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“So I was in the fifth grade, right, and our teacher told us that we were to write a report. I love this concept. I’m not sure what that’s supposed to prepare you for in life. Writing a report. It’s not…it’s not…a business report. It’s writing about something you feel passionate about that you that want to share with other people. I’m not sure that the rest of the world after elementary school encourages you to actually do that. But…but so I mean…I remember going, ‘Aww man, I’m going to write about dragons.’ Cause I was a young man who loved dragons. And unicorns. That’s right. Magical and mystical things. But I had a lot of experiences as I went along through late childhood and adolescence that sort of…hardened my skin a little…and put a crust around my heart. So when a girlfriend of mine, one of the sweetest people I’d ever known, gave me a coffee cup with a unicorn on it as like the first present that we had exchanged, my eighteen year old self looked at it like, ‘I used to like that stuff as a kid.’ And immediately, the voice of my younger, truer self convicted me and said, “Have you betrayed the noble unicorn? Who sought only the best for you? Who wronged you in no way? Whose innocence you have turned your back on?’ But I had not entirely, and I drank from that coffee cup until it broke. This is called ‘Unicorn Tolerance.’”

— John Darnielle

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https://instagram.com/p/Bb1BTmmHA77/

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me every night when I sit in the dark stabbing my charger into my phone until I find the socket: don’t think of that post,don’t think of that post—

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will the heterosexuals receive your blessings of Fruit as well?

You Get Nothing

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seeing your girl undress infront of you is some other level of high

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“Medusa” Denim Jacket // BlondiegirlShop

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serene || serenity

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I’m going to share why I think tumblr has made the topic of sexuality difficult in some ways for young people:

When I was like 15-16, I used to identify as a demigirl which is feeling mostly like a woman at times but also feeling like a nonwoman at other times. I thought it fit very nicely because how I had always interacted with my own gender. But upon closer introspection, I wasn’t really that. Because I am and always have been a fat Black Woman, throughout my life my womanhood/girlhood was denied to me. I wasn’t allowed to be feminine and I had been so far removed from my own womanhood that I thought it was an appropriate label.

I’m not saying there’s anything wrong with anyone indentifyibg as demigirl/demiboy (its “valid” so to speak) but that kind of microlabels can be harmful because it blindly applies validity to every corner of an unhealthy/personally harmful conception of gender or sexuality. If I hadn’t dig deeper, I would have thought I was something I’m not because the label allowed me to hide from interrogating something that was actually really important for me to learn about myself.

I think mogai hell stops people from developing healthy understandings of themselves because everything is “valid” and nothing can be questioned. This obviously doesn’t mean no good cancome from them. Sure people can feel less alone, get on the right path to finding out their real identity (maybe that word is great for them and always will be maybe it was a stepping stone to something better maybe it will change as the grow) but some of the created sexualities are pointedly bad things that pathologizes shit that should be challenged and worked through, probably with a therapist.

Not everything is good and I think because it’s like 13-15 yo trying to find “what’s wrong with them” and wanting to feel at home, the message that whatever feelings/desires they have is healthy and okay and an identity, it’s very tempting to cling to these new creations. And having a bunch of “kweer elders” tell them that it’s valid isn’t good at all. Teenagers need to be very careful as they transverse this website because this shit can fuck you up and as someone that grew up with unsupervised internet access, it really really can cause some trauma if you aren’t careful.

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https://instagram.com/p/BVVRC_IAUGY/

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kirk, running onto the bridge: spock have you read this centuries ol;d webcomic called Homes Stucks spock: not to show emotion butjesus christ

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4/21/17

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Roses et la Vue.

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