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I genuinely and wholeheartedly believe that Double Life is the best exploration and deconstruction of the concept of a soulmate i have ever seen

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*sobs* /pos

So like my brain did the thing where it thinks too much about something and makes it absolutely gut punching so if I have to think about it so do you lol.

To the few or many people that hc life! c!Skizz as an avian that was born missing his wings, angel, fallen angel ,or an angel/avian that lost his wings in an accident or something similar do you guys think the reason Skizz aways took to eating things that made him float as soon as it was figured out after every reroll in episode 2 of wildlife was because he missed or simply finally got the chance to experience the one feeling he KNEW he was missing? Like every other life game before no one was able to fly not even the normal winged hybrids like Grian cause their wings were either tied down or clipped and Skizz didn't have to think about his own wings or lack of because no one could fly. He wasn't the only one experiencing the clawing feeling, the need, the want, to fly anymore when looking up at the never ending sky.

Then wildlife episode 2 happens and for the first time since he was born or since he lost his ability to fly or since he games started he can float! He can feel the air all around him. Feel the phantom wings/clipped wings on his back stretch and god damn it he just doesn't want to go back down. He goes higher and higher until he almost feels like he's in heaven. He takes in the view and laughs. He didn't know just how much he missed this, craved this, until he's finally where he belongs. And he floats. Floats with joy because it might not be flying but it's the next best thing in this weird death game they call home and this might be his only chance to experience what he's been missing.

Then he's falling. Falling again. Falling back to earth where gravity chains him down. Funny how it was the earth that first allowed him to feel like air again. To feel normal. Like nothing changed at all. Like heaven had opened its doors to him again. It was the earth that made him feel the absolute coolest he's ever felt in years as he managed to dirt clutch before hitting the very dirt he placed down. Funny then isn't it that it would be the earth that would take his first life in that episode as Tango laughs with delight as his own fades away and changes to anger.

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Update: It's almost three hours long

I have a Io playlist that is over an hour long just to fuel my brainrot

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I was explaining stuff about the life series winners to my roommate and I started talking about how Pearl developes an emotional attachment to a different pet every season and they're always called things like Tilly or Milly or Froggy and they went "maybe it's the reincarnation of the same pet every time" and I can't stop thinking about it now

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yo can someone remind tomorrow to do the fanart I've been meaning to do, thaaaaanks/j

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When I saw sylph sitting down watching all the birds fly away it broke my soul. Beck how could you do this to me

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When Io got out of the crypt Io said this line

“I’m full, so unuse to the feeling I genuinely forgot what it was”

So we can probably say that the council didn’t feed Io at all or at least not enough. But hold on Io turned into a bat to get away from Percy and you need blood to do that. This is my headcannon to explain this. Io would feed of the rats and other small animals to relieve some of the hunger they felt, and knowing that Io hates being a vampire they probably had a breakdown afterwards because they really were a vampire now. They couldn’t deny that they could only eat the rats now.

Io also probably tried doing some things they were taught vampires could do like not needing to breathe and stuff like that, and possibly hurting themselves in the process because the council probably lied about that too.

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if you're worried about the new ToS for AO3, please remember that you are primed to distrust because of the way politics are intertwining with the internet right now. remember to look into definitions yourself, fact check, and look through the logic lense before jumping to conclusions.

AFAIK right now, the update clarifies terms that have already existed. it's not changing as much as it is clarity-rewriting. i'm still looking through the legalese (law student, i'm learning as I go) and I will be checking in again later, but don't despair.

however, don't get lax. download fics, connect with the authors, build out your communities. comment and bookmark and save, and please don't stop writing.

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i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

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Commenting fanfiction is the easiest thing in the world once you start doing it. 

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Goncharov (1973) dir. Martin Scorsese

“The greatest mafia movie (n)ever made.”

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I need an interaction between Volt and Io where Volt is trying to be intimidating but Io just does not care and no threats work because Io acts borderline suicidal.

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When I was like 13 maybe 14 I accidentally hit one of the little girls (like 9-10) I was helping train in netball and she got a huge bruise above her eye while I got a cut somehow and was bleeding quite a bit. The rest of the team then helped me wash off the blood (like little nurses, so cute) cuz I was pretty dazed. My mum didn’t notice me until I was sitting against the fence light headed. I then had to go to a day hospital to gets my head glued back together. I’ve still got the scar but I tell people I fought a dropbear because that’s funny.

@sparks-chaotic-cove @skitlesthedolphin

it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore

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Okay I can't not talk about this anymore– I've got a headcanon/canon-compliant au/interpretation of the Life Series events (as I'm sure many of us do) and the most recent season is working so well I just have to talk about it somewhere

sticking it under a cut, bc I just know im gonna go off and make a long post :P

(I haven't been in this fandom very long, so this is probably not very original, but I don't care! I'm having fun! anyway–)

The Life Series is a time loop. And Grian is the one who's keeping it going.

It was just meant to be a fun game, but then the Watchers found him. They warped Grian's game into their own twisted tournament, with the intent to take the winner as their champion.

They're about to take Grian again, when he reaches out with the power he'd kept locked away, and he resets the world.

Every time the bloodshed stops and the Watchers are about to reap their champion, Grian wrenches them back into the void and forces a world reset.

Except... with every reset, the world cracks a bit more. First, it was the boogey man. Is it the Watchers trying to push their influence on the players? Or is it something else? Grian isn't sure.

It goes until Secret Life. And then Grian is absolutely sure, because the world has shifted enough for the Watchers to slip their claws into it. They've gotten impatient. They want their champion. Grian tries, but there is only so much he can do with the weight of the tasks on his back. His own power is beginning to slip through too– he even manages to bring Jimmy back for a time, even if it's only a ghostly projection.

And then it's over. Grian is dead, drifting in the void.

(I have a scene in my head where he speaks with Mumbo while waiting for the end of the session. he basically tells Mumbo that he's been doing this and he doesn't know how to stop it, because he has to save them all)

And then Scar wins. And it nearly breaks him. Grian hovers over him, prepared to grab him and reset the world, when the Watchers yank Grian back into the void. It's a harsh, eldritch conflict in the void, and it's all Grian can do to hold onto his sanity, and throw his friends into the next loop.

But in it all, he momentarily forgets Scar. Still in the previous loop. He goes back to get him, but it's been an entire year for Scar. He's weary, and barely registers that Grian is real.

This new loop is the most broken yet. But Grian is still holding it all together as best he can. If it weren't for him, every weird aspect of this world would descend on his friends all at once and they would instantly die and Grian would lose track and then he would lose them–

So he holds things back, trying to keep things straight and monitor how his friends are doing. But he's starting to slip.

Mumbo knows what he's doing, and it doesn't sit right with him.

Scar is a victor. And his lonely year has given him plenty of time to regain lost memories.

Ren doesn't quite understand everything, but he knows Grian knows way more than he should.

Grian's not going to be able to hold it all together for much longer.

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When Percy said ‘the sun won’t hurt you here’ to Io and lost my mind. Like first of all that is so angsty with how Io is always saying how the sun turned its back on them and also the fact of how sun coded Percy is. Like you could hear that as Percy saying that he won’t hurt Io which really helps my friends crackship to maybe actually happen which is crazy.