. You couldn’t believe how fast his mood dropped, he was laughing with you only seconds before, and now he looked like he was ready to scream.

You snuggled closer to him, trying to calm him down a little. You didn’t want it to spoil your evening, you hoped it would be nice.

“Would you mind moving out with me?” His question made you chuckle lightly. You took it like a joke on his side, as you never really discussed something like this.

“Any time.” You answered, still giggling. You would be lying to yourself if you said that this idea didn’t seem appealing to you. The truth was you were already spending most time at his place. 

“I’ve been thinking about it a lot, lately.” That was only then you realized he was being serious. Your laughter got stuck in your throat as you looked up at Corpse, locking eyes with him.

“Are you serious?”

“Dead serious.”

You were left speechless, to be honest you wanted to move out with him like crazy, you just didn’t know if it was not too early. You were an official couple for a few weeks but you knew each other for over a year now. Wasn’t it going too fast? You felt that it was just right but at the same time you were afraid he might feel a little pressured. But on the other hand it was his suggestion…

“I would love to.” Your voice was soft, kinda uncertain but the moment you saw his blinding smile, you knew that was the best decision you have ever made.

“Let’s look for a nice place. Like, right now. I can’t wait, babygirl.”

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can i request for a corpse x fan!reader??

I am very sorry, love, but I'm not writing requests. At least not now. I'll let you know if I'd ever want to do it

The same goes to the anon question in my inbox

Take care!

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“Wildflower”

Chapter 11: Spiraea

Victory

You were silent yet your heart was banging inside your chest so loudly you felt that was more than enough. You kept blinking slowly, uncertain of your surroundings. You couldn’t believe that he just confessed his love to you. You always felt like you would have to wait for him forever, and you were willing to do it, really. Came out you wouldn’t have to and you were so amazed, so proud. He was not that open with his feelings and you understood that very well but this… This was incredible.

You gasped lightly, suddenly catching up to everything that had happened. Your lips parted slightly and you closed them right after, not sure what to say. You noticed the insignificant changes in his expression and you knew you fvcked up. Maybe not all of it, but you surely did and you got assured when his hand left your face. Or it tried to however you quickly held his wrist, keeping it in place.

“I not only love you, Corpse.” Your voice was gentle and as he heard you speak, his body relaxed a little, you could tell it because of his hand still locked in your fist. “I truly adore you. I’m in love with you. For months now.”

You smiled right at him but it seemed he was too shocked to respond. He probably was not expecting this to happen, he thought you only started to take liking in him. You told him that the other day. And here he was, thinking he was making a fool out of himself.

“I’m so glad you said it first. I always chickened out the last minute.” 

“Oh fvck you. I was stressing like crazy.” His brows were furrowed as he said it and he looked at you with serious expression until it broke out to a huge smile. You started laughing loudly and you were even more happy being able to hear his hearty chuckle. That’s precisely why you loved him, he could say something like that during some special moment and you didn’t feel as if he had ruined it. It got even better because you knew that’s exactly how he is. His personality is beautiful the way it is and you wouldn’t trade it for anything.

The next second everything changed yet another time. You felt like in some emotional rollercoaster, you were crying, then laughing and now…

As the two of you were busy with laughing you didn’t realize you got closer. As the laughter naturally died out your breath got stuck in your throat. You were that close you could feel his breath on your cheek. You looked him straight in the eyes and then closed your eyes. He took it as the sight to go. 

You could’ve sworn you were on cloud nine when you felt his lips at yours. They were a little chapped and dry but perfect nonetheless. They were incredibly warm, so warm you could feel the heat spreading through your whole body. Your hands moved to stay at his shoulders as you kept him close, not letting him move away by keeping his shirt inside your fists.

“Don’t you worry, I’m not going anywhere.” His lips moved slightly, still touching yours in the process and you were not surprised he knew what was going on inside your head. “And neither do you.”

Then there were you, kissing and cuddling like crazy all day long. 

And when you were lying in bed with him being the big spoon for you, allowing you to feel his steady heartbeat you started wondering what did you do to deserve this beautiful person. 

You were ready to give him everything but that was not enough to keep all of his demos away. 

Yet you were set on giving it a shot.

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Chapter 12

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just wanted to say that i really loved wildflower!!!

I’m really glad you did! I can say the next chapter will be out today:)

Be safe

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hi! i just wanted to ask, how long is wildflower? cuz i wanna wait til the last chapter and im not sure if ch 10 is the last one😅

Chapter 10 is not tha last one. There is a couple more to go, i'm not sure how much

When the story is finished, I'll let y'all know.

Take care of yourself!

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anyways, it was worth checking your blog every single day because the new update is sooooo cute!! the last sentence made my heart melt ☺️

I'm really glad you liked it!!! I tried hard to make it good for you.

I love every kind of feedback your giving me, please keep doing it ❤❤❤ and if something is wrong, don't hesitate to tell me.

Thank you for reading!

Take care of yourself

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i’m pretty sure tumblr is shadowbanning you? because i never see your posts on the corpse tag, i always have to come to your blog to see if there’s any updates :(

Is there someting I can do about it? I'm kinda new here so.. :(

Anyway, thank you so much for letting me know!!! Have a lovely weekend 😍

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hello! sorry to bother, but i was curious if chapter ten of wildflower will be the last chapter? i just read all of it and i absolutely loved it :)

Hi love! You are surely not bothering me, don’t worry! Chapter ten is not the last one, but i believe there’s not many left. There’s up to 5 more Take care of yourself <3

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“Wildflower”

Chapter 10: Tulipa

Declaration of love

You weren’t sure how you ended up in this position, but you were crying in Corpse's embrace, already inside his apartment. You didn’t register the moment the both of you made it inside, but you were glad he took care of it, as you didn’t want to be seen in that state. You were slightly shaking but at the same time clutching your hands at his t-shirt. You made sure that he wouldn’t disappear any second, you were too afraid to let that happen.

“It’s okay.” You heard him whisper while he kept patting your hair. He tried to calm you down, yet that was not an easy task. You felt like you had no control over your body, you kept telling yourself to calm down, to stop crying, but then you started hiccuping and it got so much worse than in the beginning. You felt so tired, so helpless you couldn’t properly breathe. It was too hard for you.

You weren’t sure if you lost consciousness or fell asleep but your slumber was so peaceful, so good. That was the best sleep you got in what felt like ages. You felt safe in his embrace, he was your refuge.

When you finally woke up, he was not by your side but you found yourself in his bed. The space next to you still felt warm so you concluded he had to walk away only seconds ago. Your source of warmth had disappeared so it was only natural for you to wake up. You felt a little embarrassed because you fell asleep at his place and were a burden yet again. You didn’t want to be a problem, the two of you hadn’t a chance to even talk.

After a while you heard light steps coming closer to the bedroom you were located in. Only your head was sticking out from underneath the blanket as you looked at the direction where Corpse appeared seconds later. He seemed surprised that you were no longer sleeping and he smiled apologetic, coming closer with two mugs in his hands. You sat down, making a space for him to sit down as well and you were silent as ever. You were lacking words and feeling as if you made a stupid little girl out of yourself.

“So-”

“I-” You both started at the same time and you couldn’t help but smile. He put the mugs on the bedside table and took place right next to you. You felt so much better with him by your side that you couldn’t believe it yourself. 

“I’m sorry.” He said, finally making eye contact. You were not able to avert your gaze and that’s why you felt your cheeks becoming warmer and probably more pinkish in shade. Even if he noticed, he didn’t comment on that fact. “I was… I was so lost in my work… I’m- I’m working on something new right now and… And I didn’t realize. I didn’t realize so much time had passed, you know? And when I finally did, I thought it was too late. I thought it was your choice, that you didn’t want to keep in touch anymore. I didn’t even think about reaching out to you. I’m so terribly sorry about that. I realized my mistake the moment I saw you. I’m so sorry, I really am. I missed you so, s-so fvcking much. You can’t imagine.”

His voice broke a few times during his speech and he was more like throwing his words out of his mouth. Like he wanted to get rid of them or maybe say them before he changed his mind. You were not sure. It all felt so surreal, yet so true. You felt the sincerity dripping down every single word he mumbled.

You were so deep in thoughts, so lost that you missed the moment he scooped closer to you. You noticed in the exact moment you felt his cold hand at your a little bit too warm cheek. You blinked fast, not eternally sure what’s happening.

“I shouldn’t have let you go just like that after… what you said.” This time he chose his words carefully, slowly deciding what was the best thing to say. What he really wanted to say. “I was not ready. But now, now I believe I am.”

You kept num, your face void of any emotions, as you couldn’t keep up with him. Your brain just couldn’t proceed with what he said. You didn’t understand and wanted an explanation. He gave you just that.

“I think I love you.”

His voice was hoarse, his eyes blinking really slowly as you looked at them. His words ringing in your head as if they had been banging at some kind of door, pleading for you to let them in.

His hand at your face suddenly became so hot, almost burning you with its flame. You felt your throat becoming dry, unabling you from uttering a single word. You hoped he could see it all in your eyes.

“I can’t remember anything before you.”

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happy funky monkey friday everyone <3

Chapter 11

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Hi, I was wondering if you could add me to the Wildflower tag list.

If you're not done with it of course. I don't want to be a bother....

You are never a bother, love! Don't worry.

I'll make sure to add you in the next chapter.

Have a lovely day 💞

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YOU ARE MY NUMBER ONE IN MY TOP3 LIST OF WRITERS AND I'VE GOT AN IMPORTANT QUESTION WHY DIDN'T YOU ADD ME TO THE TAGLIST, OK BYE

WHY ARE WE SCREAMING?!

I didn't know you wanted to be added to the tag list bae. I'll add you right away, don't worry!!!

Have a wonderful day my babe

💞💓

P.S. still waiting for the Sykkuno fic, ok bye

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I just wanted to share that I love your story, and am constantly rereading it. With that being said don’t feel forced to rush out new chapters. Do whatever makes you feel the best. Ok. Sorry. Bye.

Please, don't be sorry, every message is just showing me how much you enjoy my story and it motivates me a lot!!! I love reading your messages 💓💓

Take good care of yourself sweetheart

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Hey, could you please add me to the taglist for wildflower? Thanky you <3

Sure thing honey! Hope you'll have a good day 💓

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YOU BETTER UPDATE FASTER

I’m trying to write us much as I can, but it’s almost impossible for me to update daily as I’m (unfortunately) not a robot :( and I have my own classes and other stuff. btw the new chapter should be out around Thursday notherless have a wonderful day

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ahhhhhhhh the new chapter absolutely murdered my heart!! its so good, cant wait for the next one 🥰🥰

I’m sooo sorry for your heart. I hope the fluff in the next few chapters will make it better! Stay hydrated, love!

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“Wildflower”

Chapter 9: Oenothera biennis

Instability

After that day things were slightly different. You didn’t want it to be that way as it was not on your intention to destroy the blooming relationship between you and Corpse. You felt really bad about it, as you came back to that day, you realized how stupid you were. How silly of you to think that was okay to confess… He probably was as confused as you were and you couldn’t blame him.

The truth is you didn’t even try to contact him. After you left his apartment that day you felt so embarrassed in yourself, so remorseful that you couldn’t bring yourself to even write a simple message. And it came out he didn’t either.

That’s how the entire week had passed, and then three more days. You weren’t sleeping much on nights, were not going out with friends. The only thing you did was watching videos on YouTube. Not really random things, that was Corpse’s content and every time you heard his voice you felt your heart break a litte. You were missing him like crazy, here you had only his voice, a little bit of his amazing personality and nothing above that. That was never enough.

You knew that he was not okay with your confession, if things were different he would contact you, right?

Then you realized you’re not the only one. You’re not even someone special. When you got to know how famous he really was you noticed that he had a really large fandom. There were a lot of other, prettier, girls out there. They all claimed to love him, why would he throw another glance your way? You were nothing special. And when you saw that he noticed some of them, even sharing their videos on his Instagram Story, you knew that you had no chance. Not a slightest bit of it.

You were heartbroken and with every passing day more and more depressed. You felt it eating you alive and were not exactly sure how to fight it. You didn’t even know if you really should fight with it. Was there a point to it?

And still, there was no trace of Corpse. It was as if he had completely forgotten about you.

Every day of your life looked the same now, they all became blurry, mixing with each other. You barely slept, you were waking up with the last sound of your alarm, dressing up in a hurry and leaving your place with an empty stomach. Then you tried to focus on your classes, sometimes it worked, the other time it didn’t. Back at home you ate something light and went to bed. Not to sleep, obviously. And the pattern repeated itself. You felt like you were sleepwalking, all of your motivation left the exact moment the heartache appeared. You were like a zombie and sometimes, only sometimes you felt perified with what was happening with you. But in the next moment the feeling disappeared, replaced with emptiness yet again.

Finally came the day you had enough of it. You simply couldn’t handle anymore of this misery. You had literally nothing at your mind when you found yourself at his doorstep. It was an awful Wednesday,it was rainy and cloudy, the world was in the shades of gray. Nothing new to you, as you saw it that way for the previous days. You almost didn’t see the difference if it was not for the splattering rain.

You felt pathetic, at least. Your attire messy, the circles under your eyes really dark, your stomach grumbling from time to time, your heart aching terribly and jumping in joy at the same time. It knew you were going to see him. You felt more alive than the other days, finally feeling something aside from the emptiness.

The door opened after a few minutes, he standed on the other side and scanned you with his bright eyes. Your heart skipped a beat when he made a fast step towards you and embraced you in his strong arms. You felt so good, so safe next to him. All of your worries and anxieties had been completely forgotten as you held him close, inhaling his calming scent. You didn’t even realize you missed it as well. 

“I thought you left me.” You heard his voice break and it made you so weak. You wanted to punch yourself straight on the face. You deserved it. He kept inhaling so deep and fast you felt how his chest was moving against you. It scared you a little. “Please, don’t do it again.”

You found yourself silently nodding, not being able to utter a word. The previous days were a horror to you, but as you saw, it was even worse for him. You felt his lips right next to your ear as you heard him whisper. 

“I can’t breathe without you”

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Chapter 10

My tumblr hates me today. It wouldn’t let me update no matter what. Glad it’s finally working (or is it not? lat me know whether you are able to see it)

please, take care of yourself and have a wonderfull day

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