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Pat-hetically obsessed with Patton Sanders
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My death sentence:
I remember the first time I was aware of my death sentence
I was 13, young
7th grade, just trying to play
When I saw her walk by
I closed my eyes
I felt my stomach flutter as she said hi
I remember not knowing I was going to die
I remember when my death sentence was set in absolute stone
I was 15, a freshman,
Just got to high school
As she held my hand
And told me she liked me
And I kissed her
I wished for her
And that came true
And for sure I knew
Yet I didn't know my fate was already setting the date
I remember when my death sentence was changed from hanging to being burned alive
I was 17, senior year a year away
Just waiting for the next day
Bored in class, but felt the glass of my gender breaking away
The 5th time just that day
But this time it shattered
As I watched days on t, and stories title "becoming me" and seeing who I wished to be
And the glass shattered and what I felt mattered
And I finally started to break away to really really become me
I didn't see the knives sharpen at my new found joy…
Because I was only 13, 15, 17
I was only 7
When I heard of a queer man's death
And I didn't understand
So I went on my way
And I was only 18 when I felt so truly afraid
I held my chest as my heart rocketed a frayed
And it felt like my first crush if it caused physical pain
And I remember sobbing the whole way
Because on my walk home someone asked if I was gay
And when I said yes, they called me names
And for a moment I truly thought that it was my last day
And I remember being 21, my classes all done
Walking to my home with pep in my step
Till I learned my friend got shot
And I remember my head feeling hot
And my vision disappearing
And my life flashing before my eyes like it did on that walk
And i cried
I screamed
And i tried to feel something besides numb
As I knew this would happen to one of us sooner than later
And sometimes despite my pride
I just wanted to hide
Because my death sentence was set when I was born
And I will never be able to escape
(TWs: dying, hate crimes, knives, fear, gun violence, please tell me if I forgot any)
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I (don't) remember:
I don't remember the first breath I took
When I was newly born
When nothing knew it could hurt
When no one felt they needed to speak on my worth
I don't remember when I took my first step
When everyone smiled and laughed
As I tripped over my tiny stubs
No one got upset
I don't remember the first time I cried
But I know that everyone tried to cheer me up
Arms holding me tight with love
I don't remember then
I remember to first time I heard of pride
When something filled in my chest
When I realized I was actually alive
I remember learning that I'm not wrong
I remember telling my family with a smile on my face
Embracing who I truly am for the first time in my life
I remember the look
The annoyance the sadness the disgust
I remember learning I was a problem
And the only way to solve it was to lock it up
Apologize and change
I don't remember acceptance
But I wonder if I had it when I was a baby
Because I can't remember the first breath I took at birth
But I remember the first breath I took as me
I remember finally being able to breath
I don't remember my first step
But I remember all the steps it took to become me
To make the people around me at least tolerate me
I don't remember the first time I cried
But I remember every time I cried from sadness and joy
From the pain of not feeling loved
To the joy of knowing that I can love
I don't remember who I was born to be
But I remember learning that she wasn't me
That I don't have to be she
That there is nothing wrong with me
I don't remember…
When I was young enough to be carefree
But I remember the first time I ever truly felt free…
(Decided to post some of my poetry because why not, please notify me if I should add any trigger warnings)
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