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you know how people say they want to get inside someone's pants? i want to get inside mike flanagan's head.

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if bo from shinchan is not a geologist now, i'm going to throw hands

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And diamonds, they don't turn to dust or fade away

So I will keep you, day and night

Here until the day I die

I'll be living one life for the two of us

I will be the best of me

Always keep you next to me

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the year is 2050. the new season of only murders in the building is out. no one lives in arconia anymore because everyone has been murdered. charles, mabel and oliver have now become ghost busters because arconia is haunted.

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if I have to burn the midnight oil once more, i will burn myself

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The things Liam carried

Liam carried a pleading to not be misunderstood, to be perceived in the right way, the way he intended. He carried the crushing responsibility of the band acting like a REAL band, being on time and groomed and generally on talking points and practicing hard, and the harm of parentification among those who should have been his peers.

He carried a deep, terrified drive not to be told he is too young or not quite good enough ever, ever again. That tide was out and that could not be allowed to come again. But the sea returned, every time, relentlessly and without regard.

He carried a well of mischief and joy it took "his boys" 1D to tap into.

He carried PowerAde bottles to have a moment of pure bliss and joyful chaos on stage with his best friend, Louis. And he carried that memory home and framed it in a photo and looked at it every day in his bedroom and smile and talk about his best friend, even if Louis didn't call as much anymore. Liam was still waiting.

He carried a tendency to punish himself when he was in the darkness instead of finding a light. Not just drinking, but surrounding himself with the worst people - managers who beat him, labels who sent him on crap venues for tour, labels who pulled his album that he'd cried over to make, dudebro promoters and podcasters who wanted to spend him like cheap currency....and Simon Cowell. And a fame whore "ex" who, no matter which version you believe, still comes out as a person who lied for social media clout, heard him say he would likely die and laughed at him, who faked her own engagement buying an engagement ring for her social media, giving absolute record level of cringe, and used Liam's name to sell her stalled books.

Did he know know who he deserved? Did he not know how to get that? Did he just believe, "Well, they can't be THAT awful"?

He was a beam of sunshine overlaying a secret Batman, ripping out his own heart to feed fires. His light illuminates all around him, he was always feeding fans and caring, always sharing his art and therapy and sobriety and precious stories from 1D he could have hoarded and made a book about but instead gave them away with love to create even more love.

If this were the TV show Lucifer, he'd obviously be Lucifer, an angel of light, a favorite son, who is cast out of heaven by what he thought loved him, and trying to find a new way of being after losing so much, who has to go on a journey to find his purpose.

He was a man who almost had it figured out - from black and white - getting to film that TV show where he was helping put together and mentor boy bands was going to be so healing for him. The confidence he never got to pick up!

I believe 1D were starting to reunite - Harry's incessant touristy behavior then disappearing like he said he would, Louis' saying he needs time off to "let life in," Niall abruptly disappearing saying "you won't see me anymore for a long time." It could have given back Liam his friends, his network, his brothers, if only he could have survived long enough.

There is always something better around the corner. I would give anything for Liam James Payne to have the chance, just once more, to believe that.

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just realised that lucifer is somewhat like the child of supernatural and b99

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nothing will give you trauma like that one college society or club.

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today, while coming back from college, my rickshawala abruptly stopped the vehicle. he called out to his kids with the biggest smile on his face and then turned to me and said "aapko paise nahi dene hai toh chalega, par mujhe apne bacchon ke corner tak drop karna hai, chalega?". (it's okay if you don't pay me, but I want to drop my kids till the corner if that's okay) I watched him smile and ask his kids about their day, which was heartwarming. once he dropped me at my place, I paid him and told him his kids were adorable. today was such a cute day. restored my faith in humanity honestly.

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sheldon cooper would hate gen-z. i just know it.

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to all the book, wattpad and c.ai girlies, I've been working on something and I can't wait to show you guys. tumblr won't let me add a link, so you can text me directly. i promise you won't be disappointed. love you guys.

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all too well (10 minute version) is somehow my ek haseena thi, ek deewana tha. please don't ask me why.

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varley deserves the fucking world and she knows it

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my mom will probably have to pay to sell me to one direction. i don't have blue orbs and when I put my hair in a messy bun, i look like a blobfish.

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bitches listen, colin bought the same pastry penelope ate cause he wanted to know what her mouth tasted like in that moment: THIS IS CANON.

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most ar(o)dently???

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okay, but can we talk about colin's sense of humor:

him to pen when finds out about a guy crying over their dead horse: "we shall gallop along"

and when he and penelope have a raw and intense moment going on and she's expressing her fears and insecurities and how it'd kill her if she died without ever being kissed and he just says "but you'd already be dead"

LMFAO. violet must have dropped him as a kid.